The Tahoe hit a bump in the road and Grissom winced, then
smiled. He was tired and sore, but in a ivery/i good way. He
looked over at Sara, on the seat across from him and felt his heart
swell. He couldn't stop thinking about last night. And he had decided
that his night with Lady Heather hadn't been a complete and total
mistake; it had served to remind him how to please a woman, allow him
some practice. And there was no woman he wanted to please more than
Sara. He felt a feral male pride in knowing that he had pleased her; her cries still echoed in his ears, her heat still lingered on his skin.And god, how she had pleased him.he couldn't believe what an amazing trip this conference had been. Grissom concentrated on the road long enough to take an exit
and get off the ramp and onto the road, then he couldn't help but
look at Sara again. The whole weekend had been marvelous and
unexpected. For the first time in his life, Grissom was disappointed
to be returning to work. Sara made a soft sound in her sleep,
shifting beneath her seatbelt, and Grissom felt his body long for
her. He wished he could turn the Tahoe around, head back the
Colorado, and spend a lifetime in that hotel room with Sara. But
Vegas was only an hour away.
The orange signs of a road construction crew made Grissom slow
down, and he obediently stopped for a man in a yellow vest with a red
stop sign. Behind the man, a huge yellow and black machine took a
load of dirt across the medium. The workmen looked just as anxious
and annoyed to be working on the interstate as the drivers behind
Grissom looked to be stopped on the interstate. Willing to sacrifice
four minutes of travel for the betterment of the highway, Grissom
smiled reassuringly at the man with the sign and took the opportunity
to watch Sara sleep.
The light sleeper had awakened by the lack of motion and
mumbled, "Grissom?.. Is everything OK..?" She squinted, waiting for
the blur of sleep to pass, and turned her head to meet Grissom's
adoring gaze. Memories of the previous night in his bed came rushing
back--along with the realization that they were going back home. Sara
felt hope and dread in her chest all at once. Grissom stroked her
face with the back of his hand, and she smiled, but gently pulled
away. He frowned, but before he could say anything, Sara looked at
her watch. "I've been sleeping for three hours? Gris, you should have
woken me up sooner! How close are we?" Her voice was strained
slightly in the last sentence. "We should be in Vegas in an hour or
so, depending on how long these guys hold us up." "An hour. Great."
There was obvious sarcasm in her voice. Grissom watched her, puzzled.
She avoided his eyes as she reached over and pushed the radio on, the
volume so loud Grissom jumped. He sat completely still, observing her
like an insect, not sure of what else to do. She reached into her
purse on the floorboard and pulled out a Ziploc bag of soy nuts, and
stuffed a handful into her mouth with shaking hands, face turned so he
couldn't see her emotions.
The man in the yellow vest waved them on, and Grissom had no
choice but to drive.
He searched his brain as he drove, and realized she must be
having second thoughts, regretting their evening together. He felt
pain, anger at himself, and shame. She'd been quiet all day, ever
since they'd checked out. He had chosen not to fully see it, but now
he realized. He turned the radio off and reached out to touch her
shoulder. "Sara...do we need to talk." "No. It's fine." Her voice was
strained. "Sara, please. If I need to apologize for my actions last
night...I shouldn't have let it happen. I should have thought of you.
I really didn't"-"God, no, Gil, it's not that!" She angrily turned
her head, and he saw a lone tear streaming down her face. It ripped
into his heart. "Sara..." he reached for her, but she looked away,
again."Watch the road, Grissom." He sighed and took the wheel with
both hands. "Tell me what the matter is, Sara. Please."
Defeated, she slumped against the seat, fiddling with the bottom
of her shirt, staring at her fingers. "Well, I don't know, it's
just...These past few days were so great. And now, it's back to the
routine, and...I know things won't be the same. Between us. You'll go
back to your work and your bugs, and I'll be left out in the cold.
Ever since I've known you, Grissom, there's been this pull between
us, and I've been in love with you, and I had no idea if you felt the
same way. Every once in awhile, you'd throw me a bone, let me think
there was some chance. Then you'd break my heart." Grissom's knuckles
turned white on the steering wheel, feeling her words cut to his very
core. She loved him. Sara stared straight ahead at the road, not
trusting herself to look at him. She continued. "And then, this
weekend, we came so far, and... it was heaven, Grissom. But there's a
huge part of me that knows that that will all have to stay in
Colorado. That you can't love me in Nevada, that you'll pull back
into your shell and shut me out, as soon as we go into that lab." The
tears were flowing freely now.
Her words circled in his brain. And...she loved him. In one
swift movement, Grissom changed two lanes, surprising Sara, and
pulled to a stop in the `emergency only' side shoulder. "What are you
doing?" He placed the Tahoe in `park', and unbuckled his seatbelt,
moving his body towards Sara, reaching out and taking her
by the shoulders. "Sara, look at me." Slowly, she did.
"I didn't realize I'd hurt you so much before, Sara. If I could
take it all back, I would." He flicked a tear off of her cheek, then
cupped her face in his palm. The tears kept falling. "Please, Sara,
stop crying...I'm so sorry. You don't know how much I hate that I did
that to you. But please believe me, Sara, I will do my best to never
do it again. I know I've been a fool, but...Sara, I love you. I love
you, too. I do." The words were so unfamiliar they almost felt thick
on his tongue, but it was accompanied with a freeing sensation that
made it wonderful. Sara's eyes shone in surprise. He repeated the
words. "I love you. Sara, I told you back in Colorado...I'm not a
poet. I'm not...there are so many things I'm not, Sara." He chuckled
at this, and a smile turned up a corner of her own mouth. "But you'll
have to take me as I am. This is all I've got. And I can't promise
that it's going to be perfect. This is a whole new world for me. I'm
going to screw up, a lot, and you'll have to bear with me. Can you
take me as I am? Will you be willing to stay with me while I do a
whole lot more stupid things and disappoint you a whole lot? Because,
Sara...that's all I can promise. I'm not good at this. I'm going to
hurt you more. I wish I couldn't say that, but it's true. I'm human,
and I'm a human who does not deal with people very well. You know
that. You know me more than anyone. You'll have to help me. Will you
tell me when I hurt you, when I'm doing something wrong? Will you
hang onto me, let me grow and find out how to do this right? Will you
stay by my side?" His eyes, pure and blue, glittered with sincerity
and a passion to learn how to love. Sara's tears turned to tears of
happiness. Thoroughly touched, she could only nod. He looked so
earnest and innocent, pleading for her love. She wondered if he
really feared that she'd deny him. All her fears melted away, and she
kissed him. They held each other like lifelines as cars sped past, in
another world and on their way to hundreds of distant destinations.
Grissom and Sara released from their embrace, renewed and with
hearts full of hope. Grissom eased back onto the interstate, miles of
road and a promising pink sunset stretched in front of them. The
Tahoe launched them into the future at sixty-five miles per hour, and
Grissom and Sara reached for each other's hands, resting their
entwined fingers in between the front seats.
And the lights of Vegas waited for them, a little over an hour
away.
~THE END~
smiled. He was tired and sore, but in a ivery/i good way. He
looked over at Sara, on the seat across from him and felt his heart
swell. He couldn't stop thinking about last night. And he had decided
that his night with Lady Heather hadn't been a complete and total
mistake; it had served to remind him how to please a woman, allow him
some practice. And there was no woman he wanted to please more than
Sara. He felt a feral male pride in knowing that he had pleased her; her cries still echoed in his ears, her heat still lingered on his skin.And god, how she had pleased him.he couldn't believe what an amazing trip this conference had been. Grissom concentrated on the road long enough to take an exit
and get off the ramp and onto the road, then he couldn't help but
look at Sara again. The whole weekend had been marvelous and
unexpected. For the first time in his life, Grissom was disappointed
to be returning to work. Sara made a soft sound in her sleep,
shifting beneath her seatbelt, and Grissom felt his body long for
her. He wished he could turn the Tahoe around, head back the
Colorado, and spend a lifetime in that hotel room with Sara. But
Vegas was only an hour away.
The orange signs of a road construction crew made Grissom slow
down, and he obediently stopped for a man in a yellow vest with a red
stop sign. Behind the man, a huge yellow and black machine took a
load of dirt across the medium. The workmen looked just as anxious
and annoyed to be working on the interstate as the drivers behind
Grissom looked to be stopped on the interstate. Willing to sacrifice
four minutes of travel for the betterment of the highway, Grissom
smiled reassuringly at the man with the sign and took the opportunity
to watch Sara sleep.
The light sleeper had awakened by the lack of motion and
mumbled, "Grissom?.. Is everything OK..?" She squinted, waiting for
the blur of sleep to pass, and turned her head to meet Grissom's
adoring gaze. Memories of the previous night in his bed came rushing
back--along with the realization that they were going back home. Sara
felt hope and dread in her chest all at once. Grissom stroked her
face with the back of his hand, and she smiled, but gently pulled
away. He frowned, but before he could say anything, Sara looked at
her watch. "I've been sleeping for three hours? Gris, you should have
woken me up sooner! How close are we?" Her voice was strained
slightly in the last sentence. "We should be in Vegas in an hour or
so, depending on how long these guys hold us up." "An hour. Great."
There was obvious sarcasm in her voice. Grissom watched her, puzzled.
She avoided his eyes as she reached over and pushed the radio on, the
volume so loud Grissom jumped. He sat completely still, observing her
like an insect, not sure of what else to do. She reached into her
purse on the floorboard and pulled out a Ziploc bag of soy nuts, and
stuffed a handful into her mouth with shaking hands, face turned so he
couldn't see her emotions.
The man in the yellow vest waved them on, and Grissom had no
choice but to drive.
He searched his brain as he drove, and realized she must be
having second thoughts, regretting their evening together. He felt
pain, anger at himself, and shame. She'd been quiet all day, ever
since they'd checked out. He had chosen not to fully see it, but now
he realized. He turned the radio off and reached out to touch her
shoulder. "Sara...do we need to talk." "No. It's fine." Her voice was
strained. "Sara, please. If I need to apologize for my actions last
night...I shouldn't have let it happen. I should have thought of you.
I really didn't"-"God, no, Gil, it's not that!" She angrily turned
her head, and he saw a lone tear streaming down her face. It ripped
into his heart. "Sara..." he reached for her, but she looked away,
again."Watch the road, Grissom." He sighed and took the wheel with
both hands. "Tell me what the matter is, Sara. Please."
Defeated, she slumped against the seat, fiddling with the bottom
of her shirt, staring at her fingers. "Well, I don't know, it's
just...These past few days were so great. And now, it's back to the
routine, and...I know things won't be the same. Between us. You'll go
back to your work and your bugs, and I'll be left out in the cold.
Ever since I've known you, Grissom, there's been this pull between
us, and I've been in love with you, and I had no idea if you felt the
same way. Every once in awhile, you'd throw me a bone, let me think
there was some chance. Then you'd break my heart." Grissom's knuckles
turned white on the steering wheel, feeling her words cut to his very
core. She loved him. Sara stared straight ahead at the road, not
trusting herself to look at him. She continued. "And then, this
weekend, we came so far, and... it was heaven, Grissom. But there's a
huge part of me that knows that that will all have to stay in
Colorado. That you can't love me in Nevada, that you'll pull back
into your shell and shut me out, as soon as we go into that lab." The
tears were flowing freely now.
Her words circled in his brain. And...she loved him. In one
swift movement, Grissom changed two lanes, surprising Sara, and
pulled to a stop in the `emergency only' side shoulder. "What are you
doing?" He placed the Tahoe in `park', and unbuckled his seatbelt,
moving his body towards Sara, reaching out and taking her
by the shoulders. "Sara, look at me." Slowly, she did.
"I didn't realize I'd hurt you so much before, Sara. If I could
take it all back, I would." He flicked a tear off of her cheek, then
cupped her face in his palm. The tears kept falling. "Please, Sara,
stop crying...I'm so sorry. You don't know how much I hate that I did
that to you. But please believe me, Sara, I will do my best to never
do it again. I know I've been a fool, but...Sara, I love you. I love
you, too. I do." The words were so unfamiliar they almost felt thick
on his tongue, but it was accompanied with a freeing sensation that
made it wonderful. Sara's eyes shone in surprise. He repeated the
words. "I love you. Sara, I told you back in Colorado...I'm not a
poet. I'm not...there are so many things I'm not, Sara." He chuckled
at this, and a smile turned up a corner of her own mouth. "But you'll
have to take me as I am. This is all I've got. And I can't promise
that it's going to be perfect. This is a whole new world for me. I'm
going to screw up, a lot, and you'll have to bear with me. Can you
take me as I am? Will you be willing to stay with me while I do a
whole lot more stupid things and disappoint you a whole lot? Because,
Sara...that's all I can promise. I'm not good at this. I'm going to
hurt you more. I wish I couldn't say that, but it's true. I'm human,
and I'm a human who does not deal with people very well. You know
that. You know me more than anyone. You'll have to help me. Will you
tell me when I hurt you, when I'm doing something wrong? Will you
hang onto me, let me grow and find out how to do this right? Will you
stay by my side?" His eyes, pure and blue, glittered with sincerity
and a passion to learn how to love. Sara's tears turned to tears of
happiness. Thoroughly touched, she could only nod. He looked so
earnest and innocent, pleading for her love. She wondered if he
really feared that she'd deny him. All her fears melted away, and she
kissed him. They held each other like lifelines as cars sped past, in
another world and on their way to hundreds of distant destinations.
Grissom and Sara released from their embrace, renewed and with
hearts full of hope. Grissom eased back onto the interstate, miles of
road and a promising pink sunset stretched in front of them. The
Tahoe launched them into the future at sixty-five miles per hour, and
Grissom and Sara reached for each other's hands, resting their
entwined fingers in between the front seats.
And the lights of Vegas waited for them, a little over an hour
away.
~THE END~
