I do not own Gundam Wing or its characters. They belong to their appropriate owners.
It contains or will contain yaoi, strong language and more. Heero's
POV (trying hard to be in character).
Rediscovered
by solange channonix
Chapter III
" You shouldn't worry. it isn't a real problem unless you fall for someone straight, there are really many guys like that, more than you'd think..." Duo began blabbering, his eyes lightening up.
I wanted him to shut up, but somehow, I couldn't get myself to yell at him or simply hit him for what he was implying. I reached my hand and put a finger on his lips, which silenced him better than any from the above.
" Heero, do you like me in that way, too ?" He asked softly, reaching to my hand.
I took it away. Did I like him in that way ? It had taken me long enough to accept the fact I liked him at all. Close friendship with partners in the war wasn't very professional, it would have hurt me if I had seen him die and many times it had been a close thing. Beside that, we were different, in too many ways for comfort and like I understood Trowa in almost everything he was doing and knew what he wanted to say without him actually speaking, because we were so much alike, I didn't understand Duo at all and I'd stopped trying to guess what he would do next long time ago.
Did I like him in that way ? Like being sexually attracted to him ? It hadn't happened ever before, throughout all these months we had been rooming together, I had even seen him naked few times before and it had had no effects on me at all, but now... I was hard, indeed. Like if him interested in me in that way had changed everything between us.
Verbal confessions weren't the thing I was good at, being a guy who always did more than talked I crushed my lips to his before he had time to blink. I wanted to do this too badly to be able to get away with that. Just that one night, I would have him and it would go away...
Duo moaned, granting me access to his sweet mouth and falling down on his back, pulling me on top of him. Kissing him, as a guy, wasn't very different from kissing Relena, or any other girl, I guessed it was after when the real difference began.
No difference, was it ? There was not, until Duo blinked his hazed eyes open and like if only then realizing whom he was kissing, began an assault on his own. Next second, I was lying on my back, with him straddling me and his tongue stuck whole the way down my throat, mishevious gleam coming to his eyes. Not much of a chance to switch positions, he was strong, maybe weaker than me, but still strong enough to hold me down like that.
I wasn't fucked going to play the girl's part. I opened my eyes again to look into his, impossibly large pools of blue mixed with intense purple from that distance, and saw the same thing reflecting there. That moment our kiss changed into fierce battle and it had nothing to do with what I had had with Relena anymore. Duo had temper and had passion, but also strenght to be standing behind them, he was kissing with lip-bruising force, his hips pushing hard on top of mine, his hands grasping mine. He was... fucked winning, but his victory over me was sweet, his hair sliding down from his back onto my chest, his skilled tongue probing my mouth.
Slowly, we began to run out of breath and broke apart, Duo's eyes almost dreamy. In a swift motion, I took my hands up to his head and pressed his face down, our hips brushing again. I put my knee in his stomach, kicking the wind out of him and rolled us over. He had left me that opening, it was his own fault. I smirked, pinning him firmly down under me.
" You're not going anywhere." I hissed, seeing him squirm.
After a while, he accepted defeat and gave up on trying to turn the roles again. His eyes bore into mine.
" Do you like me in that way ?" He asked again, breathing hard.
I leaned down to kiss him, but he pushed me away the best he could.
" Tell me."
" Yes." I muttered, finally getting back to his sweet mouth.
I wanted more of him, all of him, he was addictive, like if one who once touched him could never get enough of him. And his submission was sweeter for me than his domination.
However, he should have fought, not just lay there, letting me kiss him breathless and moaning, and thrashing as my hands roamed uncertainly over his chest.
He pushed me off him delicately, sitting up to take his tank top off. I sat up as well, only then realizing how hard I was breathing and how thin layer of sweat was covering my body. He had his effect on me, too. He took his hair over his shoulder, reavealing his face and turning to face me, his eyes meeting mine almost uncertainly this time. He was blushing furiously, he seemed so terribly confused...
He had discovered recently he was gay, at least partially, and this was probably his first attempt on sex with another male. He could be confused. He should be. Why wasn't I ? He was a guy, the best friend I'd ever had, ex-partner from the war, and I wanted to fuck him and feel nothing. He felt at least shame, because what we had been going to do was wrong, sex without love with someone important for you in some other way always is. I had had that with Relena. I had hurt her with that. And I hadn't half the romantic feelings I had for her for Duo. He had turned me on himself, flirting with me whole the evening, but it hadn't been fully his fault either, I had turned him on first, doing nothing special, maybe even back during the war.
I looked up at him, meeting his uncertain gaze. The spell was broken, I was still hard, but I didn't want him anymore, not like that, however getting emotionally involved with him on a new level seemed equally impossible for me, so maybe not at all. I wasn't going to make a slut out of him.
" Let's go to sleep." I said, lying down on the towels, leaving the most room for him I could.
He nodded and lay down as well, cuddling me and burying his face in my neck, his hair covering both of us. It would be like that, he wouldn't stop looking for physical contact with me, but I could get used to him in that way, I thought wrapping my arms around him. Anyway, it was cold in the room, we hadn't much choice but to me warming each other. Lame excuse, wasn't it ? Coldness never really bothered me.
" You're really sure you want to go with me ?" He muttered, his words muffled by my shirt.
" Yes."
" I'll tell her you're my best friend, ok ? This is what you are for me."
I nodded. He cuddled me more tightily and muttered something I couldn't hear anymore.
" What ?" I asked, putting him a bit aside.
" How do you think she is ?"
" Don't give it too much hope. She may not be worth you. Sleep."
" Yeah..."
" Hn..."
" You know Hee, you're sweet like that..." He whispered, his next breaths getting slower and slower, the grip he had on me lessening slowly...
Soon after, I fell asleep as well.
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