Twisted Angel
Author's notes: And here's chapter five, Twisted Angel, another song by LeAnn Rimes. Ryou wanders in his own mind while Bakura returns to Domino to find his hikari in the hospital.
Disclaimer: Own them? Yeah, I wish…
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Ryou's POV
My mind floats in an endless sea of shadows. Endless whirling cascades of blacks and grays. My body feels heavy, dead, immobile. They've sedated me. Why they even bothered I don't know.
*Ever since I was a little child
I was told to do no wrong
The angel in my mama's precious eyes
Could be a devil with a heart of stone*
Why do they even want to save me? Why do they care? I have no will to live, no wish, no hope. My only reason for life is gone, gone like the summer wind. My dark angel, tell me this is a dream, that I'll wake to find you here with me, no matter how cruel your heart is.
*I couldn't help myself,
just had to go my way
Now I've got hell to pay*
I chuckle in my mind. What a laugh. This is no dream, this pain of mine. My pain is the only reality left to me. Hope and happiness don't exist for people like me.
Why did Malik have to rescue me? They told me of course, when I woke up. They had stitched my wrists and bound them, telling me I was lucky to be alive. Lucky, ha. They noticed immediately when I stopped eating. It wasn't long before they had hooked me to iv's.
*Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying wild and free
Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying to heaven on a broken wing*
There was nothing I could do to convince them to leave me, to let me die. I tried, they can't deny that. The scars crossing my veins from their needles will take years to fade. Finally they decided to drug me. After all there is no other way to save one who wishes to die. I want to die. I pray for it, hope for it, wish for it. I have no hope for his return, and without him, I have no will to live.
And so I lie here, trapped in my own mind by the artificial drugs injected into my still body. I wait and watch and dream, always dream, for the time I will be released.
*Back when I was daddy's little girl
He brought me up on the Rolling Stones
Thrown into the flame, thrown into the world
That's when I learned how to rock n'roll*
Bakura's POV
When Malik led me into the hospital I had expected to see my angel asleep in his quiet, gentle way. Just breathing slowly in and out with his beautiful silvery hair fluttering in the breeze from his breath. I was not prepared for the sight that greeted me.
*Look's like everything
has gone my way
But I've still got hell to raise*
My hikari lay still upon the white sheeted bed, pale and thin as ever. His wrists were wrapped in bandages and restrained while a thin clear tube ran from his arm to a bag of clear fluid hanging above the bed.
I was at a loss for words. Malik quickly spoke to the nurse, asking her what had happened. He had starved himself, they said. Deliberately refusing to eat, and then ripping the iv's from his own skin.
*Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying wild and free
Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying to heaven on a broken wing*
I couldn't believe it. My thoughts were a whirl of emotions. Why? Why Ryou? Why my gentle, innocent hikari? What had I done? What had I done to destroy my light's will to live? Was this the result of my fear? Malik rested a hand on my shoulder, a cold dull light in his eyes.
*My mama taught me right
But the devil's up my sleeve
It's made me kind of crazy
But it's all right with me*
"Bakura," he whispered. "Ryou will be awake in an hour. Stay with him. I have to get home." I nodded to him solemnly, still unable to speak. He smiled sadly and left, glancing back only once as he walked through the door.
*Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying wild and free
Yeah I'm a twisted angel
Flying to heaven on a broken wing*
Now I sit here in a stiff chair beside my hikari's bed. It has been near an hour, near the time they said he would wake. My eyes flicker to the clock on the wall. Can I do this? I watch my angel's face, carefully taking in every soft, beautiful detail. I will do this. I won't let him die. It's time my angel's suffering was put to an end. And before my eyes, my angel's eyelids begin to flicker.
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Author's notes: And there's chapter 5 ^_^ I know the song doesn't fit as well as the others… but I was kinda running out of options -.-; I hope you enjoyed! One more to go!
-Cat