Chapter 10
The week at Shannon's was awesome. Jeff and I caught up on old times and I guess you can say that we got closer. We left Shannon's on Saturday seeing how I had work that week. We were having breakfast on a Sunday just like any normal family would. Rini finished her cereal when she decided to ask "Mom do you think that daddy will come back home someday?"
I was a bit taken back by this. I was wondering where this had come from. "I'm not sure sweetie. You miss him don't you?" I asked knowing the answer. I took her into my arms, trying to comfort my daughter as best I could. She was in a very fragile state at this moment so I had to choose my words carefully. "Damn him for making our daughter feel this way." " I will never forgive that man for what he's done." I thought to myself.
"Mommy why did he leave us? Did I do something to make daddy leave, cause if I did I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I'm tired of staying strong mommy. I'm tired of all of this" She added, tears coming down her cheek.
"Don't you dare blame yourself for something that your father did. It's not your fault or Mena's. He did what he did for whatever reason but you had nothing to do with it. Don't you ever think that this is your fault cause it's not." I said while kissing her forehead.
"Finish up your breakfast sweetie cause we have a lot to do today." I said while letting go and looking into her eyes for an answer of whether she was okay or not.
"OO, what are doing today?" She asked wiping away the tears, seeming to have a cheery sense to things.
"Well if my memory serves me correctly, I think that you're dear mommy promised that it would be just you and me today. I'm going to drop Mena off at Grams and we're going to redecorate your room anyway you would like it." I said.
"Really, even if I want it a bazillion different colors?" She asked with a smile that I haven't seen in ages. It was a wonderful sight for a mom to see her daughter so happy.
"Yep, even if u want it a bazillion different colors." I replied with a smile and gave her a kiss on her cheek.
"YAY! But I don't want it a bazillion different colors. Just a pinky purply color and some glow in the dark stars and moons." She said thinking of all the different ways to redo her room.
"I think you mean lavender sweetie and I'm pretty sure we can make your room into everything you want and more." I said while rinsing my hands off with soap.
Rini brought her dish to the sink and went to go get dressed for an eventful day. I finished up with the dishes and made a few phone calls before getting ready. I finally finished and got Mena and myself dressed. We headed off for grams house.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Finally after 2 hours of shopping for the right colors of paint and then stopping by the craft store to pick up a couple of packages of glow in the dark stars and moons, we were done. She decided to she wanted a cloud like scene instead of just painting it one color.
I moved all of Rini's furniture out into the hall, and believe me this was no easy task. Then we covered the carpet with towels so they wouldn't get dirty. We mixed the paint and started on the walls. This whole acting like professional painters didn't last long cause not soon after we started, half the container of paint was on us.
I'm glad that I get to spend this time with my daughter. After what she said this morning I finally realized that she was being strong for me. When I was weak and vulnerable, she took it upon herself to be brave and strong cause I wasn't. I guess she sensed that something was wrong cause I never knew that she felt this way after this morning. We continued to paint until Rini wanted to take a break. I fixed up some lemonade while we watched some tv.
DING DONG DING DONG
"You stay here while I get the door okay." I said while getting off the couch.
She nodded while keeping her eyes on the tv.
I laughed a little and then put my lemonade on the coffee table. I opened up the door and the person on the other side was the last person on earth I wanted to see. My body was filled with mixed emotions at this point. I just wanted to tear him apart, but yet part of me still loved him.
"Darien" was all I could say. I wanted to shut the door before Rini saw him but it was too late.
"DADDY!!!!" She screamed. She came running from the couch into her father's arms. He welcomed her with open arms.
" I knew you would come back daddy. I knew it." She said hanging on to her father like he was her life jacket in a raging storm.
I didn't say anything, I couldn't. I was in disbelief. But I would be damned if I let this man hurt my children again.
So what did you guys think???? Please Review!!!! I love them yes I do!!!lol.. later~ Sarah
The week at Shannon's was awesome. Jeff and I caught up on old times and I guess you can say that we got closer. We left Shannon's on Saturday seeing how I had work that week. We were having breakfast on a Sunday just like any normal family would. Rini finished her cereal when she decided to ask "Mom do you think that daddy will come back home someday?"
I was a bit taken back by this. I was wondering where this had come from. "I'm not sure sweetie. You miss him don't you?" I asked knowing the answer. I took her into my arms, trying to comfort my daughter as best I could. She was in a very fragile state at this moment so I had to choose my words carefully. "Damn him for making our daughter feel this way." " I will never forgive that man for what he's done." I thought to myself.
"Mommy why did he leave us? Did I do something to make daddy leave, cause if I did I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I'm tired of staying strong mommy. I'm tired of all of this" She added, tears coming down her cheek.
"Don't you dare blame yourself for something that your father did. It's not your fault or Mena's. He did what he did for whatever reason but you had nothing to do with it. Don't you ever think that this is your fault cause it's not." I said while kissing her forehead.
"Finish up your breakfast sweetie cause we have a lot to do today." I said while letting go and looking into her eyes for an answer of whether she was okay or not.
"OO, what are doing today?" She asked wiping away the tears, seeming to have a cheery sense to things.
"Well if my memory serves me correctly, I think that you're dear mommy promised that it would be just you and me today. I'm going to drop Mena off at Grams and we're going to redecorate your room anyway you would like it." I said.
"Really, even if I want it a bazillion different colors?" She asked with a smile that I haven't seen in ages. It was a wonderful sight for a mom to see her daughter so happy.
"Yep, even if u want it a bazillion different colors." I replied with a smile and gave her a kiss on her cheek.
"YAY! But I don't want it a bazillion different colors. Just a pinky purply color and some glow in the dark stars and moons." She said thinking of all the different ways to redo her room.
"I think you mean lavender sweetie and I'm pretty sure we can make your room into everything you want and more." I said while rinsing my hands off with soap.
Rini brought her dish to the sink and went to go get dressed for an eventful day. I finished up with the dishes and made a few phone calls before getting ready. I finally finished and got Mena and myself dressed. We headed off for grams house.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Finally after 2 hours of shopping for the right colors of paint and then stopping by the craft store to pick up a couple of packages of glow in the dark stars and moons, we were done. She decided to she wanted a cloud like scene instead of just painting it one color.
I moved all of Rini's furniture out into the hall, and believe me this was no easy task. Then we covered the carpet with towels so they wouldn't get dirty. We mixed the paint and started on the walls. This whole acting like professional painters didn't last long cause not soon after we started, half the container of paint was on us.
I'm glad that I get to spend this time with my daughter. After what she said this morning I finally realized that she was being strong for me. When I was weak and vulnerable, she took it upon herself to be brave and strong cause I wasn't. I guess she sensed that something was wrong cause I never knew that she felt this way after this morning. We continued to paint until Rini wanted to take a break. I fixed up some lemonade while we watched some tv.
DING DONG DING DONG
"You stay here while I get the door okay." I said while getting off the couch.
She nodded while keeping her eyes on the tv.
I laughed a little and then put my lemonade on the coffee table. I opened up the door and the person on the other side was the last person on earth I wanted to see. My body was filled with mixed emotions at this point. I just wanted to tear him apart, but yet part of me still loved him.
"Darien" was all I could say. I wanted to shut the door before Rini saw him but it was too late.
"DADDY!!!!" She screamed. She came running from the couch into her father's arms. He welcomed her with open arms.
" I knew you would come back daddy. I knew it." She said hanging on to her father like he was her life jacket in a raging storm.
I didn't say anything, I couldn't. I was in disbelief. But I would be damned if I let this man hurt my children again.
So what did you guys think???? Please Review!!!! I love them yes I do!!!lol.. later~ Sarah