Love Loss and Renewal
by: DrmKpr
Nikolas and Gia Romance
Here I am. lonely, unhappy, and without him. I never wanted things to turn out this way but somehow things spiraled out of control and this is how it has ended. When he laughs at whatever he deems funny I have to force myself to join him. When he rambles on nonstop about God knows what I give an obligatory head nod and gesture as if I'm truly paying attention. When he touches me it takes all of my willpower not to slap his hand away so instead I paste a happy grin on my face and I turn into him. I'm trapped in a living hell with Zander and it is really all my fault.
When I gave Nikolas back his ring I thought it would trigger something within him and he would fight to save what we once had. I thought he would fight to save him. me. us. but he didn't. I stayed by Zander's side hoping him seeing me with someone else would effect him and force him to change the things needed to be changed in order for us to be together. And when I pressed my ring into the palm of his hand, placing a gentle kiss on his cheek as goodbye I wanted nothing more than for him to pull me into his arms and never let me go but again he didn't.
So here I am months later celebrating what I long thought mine. his heart. his love. his forever. I guess some would say they had a world wind courtship but I think it was their forced closeness that brought love their way. He comforting her and she in return gave way to a blinding passion no one or no thing could derail. I've seen them out a few times and my heart slowly broke. I heard his rich and warm laughter and I witnessed the gentle smile on his face and I think then I finally realized that it was not meant for me. It was now hers and all I could do was bow my head and walk slowly from the Grille as tears silently fell down my face.
I've wanted to go to Nikolas and ask him why he never fought for us. I've wanted to question him why he never came for me begging and pleading me to return to him but I don't. I know it's selfish of me to think I could never be replaced but what I felt. what I feel for him still beats strongly in my heart. I still long to feel his lips pressed close to mine as his hands roam freely touching and teasing and. Shaking these useless thoughts from my head I turn to the mirror checking my appearance once again before Zander arrives. We are to celebrate Nikolas and Emily's engagement and I must look my best.
As Zander calls my name I try my best not to cringe. It's not his fault that he is not what or rather who I want. It's not his fault he's not Nikolas. Fixing a smile on my face I turn to him smiling as he nears me. He kisses me slowly and it takes all of my remaining willpower not to run from him and stand beneath a scolding hot shower to wash his touch and kiss off of me. I have to close my eyes and pretend he's who I want touching me. who I want loving me. I realize Zander is speaking to me and I pull away trying hard to concentrate on what he is saying to me.
Zander- Are you ready for tonight? br Gia- Why wouldn't I be? br Zander- Well this is Nikolas and Emily's engagement party.br Gia- [shrugging] Ok and.br Zander- It's being held at Wyndemere.br Gia- So? br Zander- I don't want you being hurt by this.br Gia- I won't be Zander.br Zander- Gia this is the place you and Nikolas had your engagement party. This is where you shared a home and.br Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Don't remind me.br Zander- [softly] Gia.br Gia- I'm fine Zander. [gently caressing his cheek] I'm fine.br Zander- [nodding] Are you ready to go? br Gia- [sighing] Yes.
Taking one last look in the mirror I turn to Zander taking the arm offered wishing silently that I was as brave as I appear to be. Truth being told Wyndemere and this engagement party the last place I want to be. But I was the one who forced this so who am I to turn away now? The ride to Wyndemere is thankfully quiet me needing all of my energy and strength to make it through tonight. The gentle rocking of the launch seems to unravel the web I've built around myself. For so long this was my home and to step foot in it now, celebrating Nikolas moving on without me I don't think I can do. As we near the entrance I see the party is already in full swing, laughter and good cheer greeting us as we draw closer. I want to grab Zander by the arm and run from here but I know that I owe this to Nikolas and what we once shared. I forced this and if it takes all of what I have left I will wish him happiness and love his remaining years.
We enter the party and as I suspect laughter and joy is evident in every face present. I see a smirking Elizabeth hugged up with Lucky on the dance floor swaying to the soft music playing in the background. Maybe they'll make it this time, then again with the way Elizabeth is forever changing her mind and partners Lucky had better hold on tight to his heart. I scan around the room and see a smiling Stefan finally happy that Nikolas has found the proper fiancé and family to marry into. I don't think he ever really liked me but then again I ended things before he or anyone else really had the chance to know me. I continue to look around the room and catch Alexis' eye and she sends a tender smile my way. She knows all I am going through. we both having confessed all late one night as we struggled to get Kristina back. She told me to fight for Nikolas and what we once shared but I knew then as I know now that it is too late. Nikolas has moved on and found the love he long searched for and how could I possibly take that away from him?
My heart quickens I know he has entered the room. He still has that effect on me and when I slowly turn I find myself staring up into his warm brown eyes and I don't think I will be able to survive this night. A slow smile forms on his face and it takes all that I am not stare up at him and get lost in the wonderment of his eyes. If I lived a thousand lives nothing or no one could ever compare to the way Nikolas has forever made me feel when he smiled at me. I offer a smile in return and he softly speaks to me and instantly my heart breaks and beats again for him.
Nikolas- [softly] Sparky.br Gia- [softly smiling] Hey Rich Boy I guess this is all for you huh? br Nikolas- I guess.br Gia- I hope you're. I'm glad you're happy.br Nikolas- [shrugging] Yeah.br Gia- What does that mean? br Nikolas- I'm glad you came. [slowly shaking his head] I didn't think you would come.br Gia- I wasn't going to.br Nikolas- But.br Gia- [softly] I want you happy and if she makes you.br Nikolas- [gently caressing my cheek] Are you happy Sparky?
I feel his hand on my cheek and I want to throw myself in his arms and beg him to forgive me and take me back. It was a mistake to come here and if I don't leave now I don't think. hell I know my heart will never recover. I go to move away from him but he pulls me near to him again and whispers softly to me a question I know I could never give him an answer to.
Nikolas- [softly] Are you happy without me Sparky? br Gia- [softly as I slowly shook my head] Nikolas I.
Thankfully before I could continue and ruin all he has gained Stefan steps to the forefront and announces the happy and engaged couple to the crowd. I move away from Nikolas and finally notice Emily standing beside him. Somehow I missed her presence when she and Nikolas entered the room. As he moves past me to go and stand beside his beaming uncle I feel his gentle touch as he glides a finger down my arm. I turn away as he takes Emily's hand in his and brings it slowly to his mouth. I thought I could do this but as my heart slowly and continually breaks I try my best to come up with a legitimate excuse for me to leave. Hell forget legitimate I just need something to get me away from Wyndemere, and Nikolas, and the life that once was mine.
Zander moves in to ask me to dance and thankfully my phone rings and I have to excuse myself while I go to answer it. It is a useless call but I am thankful that it has afforded me an excuse to be away from the happy life I walked away from. I hear the music still as I sit alone on a nearby bench and I can't help but close my eyes and imagine Nikolas holding me close whispering words of love in my ear. I sigh as I imagine the feel of his lips on my shoulder as he kisses my tender skin. A single tear falls as I imagine moving in closer to him feeling safe and loved as he wraps me again in his arms. I quickly wipe my face as I feel someone near and without turning I know Nikolas has come to me once again and I must push aside my feelings so that I don't ruin all that he had gained. I hear his voice and I melt and die a thousand deaths before I turn finally to him.
Nikolas- Sparky are you ok? br Gia- [softly] I'm fine Nikolas.br Nikolas- Then look at me.br Gia- [whispering as I slowly turn to him] What do you want Nikolas? br Nikolas- [softly] You.
My will breaks and I can't stop the tears that fall from my eyes. If only he could really mean what he just whispered to me. I've never wanted to hurt Zander, or Emily, or Nikolas, or anyone in this but. Standing I shake my head as I force myself to stare up at Nikolas determined to wish him well before leaving.
Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Nikolas I.br Nikolas- Gia. Sparky I want you to be happy and.br Gia- I am happy.br Nikolas- You don't look it.br Gia- [slowly nodding] I am.br Nikolas- [extending his hand] Dance with me.br Gia- Nikolas.br Nikolas- [softly] Please.
I place my hand in his and tears come to me again as he pulls me close to him. I am where I belong and I can't help but wrap him in my arms as well. He's holding and loving me and as wrong as I know it is I can't pull away from him. I feel his tender kiss grace my shoulder and I whimper knowing that this is the last I will feel and experience this pleasure. His hands follow his lips until my head is nestled in his hands as he stares down at me. Our eyes lock and I am rendered powerless to his gaze. He lowers his head to mine and I can't stop my yearning to kiss and feel him. His lips inches from mine Nikolas whispers softly to me and I can't deny him or myself what I am feeling.
Nikolas- [whispering] Sparky do you love me? br Gia- [softly] Nikolas.br Nikolas- [whispering] Baby answer me. do you love me? br Gia- [softly] Does it matter? br Nikolas- [slowly nodding] More than you know.br Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Nikolas.
Moving away from me he stares down into my eyes once again as he softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- Gia do you love me?
I stare into his eyes and finally see the desperation and need that my answer could give to him. And throwing caution and care to those in attendance of the blessed and wondrous event I tell him what truly lies in my heart.
Gia- [softly] Yes.br Nikolas- [gently brushing the back of his hand across my cheek] I love you too.
Before I had a chance to process what he whispered to me his lips was upon me and the feelings and emotions I forever fought to hide came rushing back. His lips slowly moving over my own I opened my mouth to his moving my tongue slowly against his. My arms wrapped around his neck I moved close to Nikolas never wanting to feel distance between us again. His hands moving slowly over my body I could not keep moans from escaping me. His hands at the front of my dress Nikolas pulled away from me breathing heavily as he stared down at me. His fingers slowly dancing across my skin a slow smile spreads across his face as he is once again acquaints his hands to me. A thousand questions rush to me but all is forgotten as he once again touches his lips to my skin.
Pushing the fabric of my dress aside Nikolas slowly moves his lips against my neck as he tastes and teases my skin. Somehow in our excitement I find myself pressed up against the side of Wyndemere and yet I still want more. If being with Nikolas at this time is wrong when all were here to celebrate the union of Nikolas and Emily I truly did not care. This man. with his love. in his arms is where I always thought I would be and if this was all I was to receive I gladly accepted each touch, each kiss, each piece of him.
His hands again all over me Nikolas breaks away staring down at me his eyes questioning if I wanted what was about to happen. My love and want for him nearly drowning me I could do nothing but nod and bring him once again to me. The top of my dress open and exposed to him Nikolas lowers his head devouring my skin as his tongues moves over me. I'm drunk on his love and I pray I never sober. A moan escaping me once again I watch as he brings my heated flash to his mouth suckling softly as I move below him. I want more. I crave more and I tell him with my excited cries. Nikolas again moves away from me staring down with want, desire, and most importantly love clearly evident on his face. I want to touch him, proving to myself once again that he is real, but instead he claims my hand taking it slowly to his mouth to bathe and kiss with love.
We come together again and as he showers me with tender kisses he is pulled from me with excited voices calling out to him. As Elizabeth and Lucky near Nikolas moves from me allowing me time to fix my clothes before we turn to them. Her ever-present smirk on her face I can do nothing but shake my head as I go to move away from Nikolas. His hand pulling me close to him once again I stare up at Nikolas as he softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- [softly] Don't go.br Liz- Let her.br Lucky- [slowly shaking his head] Stay out of this.br Liz- No. she can't end everything in one breath and decides she wants him back in the next. especially now when he's finally happy. br Lucky- Elizabeth.br Liz- Nikolas deserves to be happy and she's not it.
Looking at Nikolas as Elizabeth once again spouts off her mouth about something she does not know I notice the smile leaving his face once again and as hard as it hurts I do what I came here to do. To wish him well and as hard as it seems move on with my life.
Gia- [softly] I'm sorry Nikolas.br Nikolas- [shaking his head] Gia no.br Gia- I only came to say congratulations and now that I have.br Nikolas- [softly] Don't leave me again. please. br Gia- I'm sorry Nikolas. tell Zander. tell him I wasn't feeling well and I went home. br Nikolas- [softly] Sparky.
My tears threatening to drown me once again I gently caress his cheek as I whisper to him once again.
Gia- [softly] You have a new Sparky now.br Nikolas- [his hand covering mine] No.br Gia- Be happy Nikolas.
Without another word I turn and hurry to the launch escaping with my tears and newly broken heart. I wander haphazardly about Port Charles seeing nothing as I try again to erase the feel of his arms around me and his lips slowly moving across my skin. Ignoring the steady calls on my phone I find myself on the edges of Port Charles contemplating whether to stay or to go. If I stay I would have to endure Nikolas and Emily in love and happy and that was a pain I was not ready to face. And yet if I left the thought of him would still be heavy on mind and I would cease to thrive and live and it would be as if I was still in Port Charles. Looking back across the shimmering water I could nearly make out Wyndemere in the distance and I bid goodbye to the heart I would no longer need.
Slowly making my way back to my tiny apartment I replay the scenes of Nikolas and I in my head letting my temporary euphoria wash over me. He held me in his arms and again told me he loved me and regardless to all I would soon face there I once again felt alive. Staring up at my apartment building a tender smile on my face I was glad that once again felt his love. Unlocking the door to my tiny apartment I gasp in surprise as tulips of all shades litter my room. Slowly shaking my head I again could not hold my tears as he smiles back at me his arms open wide welcoming me once again to him. Remaining by my door as my emotion overpower me Nikolas comes to me gathering me in his arms as he slowly and softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- [whispering] There's only one Sparky I care about.
As hard as I could I could not contain my tears and as he tenderly wiped them from my face I stared up at him whispering softly his name.
Gia- [whispering] Nikolas.br Nikolas- Sparky I can't let you go. [slowly shaking his head] I don't want to let you go. I love you and always will.br Gia- But what about.br Nikolas- [slowly shaking his head] All that matters is you and I. everything will work out as it should as long as you remain by my side.br Gia- There's no other place I want to be.br Nikolas- There's no other place I want you to be.
Holding me closely in his arms I close my eyes and I finally feel home.
by: DrmKpr
Nikolas and Gia Romance
Here I am. lonely, unhappy, and without him. I never wanted things to turn out this way but somehow things spiraled out of control and this is how it has ended. When he laughs at whatever he deems funny I have to force myself to join him. When he rambles on nonstop about God knows what I give an obligatory head nod and gesture as if I'm truly paying attention. When he touches me it takes all of my willpower not to slap his hand away so instead I paste a happy grin on my face and I turn into him. I'm trapped in a living hell with Zander and it is really all my fault.
When I gave Nikolas back his ring I thought it would trigger something within him and he would fight to save what we once had. I thought he would fight to save him. me. us. but he didn't. I stayed by Zander's side hoping him seeing me with someone else would effect him and force him to change the things needed to be changed in order for us to be together. And when I pressed my ring into the palm of his hand, placing a gentle kiss on his cheek as goodbye I wanted nothing more than for him to pull me into his arms and never let me go but again he didn't.
So here I am months later celebrating what I long thought mine. his heart. his love. his forever. I guess some would say they had a world wind courtship but I think it was their forced closeness that brought love their way. He comforting her and she in return gave way to a blinding passion no one or no thing could derail. I've seen them out a few times and my heart slowly broke. I heard his rich and warm laughter and I witnessed the gentle smile on his face and I think then I finally realized that it was not meant for me. It was now hers and all I could do was bow my head and walk slowly from the Grille as tears silently fell down my face.
I've wanted to go to Nikolas and ask him why he never fought for us. I've wanted to question him why he never came for me begging and pleading me to return to him but I don't. I know it's selfish of me to think I could never be replaced but what I felt. what I feel for him still beats strongly in my heart. I still long to feel his lips pressed close to mine as his hands roam freely touching and teasing and. Shaking these useless thoughts from my head I turn to the mirror checking my appearance once again before Zander arrives. We are to celebrate Nikolas and Emily's engagement and I must look my best.
As Zander calls my name I try my best not to cringe. It's not his fault that he is not what or rather who I want. It's not his fault he's not Nikolas. Fixing a smile on my face I turn to him smiling as he nears me. He kisses me slowly and it takes all of my remaining willpower not to run from him and stand beneath a scolding hot shower to wash his touch and kiss off of me. I have to close my eyes and pretend he's who I want touching me. who I want loving me. I realize Zander is speaking to me and I pull away trying hard to concentrate on what he is saying to me.
Zander- Are you ready for tonight? br Gia- Why wouldn't I be? br Zander- Well this is Nikolas and Emily's engagement party.br Gia- [shrugging] Ok and.br Zander- It's being held at Wyndemere.br Gia- So? br Zander- I don't want you being hurt by this.br Gia- I won't be Zander.br Zander- Gia this is the place you and Nikolas had your engagement party. This is where you shared a home and.br Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Don't remind me.br Zander- [softly] Gia.br Gia- I'm fine Zander. [gently caressing his cheek] I'm fine.br Zander- [nodding] Are you ready to go? br Gia- [sighing] Yes.
Taking one last look in the mirror I turn to Zander taking the arm offered wishing silently that I was as brave as I appear to be. Truth being told Wyndemere and this engagement party the last place I want to be. But I was the one who forced this so who am I to turn away now? The ride to Wyndemere is thankfully quiet me needing all of my energy and strength to make it through tonight. The gentle rocking of the launch seems to unravel the web I've built around myself. For so long this was my home and to step foot in it now, celebrating Nikolas moving on without me I don't think I can do. As we near the entrance I see the party is already in full swing, laughter and good cheer greeting us as we draw closer. I want to grab Zander by the arm and run from here but I know that I owe this to Nikolas and what we once shared. I forced this and if it takes all of what I have left I will wish him happiness and love his remaining years.
We enter the party and as I suspect laughter and joy is evident in every face present. I see a smirking Elizabeth hugged up with Lucky on the dance floor swaying to the soft music playing in the background. Maybe they'll make it this time, then again with the way Elizabeth is forever changing her mind and partners Lucky had better hold on tight to his heart. I scan around the room and see a smiling Stefan finally happy that Nikolas has found the proper fiancé and family to marry into. I don't think he ever really liked me but then again I ended things before he or anyone else really had the chance to know me. I continue to look around the room and catch Alexis' eye and she sends a tender smile my way. She knows all I am going through. we both having confessed all late one night as we struggled to get Kristina back. She told me to fight for Nikolas and what we once shared but I knew then as I know now that it is too late. Nikolas has moved on and found the love he long searched for and how could I possibly take that away from him?
My heart quickens I know he has entered the room. He still has that effect on me and when I slowly turn I find myself staring up into his warm brown eyes and I don't think I will be able to survive this night. A slow smile forms on his face and it takes all that I am not stare up at him and get lost in the wonderment of his eyes. If I lived a thousand lives nothing or no one could ever compare to the way Nikolas has forever made me feel when he smiled at me. I offer a smile in return and he softly speaks to me and instantly my heart breaks and beats again for him.
Nikolas- [softly] Sparky.br Gia- [softly smiling] Hey Rich Boy I guess this is all for you huh? br Nikolas- I guess.br Gia- I hope you're. I'm glad you're happy.br Nikolas- [shrugging] Yeah.br Gia- What does that mean? br Nikolas- I'm glad you came. [slowly shaking his head] I didn't think you would come.br Gia- I wasn't going to.br Nikolas- But.br Gia- [softly] I want you happy and if she makes you.br Nikolas- [gently caressing my cheek] Are you happy Sparky?
I feel his hand on my cheek and I want to throw myself in his arms and beg him to forgive me and take me back. It was a mistake to come here and if I don't leave now I don't think. hell I know my heart will never recover. I go to move away from him but he pulls me near to him again and whispers softly to me a question I know I could never give him an answer to.
Nikolas- [softly] Are you happy without me Sparky? br Gia- [softly as I slowly shook my head] Nikolas I.
Thankfully before I could continue and ruin all he has gained Stefan steps to the forefront and announces the happy and engaged couple to the crowd. I move away from Nikolas and finally notice Emily standing beside him. Somehow I missed her presence when she and Nikolas entered the room. As he moves past me to go and stand beside his beaming uncle I feel his gentle touch as he glides a finger down my arm. I turn away as he takes Emily's hand in his and brings it slowly to his mouth. I thought I could do this but as my heart slowly and continually breaks I try my best to come up with a legitimate excuse for me to leave. Hell forget legitimate I just need something to get me away from Wyndemere, and Nikolas, and the life that once was mine.
Zander moves in to ask me to dance and thankfully my phone rings and I have to excuse myself while I go to answer it. It is a useless call but I am thankful that it has afforded me an excuse to be away from the happy life I walked away from. I hear the music still as I sit alone on a nearby bench and I can't help but close my eyes and imagine Nikolas holding me close whispering words of love in my ear. I sigh as I imagine the feel of his lips on my shoulder as he kisses my tender skin. A single tear falls as I imagine moving in closer to him feeling safe and loved as he wraps me again in his arms. I quickly wipe my face as I feel someone near and without turning I know Nikolas has come to me once again and I must push aside my feelings so that I don't ruin all that he had gained. I hear his voice and I melt and die a thousand deaths before I turn finally to him.
Nikolas- Sparky are you ok? br Gia- [softly] I'm fine Nikolas.br Nikolas- Then look at me.br Gia- [whispering as I slowly turn to him] What do you want Nikolas? br Nikolas- [softly] You.
My will breaks and I can't stop the tears that fall from my eyes. If only he could really mean what he just whispered to me. I've never wanted to hurt Zander, or Emily, or Nikolas, or anyone in this but. Standing I shake my head as I force myself to stare up at Nikolas determined to wish him well before leaving.
Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Nikolas I.br Nikolas- Gia. Sparky I want you to be happy and.br Gia- I am happy.br Nikolas- You don't look it.br Gia- [slowly nodding] I am.br Nikolas- [extending his hand] Dance with me.br Gia- Nikolas.br Nikolas- [softly] Please.
I place my hand in his and tears come to me again as he pulls me close to him. I am where I belong and I can't help but wrap him in my arms as well. He's holding and loving me and as wrong as I know it is I can't pull away from him. I feel his tender kiss grace my shoulder and I whimper knowing that this is the last I will feel and experience this pleasure. His hands follow his lips until my head is nestled in his hands as he stares down at me. Our eyes lock and I am rendered powerless to his gaze. He lowers his head to mine and I can't stop my yearning to kiss and feel him. His lips inches from mine Nikolas whispers softly to me and I can't deny him or myself what I am feeling.
Nikolas- [whispering] Sparky do you love me? br Gia- [softly] Nikolas.br Nikolas- [whispering] Baby answer me. do you love me? br Gia- [softly] Does it matter? br Nikolas- [slowly nodding] More than you know.br Gia- [slowly shaking my head] Nikolas.
Moving away from me he stares down into my eyes once again as he softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- Gia do you love me?
I stare into his eyes and finally see the desperation and need that my answer could give to him. And throwing caution and care to those in attendance of the blessed and wondrous event I tell him what truly lies in my heart.
Gia- [softly] Yes.br Nikolas- [gently brushing the back of his hand across my cheek] I love you too.
Before I had a chance to process what he whispered to me his lips was upon me and the feelings and emotions I forever fought to hide came rushing back. His lips slowly moving over my own I opened my mouth to his moving my tongue slowly against his. My arms wrapped around his neck I moved close to Nikolas never wanting to feel distance between us again. His hands moving slowly over my body I could not keep moans from escaping me. His hands at the front of my dress Nikolas pulled away from me breathing heavily as he stared down at me. His fingers slowly dancing across my skin a slow smile spreads across his face as he is once again acquaints his hands to me. A thousand questions rush to me but all is forgotten as he once again touches his lips to my skin.
Pushing the fabric of my dress aside Nikolas slowly moves his lips against my neck as he tastes and teases my skin. Somehow in our excitement I find myself pressed up against the side of Wyndemere and yet I still want more. If being with Nikolas at this time is wrong when all were here to celebrate the union of Nikolas and Emily I truly did not care. This man. with his love. in his arms is where I always thought I would be and if this was all I was to receive I gladly accepted each touch, each kiss, each piece of him.
His hands again all over me Nikolas breaks away staring down at me his eyes questioning if I wanted what was about to happen. My love and want for him nearly drowning me I could do nothing but nod and bring him once again to me. The top of my dress open and exposed to him Nikolas lowers his head devouring my skin as his tongues moves over me. I'm drunk on his love and I pray I never sober. A moan escaping me once again I watch as he brings my heated flash to his mouth suckling softly as I move below him. I want more. I crave more and I tell him with my excited cries. Nikolas again moves away from me staring down with want, desire, and most importantly love clearly evident on his face. I want to touch him, proving to myself once again that he is real, but instead he claims my hand taking it slowly to his mouth to bathe and kiss with love.
We come together again and as he showers me with tender kisses he is pulled from me with excited voices calling out to him. As Elizabeth and Lucky near Nikolas moves from me allowing me time to fix my clothes before we turn to them. Her ever-present smirk on her face I can do nothing but shake my head as I go to move away from Nikolas. His hand pulling me close to him once again I stare up at Nikolas as he softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- [softly] Don't go.br Liz- Let her.br Lucky- [slowly shaking his head] Stay out of this.br Liz- No. she can't end everything in one breath and decides she wants him back in the next. especially now when he's finally happy. br Lucky- Elizabeth.br Liz- Nikolas deserves to be happy and she's not it.
Looking at Nikolas as Elizabeth once again spouts off her mouth about something she does not know I notice the smile leaving his face once again and as hard as it hurts I do what I came here to do. To wish him well and as hard as it seems move on with my life.
Gia- [softly] I'm sorry Nikolas.br Nikolas- [shaking his head] Gia no.br Gia- I only came to say congratulations and now that I have.br Nikolas- [softly] Don't leave me again. please. br Gia- I'm sorry Nikolas. tell Zander. tell him I wasn't feeling well and I went home. br Nikolas- [softly] Sparky.
My tears threatening to drown me once again I gently caress his cheek as I whisper to him once again.
Gia- [softly] You have a new Sparky now.br Nikolas- [his hand covering mine] No.br Gia- Be happy Nikolas.
Without another word I turn and hurry to the launch escaping with my tears and newly broken heart. I wander haphazardly about Port Charles seeing nothing as I try again to erase the feel of his arms around me and his lips slowly moving across my skin. Ignoring the steady calls on my phone I find myself on the edges of Port Charles contemplating whether to stay or to go. If I stay I would have to endure Nikolas and Emily in love and happy and that was a pain I was not ready to face. And yet if I left the thought of him would still be heavy on mind and I would cease to thrive and live and it would be as if I was still in Port Charles. Looking back across the shimmering water I could nearly make out Wyndemere in the distance and I bid goodbye to the heart I would no longer need.
Slowly making my way back to my tiny apartment I replay the scenes of Nikolas and I in my head letting my temporary euphoria wash over me. He held me in his arms and again told me he loved me and regardless to all I would soon face there I once again felt alive. Staring up at my apartment building a tender smile on my face I was glad that once again felt his love. Unlocking the door to my tiny apartment I gasp in surprise as tulips of all shades litter my room. Slowly shaking my head I again could not hold my tears as he smiles back at me his arms open wide welcoming me once again to him. Remaining by my door as my emotion overpower me Nikolas comes to me gathering me in his arms as he slowly and softly whispers to me.
Nikolas- [whispering] There's only one Sparky I care about.
As hard as I could I could not contain my tears and as he tenderly wiped them from my face I stared up at him whispering softly his name.
Gia- [whispering] Nikolas.br Nikolas- Sparky I can't let you go. [slowly shaking his head] I don't want to let you go. I love you and always will.br Gia- But what about.br Nikolas- [slowly shaking his head] All that matters is you and I. everything will work out as it should as long as you remain by my side.br Gia- There's no other place I want to be.br Nikolas- There's no other place I want you to be.
Holding me closely in his arms I close my eyes and I finally feel home.