Missing Me
Hey. It's me
It's been a while
Since I've seen you
Miss me?
Things are bad here
Sometimes I want to scream
Sometimes I do scream
But no one's here to comfort me now
I'm starting to realize that's my fault
I smile for the ones I love
I need to be the girl I was
If only for them
They deserve that much
But I think they must know it's just a lie
I haven't thought of you
Not recently, till tonight
I've taught myself not to care
And I may just have finally moved on
But I can't
Because I can't help pushing him away
I can't help beating him down
I can't let myself love someone so dark
Someone so much like me
When the nights are lonely
And I can't bring myself to cry
I think of you
I wish that I were back in those days
Those days when you were here
I was young, and you were brave
And we were so in love
We could face anything together
And oh, how we were tested
In the end, it came down to a matter of when
It still hurts that you gave up first
But I've got someone now
As crazy, twisted, unexpected
As it may be
I don't need you here to save me
Cause I'm surviving on my own
Still I know that something's missing
In the spot where you used to be
I think, really, that it's not you I miss
I think I miss me
The girl I was back then
The girl who saved the world
The girl you loved
I've changed, so much
And so have you, it seems
You have a whole new life without me
And I never speak your name
But sometimes, when I force a smile
That I know you would have seen right through
I remember days when I didn't need to lie
Days when I could be strong
When sacrifice meant so much less
Hey. remember me?
It's been a while
And I'm so tired
I need someone who hasn't seen
All the sin and pain I've caused
To that girl
Who used to be me