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Disclaimer: I don't own Cowboy Bebop or "The Hell Song" by Sum 41.
Note: And so this is the end of "Through Fire Showers". Hope you all enjoyed it. I'm writing up a real CB fic and it should be up within a week or so (and it's not going to be your typical post-session 26 fic). Thank you all so much for the reviews.
As for the suggestion to continue with the song fics, I would but I don't think I could do Ed or Ein justice.
R/R please!!
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"Hell Song"
~By Wicked-Wytch
"Everybody's got their problems"
That idiot had just run off. Stupid goddamn moron.
"Everybody says the same things to you"
He always was like that- just going off when he had to.
"It's just a matter how you solve them"
Goddamn him.
"And knowing how to change the things you've been through"
Who needed him anyway? I could do fine by myself. It wasn't like he was really that important.
"I feel I've come to realize"
I tried to say these things over and over in my head.
"How fast life can be compromised"
It was a way to alleviate the guilt.
"Step back to see what's going on"
After all, I had let him go.
"I can't believe this happened to you"
So I paced up and down the halls of the Bebop, hands fisted at my sides. I was so angry with him.
"This happened to you"
And ten times angrier at myself.
"It's just a problem that I'm faced with am I"
I passed his room by and felt my eyes become fixated on the door. A door that probably wouldn't be opened anymore. I tried to ignore the chill that went up my spine.
"Not the only one who hates to stand by"
He'd gone off to die. He'd made that clear when he came for his last meal with me.
"Complications that are first in this line"
I thought about what my life had been like because of him. Three years we'd traveled together. Throughout my time on the Bebop, I'd come to be like a father. I wasn't ready to lose any of my family.
"With all these pictures running through my mind"
Ed and Ein were gone. And that was hard enough for me.
"Knowing endless consequences"
I'd have given anything to have the two of them back.
"I feel so useless in this"
With Spike gone I knew everything would be different.
"Get back"
The Bebop would never feel the same. I'd only be able to feel the lonliness that seemed to overtake me at the moment.
"Step back"
I'd still have Faye. But that fact really didn't comfort me.
"And as for me, I can't believe"
With no one else on the ship, the woman would drive me insane within a week.
"Part of me, won't agree"
Damn him. I muttered it over and over again. Damn him.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
I needed to do something.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
I couldn't just let my best friend die.
"I don't feel so insecure"
He'd gone off because it was something he needed to do. It was what he wanted.
"Part of me, won't agree"
But that didn't make it feel right.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
And it didn't mean that I wouldn't be there to save him. As usual.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
I continued to walk until I reached my bonsai.
"I don't feel so insecure"
It reminded me of Spike for some reason.
"Anymore"
Bonsais need proper care. If they aren't treated carefully, they can grow wild.
"Everybody's got their problems"
Or wither and die.
"Everybody says the same things to you"
Spike was like that- he needed someone to always take care of him. And clean up his messes.
"It's just a matter how you solve them"
I reached the couch and sat. I wasn't feeling too steady on my legs.
"But what else are we supposed to do"
What the hell could I do?
"Part of me, won't agree"
That idiot.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
He could do whatever the hell he wanted. He was an adult, afterall.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
It wasn't my job to always go after him.
"I don't feel so insecure"
But who was I kidding? All I did was go after him.
"Part of me, won't agree"
I rose from the chair.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
I needed to do something.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
Damn. I wouldn't let him die.
"I don't feel so insecure"
I still needed that idiot.
"Anymore"
I started to head to the exit of the of the Bebop.
"Why do things that matter the most"
It was then that I got Faye's frantic call. Seems I wasn't the only one who wanted Spike to live. She's always such a troublemaker. She told me I had to help her find him.
"Never end up being our choice"
How could I argue with that?
"Now that I find no way so bad"
Within a few minutes, I was off the Bebop and on Mars, searching. My best friend's life was on the line.
"I don't think I knew what I had"
Throughout his stay, he'd told me about his nightmares. He said it was time he'd woken from the nightmare. Maybe mine was just beginning.
"Why do things that matter the most"
If I did nothing, then I would be trapped in a bad dream. But I wouldn't let that happen. I'd be damned if I just let him go. We still had plenty of bounty heads that needed catching.
"Never end up being our choice"
And who else could stand to eat my meatless bell peppers with beef?
"Now that I find no way so bad"
I searched. And didn't stop searching. I was the Black Dog. Once I took a bite outta something, I didn't let go.
"I don't think I knew what I had"
I'd find him, damn it. I knew I would.
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To the Reviewers:
You guys have all been so nice.
*Sagan Fox*- Thanks a lot. It feels good to have someone compliment my style. ^_^
*HealerAriel*- It's been hard choosing the right songs for everyone. But it'd be really cool to have Jet going "I luv it when they call me big papa". ^_^
*Spike_Lover*- Thanks. I plan to do a CB fic soon.
*dj Destiny*- Thanks. I do have a whole Spike/Faye going on in these. But I really can't see them as a couple. (In fact I think that Jet/Faye would work out better).
*SaiyanGoddessBX*- ^_^) Well, what do you expect? Spike's close to death- no one's exactly happy. But I'll write up something nice and funny for you later on. (If you can't wait, go see my other fic, [Darque Tournament] b/c its much funnier and happier.)
Note: Keep your eyes out for a real fic if you like this. And please review. I need some encouragement, people.
Well, that's all for now.
*You're Gonna Carry That Weight*
~Wicked
Disclaimer: I don't own Cowboy Bebop or "The Hell Song" by Sum 41.
Note: And so this is the end of "Through Fire Showers". Hope you all enjoyed it. I'm writing up a real CB fic and it should be up within a week or so (and it's not going to be your typical post-session 26 fic). Thank you all so much for the reviews.
As for the suggestion to continue with the song fics, I would but I don't think I could do Ed or Ein justice.
R/R please!!
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"Hell Song"
~By Wicked-Wytch
"Everybody's got their problems"
That idiot had just run off. Stupid goddamn moron.
"Everybody says the same things to you"
He always was like that- just going off when he had to.
"It's just a matter how you solve them"
Goddamn him.
"And knowing how to change the things you've been through"
Who needed him anyway? I could do fine by myself. It wasn't like he was really that important.
"I feel I've come to realize"
I tried to say these things over and over in my head.
"How fast life can be compromised"
It was a way to alleviate the guilt.
"Step back to see what's going on"
After all, I had let him go.
"I can't believe this happened to you"
So I paced up and down the halls of the Bebop, hands fisted at my sides. I was so angry with him.
"This happened to you"
And ten times angrier at myself.
"It's just a problem that I'm faced with am I"
I passed his room by and felt my eyes become fixated on the door. A door that probably wouldn't be opened anymore. I tried to ignore the chill that went up my spine.
"Not the only one who hates to stand by"
He'd gone off to die. He'd made that clear when he came for his last meal with me.
"Complications that are first in this line"
I thought about what my life had been like because of him. Three years we'd traveled together. Throughout my time on the Bebop, I'd come to be like a father. I wasn't ready to lose any of my family.
"With all these pictures running through my mind"
Ed and Ein were gone. And that was hard enough for me.
"Knowing endless consequences"
I'd have given anything to have the two of them back.
"I feel so useless in this"
With Spike gone I knew everything would be different.
"Get back"
The Bebop would never feel the same. I'd only be able to feel the lonliness that seemed to overtake me at the moment.
"Step back"
I'd still have Faye. But that fact really didn't comfort me.
"And as for me, I can't believe"
With no one else on the ship, the woman would drive me insane within a week.
"Part of me, won't agree"
Damn him. I muttered it over and over again. Damn him.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
I needed to do something.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
I couldn't just let my best friend die.
"I don't feel so insecure"
He'd gone off because it was something he needed to do. It was what he wanted.
"Part of me, won't agree"
But that didn't make it feel right.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
And it didn't mean that I wouldn't be there to save him. As usual.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
I continued to walk until I reached my bonsai.
"I don't feel so insecure"
It reminded me of Spike for some reason.
"Anymore"
Bonsais need proper care. If they aren't treated carefully, they can grow wild.
"Everybody's got their problems"
Or wither and die.
"Everybody says the same things to you"
Spike was like that- he needed someone to always take care of him. And clean up his messes.
"It's just a matter how you solve them"
I reached the couch and sat. I wasn't feeling too steady on my legs.
"But what else are we supposed to do"
What the hell could I do?
"Part of me, won't agree"
That idiot.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
He could do whatever the hell he wanted. He was an adult, afterall.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
It wasn't my job to always go after him.
"I don't feel so insecure"
But who was I kidding? All I did was go after him.
"Part of me, won't agree"
I rose from the chair.
"Cause I don't know if this for sure"
I needed to do something.
"Suddenly, suddenly"
Damn. I wouldn't let him die.
"I don't feel so insecure"
I still needed that idiot.
"Anymore"
I started to head to the exit of the of the Bebop.
"Why do things that matter the most"
It was then that I got Faye's frantic call. Seems I wasn't the only one who wanted Spike to live. She's always such a troublemaker. She told me I had to help her find him.
"Never end up being our choice"
How could I argue with that?
"Now that I find no way so bad"
Within a few minutes, I was off the Bebop and on Mars, searching. My best friend's life was on the line.
"I don't think I knew what I had"
Throughout his stay, he'd told me about his nightmares. He said it was time he'd woken from the nightmare. Maybe mine was just beginning.
"Why do things that matter the most"
If I did nothing, then I would be trapped in a bad dream. But I wouldn't let that happen. I'd be damned if I just let him go. We still had plenty of bounty heads that needed catching.
"Never end up being our choice"
And who else could stand to eat my meatless bell peppers with beef?
"Now that I find no way so bad"
I searched. And didn't stop searching. I was the Black Dog. Once I took a bite outta something, I didn't let go.
"I don't think I knew what I had"
I'd find him, damn it. I knew I would.
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To the Reviewers:
You guys have all been so nice.
*Sagan Fox*- Thanks a lot. It feels good to have someone compliment my style. ^_^
*HealerAriel*- It's been hard choosing the right songs for everyone. But it'd be really cool to have Jet going "I luv it when they call me big papa". ^_^
*Spike_Lover*- Thanks. I plan to do a CB fic soon.
*dj Destiny*- Thanks. I do have a whole Spike/Faye going on in these. But I really can't see them as a couple. (In fact I think that Jet/Faye would work out better).
*SaiyanGoddessBX*- ^_^) Well, what do you expect? Spike's close to death- no one's exactly happy. But I'll write up something nice and funny for you later on. (If you can't wait, go see my other fic, [Darque Tournament] b/c its much funnier and happier.)
Note: Keep your eyes out for a real fic if you like this. And please review. I need some encouragement, people.
Well, that's all for now.
*You're Gonna Carry That Weight*
~Wicked