I just wanted to say that I wrote this story while I was inbetween having Gwtw the book and it had been years since I had read it. So I had to take allot of things from the movie. That's why the timeline is going to be the movies instead of the books. Thanks for the Replies.
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Part Four
Waking Scarlett reached out her hand with her eyes still closed expecting to find Rhett lying beside her. Disappointment filled Scarlett, when her hand came in contact with nothing but her bed.
Rhett who had awoke a few hours earlier was standing looking out one of the many bedroom windows. Deciding it was time to eat, something he hadn't done for almost a week. Rhett turned just in time to see Scarlett's hand move towards his side of the bed. He watched as a frown came upon her face at not finding him there.
Before he could stop himself a smile appear on his face. Anger at himself for finding joy in thinking Scarlett might have some type of feelings for him, Rhett walked past the bed.
Feeling something other then pain now was wrong. Even if he found nothing wrong with Scarlett smiling last night about the baby moving. For him to smile or show joy was dishonoring Bonnie's memory. Bonnie had been Rhett's whole world joy and happiness without her was impossible.
Yet, deep down Rhett knew that wasn't true. Or just a second ago would have never happened. Was it okay to feel joy when one should only feel pain? Was it alright to smile over something to forget for if only a few minutes that Bonnie was gone?
Rhett knew Scarlett wouldn't find guilt in him for smiling over the baby or her. But guilt he himself felt. If he had only listened to Scarlett when she had come to him asking him not to spoil Bonnie so much. She had stated many reasons why he should have stopped one of them being she might get hurt if he let her get away with to much. But being Rhett Butler he didn't listen and know Bonnie was dead because of him.
Surprisingly, Scarlett had never blamed him for Bonnie's death if she had Rhett had no idea what he would have done.
So lost in thought Rhett didn't notice he had stopped mid way through Scarlett's bedroom door, until a small almost child like hand reached out and touched his right shoulder.
"Rhett" Scarlett said having opened her eyes a few moments before to the sight of Rhett standing in her doorway with his back to her.
After watching him for a few minutes Scarlett, realized he was lost in thoughts. Something she normally wouldn't care about. But now Scarlett knew he was probable blaming himself for Bonnie and that was something Scarlett wouldn't have.
Rhett loves Bonnie no loved, Scarlett still found it hard to believe her little girl was gone. Rhett had loved Bonnie more than anything he would have never done anything to hurt her. Scarlett knew that she just have to remind Rhett of that.
Turning Rhett looked into the green eyes of his wife. What he saw there froze him for a second. It was concern, Scarlett was concerned for him. Concern meant care even after the last few months Rhett found it hard to believe Scarlett didn't hate him.
"My Pet, what are you doing out of bed?" Rhett asked as he took Scarlett's hand pulling her along with him towards her bed.
"Well I woke to find you gone. But when I looked up you where just standing there. I thought you might like some company. "Scarlett stated as Rhett drag her back to bed.
As Rhett pulled back the covers and helped Scarlett back to bed. He couldn't help but think how much she reminded him of Bonnie.
Scarlett saw the look of pain cross Rhett's face." So Mr. Butler how do you like your new room?" Scarlett asked hoping to change Rhett's mood.
Hearing Scarlett's question Rhett found himself grateful to her for changing the subject. But also alittle worried had Scarlett learned to read him as well as he could her?
"Well I was meaning to ask." Rhett started not sure if he could pull this off or not. Could he tease with Scarlett was it too soon? But hadn't Scarlett herself started this? Rhett could see the fear of rejection in her eyes.
Silently praying Rhett would continue Scarlett kept her eyes locked with his.
"Well" Rhett picked up as if he hadn't stopped "is this arrangement temporarily or did you have something else in mind, my pet?" he asked barley able to finish without leaving the room. Did he really want to know Scarlett's plan? Rhett didn't feel like fighting anyone but like Scarlett he didn't want anyone's pity either. And if that's all this was he could find another bedroom to sleep in.
Scarlett found her pride began to rise with Rhett's question. It wasn't his question as much as the tone he asked it in. Pride was what had gotten her into this mess in the first place. If she had just pushed it aside the morning after telling Rhett she hadn't wanted anymore children he wouldn't be asking his question now.
Scarlett for the first time also allowed herself to admit if she only had how happy they could have been. But no she had let her love for Ashley push away the only person who Scarlett could really call friend.
Rhett had every right to ask that question. It wouldn't be fair to him to let him sleep here without telling him for how long.
"Rhett, I'm not going to pretend I haven't mad a terrible mess of things between us."Scarlett said watching Rhett with great interest in her eyes almost searching for some sign of what she wasn't sure.
"No more than I have" Rhett said wanting at that moment to take Scarlett away from this place and their past.
Scarlett couldn't help but smile at Rhett. He always did know how to make her feel better even if at the time she didn't know it. After every problem she had Rhett would come and usually help her find a way out of it.
"But your wrong Mr. Butler if it wasn't for me you would never have left this room to begin with." Scarlett stated knowing for a fact it was true. Rhett nodded his head in agreement with a look on his face Scarlett saw once a long time ago the night he asked her to marry him." That wasn't right of me to do that Rhett. This is as much your room as mine. Just as I should have ask if you wanted more children before I made up my mind not to have any."
Rhett felt like the woman before him was a stranger who had kidnapped the real Scarlett O'Hara." It didn't matter to me if we have more children or not." Rhett said repeating the fact he told Scarlett many times.
"I know you said and probable mean that. But that didn't mean you wanted kicked out of our bedroom." Scarlett eyes went wide at her own words. She hadn't meant to say that. This wasn't about the past. This was about getting Rhett to stay in their bedroom so she wouldn't be lonely anymore.
Rhett found himself enjoying this conversation. He had always wondered why he had been kicked out maybe now he would learn why. That and this took his mind off the longing to hold Bonnie.
"No I didn't. I must admit I was surprised by your request that night. Mind if I ask why my pet, seeing as you regret it now?" He asked as his hand unconsciously found its way to rest on top of Scarlett's round stomach.
Scarlett looked away debating if she should tell him the truth or not. If she didn't Rhett would know she was lying, if she didn't answer him, Rhett might believe she was hiding something from him. A lesson Scarlett had learned a few months ago never give people a reason to distrust you. Broken trusted was just too hard to repair.
"You might not like want I'm about to say. So before you get mad and storm out let me tell you I expect to see you tonight in this room getting ready to fall asleep next to me." Scarlett stated in a business tone. Knowing when something happened Rhett couldn't handle he usually ran away. Something she was surprised he hadn't tried to do as of yet.
"It must be something your ashamed of if I've been giving permission to storm away mad." Rhett said in a teasing tone hoping he was wrong. But from the look on Scarlett's face he wasn't.
"I'm not giving you permission Rhett, I'm just saying you might be mad that's all." Scarlett said then stopped herself from continue as Mammy and Prissy walked in each carrying a tray of food.
After Rhett had taken his place in bed beside her both set up. Rhett's tray set on his lap, Scarlett's was in between the couple.
"Please continue, Mrs. Butler." Rhett managed to say in between bites of his breakfast.
"I'm not sure that's a good idea Rhett." Scarlett said as she ate her own food.
Rhett laughed alittle as he said." Oh yes I forgot I'm supposed to storm away at the end of your confession."
Scarlett looked at Rhett and found her heart beating faster. Did she really want to risk their new found closeness for company in her room? Feelings Scarlett wasn't ready or willingly to admit just yet to Rhett pushed her ahead. If she was ever going to have anything more then friendship with her husband they had to have no more secrets. And the only way Rhett would open up to her is if she opened up to him.
"That day I made you move out of our room. I went to the mill" Scarlett started them took a bite of bread in her mouth.
Rhett's eyes stopped the merry look they had been playing replaced with a look of pain. " Let me guess you saw and talked to your wonderful Mr. Wilkes?" Rhett asked jealous over her love for Ashley clear in his voice.
"Yes I did. And I'm not going to lie and say that he didn't put the idea into my head. But you can't blame Ashley because" Rhett was about ready to throw tray, food, and all off him in his escape from this room and bed. He wasn't about to listen to Scarlett defeating the man who was supposed to be a gentleman. Rhett wondered how many other gentlemen told wives not to sleep in the same room as their husbands. So Rhett was completely taking back by Scarlett's next words. " I was fool enough to listen to him"
"What did you just say?" Rhett asked in shock.
"Before or after I admitted I listen to Ashley?" Scarlett asked wondering why Rhett hadn't stormed out yet.
"After" Rhett stated calmly. It was a first Scarlett O'Hara admitting she did something foolish, and to know she thought herself a fool over kicking him out of their room, made Rhett feel something he hadn't in a long time. Hope that Scarlett would fall in love with him or perhaps already was.
"Oh you mean the part where I said I was a fool? Well I was. I missed you so much Rhett promise me your stay here in this room with me?" Scarlett asked whole heartily.
Rhett trying to be his cold usually self replied "Of course my pet if that's what you want." He was trying to keep the joy at hearing Scarlett ask him to stay with her inside. The last thing he needed now was for Scarlett to use his love against him. Like it or not all Rhett had left that he loved in this world other than his mother and sister was setting beside him asking him to stay.
Tbc..........
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Part Four
Waking Scarlett reached out her hand with her eyes still closed expecting to find Rhett lying beside her. Disappointment filled Scarlett, when her hand came in contact with nothing but her bed.
Rhett who had awoke a few hours earlier was standing looking out one of the many bedroom windows. Deciding it was time to eat, something he hadn't done for almost a week. Rhett turned just in time to see Scarlett's hand move towards his side of the bed. He watched as a frown came upon her face at not finding him there.
Before he could stop himself a smile appear on his face. Anger at himself for finding joy in thinking Scarlett might have some type of feelings for him, Rhett walked past the bed.
Feeling something other then pain now was wrong. Even if he found nothing wrong with Scarlett smiling last night about the baby moving. For him to smile or show joy was dishonoring Bonnie's memory. Bonnie had been Rhett's whole world joy and happiness without her was impossible.
Yet, deep down Rhett knew that wasn't true. Or just a second ago would have never happened. Was it okay to feel joy when one should only feel pain? Was it alright to smile over something to forget for if only a few minutes that Bonnie was gone?
Rhett knew Scarlett wouldn't find guilt in him for smiling over the baby or her. But guilt he himself felt. If he had only listened to Scarlett when she had come to him asking him not to spoil Bonnie so much. She had stated many reasons why he should have stopped one of them being she might get hurt if he let her get away with to much. But being Rhett Butler he didn't listen and know Bonnie was dead because of him.
Surprisingly, Scarlett had never blamed him for Bonnie's death if she had Rhett had no idea what he would have done.
So lost in thought Rhett didn't notice he had stopped mid way through Scarlett's bedroom door, until a small almost child like hand reached out and touched his right shoulder.
"Rhett" Scarlett said having opened her eyes a few moments before to the sight of Rhett standing in her doorway with his back to her.
After watching him for a few minutes Scarlett, realized he was lost in thoughts. Something she normally wouldn't care about. But now Scarlett knew he was probable blaming himself for Bonnie and that was something Scarlett wouldn't have.
Rhett loves Bonnie no loved, Scarlett still found it hard to believe her little girl was gone. Rhett had loved Bonnie more than anything he would have never done anything to hurt her. Scarlett knew that she just have to remind Rhett of that.
Turning Rhett looked into the green eyes of his wife. What he saw there froze him for a second. It was concern, Scarlett was concerned for him. Concern meant care even after the last few months Rhett found it hard to believe Scarlett didn't hate him.
"My Pet, what are you doing out of bed?" Rhett asked as he took Scarlett's hand pulling her along with him towards her bed.
"Well I woke to find you gone. But when I looked up you where just standing there. I thought you might like some company. "Scarlett stated as Rhett drag her back to bed.
As Rhett pulled back the covers and helped Scarlett back to bed. He couldn't help but think how much she reminded him of Bonnie.
Scarlett saw the look of pain cross Rhett's face." So Mr. Butler how do you like your new room?" Scarlett asked hoping to change Rhett's mood.
Hearing Scarlett's question Rhett found himself grateful to her for changing the subject. But also alittle worried had Scarlett learned to read him as well as he could her?
"Well I was meaning to ask." Rhett started not sure if he could pull this off or not. Could he tease with Scarlett was it too soon? But hadn't Scarlett herself started this? Rhett could see the fear of rejection in her eyes.
Silently praying Rhett would continue Scarlett kept her eyes locked with his.
"Well" Rhett picked up as if he hadn't stopped "is this arrangement temporarily or did you have something else in mind, my pet?" he asked barley able to finish without leaving the room. Did he really want to know Scarlett's plan? Rhett didn't feel like fighting anyone but like Scarlett he didn't want anyone's pity either. And if that's all this was he could find another bedroom to sleep in.
Scarlett found her pride began to rise with Rhett's question. It wasn't his question as much as the tone he asked it in. Pride was what had gotten her into this mess in the first place. If she had just pushed it aside the morning after telling Rhett she hadn't wanted anymore children he wouldn't be asking his question now.
Scarlett for the first time also allowed herself to admit if she only had how happy they could have been. But no she had let her love for Ashley push away the only person who Scarlett could really call friend.
Rhett had every right to ask that question. It wouldn't be fair to him to let him sleep here without telling him for how long.
"Rhett, I'm not going to pretend I haven't mad a terrible mess of things between us."Scarlett said watching Rhett with great interest in her eyes almost searching for some sign of what she wasn't sure.
"No more than I have" Rhett said wanting at that moment to take Scarlett away from this place and their past.
Scarlett couldn't help but smile at Rhett. He always did know how to make her feel better even if at the time she didn't know it. After every problem she had Rhett would come and usually help her find a way out of it.
"But your wrong Mr. Butler if it wasn't for me you would never have left this room to begin with." Scarlett stated knowing for a fact it was true. Rhett nodded his head in agreement with a look on his face Scarlett saw once a long time ago the night he asked her to marry him." That wasn't right of me to do that Rhett. This is as much your room as mine. Just as I should have ask if you wanted more children before I made up my mind not to have any."
Rhett felt like the woman before him was a stranger who had kidnapped the real Scarlett O'Hara." It didn't matter to me if we have more children or not." Rhett said repeating the fact he told Scarlett many times.
"I know you said and probable mean that. But that didn't mean you wanted kicked out of our bedroom." Scarlett eyes went wide at her own words. She hadn't meant to say that. This wasn't about the past. This was about getting Rhett to stay in their bedroom so she wouldn't be lonely anymore.
Rhett found himself enjoying this conversation. He had always wondered why he had been kicked out maybe now he would learn why. That and this took his mind off the longing to hold Bonnie.
"No I didn't. I must admit I was surprised by your request that night. Mind if I ask why my pet, seeing as you regret it now?" He asked as his hand unconsciously found its way to rest on top of Scarlett's round stomach.
Scarlett looked away debating if she should tell him the truth or not. If she didn't Rhett would know she was lying, if she didn't answer him, Rhett might believe she was hiding something from him. A lesson Scarlett had learned a few months ago never give people a reason to distrust you. Broken trusted was just too hard to repair.
"You might not like want I'm about to say. So before you get mad and storm out let me tell you I expect to see you tonight in this room getting ready to fall asleep next to me." Scarlett stated in a business tone. Knowing when something happened Rhett couldn't handle he usually ran away. Something she was surprised he hadn't tried to do as of yet.
"It must be something your ashamed of if I've been giving permission to storm away mad." Rhett said in a teasing tone hoping he was wrong. But from the look on Scarlett's face he wasn't.
"I'm not giving you permission Rhett, I'm just saying you might be mad that's all." Scarlett said then stopped herself from continue as Mammy and Prissy walked in each carrying a tray of food.
After Rhett had taken his place in bed beside her both set up. Rhett's tray set on his lap, Scarlett's was in between the couple.
"Please continue, Mrs. Butler." Rhett managed to say in between bites of his breakfast.
"I'm not sure that's a good idea Rhett." Scarlett said as she ate her own food.
Rhett laughed alittle as he said." Oh yes I forgot I'm supposed to storm away at the end of your confession."
Scarlett looked at Rhett and found her heart beating faster. Did she really want to risk their new found closeness for company in her room? Feelings Scarlett wasn't ready or willingly to admit just yet to Rhett pushed her ahead. If she was ever going to have anything more then friendship with her husband they had to have no more secrets. And the only way Rhett would open up to her is if she opened up to him.
"That day I made you move out of our room. I went to the mill" Scarlett started them took a bite of bread in her mouth.
Rhett's eyes stopped the merry look they had been playing replaced with a look of pain. " Let me guess you saw and talked to your wonderful Mr. Wilkes?" Rhett asked jealous over her love for Ashley clear in his voice.
"Yes I did. And I'm not going to lie and say that he didn't put the idea into my head. But you can't blame Ashley because" Rhett was about ready to throw tray, food, and all off him in his escape from this room and bed. He wasn't about to listen to Scarlett defeating the man who was supposed to be a gentleman. Rhett wondered how many other gentlemen told wives not to sleep in the same room as their husbands. So Rhett was completely taking back by Scarlett's next words. " I was fool enough to listen to him"
"What did you just say?" Rhett asked in shock.
"Before or after I admitted I listen to Ashley?" Scarlett asked wondering why Rhett hadn't stormed out yet.
"After" Rhett stated calmly. It was a first Scarlett O'Hara admitting she did something foolish, and to know she thought herself a fool over kicking him out of their room, made Rhett feel something he hadn't in a long time. Hope that Scarlett would fall in love with him or perhaps already was.
"Oh you mean the part where I said I was a fool? Well I was. I missed you so much Rhett promise me your stay here in this room with me?" Scarlett asked whole heartily.
Rhett trying to be his cold usually self replied "Of course my pet if that's what you want." He was trying to keep the joy at hearing Scarlett ask him to stay with her inside. The last thing he needed now was for Scarlett to use his love against him. Like it or not all Rhett had left that he loved in this world other than his mother and sister was setting beside him asking him to stay.
Tbc..........