For disclaimer see Chapter 1, thanks again to my reviewers, Sorry about the
delay in updates, but the heating and hot water broke down at my halls and
I went home. The heating still isn't fixed, so if this chapter is a little
bitter, it's because I hate being cold.
Chapter 4
The house has been quiet lately, Mom has been busy stalking Dad all over town, and she even dragged Ruthie along yesterday. I don't know what to do, act too early and everything falls apart, act to late and I've missed my chance. There is no perfect time for me to continue with my plan, the hardest part was beginning, it won't be easy but I'm not a coward anymore.
Kevin, I have to get rid of him now, I think he might actually propose, God what an idiot. If I just break up with him, my family will pressure me to take him back, I have to make him dump me, leave Glenoak and make my family hate him, whilst keeping the pressure on Mom.
Condoms, if I hide some in my Dad's office, Mom will find them while cleaning. No that's too obvious she might confront him and he might change his therapist. Damn, I'll just have to move fast with Kevin.
I've always wondered why he was so keen to move to Glenoak. I mean it was so difficult to move between police departments and he hardly knew me. Maybe he was taking bribes and had to move on or get caught. He does have a very expensive car, on a cop's wage. I need to research Kevin, find out about his life in New York, but I can't do that without warning him. I have make Captain Michaels suspicious enough to investigate him. Drugs.
The area between the church, promenade, high school and college couldn't be safer, Glenoak at times appears to be the safest place on earth, but there are places that are hidden, where you can pretty much get anything. Kevin is working tonight, Simon is working, Ruthie is babysitting the twins, Dad is at his therapist and Mom is following him. I announce that I'm studying at a friend's house and head towards the outskirts of town.
It's relaxed here, not like home when everybody in our street has to keep a façade up, okay bad things happen here too, but people seem more honest. I might be romanticising this place but, it's just so different, I sound naïve, but that's how it feels to me. I guess it's cause I'm so restricted at home, I get a taste of freedom, good or bad, I just want to savour it. Christ, I think this rambling is nerves, I have to be calm or else I should just walk away. It's not bad what I'm doing, well okay it's not good, but it's a necessary evil. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I'm fighting for my life here and if I stop now I might as well be dead.
Kevin isn't a good person, I just get this vibe off him, it sounds dumb, but how else can I describe it? I feel that there's this whole other person hidden beneath his dull exterior and I sense that this other person isn't nice. Sometimes I think he'd like to hit me, it's way he stands and the tone of voice he uses, everything I say or think that he doesn't agree with is wrong. He hates me having independent thoughts, I swear if he could, he would control what I think.
To him Mary is an example with what is wrong with this world, she left Glenoak and has her own life in Fort Lauderdale, free to make her own decisions, Kevin thinks that she needs to be taught respect. Why? She's an adult, she's made mistakes but Mary learnt from them, does she have a right to her own life?
I'm right to do this to Kevin, if don't I'm condemning myself to a life controlled by him and I couldn't live that way.
My watch tells me I've been walking for nearly an hour, my feet ache and I haven't seen a drug dealer anywhere, but its not like they advertise. I've had enough, I turn around and start walking and that's when I see him.
What the hell is Kevin doing here? I hide behind a wall, not daring to look. He can't of followed me, he would of confronted me at the earlier. My curiosity eventually overpowers my fear and I sneak a look around the wall. He's not wearing his uniform and he's taking that girl into the alley. I feel so stupid, this explains so much, he's never even hinted that he wants to sleep with me; I can't remember the last time he had a day off.
There's a pay phone less than half a block away, I reach it without even breaking a sweat, I can't remember the last time I had so much energy. I punch the numbers without even thinking. "911, what is your emergency?" "A women is being attacked in an alley, on Williams Street, please send help." "What is your name caller?" The reputation of Williams Street will help me "I can't say, he's too powerful, he's a cop. I've said too much" I slam the phone down and run.
I keep to the back streets and I eventually near home. I had to tell the dispatcher that Kevin was a cop; otherwise it might be covered up. Kevin has few friends in Glenoak, but they might feel obligated to protect him.
I've been lucky tonight, but what would I have done if I had found a drug dealer? This was too easy, but I guess I should of expected it. It's not going be hard to make my family hate Kevin when his actions become public, it shouldn't take long before Captain Michaels launches an investigation and the rumours will spread.
I have to pressure my Mom more, she needs to be more suspicious, so that when Kevin is revealed, she won't know what to do, I need her confused and paranoid, so I can make my next move.
Chapter 4
The house has been quiet lately, Mom has been busy stalking Dad all over town, and she even dragged Ruthie along yesterday. I don't know what to do, act too early and everything falls apart, act to late and I've missed my chance. There is no perfect time for me to continue with my plan, the hardest part was beginning, it won't be easy but I'm not a coward anymore.
Kevin, I have to get rid of him now, I think he might actually propose, God what an idiot. If I just break up with him, my family will pressure me to take him back, I have to make him dump me, leave Glenoak and make my family hate him, whilst keeping the pressure on Mom.
Condoms, if I hide some in my Dad's office, Mom will find them while cleaning. No that's too obvious she might confront him and he might change his therapist. Damn, I'll just have to move fast with Kevin.
I've always wondered why he was so keen to move to Glenoak. I mean it was so difficult to move between police departments and he hardly knew me. Maybe he was taking bribes and had to move on or get caught. He does have a very expensive car, on a cop's wage. I need to research Kevin, find out about his life in New York, but I can't do that without warning him. I have make Captain Michaels suspicious enough to investigate him. Drugs.
The area between the church, promenade, high school and college couldn't be safer, Glenoak at times appears to be the safest place on earth, but there are places that are hidden, where you can pretty much get anything. Kevin is working tonight, Simon is working, Ruthie is babysitting the twins, Dad is at his therapist and Mom is following him. I announce that I'm studying at a friend's house and head towards the outskirts of town.
It's relaxed here, not like home when everybody in our street has to keep a façade up, okay bad things happen here too, but people seem more honest. I might be romanticising this place but, it's just so different, I sound naïve, but that's how it feels to me. I guess it's cause I'm so restricted at home, I get a taste of freedom, good or bad, I just want to savour it. Christ, I think this rambling is nerves, I have to be calm or else I should just walk away. It's not bad what I'm doing, well okay it's not good, but it's a necessary evil. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I'm fighting for my life here and if I stop now I might as well be dead.
Kevin isn't a good person, I just get this vibe off him, it sounds dumb, but how else can I describe it? I feel that there's this whole other person hidden beneath his dull exterior and I sense that this other person isn't nice. Sometimes I think he'd like to hit me, it's way he stands and the tone of voice he uses, everything I say or think that he doesn't agree with is wrong. He hates me having independent thoughts, I swear if he could, he would control what I think.
To him Mary is an example with what is wrong with this world, she left Glenoak and has her own life in Fort Lauderdale, free to make her own decisions, Kevin thinks that she needs to be taught respect. Why? She's an adult, she's made mistakes but Mary learnt from them, does she have a right to her own life?
I'm right to do this to Kevin, if don't I'm condemning myself to a life controlled by him and I couldn't live that way.
My watch tells me I've been walking for nearly an hour, my feet ache and I haven't seen a drug dealer anywhere, but its not like they advertise. I've had enough, I turn around and start walking and that's when I see him.
What the hell is Kevin doing here? I hide behind a wall, not daring to look. He can't of followed me, he would of confronted me at the earlier. My curiosity eventually overpowers my fear and I sneak a look around the wall. He's not wearing his uniform and he's taking that girl into the alley. I feel so stupid, this explains so much, he's never even hinted that he wants to sleep with me; I can't remember the last time he had a day off.
There's a pay phone less than half a block away, I reach it without even breaking a sweat, I can't remember the last time I had so much energy. I punch the numbers without even thinking. "911, what is your emergency?" "A women is being attacked in an alley, on Williams Street, please send help." "What is your name caller?" The reputation of Williams Street will help me "I can't say, he's too powerful, he's a cop. I've said too much" I slam the phone down and run.
I keep to the back streets and I eventually near home. I had to tell the dispatcher that Kevin was a cop; otherwise it might be covered up. Kevin has few friends in Glenoak, but they might feel obligated to protect him.
I've been lucky tonight, but what would I have done if I had found a drug dealer? This was too easy, but I guess I should of expected it. It's not going be hard to make my family hate Kevin when his actions become public, it shouldn't take long before Captain Michaels launches an investigation and the rumours will spread.
I have to pressure my Mom more, she needs to be more suspicious, so that when Kevin is revealed, she won't know what to do, I need her confused and paranoid, so I can make my next move.