A/N: Another one down. I considered a lot of what you guys said, and
wrote this chapter accordingly. Don't expect me to do this every time, but
I thought my reviewers deserved some loving!
Katie: I was thinking the same thing about Remus not being allowed to take Harry in, but it's been done so many times before, I wanted to try something different, although it will play a small part in the story line, so it's not completely ignored. My plan was to put in some kind of deep secret of Remus's being the cause of him not wanting to take in Harry, but I couldn't think of anything. I kind of just wanted to get it over with.And I think you're kind of reading my mind about the punching bag thing.I have a friend who boxes and I was thinking about throwing some of that in there, but seeing as he's paralyzed at the moment, it'll be a while before that happens, IF it happens. Thanks for the constructive review though (
Kaze: Why is Harry so angry? Well, I've decided that Harry's been through way too much over his years. In book four I was like "Thank God, this kid actually does have some feelings" after all he had been through, he only cried ONCE after the third task. I decided that although JKR will probably never show it, he's probably holding a lot inside, and now after getting out of the Dursley situation I want him to kind of burst, eventually he's going to calm down a bit, but I mean he's paralyzed now so it's a logical time for him to get his feelings out. And remember, he's not just angry, he's also hurt. And we will be having an appearance of Ron and Hermione, but they're not going to be huge in this story for a while. To be completely honest I don't like writing about them.
Kayla: Sirius is my favorite too, but Remus is a close second.
Kimmy: I'm glad you like my story, I try to leave cliffs at the end to keep people wanting more, and so they don't forget what's already happened. That happens to me a lot when I read fics, I want it to be easy to get back into.
Japangirlcmw: THANKS!!! I think you're my first fan ever, and I appreciate it very much! I wish you could tell my English teacher what you told me! My mom is the only other person who seems to really like the way I string my words together, I guess I kind of insert my bits of my weird humor in what I write, and I like clichés, which is definitely not okay in essays (. She's never read any of my HP stuff, but she pretty much says the same as you about the other things I write.
Padfoot: Yep, Harry's paralyzed, permanent or not will come up soon! I actually got that idea because my uncles father fell when he was hunting and was paralyzed, kind of a sad idea, but it worked right? Anyway, I may just let his progress determine some of the progress of this story.
FairyTale: I'm a die hard Sirius rescues Harry fan too, but I must say that you're stories are far better than mine! I actually got the idea from yours, and a few others. The first Sirius rescues Harry story I read was the Last Marauder, I highly recommend it to all! Anyway, you'll see where I was going with the ministry thing, and I really think that if he had tried hard enough the ministry would have allowed him to take Harry in. And about the Dumbledore thing, I didn't explain it well at all, but I wanted Harry to have a lot more respect for Dumbledore than he does for Remus, Dumbledore being the headmaster and all, and I think that Dumbledore acted (and explained) better than Remus. And about the grammar, no matter how much I re-read my story, I don't seem to catch half of the mistakes! Thanks for the long review btw, I love those!
AmyPotter13, Mo, Ms. Issues (I know I'm mean), Gabriella (Gross about the cleaning Harry thing), and all who reviewed before chapter three: Thanks for the reviews, I'm glad you all like it and that I haven't gotten any mean reviews!
If anybody knows why I can't make multiple periods, please tell me, it's a device I use quite frequently and it ends up showing just one, and that tends to look kind of weird!
Harry lay in his bed, thinking about what he had just done. He couldn't believe what he had just put Remus through. When he had left he definitely had tears in his eyes, he looked like he was going to go kill himself. Harry felt bad about what he had just done to Remus, but he really was upset about Remus leaving him with the Dursley's, and he really didn't have a very good excuse at all. Harry replayed the events in his head:
There was a knock on the door frame and Harry looked up to see Remus standing timidly in front of it. Harry just stared at him. Remus stepped towards Harry's bed and just stood there looking down at Harry.
"So, Sirius says you're a little upset with me," Remus started. Harry sent a glare his way in return.
"Would you care to tell me why?" he asked.
"Why do you care?" Harry asked defiantly. He wanted to just come right out and say it, but felt that Remus didn't deserve that.
"Harry, of course I care!"
"Well you didn't seem to care too much after my parents died, did you?"
"Harry," he began calmly, of course he knew what this conversation was going to be about, but actually having it was different than he had expected. "I'm really sorry I didn't have helped you out then . . . I-I just couldn't do it!" Remus said desperately. He could do it in his head, but he just couldn't get out what he wanted to say.
"And why couldn't you? And why can you now all of a sudden, huh? I'd really like to know!"
"Harry, I had just lost everyone I had ever cared about. I thought that everyone around me, everyone I ever touched would die! I didn't want to lose you too!"
"So rather, you left me to rot at the Dursley's, never once bothering to check up on me. Tell me, would you have even bothered to see me if you hadn't been my teacher? If Sirius hadn't escaped Azkaban?"
"Harry, there was no way I could have checked up on you during those years! Dumbledore had arranged it so that no wizard could get into that house! How was I supposed to see you?"
"You could have found away! You probably didn't even try," Harry said, his voice cracking like it had earlier with Sirius, Harry was not going to let himself cry this time. He was going to act tough, and hope like hell that Remus could convince him that he was cared for all those years that he suffered at the Dursley's.
"Harry, please, I'm sorry! What do you want me to do?" Remus yelled, his voice cracking too. He felt so helpless. He couldn't think of anything to say, which convinced him that Harry had every right to be so mad at him.
"There's nothing you can do Remus. You should have acted a long time ago, but you didn't! Now please leave!"
"Harry." Remus tried, his eyes filling with tears, feeling so helpless.
"NO! Please LEAVE!"
Harry watched as he walked out the door. "Why couldn't he have just thought of a good reason?" Harry thought bitterly.
While Harry was thinking through what he had said, he realized he could no longer stay here at Remus's house.but what could he do? Maybe he could go stay with Ron, he probably wouldn't mind too much. But yet, Harry was such an imposition at the time. Harry's mind was in a jumble, so he did the only thing he could think to do, he took a nap.
"It was that bad, huh Remus?" Sirius asked quietly after Remus had calmed down a bit.
Remus nodded his head, and started wiping his eyes dry. "Yeah, Sirius, it was pretty bad. And you know what makes it worse, I could have solved the whole thing by telling Harry that the ministry wouldn't allow me to take him in. I mean, they probably wouldn't have! I'm such an idiot!" Remus looked ready to fall apart again.
"Shhh, shhh, Moony it's going to be okay, calm down all right?" Remus nodded his head, so Sirius continued, "Lying wouldn't have done any good. For all we know Harry would have stormed the ministry if you told him that. Honesty's the best policy, right?" Sirius joked.
"Right Padfoot," Remus whispered, smiling slightly. I'm giving up on dinner alright? I think I'm just going to go to be really early tonight,"
"'K Moony," Sirius replied, watching his friend climb the stairs. "I was right," Sirius thought, "No garlic bread." Nobody made garlic bread quite like Remus.
Sirius threw some of the done spaghetti into some bowls, and topped them off with sauce. He poured a few glasses of milk and put everything on a tray, heading up stairs. He walked right into his room to find Harry sound asleep. He placed the tray on the bedside table, and sat on the edge of the bed. Gently, he shook Harry awake.
Harry shuddered, at being shaken, but didn't immediately wake up. Slowly, one of his eyelids began to flutter, soon followed by the other. Then Harry's green eyes were staring up into Sirius's dark ones. "Morning Harry! How about some breakfast?" Sirius said cheerily, waving the pasta in front of Harry's nose.
"Very funny Sirius. What time is it?" Harry replied groggily.
"It's about 6:30, you haven't been sleeping that long. So. . . things didn't go so well with Remus?"
Harry did the feet thing again, "He just didn't have a good reason. But, Sirius, I can't stay here. I'm so mad at him, and he's not doing a very good job convincing me not too be angry, I just can't stay in his house! I don't know what to do."
"Well, first take your spaghetti, Remus wasn't up to making garlic bread, so we just have the noodles," Sirius said, looking pointedly at Harry. Harry looked down, so Sirius continued, "Harry, there's no where else for you to go. I'd get my own house to make you feel better, but I'm still on the run from the ministry. And, for your safety, we can't very well move you from one house to the next, it just won't work. You and Remus are just going to have to work through this. Listen Harry, maybe Remus didn't use his head like he should have all those years ago, but he was grieving. The loss of Lily and all the other marauders really hit him hard."
Harry looked sadly at his godfather, "But, wouldn't I have been a comfort, the only remains of all that he once had?" Harry asked with pleading eyes. He really did want everything to be alright, like Sirius, but he just couldn't get past the feelings of neglect he felt. It was one thing for Dumbledore to let Dumbledore off. He was a busy man, not that involved with his parents lives. His job was to protect Harry at school, not at home. But Remus was his parents friend, he let Harry go to a home where he suffered greatly.
"You know, Harry, the ministry probably wouldn't have even let him take care of you."
"Then why didn't he just say that then?!" Harry yelled, he was completely ignoring his spaghetti.
"Shhh, Harry, I don't know, but what's done is done. There's no way he can take it back, and you won't just take his apology. He's kind of trapped at the moment. Would you rather he just made something up and told you that?" Sirius asked calmly.
"Sirius, I don't know! All I know is that I'm really, really. . . Mad! I can't help it."
"Okay, Harry, but. . . well, can you at least try to be nice to Remus, try to get over the anger?"
"Yeah, I guess I can try, can you get him now actually?" Harry asked timidly.
Sirius stared at Harry for a moment, "You're not going to make him cry again are you?"
"I'll try not to, I swear, but I might just not be able to help crying myself. And, can you get rid of this?" Harry asked, holding up his untouched plate of spaghetti. "I'm really not hungry."
Sirius feigned a hurt expression, "But I made that especially for you! ---Oh well! I'll go get Moony for ya, but I'm not guaranteeing anything. He was pretty upset after the two of you talked." With that, Sirius swept out the door.
"I'm just messenger boy today," Sirius thought to himself, not that he minded.
He dropped Harry's plate in the kitchen and then headed up to Remus's room. The door was shut, so Sirius knocked gently.
"Moony, buddy, its me, you up?" When he got no reply, he opened the door a crack and peered in. Remus was lying awake in bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Moony, I'm coming in okay?" Remus didn't say yes, but he didn't say no either. He made no sign that he even had heard Sirius at all. Sirius walked in slowly, and walked up to Remus's bed. Remus looked almost catatonic, and that scared Sirius a lot. He placed a hand on his friends shoulder and shook him, asking, "Moony, are you okay?"
Remus snapped out of the strange trance he had been in. "Sirius! You scared the Hell out of me!"
"You scared me too! You were really freaky there you know? Anyway, Harry wants to talk to you again. He's still upset with you, but I think he's ready to call a truce. Either way, I made him promise not to make you cry again. You want to go see him, or wait until tomorrow?"
"I'll go now, I don't want to risk him getting even angrier with me," Remus replied, it was obvious that he was still quite upset about his earlier encounter with Harry. He appeared to be a little apprehensive about another confrontation, but he got up and started for the door anyway.
"Do you want me to go with you Moony?" Sirius asked, seeing the worried expression on his friends face.
Remus shook his head, and Sirius replied, "Okay, I'll go downstairs and watch that tellybox thing. Maybe I'll be able to turn it on myself this time," he said hopefully. He headed out of the room, followed be Remus in his pajamas. They departed at the stairs with a "good luck" from Sirius.
Remus took a deep breath a few feet from Harry's door, and then stepped in. Harry was staring at his feet again, but looked up when he heard Remus enter.
Remus decided it was best to say nothing until he had to, so he just stood there for a moment looking at Harry, who appeared to be gathering his thoughts. He suddenly looked right at Remus's face, and stared for a few moments.
"I'm really upset that you never seemed to care about what happened to me. I'll probably be upset for a long time, and there's nothing anybody can really do about that. I'm sorry about earlier, but I just couldn't help it. I was kind of feeling the way you were, I couldn't get out what I wanted to say. Anyway, you had your reasons for not taking me in and allowing me to live with the Dursley's, and I'm just going to have to accept it."
Remus sent Harry a very relieved look. "Harry, I'm so sorry. When your parents died, I just didn't know what to do about anything, and I didn't think it would be fair to you to bring you into my hectic life. Dumbledore seemed to think that the Dursley's house was a good place for you. He's already admitted he was wrong, but I had trusted him with that decision. I'm so sorry it didn't work. I thought I was doing what was best."
"Why couldn't you have just said that earlier?" Harry asked in awe. That was exactly the answer he had been looking for during their earlier discussion. "That's all I needed to hear."
There was silence between the two, Remus had tears of relief in his eyes, as did Harry. "So, does this mean I'm forgiven?"
Harry simply nodded, and Remus stepped closer to him.
"Thanks, Harry," Remus said, stepping closer still. He sat at the edge of Harry's bed, and scooped him into a tight hug.
"I think I have something in my eye, Remus," Harry stuttered.
Remus hugged Harry closer and said, "I think I have something in my eye too, Harry." They both laughed off their tears, and pulled apart.
"Can you promise me one thing Remus?"
"What Harry?"
"Promise you'll never let me live like that again?"
"Harry, I swear by my wand that I will never let what has happened to you happen again. I promise you'll always have a home where you are loved by everyone."
Harry stiffened at this, did Remus just sort of say he loved him? Nobody had ever told Harry that they loved him before. "Are you saying that you love me?" Harry asked cautiously, his green eyes sparkling with tears.
"Yeah Harry, I did. I've loved you since you were a little baby, and I never stopped, despite what you think. And again, I'm so terribly sorry."
"I'm over that Remus, and---I love you too." Harry muttered, he had never said that to anyone before. "And---I'm the one who should be sorry, I really had no reason to get so angry with you. Thanks for not hating me for it."
"Harry, I think you had every right to be mad at me, I should have tried to have you live with me, but I didn't. Let's just forget all that okay. We can't fix your past, but Sirius and I will try hard to make your future much better. Lets go keep Sirius company, I bet you want to get out of that bed. Sirius is watching the television downstairs."
"You have a television?! Awesome," Harry said, perking up a lot.
Remus laughed, "Yeah, you really have to give those muggles credit, they came up with some spectacular things, like those Bic pens---amazing!"
"Well," said Harry, "I would love to get out of this bed and watch the television, are you going to carry me down?"
Remus nodded, and stood up, then scooped Harry easily into his arms. "You really should eat more, Harry," Remus said for the second time. He took a few steps towards the door until he stepped on something rather furry.
"What the hell?" Remus said, shocked. He looked around Harry's body, and down, "Oh my word!"
A/N: He's BAAAAAAAAACK! How was that? As long as I can get on the computer at least once a day for a little while, I should be able to get another chapter out by Thursday night! Please review, and if I get enough I'll write you all personal messages---I really like doing that.
Katie: I was thinking the same thing about Remus not being allowed to take Harry in, but it's been done so many times before, I wanted to try something different, although it will play a small part in the story line, so it's not completely ignored. My plan was to put in some kind of deep secret of Remus's being the cause of him not wanting to take in Harry, but I couldn't think of anything. I kind of just wanted to get it over with.And I think you're kind of reading my mind about the punching bag thing.I have a friend who boxes and I was thinking about throwing some of that in there, but seeing as he's paralyzed at the moment, it'll be a while before that happens, IF it happens. Thanks for the constructive review though (
Kaze: Why is Harry so angry? Well, I've decided that Harry's been through way too much over his years. In book four I was like "Thank God, this kid actually does have some feelings" after all he had been through, he only cried ONCE after the third task. I decided that although JKR will probably never show it, he's probably holding a lot inside, and now after getting out of the Dursley situation I want him to kind of burst, eventually he's going to calm down a bit, but I mean he's paralyzed now so it's a logical time for him to get his feelings out. And remember, he's not just angry, he's also hurt. And we will be having an appearance of Ron and Hermione, but they're not going to be huge in this story for a while. To be completely honest I don't like writing about them.
Kayla: Sirius is my favorite too, but Remus is a close second.
Kimmy: I'm glad you like my story, I try to leave cliffs at the end to keep people wanting more, and so they don't forget what's already happened. That happens to me a lot when I read fics, I want it to be easy to get back into.
Japangirlcmw: THANKS!!! I think you're my first fan ever, and I appreciate it very much! I wish you could tell my English teacher what you told me! My mom is the only other person who seems to really like the way I string my words together, I guess I kind of insert my bits of my weird humor in what I write, and I like clichés, which is definitely not okay in essays (. She's never read any of my HP stuff, but she pretty much says the same as you about the other things I write.
Padfoot: Yep, Harry's paralyzed, permanent or not will come up soon! I actually got that idea because my uncles father fell when he was hunting and was paralyzed, kind of a sad idea, but it worked right? Anyway, I may just let his progress determine some of the progress of this story.
FairyTale: I'm a die hard Sirius rescues Harry fan too, but I must say that you're stories are far better than mine! I actually got the idea from yours, and a few others. The first Sirius rescues Harry story I read was the Last Marauder, I highly recommend it to all! Anyway, you'll see where I was going with the ministry thing, and I really think that if he had tried hard enough the ministry would have allowed him to take Harry in. And about the Dumbledore thing, I didn't explain it well at all, but I wanted Harry to have a lot more respect for Dumbledore than he does for Remus, Dumbledore being the headmaster and all, and I think that Dumbledore acted (and explained) better than Remus. And about the grammar, no matter how much I re-read my story, I don't seem to catch half of the mistakes! Thanks for the long review btw, I love those!
AmyPotter13, Mo, Ms. Issues (I know I'm mean), Gabriella (Gross about the cleaning Harry thing), and all who reviewed before chapter three: Thanks for the reviews, I'm glad you all like it and that I haven't gotten any mean reviews!
If anybody knows why I can't make multiple periods, please tell me, it's a device I use quite frequently and it ends up showing just one, and that tends to look kind of weird!
Harry lay in his bed, thinking about what he had just done. He couldn't believe what he had just put Remus through. When he had left he definitely had tears in his eyes, he looked like he was going to go kill himself. Harry felt bad about what he had just done to Remus, but he really was upset about Remus leaving him with the Dursley's, and he really didn't have a very good excuse at all. Harry replayed the events in his head:
There was a knock on the door frame and Harry looked up to see Remus standing timidly in front of it. Harry just stared at him. Remus stepped towards Harry's bed and just stood there looking down at Harry.
"So, Sirius says you're a little upset with me," Remus started. Harry sent a glare his way in return.
"Would you care to tell me why?" he asked.
"Why do you care?" Harry asked defiantly. He wanted to just come right out and say it, but felt that Remus didn't deserve that.
"Harry, of course I care!"
"Well you didn't seem to care too much after my parents died, did you?"
"Harry," he began calmly, of course he knew what this conversation was going to be about, but actually having it was different than he had expected. "I'm really sorry I didn't have helped you out then . . . I-I just couldn't do it!" Remus said desperately. He could do it in his head, but he just couldn't get out what he wanted to say.
"And why couldn't you? And why can you now all of a sudden, huh? I'd really like to know!"
"Harry, I had just lost everyone I had ever cared about. I thought that everyone around me, everyone I ever touched would die! I didn't want to lose you too!"
"So rather, you left me to rot at the Dursley's, never once bothering to check up on me. Tell me, would you have even bothered to see me if you hadn't been my teacher? If Sirius hadn't escaped Azkaban?"
"Harry, there was no way I could have checked up on you during those years! Dumbledore had arranged it so that no wizard could get into that house! How was I supposed to see you?"
"You could have found away! You probably didn't even try," Harry said, his voice cracking like it had earlier with Sirius, Harry was not going to let himself cry this time. He was going to act tough, and hope like hell that Remus could convince him that he was cared for all those years that he suffered at the Dursley's.
"Harry, please, I'm sorry! What do you want me to do?" Remus yelled, his voice cracking too. He felt so helpless. He couldn't think of anything to say, which convinced him that Harry had every right to be so mad at him.
"There's nothing you can do Remus. You should have acted a long time ago, but you didn't! Now please leave!"
"Harry." Remus tried, his eyes filling with tears, feeling so helpless.
"NO! Please LEAVE!"
Harry watched as he walked out the door. "Why couldn't he have just thought of a good reason?" Harry thought bitterly.
While Harry was thinking through what he had said, he realized he could no longer stay here at Remus's house.but what could he do? Maybe he could go stay with Ron, he probably wouldn't mind too much. But yet, Harry was such an imposition at the time. Harry's mind was in a jumble, so he did the only thing he could think to do, he took a nap.
"It was that bad, huh Remus?" Sirius asked quietly after Remus had calmed down a bit.
Remus nodded his head, and started wiping his eyes dry. "Yeah, Sirius, it was pretty bad. And you know what makes it worse, I could have solved the whole thing by telling Harry that the ministry wouldn't allow me to take him in. I mean, they probably wouldn't have! I'm such an idiot!" Remus looked ready to fall apart again.
"Shhh, shhh, Moony it's going to be okay, calm down all right?" Remus nodded his head, so Sirius continued, "Lying wouldn't have done any good. For all we know Harry would have stormed the ministry if you told him that. Honesty's the best policy, right?" Sirius joked.
"Right Padfoot," Remus whispered, smiling slightly. I'm giving up on dinner alright? I think I'm just going to go to be really early tonight,"
"'K Moony," Sirius replied, watching his friend climb the stairs. "I was right," Sirius thought, "No garlic bread." Nobody made garlic bread quite like Remus.
Sirius threw some of the done spaghetti into some bowls, and topped them off with sauce. He poured a few glasses of milk and put everything on a tray, heading up stairs. He walked right into his room to find Harry sound asleep. He placed the tray on the bedside table, and sat on the edge of the bed. Gently, he shook Harry awake.
Harry shuddered, at being shaken, but didn't immediately wake up. Slowly, one of his eyelids began to flutter, soon followed by the other. Then Harry's green eyes were staring up into Sirius's dark ones. "Morning Harry! How about some breakfast?" Sirius said cheerily, waving the pasta in front of Harry's nose.
"Very funny Sirius. What time is it?" Harry replied groggily.
"It's about 6:30, you haven't been sleeping that long. So. . . things didn't go so well with Remus?"
Harry did the feet thing again, "He just didn't have a good reason. But, Sirius, I can't stay here. I'm so mad at him, and he's not doing a very good job convincing me not too be angry, I just can't stay in his house! I don't know what to do."
"Well, first take your spaghetti, Remus wasn't up to making garlic bread, so we just have the noodles," Sirius said, looking pointedly at Harry. Harry looked down, so Sirius continued, "Harry, there's no where else for you to go. I'd get my own house to make you feel better, but I'm still on the run from the ministry. And, for your safety, we can't very well move you from one house to the next, it just won't work. You and Remus are just going to have to work through this. Listen Harry, maybe Remus didn't use his head like he should have all those years ago, but he was grieving. The loss of Lily and all the other marauders really hit him hard."
Harry looked sadly at his godfather, "But, wouldn't I have been a comfort, the only remains of all that he once had?" Harry asked with pleading eyes. He really did want everything to be alright, like Sirius, but he just couldn't get past the feelings of neglect he felt. It was one thing for Dumbledore to let Dumbledore off. He was a busy man, not that involved with his parents lives. His job was to protect Harry at school, not at home. But Remus was his parents friend, he let Harry go to a home where he suffered greatly.
"You know, Harry, the ministry probably wouldn't have even let him take care of you."
"Then why didn't he just say that then?!" Harry yelled, he was completely ignoring his spaghetti.
"Shhh, Harry, I don't know, but what's done is done. There's no way he can take it back, and you won't just take his apology. He's kind of trapped at the moment. Would you rather he just made something up and told you that?" Sirius asked calmly.
"Sirius, I don't know! All I know is that I'm really, really. . . Mad! I can't help it."
"Okay, Harry, but. . . well, can you at least try to be nice to Remus, try to get over the anger?"
"Yeah, I guess I can try, can you get him now actually?" Harry asked timidly.
Sirius stared at Harry for a moment, "You're not going to make him cry again are you?"
"I'll try not to, I swear, but I might just not be able to help crying myself. And, can you get rid of this?" Harry asked, holding up his untouched plate of spaghetti. "I'm really not hungry."
Sirius feigned a hurt expression, "But I made that especially for you! ---Oh well! I'll go get Moony for ya, but I'm not guaranteeing anything. He was pretty upset after the two of you talked." With that, Sirius swept out the door.
"I'm just messenger boy today," Sirius thought to himself, not that he minded.
He dropped Harry's plate in the kitchen and then headed up to Remus's room. The door was shut, so Sirius knocked gently.
"Moony, buddy, its me, you up?" When he got no reply, he opened the door a crack and peered in. Remus was lying awake in bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Moony, I'm coming in okay?" Remus didn't say yes, but he didn't say no either. He made no sign that he even had heard Sirius at all. Sirius walked in slowly, and walked up to Remus's bed. Remus looked almost catatonic, and that scared Sirius a lot. He placed a hand on his friends shoulder and shook him, asking, "Moony, are you okay?"
Remus snapped out of the strange trance he had been in. "Sirius! You scared the Hell out of me!"
"You scared me too! You were really freaky there you know? Anyway, Harry wants to talk to you again. He's still upset with you, but I think he's ready to call a truce. Either way, I made him promise not to make you cry again. You want to go see him, or wait until tomorrow?"
"I'll go now, I don't want to risk him getting even angrier with me," Remus replied, it was obvious that he was still quite upset about his earlier encounter with Harry. He appeared to be a little apprehensive about another confrontation, but he got up and started for the door anyway.
"Do you want me to go with you Moony?" Sirius asked, seeing the worried expression on his friends face.
Remus shook his head, and Sirius replied, "Okay, I'll go downstairs and watch that tellybox thing. Maybe I'll be able to turn it on myself this time," he said hopefully. He headed out of the room, followed be Remus in his pajamas. They departed at the stairs with a "good luck" from Sirius.
Remus took a deep breath a few feet from Harry's door, and then stepped in. Harry was staring at his feet again, but looked up when he heard Remus enter.
Remus decided it was best to say nothing until he had to, so he just stood there for a moment looking at Harry, who appeared to be gathering his thoughts. He suddenly looked right at Remus's face, and stared for a few moments.
"I'm really upset that you never seemed to care about what happened to me. I'll probably be upset for a long time, and there's nothing anybody can really do about that. I'm sorry about earlier, but I just couldn't help it. I was kind of feeling the way you were, I couldn't get out what I wanted to say. Anyway, you had your reasons for not taking me in and allowing me to live with the Dursley's, and I'm just going to have to accept it."
Remus sent Harry a very relieved look. "Harry, I'm so sorry. When your parents died, I just didn't know what to do about anything, and I didn't think it would be fair to you to bring you into my hectic life. Dumbledore seemed to think that the Dursley's house was a good place for you. He's already admitted he was wrong, but I had trusted him with that decision. I'm so sorry it didn't work. I thought I was doing what was best."
"Why couldn't you have just said that earlier?" Harry asked in awe. That was exactly the answer he had been looking for during their earlier discussion. "That's all I needed to hear."
There was silence between the two, Remus had tears of relief in his eyes, as did Harry. "So, does this mean I'm forgiven?"
Harry simply nodded, and Remus stepped closer to him.
"Thanks, Harry," Remus said, stepping closer still. He sat at the edge of Harry's bed, and scooped him into a tight hug.
"I think I have something in my eye, Remus," Harry stuttered.
Remus hugged Harry closer and said, "I think I have something in my eye too, Harry." They both laughed off their tears, and pulled apart.
"Can you promise me one thing Remus?"
"What Harry?"
"Promise you'll never let me live like that again?"
"Harry, I swear by my wand that I will never let what has happened to you happen again. I promise you'll always have a home where you are loved by everyone."
Harry stiffened at this, did Remus just sort of say he loved him? Nobody had ever told Harry that they loved him before. "Are you saying that you love me?" Harry asked cautiously, his green eyes sparkling with tears.
"Yeah Harry, I did. I've loved you since you were a little baby, and I never stopped, despite what you think. And again, I'm so terribly sorry."
"I'm over that Remus, and---I love you too." Harry muttered, he had never said that to anyone before. "And---I'm the one who should be sorry, I really had no reason to get so angry with you. Thanks for not hating me for it."
"Harry, I think you had every right to be mad at me, I should have tried to have you live with me, but I didn't. Let's just forget all that okay. We can't fix your past, but Sirius and I will try hard to make your future much better. Lets go keep Sirius company, I bet you want to get out of that bed. Sirius is watching the television downstairs."
"You have a television?! Awesome," Harry said, perking up a lot.
Remus laughed, "Yeah, you really have to give those muggles credit, they came up with some spectacular things, like those Bic pens---amazing!"
"Well," said Harry, "I would love to get out of this bed and watch the television, are you going to carry me down?"
Remus nodded, and stood up, then scooped Harry easily into his arms. "You really should eat more, Harry," Remus said for the second time. He took a few steps towards the door until he stepped on something rather furry.
"What the hell?" Remus said, shocked. He looked around Harry's body, and down, "Oh my word!"
A/N: He's BAAAAAAAAACK! How was that? As long as I can get on the computer at least once a day for a little while, I should be able to get another chapter out by Thursday night! Please review, and if I get enough I'll write you all personal messages---I really like doing that.