What You Didn't Expect
Chapter 17: I'm Just A Little Unwell
~*All day, starin' at the ceiling
Making friends with the shadows on my wall
All night, hearin' voices tellin' me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Oh no, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be*~
Gordo stared at his ceiling, stretched across his couch, thinking about all sorts of things. The sun was setting outside his window, and soon shadows would be cast over his walls, dancing everywhere, like he wished he could with Lizzie. He'd seen her off at the airport the day before, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek and then turning to hurry away, so that she wouldn't see how upset he was.
It would have done her no good to know she was killing him with every smile she gave him, every word she spoke, every breath she took. If she'd known, he knew she wouldn't have gone, but he couldn't keep her from her life back in Florida. He didn't have the capabilities in him to be that selfish. He never stopped to think that sometimes you had to be a little selfish, in order to be happy.
*~*~*~*
Meanwhile, back in Florida, Lizzie was thinking about Gordo, too. 'What would I have done, if he'd asked me to stay? Would he have asked me? Should I call him and tell him I'm going to move back to California, too?' She picked up the phone and started to dial the number, but hung up after the area code. She couldn't call and tell him. He'd probably think she was out of her mind. He'd try to convince her to stay in Florida, that she needed to keep the job she'd been offered, that she couldn't do something because of him.
But she wasn't making the plans just because of him. Miranda was there, too, and her family. she'd always planned to move back to California after college, and life was always so much easier when it was planned. Yes, she decided, this was what she should do. Lizzie logged onto AOL to search for jobs in California, and as soon as she was connected, an IM came up on the screen.
MirandaDaPanda: Hola, chica. What's up?
LizzieMac06: I'm looking for a job.
MirandaDaPanda: Here?
LizzieMac06: Yep!
MirandaDaPanda: Awesome! Are you talking to Gordo?
Lizzie looked at her buddy list. Gordo was online. Why hadn't he IMed her yet? 'He's probably mad at me for something, I probably did something wrong and don't know it,' she thought. She clicked on his name and typed a message.
LizzieMac06: Hey, Gordo.
DG Man2000: Hey, babe. What are you doing?
LizzieMac06: Are you mad at me?
DG Man2000: No, why would you think that?
LizzieMac06: 'Cuz you didn't IM me.
DG Man2000: LOL I was in the middle of checking my bank account when you signed on, I was going to send you a message when I was done. I had to make sure I have enough in the bank to pay the fee for breaking the lease on my apartment so I can move back home.
LizzieMac06: Oh. I feel so bad, Gordo. You and Miranda are going to be back home, and I'm going to be here in Florida, while you guys are having a blast together again, as the two amigos instead of the three amigos. Or you'll find some new friends, or start hanging with the old friends, and forget about me!
DG Man2000: Do you really think we could forget you, Liz? Miranda certainly won't, and there's no way possible for me to forget the girl I love.
Lizzie blushed when she read Gordo's message. She knew he'd be surprised and happy when she showed up on his doorstep. She'd have to get Miranda to keep her mouth shut. Just then she heard a ping, and saw that the window from Miranda's IM was blinking, so she clicked on it.
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie? You alive?
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie! Elizabeth Brooke McGuire! Where the hell are you? Aye carumba!
Lizzie laughed when she read that.
LizzieMac06: I'm here, Randa. Sorry. I was talking to Gordo. Listen, don't tell him I'm moving back, okay? I want it to be a surprise when I show up at his place.
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie, Lizzie, Lizzie. Do I ever tell anyone the things you tell me?
LizzieMac06: Do you really want me to answer that? :-P
MirandaDaPanda: Hush. I'm gonna head out for now, I've got to go to work. I'll see you later!
Miranda signed off before Lizzie could even type out a 'See ya later!', so she told Gordo she'd be back in a little while, and put up her away message so she could search for a job.
Chapter 17: I'm Just A Little Unwell
~*All day, starin' at the ceiling
Making friends with the shadows on my wall
All night, hearin' voices tellin' me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Oh no, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be*~
Gordo stared at his ceiling, stretched across his couch, thinking about all sorts of things. The sun was setting outside his window, and soon shadows would be cast over his walls, dancing everywhere, like he wished he could with Lizzie. He'd seen her off at the airport the day before, giving her a quick kiss on the cheek and then turning to hurry away, so that she wouldn't see how upset he was.
It would have done her no good to know she was killing him with every smile she gave him, every word she spoke, every breath she took. If she'd known, he knew she wouldn't have gone, but he couldn't keep her from her life back in Florida. He didn't have the capabilities in him to be that selfish. He never stopped to think that sometimes you had to be a little selfish, in order to be happy.
*~*~*~*
Meanwhile, back in Florida, Lizzie was thinking about Gordo, too. 'What would I have done, if he'd asked me to stay? Would he have asked me? Should I call him and tell him I'm going to move back to California, too?' She picked up the phone and started to dial the number, but hung up after the area code. She couldn't call and tell him. He'd probably think she was out of her mind. He'd try to convince her to stay in Florida, that she needed to keep the job she'd been offered, that she couldn't do something because of him.
But she wasn't making the plans just because of him. Miranda was there, too, and her family. she'd always planned to move back to California after college, and life was always so much easier when it was planned. Yes, she decided, this was what she should do. Lizzie logged onto AOL to search for jobs in California, and as soon as she was connected, an IM came up on the screen.
MirandaDaPanda: Hola, chica. What's up?
LizzieMac06: I'm looking for a job.
MirandaDaPanda: Here?
LizzieMac06: Yep!
MirandaDaPanda: Awesome! Are you talking to Gordo?
Lizzie looked at her buddy list. Gordo was online. Why hadn't he IMed her yet? 'He's probably mad at me for something, I probably did something wrong and don't know it,' she thought. She clicked on his name and typed a message.
LizzieMac06: Hey, Gordo.
DG Man2000: Hey, babe. What are you doing?
LizzieMac06: Are you mad at me?
DG Man2000: No, why would you think that?
LizzieMac06: 'Cuz you didn't IM me.
DG Man2000: LOL I was in the middle of checking my bank account when you signed on, I was going to send you a message when I was done. I had to make sure I have enough in the bank to pay the fee for breaking the lease on my apartment so I can move back home.
LizzieMac06: Oh. I feel so bad, Gordo. You and Miranda are going to be back home, and I'm going to be here in Florida, while you guys are having a blast together again, as the two amigos instead of the three amigos. Or you'll find some new friends, or start hanging with the old friends, and forget about me!
DG Man2000: Do you really think we could forget you, Liz? Miranda certainly won't, and there's no way possible for me to forget the girl I love.
Lizzie blushed when she read Gordo's message. She knew he'd be surprised and happy when she showed up on his doorstep. She'd have to get Miranda to keep her mouth shut. Just then she heard a ping, and saw that the window from Miranda's IM was blinking, so she clicked on it.
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie? You alive?
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie! Elizabeth Brooke McGuire! Where the hell are you? Aye carumba!
Lizzie laughed when she read that.
LizzieMac06: I'm here, Randa. Sorry. I was talking to Gordo. Listen, don't tell him I'm moving back, okay? I want it to be a surprise when I show up at his place.
MirandaDaPanda: Lizzie, Lizzie, Lizzie. Do I ever tell anyone the things you tell me?
LizzieMac06: Do you really want me to answer that? :-P
MirandaDaPanda: Hush. I'm gonna head out for now, I've got to go to work. I'll see you later!
Miranda signed off before Lizzie could even type out a 'See ya later!', so she told Gordo she'd be back in a little while, and put up her away message so she could search for a job.