Kanatasha: Okay, this is my first attempt in a yaoi fic. And the lucky couple?
Yugi: *smiling happily.* Me and Yami!
Yami: *holding onto Yugi protectively, growls at all the Yugi lovers out there.* Get one thing straight you worthless, pathetic mortals! Yugi is mine!!! And if anyone takes him from me, they'll face a fate worse then death!
Kanatasha: *chuckles.* A bit over protective there are we?
Yugi: *blushes.*
Kanatasha: Awwwwww! ^_____^ So Kaiwai!
Yami: *growls, looking up at Kanatasha, brings Yugi closer to him.* Mine!
Yugi: *leans up and whispers something in Yami's ear.*
Yami: *looks down at Yugi, shocked.*
Yugi: *smiles deviously, nodding his head.*
Yami: *returns smile, picks up Yugi and runs out of the room and into another one.*
Kanatasha: Hey! Where are you going? Could you do the disclaimer?
Both: NO! *slam the door but not before putting a DO NOT DISTURB sign on the door.
Kanatasha: *shrugs. Oh well. Anyways here is my fic. Please Review. It really boost up my confidence!
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DISCLAIMER: NO OWN YU-GI-OH!
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...... private thoughts
//....// Yami
/..../ Yugi
A FEAR OF NO LOVE
"Yugi Motou! You are worthless and pathetic! How could you EVER think I could think of you in that way? Look at you! You are small and weak! It makes me sick just to have to look at you! But I HAVE to! I'm cursed forever in being your protector, your yami!" Dark, crismon eyes stared hatefully down at a small figure huddled in a corner who was starring up in shock, tears rolling down his soft, angelic face. "Y...y....yami! I...I...I..." Yami meerly snickered, copying Yugi. "Y...y....yami! I...I...I..." His face then turned to a snarl as he reached down and violently picked Yugi up by the shoulder, squeezing as hard as he could. Yugi cried out in pain, looking up at Yami, pleading. Yami only smiled and squeezed harder before whispering in the young boy's ear. "I hate you! And wish you would have never been born!" Tears rolled uncontrollably down Yugi's face. Suddenly he wished he had never told Yami that he loved him.
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END SEQUENCE
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Yugi Motou woke up startled, panting heavily, sweat pouring down his body. It was a dream. It was all a dream. The young boy stated quietly to himself feeling relieved. But it seemed so real! Sitting up in his bed, Yugi brought his knees to his chest and rocked back and forth gently. What if it's a warning? What if this is what will happen if I tell Yami that I love him? That look he gave me! It would be a fate worse then death if it were true! I can not loose him! I can not bare to live with out him! Oh RA! I feel like I'm being pulled apart! I don't know what to do! Do I commit my love and face the consequences of my yami hating me forever or do I keep silent and wonder for the rest of my life, "what if?" Bring his head to his knees, Yugi cried softly.
Walking down the hallway, to his bedroom, Yami could have sworn he heard the sound of crying. Puzzled, he turned to the sound and found it coming from Yugi's bedroom. Startled, he quickly raced into Yugi's bedroom to find him curled up in the far corner of his bed, crying softly. "Aibou!" Yami stated, softly, walking up to him. Yugi jumped, startled when he heard the name that only Yami called him. Sniffling, Yugi starred up for a few seconds into the dark crismon eyes that seemed to filled with worry. Just as suddenly, he brought his head back down and felt fresh tears cascade their way down his cheeks.
Yami could feel his heart twist in agony as he stood there watching as his aibou, his hikari cry. What was causing him such pain? Sitting down at the edge of the bed, Yami quickly gathered Yugi in his arms and sat him in his lap. Yami held onto Yugi tightly, rocking gently stroking his head making small, gentle noises to quiet him. "Will you tell me what is bothering you aibou?" Yugi looked up at Yami pondering wether or not he should tell him when the image of the hatred he saw Yami give him in his dream flashed through his mind. Whimpering, he cried even harder, placing his face in Yami's chest, trying to hide it from his view. Shocked, Yami held on to Yugi tighter. "Shhhhhh....It's okay Yugi." Yami replied softly. "It's alright. I'm here. Don't worry. It's okay now. Shhhhhhh....."
After what seemed like ages, when it was actually just mere minutes, Yami heard the sound of Yugi's crying slowly quiet down until they completely stopped, leaving only a worn-out teenager with red, puffy eyes and hiccups. Yami looked down at Yugi to find that he had cried himself back to sleep. Sighing unhappily, Yami held onto Yugi for a few minutes longer before laying him back in his bed. Tucking him in, Yami looked down at Yugi as if pleading him to wake up and tell him what was wrong. Yami knew all he had to do was visit Yugi's soul room but didn't want to invade on his privacy unless he had to. I'll just talk to him in the morning. Yami thought softly to himself as he leaned down and kissed Yugi on top of his head. And quickly walked out of the door.
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NEXT MORNING
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Yugi woke up early the next morning to find his pillow stained with tears. Did I cry all night? He wondered as he slowly crept out of bed and stretched his tired body trying to rid itself of sleep. And was Yami actually here last night trying to comfort me? Yugi shook his head giving himself the answer. No. I was still dreaming. Just dreaming of how I want him to react after waking up from that awful nightmare. A dream upon a nightmare. Nothing more. Sighing heavily, Yugi slowly walked over to his closet and proceeded to find an outfit for the day.
Across the hall, Yami had also awoken early that morning, though much much earlier then Yugi. After last night's ordeal, Yami found it difficult to fall back asleep. He couldn't get the image of Yugi looking up at him with those eyes crying. It was as if he was at fault for his hikari's pain. But that couldn't be it. Yugi knew that Yami would never hurt him. He loved Yugi. Yami's eyes widened as he suddenly realized that he loved Yugi. Where did these feelings come from? I suppose they've always been there. I've just been too blind to notice it. But it is true. I love Yugi with all my heart and soul. He is the only person I want to spend all of eternity and beyond with. Yami then smiled sadly. Of couse, he could never think of me in that way. I'm his Yami, his protector. Nothing more. I'm being selfish thinking about myself when I should be trying to figure out what had caused him to be so upset last night. Mentally kicking himself, Yami got up out of bed and slowly made his way to Yugi's bedroom.
Just as Yugi pulled on his leather pants, a knock came from the other side of the door. "Come in!" He replied trying to sound cheerful even though the images of last night's nightmare kept flashing through his head. Yami slowly opened the door and stepped in. He stared off in wonder, his mouth gaping as he say Yugi standing before him with only his leather pants on, and they weren't even buckled. "Oh good morning Yami!" Yami quickly shook his head clearing it of any *dirty thoughts* that had seemed to slip into his mind. "Good morning aibou. How do you feel this morning?" Yugi looked up at Yami, bitting his bottom lip. Should I tell him about the dream? Silently he shook his head. No. I can't tell him. He'll only worry and feel sorry for me. Then I would HAVE to tell him that I loved him and have to re-live the nightmare. "I feel great Yami!" Yugi replied happily. He then pulled on a white t-shirt. "Come on. I'll fix us some breakfast!" Walking past Yami, Yugi tryed his best to hid the tears.
//Aibou!//
Yami called out suddenly through the mental-link that the two shared. Yugi stoped dead in his tracks but refused to turn around and look at him.
//Aibou, what is wrong? Please tell me!//
/Nothing is wrong Yami. I'm.....fine......everything is....fine.../
//No it's not! Don't lie to me Yugi! You were crying last night! Why?//
Yugi gasped. That part wasn't a dream. It had actually happened.
//Yugi please! Don't you know how much it hurts me to have seen you like that and not been able to help you? Why were you crying?//
/I can't tell you./
Yami double blinked in shock. //Why not?//
/Because I'm afraid./
//Afraid? Afraid of what?//
/That if I tell you, you'll hate me!/
//Hate you?!?! Yugi Motou!// Yami cried out sternly.
Yugi flinched expecting Yami to react in a violent manner. Instead, to his shock, he found Yami gently placing his arms around him. Embracing him in a hug.
//Oh Yugi! I can not hate you. Not ever. I love you!//
Yugi turned around, shocked. Had he heard right?
/What did you say?/ He asked just above a whisper.
Yami nodded, looking down at him. "Yes. You heard me right. I love you. You are my life, my light, my partner. You are the only being I wish to spend every day with for as long as our heart's beat. And even longer when they stop. I love you with all my heart and soul. And even though you may not feel of me in the same way. I want you to always know that I could never EVER hate you!
Yugi's bottom lip quivered as tears slowly made it's way down his face. "Oh please don't cry aibou! I'm sorry if I upset you!" Yugi shook his head and hugged Yami tightly. "That's why I was afraid." He replied softly, slowly beginning to smile. "I had a dream last night where I told you that I loved you and you said you hated me and that you wished I was never born. But it wasn't the words that hurt, it was the look you gave me. I couldn't bare to have that dream become a reality. I would rather die then have to live it. You see Yami, I was afraid you couldn't or wouldn't love my back." Yami smiled looking down at his hikari. Gently he placed his hand underneath the smaller version of himself and lifted his head so it faced him. He then gently lowered his head and softly kissed him on his lips. "I love you with all my heart and soul. I wish to spend all of eternity and beyond with you and only you." Fresh tears formed in Yugi's eyes, instead though, these were tears of joy. "Oh Yami!" He cried out happily as the two met each other in a deep, passonite kiss.
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Good? Bad? Please be honest. Like I said, this is my first attempt in a yaoi fic.
Yugi: *smiling happily.* Me and Yami!
Yami: *holding onto Yugi protectively, growls at all the Yugi lovers out there.* Get one thing straight you worthless, pathetic mortals! Yugi is mine!!! And if anyone takes him from me, they'll face a fate worse then death!
Kanatasha: *chuckles.* A bit over protective there are we?
Yugi: *blushes.*
Kanatasha: Awwwwww! ^_____^ So Kaiwai!
Yami: *growls, looking up at Kanatasha, brings Yugi closer to him.* Mine!
Yugi: *leans up and whispers something in Yami's ear.*
Yami: *looks down at Yugi, shocked.*
Yugi: *smiles deviously, nodding his head.*
Yami: *returns smile, picks up Yugi and runs out of the room and into another one.*
Kanatasha: Hey! Where are you going? Could you do the disclaimer?
Both: NO! *slam the door but not before putting a DO NOT DISTURB sign on the door.
Kanatasha: *shrugs. Oh well. Anyways here is my fic. Please Review. It really boost up my confidence!
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DISCLAIMER: NO OWN YU-GI-OH!
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...... private thoughts
//....// Yami
/..../ Yugi
A FEAR OF NO LOVE
"Yugi Motou! You are worthless and pathetic! How could you EVER think I could think of you in that way? Look at you! You are small and weak! It makes me sick just to have to look at you! But I HAVE to! I'm cursed forever in being your protector, your yami!" Dark, crismon eyes stared hatefully down at a small figure huddled in a corner who was starring up in shock, tears rolling down his soft, angelic face. "Y...y....yami! I...I...I..." Yami meerly snickered, copying Yugi. "Y...y....yami! I...I...I..." His face then turned to a snarl as he reached down and violently picked Yugi up by the shoulder, squeezing as hard as he could. Yugi cried out in pain, looking up at Yami, pleading. Yami only smiled and squeezed harder before whispering in the young boy's ear. "I hate you! And wish you would have never been born!" Tears rolled uncontrollably down Yugi's face. Suddenly he wished he had never told Yami that he loved him.
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END SEQUENCE
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Yugi Motou woke up startled, panting heavily, sweat pouring down his body. It was a dream. It was all a dream. The young boy stated quietly to himself feeling relieved. But it seemed so real! Sitting up in his bed, Yugi brought his knees to his chest and rocked back and forth gently. What if it's a warning? What if this is what will happen if I tell Yami that I love him? That look he gave me! It would be a fate worse then death if it were true! I can not loose him! I can not bare to live with out him! Oh RA! I feel like I'm being pulled apart! I don't know what to do! Do I commit my love and face the consequences of my yami hating me forever or do I keep silent and wonder for the rest of my life, "what if?" Bring his head to his knees, Yugi cried softly.
Walking down the hallway, to his bedroom, Yami could have sworn he heard the sound of crying. Puzzled, he turned to the sound and found it coming from Yugi's bedroom. Startled, he quickly raced into Yugi's bedroom to find him curled up in the far corner of his bed, crying softly. "Aibou!" Yami stated, softly, walking up to him. Yugi jumped, startled when he heard the name that only Yami called him. Sniffling, Yugi starred up for a few seconds into the dark crismon eyes that seemed to filled with worry. Just as suddenly, he brought his head back down and felt fresh tears cascade their way down his cheeks.
Yami could feel his heart twist in agony as he stood there watching as his aibou, his hikari cry. What was causing him such pain? Sitting down at the edge of the bed, Yami quickly gathered Yugi in his arms and sat him in his lap. Yami held onto Yugi tightly, rocking gently stroking his head making small, gentle noises to quiet him. "Will you tell me what is bothering you aibou?" Yugi looked up at Yami pondering wether or not he should tell him when the image of the hatred he saw Yami give him in his dream flashed through his mind. Whimpering, he cried even harder, placing his face in Yami's chest, trying to hide it from his view. Shocked, Yami held on to Yugi tighter. "Shhhhhh....It's okay Yugi." Yami replied softly. "It's alright. I'm here. Don't worry. It's okay now. Shhhhhhh....."
After what seemed like ages, when it was actually just mere minutes, Yami heard the sound of Yugi's crying slowly quiet down until they completely stopped, leaving only a worn-out teenager with red, puffy eyes and hiccups. Yami looked down at Yugi to find that he had cried himself back to sleep. Sighing unhappily, Yami held onto Yugi for a few minutes longer before laying him back in his bed. Tucking him in, Yami looked down at Yugi as if pleading him to wake up and tell him what was wrong. Yami knew all he had to do was visit Yugi's soul room but didn't want to invade on his privacy unless he had to. I'll just talk to him in the morning. Yami thought softly to himself as he leaned down and kissed Yugi on top of his head. And quickly walked out of the door.
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NEXT MORNING
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Yugi woke up early the next morning to find his pillow stained with tears. Did I cry all night? He wondered as he slowly crept out of bed and stretched his tired body trying to rid itself of sleep. And was Yami actually here last night trying to comfort me? Yugi shook his head giving himself the answer. No. I was still dreaming. Just dreaming of how I want him to react after waking up from that awful nightmare. A dream upon a nightmare. Nothing more. Sighing heavily, Yugi slowly walked over to his closet and proceeded to find an outfit for the day.
Across the hall, Yami had also awoken early that morning, though much much earlier then Yugi. After last night's ordeal, Yami found it difficult to fall back asleep. He couldn't get the image of Yugi looking up at him with those eyes crying. It was as if he was at fault for his hikari's pain. But that couldn't be it. Yugi knew that Yami would never hurt him. He loved Yugi. Yami's eyes widened as he suddenly realized that he loved Yugi. Where did these feelings come from? I suppose they've always been there. I've just been too blind to notice it. But it is true. I love Yugi with all my heart and soul. He is the only person I want to spend all of eternity and beyond with. Yami then smiled sadly. Of couse, he could never think of me in that way. I'm his Yami, his protector. Nothing more. I'm being selfish thinking about myself when I should be trying to figure out what had caused him to be so upset last night. Mentally kicking himself, Yami got up out of bed and slowly made his way to Yugi's bedroom.
Just as Yugi pulled on his leather pants, a knock came from the other side of the door. "Come in!" He replied trying to sound cheerful even though the images of last night's nightmare kept flashing through his head. Yami slowly opened the door and stepped in. He stared off in wonder, his mouth gaping as he say Yugi standing before him with only his leather pants on, and they weren't even buckled. "Oh good morning Yami!" Yami quickly shook his head clearing it of any *dirty thoughts* that had seemed to slip into his mind. "Good morning aibou. How do you feel this morning?" Yugi looked up at Yami, bitting his bottom lip. Should I tell him about the dream? Silently he shook his head. No. I can't tell him. He'll only worry and feel sorry for me. Then I would HAVE to tell him that I loved him and have to re-live the nightmare. "I feel great Yami!" Yugi replied happily. He then pulled on a white t-shirt. "Come on. I'll fix us some breakfast!" Walking past Yami, Yugi tryed his best to hid the tears.
//Aibou!//
Yami called out suddenly through the mental-link that the two shared. Yugi stoped dead in his tracks but refused to turn around and look at him.
//Aibou, what is wrong? Please tell me!//
/Nothing is wrong Yami. I'm.....fine......everything is....fine.../
//No it's not! Don't lie to me Yugi! You were crying last night! Why?//
Yugi gasped. That part wasn't a dream. It had actually happened.
//Yugi please! Don't you know how much it hurts me to have seen you like that and not been able to help you? Why were you crying?//
/I can't tell you./
Yami double blinked in shock. //Why not?//
/Because I'm afraid./
//Afraid? Afraid of what?//
/That if I tell you, you'll hate me!/
//Hate you?!?! Yugi Motou!// Yami cried out sternly.
Yugi flinched expecting Yami to react in a violent manner. Instead, to his shock, he found Yami gently placing his arms around him. Embracing him in a hug.
//Oh Yugi! I can not hate you. Not ever. I love you!//
Yugi turned around, shocked. Had he heard right?
/What did you say?/ He asked just above a whisper.
Yami nodded, looking down at him. "Yes. You heard me right. I love you. You are my life, my light, my partner. You are the only being I wish to spend every day with for as long as our heart's beat. And even longer when they stop. I love you with all my heart and soul. And even though you may not feel of me in the same way. I want you to always know that I could never EVER hate you!
Yugi's bottom lip quivered as tears slowly made it's way down his face. "Oh please don't cry aibou! I'm sorry if I upset you!" Yugi shook his head and hugged Yami tightly. "That's why I was afraid." He replied softly, slowly beginning to smile. "I had a dream last night where I told you that I loved you and you said you hated me and that you wished I was never born. But it wasn't the words that hurt, it was the look you gave me. I couldn't bare to have that dream become a reality. I would rather die then have to live it. You see Yami, I was afraid you couldn't or wouldn't love my back." Yami smiled looking down at his hikari. Gently he placed his hand underneath the smaller version of himself and lifted his head so it faced him. He then gently lowered his head and softly kissed him on his lips. "I love you with all my heart and soul. I wish to spend all of eternity and beyond with you and only you." Fresh tears formed in Yugi's eyes, instead though, these were tears of joy. "Oh Yami!" He cried out happily as the two met each other in a deep, passonite kiss.
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Good? Bad? Please be honest. Like I said, this is my first attempt in a yaoi fic.