But I must be doing something right, 30 reviews in less than 2 weeks? I promise, the story is going to get a little more interesting. There wasn't much dialogue in the last two chapters, too much narration. And I know "Dear Lizzie" was a pivotal episode in the L/G G/L storyline, but y'all know what happened, why whould I write it all out?
There are other parts of the story that raise a question or two, that no one is asking about. But, if you can't find 'em, oh well.
I never said Kate was more attractive/beautiful/cute than Lizzie. Most people (including Lizzie) probably think so because Kate's a cheerleader, and until the end of the second season, uh, was "bustier" than Lizzie. I think Lizzie wears too much eye makeup, and lip gloss, but I'd pick her over Kate anyday.
More songs here in this chapter, but I'm not listing them until the end, or you may figure out how they are to be used.
Disclaimer- I have zero connections to Disney, Ren-Mar studios, or anyone/thing to do with Lizzie McGuire. All lyrics used are property of the respective artists, labels, ASCAP/BMI, etc.
On to Chapter 9.
Chapter 9
Gordo had to be careful. He was still at school, and these PC's were monitored. He locked the door to the computer lab, and was about to get online, but decided it too risky. He left the lab, and went on to his regular classes, only half paying attention as to where he was, or what he was doing. He managed to get through lunch with Lizzie, then told her he had a big project, but he'd talk to her later.
He hurried home after school, and went online. He prayed Miranda was around. He found she was, and convinced her to go to the private chat...
A/N Screen names totally made up. Have NO idea what their id's were/are.
RandaPanda: Gordo, what's up? You're never on at this time. What's the matter?
GordyPorgy: I wrote a letter to Lizzie's advice column, telling her I thought maybe I liked my friend as more than a friend,
RandaPanda: What? That's great! And she knew it was you, and you're a couple now, and everything worked out fine!
RandaPanda: I'm so happy for you!
GordyPorgy: No, she didn't figure it out. She answered that I should follow my heart, well, my heart knows what it wants, but my mouth won't cooperate! I tried to admit it was me, but I just couldn't.
RandaPanda: Wow. I'm sorry Gordo. I guess you've got to hit her with something more for her to notice. As to what, I'm stumped. A brick?
GordyPorgy: Well, I'm getting desperate, but it isn't the first time I couldn't get her the message. Hey, how are you? Sorry, I was too upset to ask...
RandaPanda: I'm much better, but I'm tired of being here all the time. They won't let me out, they say to protect me from myself.
GordyPorgy: Well, that's why they sent you there, isn't it?
RandaPanda: Yeah, but now they are talking about sending me to Mexico for awhile to think things over. If that happens, I might not make it back in school this year.
GordyPorgy: Bummer, But face it Miranda, things could have been a lot worse. I mean, I thought you were ok after Christmas, and here it happens again, and the next time could have been much worse.
RandaPanda: Yeah, well there won't be a next time. But, they don't believe that. Tell Mr. Dig thanks again, will you?
GordyPorgy: Please, please can I tell Lizzie what's going on?
RandaPanda: No. Listen G2G, somebody's gotta make a call. CU L8ter.
Gordo thought hard about his life. Why was it all so complicated? Why did he go along with Miranda's pleas to keep this all so secret? Because, just like he couldn't intentionally hurt Lizzie, he couldn't hurt Miranda either... "Oh, sh--!" He suddenly remembered. He was supposed to talk to Lizzie right after school. She wouldn't be home later. He logged on under his regular handle, in the regular chat area.
DGord has just entered the room. This room now has 17 members. Welcome DGord.
LizzBlizz: Gordo! Where have you been?
DGord: Hi, uh, busy with homework. Just dropped in to let you know I'm ok. Have fun at dinner with your parents, see you at school in the morning, k?
LizzBlizz: Wait! Gordo! Don't leave so fast!
DGord has signed out, this room now has 16 members.
"That was strange", thought Lizzie. "He knew I'd be here waiting, and he just blows in and out. He sure is acting weird lately. Dad won't be home for an hour, what do I do 'til then?" Nobody else in the chat seemed to be talking to her, so she logged off... Should she call Gordo? No, best to leave him alone. She pulled out her portable CD player, and a Backstreet Boys CD. What were they saying? She didn't quite know... She tried to sing along, but didn't know much more than the chorus, and that meant something to her....
I don't care who you are, or what you did, as long as you love me...
Probably didn't mean what she thought, but that one line, she wasn't even sure if that was the exact words, but still... Would she ever find anyone who felt that way about her? Who would accept her for who she was? She knew all signs were pointing that it wouldn't be Ethan, but who?
Gordo was also deep in thought, for about the 900th time today. He lied, he had no homework, but he didn't know what else to say. His parents had upgraded his computer,as promised, and he'd downloaded several tracks that he thought had meaning to how he felt, about himself, and Lizzie, and more. Most of these were made LONG before he was born, but it's like they KNEW even then, what his problems would be. Someday, he hoped to play some of these for Lizzie, but she wasn't one to usually pay attention to lyrics. And some didn't apply yet, they were songs about what he DIDN'T want to happen in their relationship, whether it be as friends or more.
He felt disappointed, misunderstood. How could he get Lizzie to know what he was feeling? He opened the folder titled, " What I Can't Say"...
I don't know why I love you, but I do. I don't know why I cry so, but I do. I only know I'm lonely, and that I want you only. I don't know why I love you but I do.
That didn't quite fit. He knew why he loved her. She was everything he'd ever want or need. But he WAS lonely. He switched tracks.
I'm dying inside, and nobody knows it but me.
Well, he was dying inside, but that song was about a guy who was pining over the girl he no longer had. He switched tracks once more.
I'll never let you see, the way my broken heart is hurting me. I've got my pride and I know how to hide all my sorrow and pain. I'll do my crying in the rain.
Well, that fit better. He always had to put on a brave face. Only Miranda knew how much he felt for Lizzie, and he suspected even she didn't realize how deep his love for her was. Every time, he had to hear about Ethan, or Frankie, or Ronny, or Danny, or WHOEVER, he couldn't say what he felt. He had to live with it, and express his pain later, alone. Still, it was a song about a guy wanting a girl he no longer had. He heard his parents pull up in the driveway. Damn, that meant he had to eat with them tonight. He shut down his PC and went out to greet them. He composed himself first. It was like that last song he'd listened to, and two others he continually got mixed up.
If there's a smile on my face, it's only there to fool the public, if you look closer it's easy to trace the tracks of my tears.
A/N Hope that wasn't too, I don't know, sappy? Yes, I meant to combine lyrics from two songs at the end. They are both quite similar, and by the same artist... Next chapter up don't know when... review or email comments to JP5683@msn.com
Thanks!
JP
List of songs in this chapter:
Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me
Clarence "Frogman" Henry - I Don't Know Why (But I Do)
Tony Rich Project - Nobody Knows
Everly Brothers - Crying In The Rain
Smokey Robinson & the Miracles - Tears Of A Clown
Smokey Robinson & the Miracles - Tracks of My Tears
March 13, 2003