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Brenda Hampton.
Please review, but no flames.
Thoughts
I screech and whine because that is what is expected of me. If I don't behave like a jealous harpy my mother accuses me of sabotaging my relationship with my boyfriend. My boyfriend should always come first, he is more important than school, family or me. He says that what love is about, making yourself subordinate to someone else, but he has never done anything because I wanted him to. He claims that living in my family's garage and calling my mother 'Mom' is what I wanted, but nothing could be further from the truth.
This isn't love, how can I be in love when I don't even know who I am and when the man who professes to love me invades my privacy and controls every aspect of my life. If this was just about Kevin and me, well it wouldn't be easy to get rid of him but I would have the freedom to do so, however, there is the issue of my mother.
My Mom is another person who likes to have control, many of my dad's parishioners marvel at how she runs our house, looks after my brothers and sisters and still manages to help out at the church. It's all a well constructed lie through, she neglects my brothers David and Sam so much that I don't know if they realise that she is their mother. When it comes to the church, my mother is really good at making it appear that she is involved in an activity, when in reality she turns up to a few meetings and makes a lot of noise. The only truth about my mother is that our house is always spotless and there is plenty of food.
She acts like I'm a burden, when I marry Kevin I won't be her responsibility any more, yesterday she said if I married Kevin before the next semester of college he could pay my tuition. I should be grateful that they are supporting me though college, Mom keeps hinting to Simon that he should join the police or army when he graduates, instead of going to college.
Sorry I got a little distracted there, babbling about my mother and Kevin. I don't know what I want from life, but I know I don't want this.
Please review, but no flames.
Thoughts
I screech and whine because that is what is expected of me. If I don't behave like a jealous harpy my mother accuses me of sabotaging my relationship with my boyfriend. My boyfriend should always come first, he is more important than school, family or me. He says that what love is about, making yourself subordinate to someone else, but he has never done anything because I wanted him to. He claims that living in my family's garage and calling my mother 'Mom' is what I wanted, but nothing could be further from the truth.
This isn't love, how can I be in love when I don't even know who I am and when the man who professes to love me invades my privacy and controls every aspect of my life. If this was just about Kevin and me, well it wouldn't be easy to get rid of him but I would have the freedom to do so, however, there is the issue of my mother.
My Mom is another person who likes to have control, many of my dad's parishioners marvel at how she runs our house, looks after my brothers and sisters and still manages to help out at the church. It's all a well constructed lie through, she neglects my brothers David and Sam so much that I don't know if they realise that she is their mother. When it comes to the church, my mother is really good at making it appear that she is involved in an activity, when in reality she turns up to a few meetings and makes a lot of noise. The only truth about my mother is that our house is always spotless and there is plenty of food.
She acts like I'm a burden, when I marry Kevin I won't be her responsibility any more, yesterday she said if I married Kevin before the next semester of college he could pay my tuition. I should be grateful that they are supporting me though college, Mom keeps hinting to Simon that he should join the police or army when he graduates, instead of going to college.
Sorry I got a little distracted there, babbling about my mother and Kevin. I don't know what I want from life, but I know I don't want this.