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Unknown Desires

I came to the door of my last class for the day, English.

It was only a mere thirty minutes before I'd have my ribs kicked in by Pei-Yo and his gang.

Everyone was taking his or her seat so I decided to stand and wait for the teacher to introduce me and put me where he/she wanted me to sit.

As usual the other kids were watching and studying me like I was an unwelcome guest.

Just as the teacher arrived I noticed a face I'd seen in the cafeteria, it was Yamato.

He was watching my every move intently as I scanned the classroom's interior. He quickly shifted his eyes with a look of guilt from being caught, when he saw me glance in his direction.

My reaction reflected his and I found myself looking away and then towards one the cheerleader girls that I'd been warned about at break.

She smiled at me, flirting heavily with a pencil that she was slowly rubbing up and down on her lower lip.

I could feel the blood rushing to my face making it turn a deep red that was visible for the whole class to see.

She sat back; satisfied with the unintentional reaction I had given her.

The only thing that kept everyone from laughing was the teacher who was now standing beside me.

"Before we start today's lesson I'd like to introduce a new student we have here at Odaiba Yasutoko High. This is Yagami Taichi. I hope you will find the decency to help him blend in. Now where to put you..." She seemed kind enough, to me, but the way that the class was silenced by her presence told me she was very strict in her classroom.

"Ah yes we'll put you next to yamato over there." She pointed towards him just in case I didn't know who he was yet.

But of coarse that wasn't the case.

Making my way to my desk I caught sight of the jealous onlookers faces that almost seemed to silently say 'You don't deserve the honor of sitting next to our precious yamato.'

I ignored them and more importantly for my sake, Yamato as well.

It still bothered me that I thought him cute earlier at lunch.

I was determined not to let any part of Yamato slip into the corner of my eye so I stared straight ahead. That probably made me look suspicious of something but that wasn't my concern right then.

I sat uncomfortably, watching the clock on the wall. For a second I thought it was broken and that it was ticking at it's own quick pace.

It was strange really; how this was the first fight I wished I could run away from. But I couldn't. My past kept me stubborn. Even to the point where it might kill me. I was beginning to see how stupid my actions really were.

"Mr. Yagami?" The stern voice snapped me out of my mindless wandering with extreme haste. My eyes were met with an angry glare that made me want to shrink in my chair.

Everyone except the cheerleader and Yamato were grinning, happy that I'd been shouted at.

"I highly doubt that the paint on the wall is anymore interesting than my lesson! Pay attention!" She turned on her heels and continued scribing more sentences on the chalkboard.

I decided I would go and apologize as soon as the bell had rang. I didn't want to be on her blacklist so soon and besides it gave me a little more time to think about what I was going to do when Pei-Yo and his friends confronted me.

As soon as that thought had entered my mind the bell rang, sounding more like a scream that sent my heart pounding in my chest. 'Not long now.' I thought to myself.

The classroom was almost empty. The girl who had embarrassed me earlier waited for me but then left when she saw that I was intending to stay a little while longer. I couldn't find anything interesting about her. I easily became shy whenever some one flirted with me. It was one of my weaknesses. I knew she would be disappointed when she found out I wouldn't have anything to do with her. To me she was just another hormone driven girl.

I stepped up to Mrs. Heiyazu's desk.

"Ma'am, I just want to apologize for my behavior in class today. I have a lot of things on my mind and I know that's no excuse, but I'm sorry." I said, hoping I didn't sound like I was kissing up to her.

She lifted her eyebrows and widened her eyes as if she'd seen the most amazing act of human guilt in her life. Not that I felt guilty.

"I must say that your respect for your teachers is something I've never seen displayed by any of my pupils, willingly." She was quite surprised and ecstatic.

It only confirmed my suspicions of how snobbish these kids could be.

In my previous schools we apologized if we'd done anything wrong, no matter how small the error.

"I believe you are going to be a fine addition to my class, thank you Taichi."

She smiled, clapped her hands together and started getting ready to go off to the staff's lounge, 'probably to mark some papers or essays.' I thought.

I grabbed my bag, slung it over a shoulder and set out to get my beating.

"Hey Tai, over here!" Sora yelled.

Following the pink hair that bobbed up and down in the crowd, I made my way to her.

"Hey." I said dryly.

"Good news! Apparently the fight has been called off."

"But why? How?" Confusion seemed to be today's main theme for me.

"I heard Pei-Yo had a talk with someone and well... he just called it off."

"But who? Who was he talking to?" The idea of someone else sticking up for me drove me crazy.

"I'm not sure but I think it was..." She stopped mid sentence when I nearly jumped out of skin after feeling someone tapping on my shoulder.

"Whoa, quick reflexes. We need that." It was Mr. Kunyimitsu, the gym teacher. "Taichi, I saw you playing soccer this morning and I've got to say you've got some great moves. We could use talent like yours. What do you say about joining the first team?"

"Uh.. Sure I guess." I half expected to turn around to see Pei-Yo instead of Mr. Kunyimitsu.

"I'll put you on for next season. We start the first day of spring." He walked off, pleased at his achievement.

Sora nudged me. "Tai! Wow! Do you realize how hard it is to get into the first team for any sport here! Congrats man." She hugged me but I stood stiff as an ironing board.

"Gees, loosen up will ya?"

"Never mind, who was talking to Pei-Yo? Why'd he change his mind so quickly?" I was getting frustrated now.

Sora shrugged and glanced over my shoulder. "I don't know. Why don't you ask him yourself?" She pointed his way and then pretended to be busy with something in her locker.

"Hey ...Taichi is it?"

I nodded. Maybe this was a trick or something.

"Uh... sorry if we got off on the wrong foot, no hard feelings?" He offered his hand as to apologize. I looked at him suspiciously and then shook his hand.

He looked past me and then to Sora who was hiding behind her locker door.

"Sorry about what I called you at lunch."

She nodded without turning her attention to him.

"Why the sudden change of heart?" I asked when I finally gave up trying to make sense of it all.

He started away. "A friend of Matt's is a friend of mine." He said smiling that he thought he'd done a good thing for someone. He disappeared around a corner and was gone.

"Who the hell is Matt?" I thought out loud.

Sora closed her locker door and came to my side. "See over there?" She waved her hand to a set of lockers. I saw some one wearing a pair of dark blue jeans and black to brown shoes. The rest him was hidden behind the locker door where he was unpacking his stuff.

"That is Matt, as in yaMATo Ishida? Remember? We both agreed he was cute at break?"

"No, WE didn't. YOU did." I said quickly in my defense.

"Uh huh? Whatever you say." She said nodding to herself.

"I did not okay? And even if I did... I was just tired and didn't know what I was saying alright?" I wanted to slap myself. I was being as loud and careless with my words as Sora was. Some girls chuckled to themselves in a corner while looking my way.

"Great, could today get any worse?! Guanchi syau-jye!" I shouted aloud, frustrated with myself.

Yamato closed his locker at looked at me. The look on his face confirmed that he knew what I'd said. I stomped off in one direction leaving Sora behind.

"See you tomorrow then?!" She yelled.

I didn't react; I just continued to take out my anger on the floor with every forceful step.

'The nerve of some people! Why can't they just mind their own business!

When will I have suffered enough?'

I hadn't been walking long when I bumped into someone. It was Kari.

"Hey watch where you're...Oh Hi Tai, you alright."She asked.

"Oh uh sorry. I just got a little distracted."

"Are you sure you're okay? I heard you got into a fight or something." The girl next to her smiled at me with dreamy eyes.

'What is it with the woman here?' I thought to myself.

"Yeah I did but don't worry it's all over, nothing really happened anyway."

"Okay if you say so. Oh I forgot. This is Satami; I'm going over to her house this afternoon. Her mom's gonna give me a lift home afterwards."

"Nice to meet you." I said curtly, only because she was a friend of Kari's.

She smiled awkwardly and looked as if she was going to faint.

'What? Do I give off pheromones or something? This is irritating.'

"You don't mind walking home alone? It is getting cold outside." Kari said, looking out a window.

"You could come with us. My mom wouldn't mind."Satami chirped.

"Uh thanks but I don't mind walking." I just wanted to be alone with myself for a while.

"Okay, Can you tell mom and dad where I am when you get home?"

"Sure thing."

"We better get going," Satami said to Kari. "My mom's gonna be waiting."

"Okay, See you later Tai!"

I looked at my wrist to see what time it was. "My watch! Must've left it in the gym locker room."

I went straight to the locker in the change room where I had kept my stuff while playing soccer. I opened it and found my watch waiting for me.

'Probably thought it was too cheap to steal.' I thought and sat down on a bench in the silence.

I sighed deeply to myself. All the emotional turmoil I'd been feeling the whole day was draining me of my energy, I was so tired and exhausted.

"Why does this have to be so hard?" Talking to myself was the only thing I could think of doing to calm my thoughts and unwind.

I let out another deep sigh. "He is cute, really." I smiled as his image flickered through my mind. His perfect hair, and ivory white smile could make anyone melt into a puddle. I quickly wiped away my smile. It was still very scary to be thinking like that, terrifying even.

"What's wrong with you Yagami? You're no better than some of those girls out there." I turned my gaze to the exit only to find to my horror that Yamato was standing there quietly in the silence with me.

I jumped to my feet immediately.

"How long have you been standing there?!" I demanded. I was hoping with all my strength that he hadn't heard me. I hadn't said much but it wouldn't be too hard for him to figure out I was talking about him.

"Hi, I'm..."

"I know who you are!" I cut him off quickly. "You're the one who stopped the fight between me and Pei-Yo , Right?"

"Yeah but..."

"Do you know how stupid that makes me look?!?!" I yelled. Everything I'd kept bottled up inside of me was just letting loose.

"You don't know what he's like when he gets into a fight, He could have killed you." His voice was strained.

"I don't care. I would rather have taken my chances! I don't need you or anyone else to help me. I'm not worth it." My booming voice dwindled, dying as I spoke.

I could feel the tears burning behind my eyes. It didn't matter that Yamato saw me like this. The strong feeling of emptiness and sadness consumed me to the point where I didn't care what he thought.

I collapsed back on the bench, sobbing.

He started to come to my side to comfort me but I jumped up again.

"Don't touch me! Just leave me alone! Go away!" I couldn't take it anymore I couldn't be in the same room with him without feeling so terribly alone, lost and confused.

"But Taichi you're..."

I raised my hand out of anger. "I said get out of here!"

He walked to the exit and turned to me. "I was only trying to...." He didn't finish the rest of his sentence.

I could see I'd hurt him as I looked on through tear-glazed eyes.

And when the door closed behind him another emotion came to fill what little space it could in my shadowed heart.

'He was only trying to help?' I asked myself sadly.

"Taichi, You can be such a jerk sometimes!" I shouted in a hoarse voice.

I didn't deserve his help, I wasn't deserving of anything.

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Okay I think this Chapter was a complete flop. Sorry.

I'll do better next time, Promise.

Yeah I know Matt's been a little scarce lately but he gonna play a better role in the next chapter.

Hope I'm not disappointing anyone.

Please review?

Thanx

Kale.