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Author's note: Here is the second part (insert applause and various
expletives of joy here). All right, I know no one is really waiting with
bated breath, but please allow me my delusions. If by some chance, you do
happen to read it feel free to review. I am thinking of making this a
longer story if however the readers out there would rather burn in all of
the seven layers of hell then read one more word of my drivel then please
say so. I can't stand it when people sugar coat.
Two months after Waiting
Deanna Troi sat in front of her computer screen looking at the list of messages she had to wade through. Most involved ships business, appointment rescheduling, meetings, and one from Beverly inviting her to dinner this evening. There was one from her Mother, and one she dreaded even opening, from Thomas Riker. It had been two months since he had left and because of the distance between them live communiqués were impossible. At first, he had sent her a message almost every day, but as time wore on, she could feel the distance in his messages not only the physical distance, but the emotional as well.
She knew she should open the message but she couldn't bring herself to do it just yet. This could be the one, she thought, the one were he tells me it's over. She had prepared herself for this, had in fact been preparing for it from the moment he had left. She meant what she told Will after Thomas had departed, she knew he wouldn't wait, knew he couldn't wait. In so many ways he was the William T. Riker she had meet over eight years ago. That was part of the attraction, the reliving of memories that she had thought behind her. Unfortunately with the rebirth of those old memories had come the old emotions not only for Tom but for her best friend and Tom's double Commander William Riker. Even while Tom was on board some small part of her had felt the wrongness of their relationship. Some part of her had screamed that it was not right, but she had quieted that voice and turned over all self-control to fate.
Now as she sat in her quarters with the luxury of time and distance she knew why it was wrong, because somehow over the years she had come to love the man Will Riker was now more then she loved the man he had been. It was a sobering thought, a thought that she did not feel totally comfortable having. She knew that her love for him had changed into something else, something more comfortable, and something deeper. When they had first been together there was passion the likes of which she had never found again. Now there was familiarity, companionship, trust, all the things a strong relationship was built on. There was no doubt that the passion two inexperienced lovers had ignited on Betazed was still present with Tom. That in the end was the problem; if the passion was still there with Thomas Riker did that mean it would still be there with his double, her best friend, William Riker.
Deanna shook her head to dispel the uncomfortable thoughts growing there, and stood from her desk. She walked over to the full length mirror and looked at her reflection. The woman who looked back at her was older then the woman Tom had known, seasoned, wiser. She knew in the depths of her soul that what ever had happened between Tom and her could not continue for much longer. He had to find his own path, his own life, and in order to do that he would have to break all contact with the life he knew before, and Deanna would be the first causality of that battle.
She just had to wait, wait for him to realize the truth of that, wait for him to see that she was not really the woman he loved. The woman he loved was lost in memory; she was still on Betazed at the Janaran Falls waiting for the love of her life to return to her. Just as the real living breathing Deanna Troi was waiting. Waiting for that same man to break her heart again.
* * *
For William Riker patience was not an asset he had in abundance. That was one of the many things that he respected about Capitan Picard he was a patient man, and when his patience had run out he was an expert at hiding it. This was one of the countless reasons why he still felt like he had so much to learn from the Capitan.
Riker stole a glance at the dignified man sitting beside him on the bridge, and could not help but wonder how Picard would deal with the current situation that Will found himself in. Of course Will knew how the Capitan would deal with it; he would suck it up and wait for the inevitable to happen. The inevitable being that Tom Riker would eventually end his relationship with Deanna Troi.
Will could still hear Deanna's words on the day that Tom left echoing through his head. 'He won't wait,' she had said, and Will was inclined to agree. Tom would eventually come to the realization that he had to move on; he had to find his own life. Will had no doubt that Tom loved Deanna, but he also knew that Tom had a lot of catching up to do, in his career and his personal life.
So that left Will right back at square one, waiting for Tom to break his best friend's heart. A part of him wished it could work out, if only so Deanna could be spared the pain, but he knew it wouldn't it was just a matter of time. All that William Riker could do was wait.
Deanna Troi sat in front of her computer screen looking at the list of messages she had to wade through. Most involved ships business, appointment rescheduling, meetings, and one from Beverly inviting her to dinner this evening. There was one from her Mother, and one she dreaded even opening, from Thomas Riker. It had been two months since he had left and because of the distance between them live communiqués were impossible. At first, he had sent her a message almost every day, but as time wore on, she could feel the distance in his messages not only the physical distance, but the emotional as well.
She knew she should open the message but she couldn't bring herself to do it just yet. This could be the one, she thought, the one were he tells me it's over. She had prepared herself for this, had in fact been preparing for it from the moment he had left. She meant what she told Will after Thomas had departed, she knew he wouldn't wait, knew he couldn't wait. In so many ways he was the William T. Riker she had meet over eight years ago. That was part of the attraction, the reliving of memories that she had thought behind her. Unfortunately with the rebirth of those old memories had come the old emotions not only for Tom but for her best friend and Tom's double Commander William Riker. Even while Tom was on board some small part of her had felt the wrongness of their relationship. Some part of her had screamed that it was not right, but she had quieted that voice and turned over all self-control to fate.
Now as she sat in her quarters with the luxury of time and distance she knew why it was wrong, because somehow over the years she had come to love the man Will Riker was now more then she loved the man he had been. It was a sobering thought, a thought that she did not feel totally comfortable having. She knew that her love for him had changed into something else, something more comfortable, and something deeper. When they had first been together there was passion the likes of which she had never found again. Now there was familiarity, companionship, trust, all the things a strong relationship was built on. There was no doubt that the passion two inexperienced lovers had ignited on Betazed was still present with Tom. That in the end was the problem; if the passion was still there with Thomas Riker did that mean it would still be there with his double, her best friend, William Riker.
Deanna shook her head to dispel the uncomfortable thoughts growing there, and stood from her desk. She walked over to the full length mirror and looked at her reflection. The woman who looked back at her was older then the woman Tom had known, seasoned, wiser. She knew in the depths of her soul that what ever had happened between Tom and her could not continue for much longer. He had to find his own path, his own life, and in order to do that he would have to break all contact with the life he knew before, and Deanna would be the first causality of that battle.
She just had to wait, wait for him to realize the truth of that, wait for him to see that she was not really the woman he loved. The woman he loved was lost in memory; she was still on Betazed at the Janaran Falls waiting for the love of her life to return to her. Just as the real living breathing Deanna Troi was waiting. Waiting for that same man to break her heart again.
* * *
For William Riker patience was not an asset he had in abundance. That was one of the many things that he respected about Capitan Picard he was a patient man, and when his patience had run out he was an expert at hiding it. This was one of the countless reasons why he still felt like he had so much to learn from the Capitan.
Riker stole a glance at the dignified man sitting beside him on the bridge, and could not help but wonder how Picard would deal with the current situation that Will found himself in. Of course Will knew how the Capitan would deal with it; he would suck it up and wait for the inevitable to happen. The inevitable being that Tom Riker would eventually end his relationship with Deanna Troi.
Will could still hear Deanna's words on the day that Tom left echoing through his head. 'He won't wait,' she had said, and Will was inclined to agree. Tom would eventually come to the realization that he had to move on; he had to find his own life. Will had no doubt that Tom loved Deanna, but he also knew that Tom had a lot of catching up to do, in his career and his personal life.
So that left Will right back at square one, waiting for Tom to break his best friend's heart. A part of him wished it could work out, if only so Deanna could be spared the pain, but he knew it wouldn't it was just a matter of time. All that William Riker could do was wait.