All My Life Chapter 14: Cruel Summer, a harry potter fanfic

All My Life

*~* Cruel Summer *~*

**Cruel Summer**

Hot summer streets
And the pavements are burning
I sit around
Trying to smile but
The air is so heavy and dry
Strange voices are saying
(What did they say)
Things I can't understand
It's too close for comfort
This heat has got
Right out of hand

It's a cruel, (cruel,) cruel summer
Leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, (it's a cruel,) cruel summer
Now you're gone

The city is crowded
My friends are away
And I'm on my own
It's too hot to handle
So I got to get up and go

It's a cruel, (cruel), cruel summer
Leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, (it's a cruel,) cruel summer
Now you're gone

Gonna feel only it was

It's a cruel, (cruel), cruel summer
(Leaving me) leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, (it's a cruel,) cruel summer
Now you're gone

It's a cruel, cruel summer
Leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, cruel summer
Now you're gone

Gonna feel only it was

It's a cruel, (cruel), cruel summer
(Leaving me) leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, (it's a cruel,) cruel summer
Now you're gone

Gonna feel only it was

It's a cruel, (cruel), cruel summer
(Leaving me) leaving me here on my own
It's a cruel, (it's a cruel,) cruel summer
Now...

**Ace of Base**

"Another year, Lil." Sirius said, leaning against the chosen compartment of the second year Gryffindors.

"I know! I can't believe it! So much has happened, in what seems as no time at all." She stated, snapping her fingers together. She put her things away and then went to sit down. She ended up sitting next to James, and he put his arm around her. They sat like this for the rest of the ride, while Ava and Elle flipped through Witches Weekly, and Sirius and Remus played exploding snap. Since the dance, Lily and James had been inseparable. On her birthday, he had gone all out, organizing a party in Gryffindor (with McGonagall's approval) and surprising her with an extra birthday gift. He had ordered a special music box for her, that when she opened it, instead of a ballerina or whatever, it was a figurine of her and James, dancing together. The song that played was the tune to All My Life. On the top, it was hand painted with lilies everywhere, and in elegant cursive writing it said, Tiger Lily. When she opened it, she started crying and hyperventilating, and he had to take her outside the common room to calm her down. Sirius has quite a few theories on how he went about that.

"It makes me sick." Sirius whispered to Remus, nodding towards Lily and James, who were sitting together, totally enveloped with each other.

"Yeah," Remus laughed as he stared at the two, and then towards Elle. He smiled as he saw her giggling with Ava about something in the magazine. It saddened him though, because he knew they weren't made for each other, like Lily and James are. He knew they had to break off whatever romantic inclinations they felt, because it just wasn't working out. He knew that Elle felt this way too.

"Anything off the trolley, dears?" A woman asked, popping her head in the compartment.

"Ooo!" Sirius sounded, as he popped up and ran to the sweet trolley, loading up a knapsack with pounds of Chocolate Frogs and Pumpkin Pasties. He'd given up on Bertie Bott's Every Flavored Beans, after the 8th dirt tasting one.

"Want anything Jim?" Sirius said, unwrapping a frog and capturing it with his hands.

James didn't answer.

"Jim?" He asked again, looking at the other people in the compartment, who just shrugged.

"Hello? Earth to Jamie?" He said, finally resorting to murder. Well, the murder of a perfectly good chocolate frog.

"Oy! Jim!" He yelled as he pelted James with the confectionary toad.

"What the???" James yelled, snapping out of his 'Lily Trance' as Sirius had named it.

"Well, I just wanted to know if you wanted some candy?!" Sirius said backing away.

"Black, your ass is mine." James growled as he lunged towards him, causing quite a commotion in the compartment. Ava and Elle leapt up onto their seat, as Sirius and James rolled around on the floor, trying to choke each other.

"Guys!" Remus yelled, trying to separate the two.

"James!" Lily shrieked, pulling her boyfriend off of Sirius, who was laughing hysterically.

"That, look… Priceless!" He wheezed pointing at James, who began to laugh as well.

"Watch your back, Black." James laughed.

"That, rhymed!" Sirius started over again, as he went into hysterics.

After a minute or two of their sidesplitting laughter, the girls began to get worried.

"Are they breathing?" Elle asked, crouching down to their level. Their faces were turning red, and they were shaking, but no noise was coming out. All of a sudden they stopped, took a deep breath, got up and went back to their respective seats.

"What?" Remus said, throwing up is arms in confusion.

"It just wasn't funny anymore," Sirius said, and James agreed.

"So, we almost there yet?" James asked a minute later, twiddling his thumbs.

Almost as if an answer, the train slowed to a stop and they realized they were at Kings Cross Station.

"Your magic!" Lily said.

"I know, I am a wizard, and you are a witch, and we go to Hogwarts…" James said, not understanding the muggle phrase.

"Oh, yeah." Lily said, not really feeling like arguing.

"Ok baby, I will see you later, ok?" James said, giving Lily a quick kiss.

"K, I will come over later tonight or tomorrow." She said, returning the kiss, and running towards her parents, not before saying the rest of her goodbyes, though.

"So how's life at thirteen, sweetheart?" Lily's mum asked from the front seat of their car.

"It's great mum!" Lily said. She had grown up alot since last time her mother had seen her.

"Well, Petunia is at home with Vernon, waiting for you," Lily's dad said, turning the corner to their house.

"I'm sure she's waiting for me," Lily mumbled, and then thought for a minute. "Wait a minute! She is still dating that bloody idiot Dursley?"

"Lily!" Her mother said, turning around.

"Sorry mum."

"And to answer your question," her father said, pulling into the driveway, "yes she is still going out with that bloody idiot Dursley."

"Andrew!" Her mother shrieked.

"Sorry." He said sheepishly, as Lily giggled.

Once Lily had gotten settled in her room, she headed downstairs for dinner, and then headed over to James and Sirius' house.

Lily knocked on the door to the Black's mansion. As Sirius opened it, his face fell, and then he shut the door. Lily knocked again. He opened the door expectantly, and then his face fell yet again when he realized it was still Lily.

"Sirius!" She screamed sticking her foot in the door as he tried to close it once again.

"Oh hey Lily." He said, rolling his eyes and letting her in.

James ran down the stairs and picked Lily up in a bone-crushing hug.

"Oh God, give it a rest you two, you saw each other like, 2 hours ago." Sirius said with an annoyed tone.

"What's with him?" Lily asked as Sirius walked into the kitchen.

"Oh," James answered, "he was expecting some muggle mail. I guess he was a little disappointed that you were on his door step."

"Well, he does know that the post goes to the mailbox." Lily said, grabbing a cookie from James.

"The what?" Sirius asked, when he entered back into the parlor.

"The mail box, come on, I'll show you." She said walking out the door, and down the front steps.

"Isn't she amazing?" James asked, following after her.

"Yes James," Sirius said sarcastically, getting in front of James, "best thing since sliced bread."

"Huh?"

"Muggle thing." Sirius explained.

"Oh," James said nodding.

After a few moments of walking, they came to the mailboxes. Lily reached in grabbed Sirius' package, as he tore it from her hands.

"Yes!" Sirius said, tearing open the paper.

"What is it?" Lily asked, and James shrugged.

Sirius sighed as he pulled out a…

"A video camera?" Lily asked, grabbing it from him. "What's so special about this?"

"Oh, well Elle had one at a quidditch match, and she showed me the video afterwards. So I researched them, and I bought one. I'm gonna make a video for Elle's birthday. She is obsessed with muggle things." Sirius said, examining the camera as he walked back to the house.

"Oh." Lily nodded and then grabbed James for a quick kiss. Well it was a quick kiss, and then in turned out into a make out session in the middle of the street. Sirius didn't notice and just kept walking. Once he got to the front door he held it open, for no one. He glanced down the street and saw Lily and James.

"Oh come on!" He screamed at them. "Give me a break!"

They broke apart and then ran towards Sirius' house and walked in.

"OK Elle, here it is, the fifteenth of August, two months before your birthday!" Sirius said into the camera, which was on a tripod in the middle of his front yard.

"Where did Lily and James go?" Sirius asked himself, the camera still watching him.

"Right here Sirius." Lily said, coming out of the house with lemonade.

"Ok Lily, do some tricks for the camera!" Sirius said, dragging himself out of the spotlight, as Lily did some flips and cartwheels.

"Hi Elle!" James said standing in the view of the camera, and Lily stood up, noticing James was stealing her glory.

"Hey!" She yelled, as she ran and tackled him to the ground. Then Sirius went and stood in front of the camera once again.

"So, have you heard this joke Elle?" Sirius said, as he went into a detailed knock-knock joke.

About twenty minutes later, after three tackles, four more knock-knock jokes, two rousing renditions of the birthday song, and finger puppet play, a voice was heard from inside.

"James! Sirius! Come here for a minute!" Lana Black yelled from the front door.

"Coming mum!" Sirius yelled back, and then turned towards Lily, "you stay here and entertain Elle." He said as he gestured towards the camera. "We'll be right back."

"Ok!" She said back as they trotted inside.

About 15 minutes later the two boys came back out to find a very disturbing site.

"No, James, wait!" Sirius whispered as they walked towards Lily, who was on the ground, 15 feet away, on top of some guy. They were making out, and he had his hands up her shirt. He rolled over on top of her and then after about five more minutes of groping and kissing, he whispered something to her and then got up and walked away. James felt his heart break into pieces. She lay on the ground, staring up at the sky. James threw down the Popsicles he was instructed to bring out there by Lana, and marched over to where Lily was laying.

"Lily!" He yelled. She shot straight up and was startled, as if being awoke.

"Yeah, baby?" She said, standing up, and brushing herself off. She walked towards him and put her arms around him. He grabbed her hands and threw them at her sides.

"What the hell are you doing?" He screamed, and she took a step back.

"What are you talking about?" she asked calmly playing with her hair.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about!" He screamed, his voice cracking.

"No I don't!" She screamed back. Sirius couldn't believe what he was hearing.

"What were you doing with that guy?" James yelled, tears welling up.

"What guy?" She asked.

"Don't play dumb, Lily. I saw you!"

"I don't know what you say you saw, there was no guy." She said calmly, shaking her head.

He stepped forward and grabbed her hands, and she smiled.

"Lily," He said sweetly.

"Yeah baby?" She asked back, stepping closer.

"Get off my property." He said through gritted teeth.

"What?" She screamed.

"Get out!" He yelled back, walking away, "Go home!"

"James, what are you…"

"Lily, I am breaking up with you. I never want to see your slutty face again." He said, walking up the front steps.

"Sirius, why is he…"

"Just go Lil," Sirius said, following James.

"Sirius!"

"Lily! You're not wanted here. We saw you going at it with that guy, and you have the audacity to sit here and lie to us about it. What, do you think we're that stupid?" He yelled, as tears rolled down her face.

He slammed the front door and she just stood there, shocked. She started running home. She went straight up to her room and landed on her bed.

"I don't believe it!" She cried. "I can't believe it!"

After James had locked himself in his room, Sirius was alone, to ponder the days events. Then he remembered the camera was still sitting outside, so he jogged downstairs to retrieve it.

"Dead battery. Damn." He said, as he went inside to change the battery. He then recorded a quick message goodbye, and stuck the video in his Hogwarts trunk, making a mental note to give it to Elle at a later date.

**~**Never Again**~**

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love, it's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face lookin' in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half a man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me again
No, no, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do was apologize and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half a man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

It's like hell, I can't go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now
Hey...ooh...ooh...ooh

**Justin Timberlake**

(A/N: This song is so perfect for this chapter, don't you think???)

The next few weeks passed rather uneventfully for Sirius, seeing as though James wouldn't come out of his room, and Lily didn't come over anymore. Before he knew it, it was time for school, and he had never been so excited.

"Hey Ava! Elle!" Sirius said, running to his friends and hugging them tightly.

"Hey Remus!" He said, moving onto another friend.

James and Lily were nowhere to be seen.

"Where are the two lovebirds? A compartment somewhere, snogging?" Remus laughed.

"Lily isn't here yet, and James went to get a compartment. And you might not want to say that." Sirius said to Remus and the girls.

"Why?" They asked in unison.

"They broke up."

"What!?" They asked simultaneously.

"Hey guys!" Lily said, coming up from behind everyone. Everyone gave her a hug, except Sirius, who backed away. Remus was the only one that noticed though, as everyone walked to the compartment.

Lily and James didn't talk much, just answered questions when they were asked them. This was pretty much a pattern for the first month or so of school. Then the unthinkable happened.

Hey readers, don't freak out, I won't leave you with that for very long. And it's not a big deal or anything. Don't worry. I will talk to you later. Oh yeah, if you didn't already know, my story got screwed up, so if you had it book marked, I don't think you can access it any more. I hope everyone will be able to find it. I have 0 reviews now, and it makes me sad. So if you want to leave a lot of reviews, be my guest. I love you all.

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