Disclaimer : I don't own anything so don't bother suing me as the most you'll get is a packet of wine gums and a smack in the eye.
I don't own Madonna's Mer Girl cos I'm . . .well . . . a poor student lol.
MER GIRL
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I ran from my house
That cannot contain me
From the man I cannot keep
From my mother who haunts me
Even though she's gone
From my daughter that never sleeps
I ran from the noise and the silence
From the traffic on the streets
I ran to the treetops
I ran to the sky
Out to the lake
Into the rain that matted my hair
And soaked my shoes and skin
Hid my tears, hid my fears
I ran to the forest
I ran to the trees
I ran and ran, I was looking for me
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Lily's face was streaked with mascara ink black tears and her hair flew behind her like a fire. She was running full out from the castle down to the lake by the Forbidden Forest. She'd ran so fast she felt her heart would burst in her chest, if it already hadn't that is. It felt broken, like a shattered piece of glass. Not a single sane thought flew through her mind. Lily was so angry, so hurt and so broken that real thoughts didn't occur to her. She barely felt the ground beneath her feet as she ran, she was so out of her mind with pain.
She came to the lake and stood there. Then she gave in a let herself fall in, as if being pulled by a huge invisible hand. She wanted to die.
Lily felt the gasping cold of the water envelope her and it hit her like a million icy knives all over her body. She couldn't move, she couldn't cry out and slowly she was being dragged down. After a brief horrifying moment of being paralysed with cold she began to struggle towards the surface but her clothes were so heavy that they held her fast in the dark freezing depths. She couldn't see a thing, only the sad glint of the sky through the water. She put her arms out, as if she was trying to grab the light above her.
Lily let out a silent scream underwater and felt her throat fill with dirty water. She spluttered in a vain attempt to breathe. She could feel her head spinning. She needed air. She was going to die here all alone and no-one would ever find her. The lake was so deep . . . she'd be lost forever. She imagined her family's eyes, pained as they were told that they're youngest daughter was dead. Whilst she'd been running she'd been wishing she was dead, but now that death was moments away she was horribly scared. This was it - this was the end.
She stopped struggling, exhausted. Her throat constricted painfully from wanting to cry, not that it would've helped. Her short seventeen year old life flashed before her eyes and she felt a numbing sort of freedom. For a moment Lily forgot she was dying as she experianced the euphoria of all the oxygen being drained from her brain.
Then suddenly a hand plunged into the lake and grabbed her cloak and a large clump of her sopping wet hair. She felt herself being pulled out very slowly from the lake. At least, it seemed slow . . .she was so out of it that she didn't really know what was happening.
Her eyes, clouded with water and misty with dead tears could make out perfect white skin and bright blue eyes.
(( So this is what angels look like . . )) she thought in her semi-concious state.
The angel gave a loud grunt as he hauled her from the lake, then shook her hard and slapped her face.
''Lily! Lily wake up! Oh for fuck's sake Lily!''
Lily recognised the voice from somewhere. The angel slapped her again and pushed down on her stomach hard.
She felt like she was going to be very ill and lurched over to her side and threw up a great deal of water. She spluttered and coughed and gasped for the beautiful cold air that was slowly filling her lungs. She took a deep long breath and then coughed some more.
The realisation of what had nearly happened hit Lily then and she burst into horrified tears. The angel wrapped his arms around her and slipped her soaking cloak off her. A new dry one was placed gently round her shoulders and then the angel held her.
She clutched the angel hard and sobbed fretfully into his chest.
It was then she realised she wasn't holding an angel.
She looked up and wiped the tears from her misty eyes. The perfect skin and blue eyes belonged to a boy with jet black hair and a strikingly beautiful face. It was Sirius Black.
''Sirius . . .?''she whispered, more to herself than him.
His lovely face was solemn and sad and his bright eyes were filled with tears. ''You stupid girl,''he said, his voice terribly sad.
''Oh Sirius,'' was all Lily could say as she started to cry again.
He held her very tight and she could feel the warmth of his body seeping into her's. As her arms clutched his back she could feel him cry softly.
''Oh Lily, you stupid girl,'' he said over and over again.
He turned her pale face up to meet his and look her straight in the eyes. ''Why did you do that, Lily? You scared me so fucking much . . .I didn't think I'd make it in time . . . I saw you fall in and you were under there so long. I didn't think you were still . . ''
Sirius couldn't go on anymore and his voice cracked. ''Why?'' he asked again.
''James hurt me so badly,''she said. ''I saw him with that girl and it hurt so much that I couldn't . . . '' She clucked, trying not to cry again. ''I didn't know what to do. I've never felt that before and it was . . . ''
Lily started to weep again and Sirius held her to him.
''I thought I'd lost you forever,''he whispered, stroking her red hair that was glistening with the water. ''I know that feeling. I thought I'd lose you and I didn't know how to react. I was so scared . . . ''
''Why were you scared?''she said softly. She feared the answer.
Sirius took a deep shuddering breath and his blue eyes bored into her green ones. ''I love you, Lily,''he said, his voice hoarce from wanting to cry. ''And when I saw how James could hurt you like that it broke my heart because I'd never do that to you, Lily, I swear I wouldn't. I love you too much to hurt you. And when you fell in to that lake I went with you because you mean the world to me. If I lost you . . .I'd have nothing to live for.''
Lily felt her stomach clench unpleasantly. ''Sirius I - ''
But he cut her off. ''I know you don't feel the same.'' His voice was laden with heartbreak, the kind of misery that had been borne for years. He looked at his hands. ''But . . .one day you will. I know you will.'' His voice became certain and Lily felt scared.
''I don't know when you'll love me,'' said Sirius gently. ''But one day Lily, you'll look at me and see me the way I see you.''
Lily stood shakily to her feet. ''Maybe your wrong,''she said.
''But I'm not,''said Sirius. ''You know I'm right.''
''Sirius . . . I . . .we can't,'' she said, looking at the ground.
''We can,''he said with certainty. ''And one day we will.''
She opened and closed her mouth several times, trying to find a response. Her mind was rushing through a tornado of thoughts and she felt scared. A horrible part of her felt that Sirius was right. She turned and walked away.
She could feel his bright ice blue eyes boring into her back as she walked, and she started to cry.
His name was dancing in her head. He was right he was right he was right.
Sirius was right. She would love him one day. Not now, but one day.
Lily was afraid, but inside her a little flame was lit.
She started to wait for that feeling and secretly she smiled.
It started to rain. Maybe everyone would think she was caught in the rainstorm.
In more than one way, she had.
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I ran past the churches
And the crooked old mailbox
Past the apple orchards
And the lady that never talks
Up into the hills
I ran to the cemetary
And held my breath
And thought about your death
I ran to the lake, up into the hills
I ran and ran, I'm looking there still
And I saw the crumbling tombstones
The forgotten names, I tasted the rain
I tasted my tears
I cursed the angels
I tasted my fears
And the ground gave way beneath my feet
And the earth took me in her arms
Leaves covered my face, ants marched across my back
The black sky opened up, blinding me
I ran to the forest, I ran to the trees
I ran and ran, I was looking for me
I ran to the lakes and up to the hill
I ran and ran, I'm looking there still
And I smelt her burning flesh
Her rotting bones, her decay
I ran and ran
I'm still running today
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Please review and tell me, should I follow this up with what happens next? I might write a sequel but I'm not sure.
Thanks.
Lux
xox
I don't own Madonna's Mer Girl cos I'm . . .well . . . a poor student lol.
MER GIRL
****************************
I ran from my house
That cannot contain me
From the man I cannot keep
From my mother who haunts me
Even though she's gone
From my daughter that never sleeps
I ran from the noise and the silence
From the traffic on the streets
I ran to the treetops
I ran to the sky
Out to the lake
Into the rain that matted my hair
And soaked my shoes and skin
Hid my tears, hid my fears
I ran to the forest
I ran to the trees
I ran and ran, I was looking for me
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Lily's face was streaked with mascara ink black tears and her hair flew behind her like a fire. She was running full out from the castle down to the lake by the Forbidden Forest. She'd ran so fast she felt her heart would burst in her chest, if it already hadn't that is. It felt broken, like a shattered piece of glass. Not a single sane thought flew through her mind. Lily was so angry, so hurt and so broken that real thoughts didn't occur to her. She barely felt the ground beneath her feet as she ran, she was so out of her mind with pain.
She came to the lake and stood there. Then she gave in a let herself fall in, as if being pulled by a huge invisible hand. She wanted to die.
Lily felt the gasping cold of the water envelope her and it hit her like a million icy knives all over her body. She couldn't move, she couldn't cry out and slowly she was being dragged down. After a brief horrifying moment of being paralysed with cold she began to struggle towards the surface but her clothes were so heavy that they held her fast in the dark freezing depths. She couldn't see a thing, only the sad glint of the sky through the water. She put her arms out, as if she was trying to grab the light above her.
Lily let out a silent scream underwater and felt her throat fill with dirty water. She spluttered in a vain attempt to breathe. She could feel her head spinning. She needed air. She was going to die here all alone and no-one would ever find her. The lake was so deep . . . she'd be lost forever. She imagined her family's eyes, pained as they were told that they're youngest daughter was dead. Whilst she'd been running she'd been wishing she was dead, but now that death was moments away she was horribly scared. This was it - this was the end.
She stopped struggling, exhausted. Her throat constricted painfully from wanting to cry, not that it would've helped. Her short seventeen year old life flashed before her eyes and she felt a numbing sort of freedom. For a moment Lily forgot she was dying as she experianced the euphoria of all the oxygen being drained from her brain.
Then suddenly a hand plunged into the lake and grabbed her cloak and a large clump of her sopping wet hair. She felt herself being pulled out very slowly from the lake. At least, it seemed slow . . .she was so out of it that she didn't really know what was happening.
Her eyes, clouded with water and misty with dead tears could make out perfect white skin and bright blue eyes.
(( So this is what angels look like . . )) she thought in her semi-concious state.
The angel gave a loud grunt as he hauled her from the lake, then shook her hard and slapped her face.
''Lily! Lily wake up! Oh for fuck's sake Lily!''
Lily recognised the voice from somewhere. The angel slapped her again and pushed down on her stomach hard.
She felt like she was going to be very ill and lurched over to her side and threw up a great deal of water. She spluttered and coughed and gasped for the beautiful cold air that was slowly filling her lungs. She took a deep long breath and then coughed some more.
The realisation of what had nearly happened hit Lily then and she burst into horrified tears. The angel wrapped his arms around her and slipped her soaking cloak off her. A new dry one was placed gently round her shoulders and then the angel held her.
She clutched the angel hard and sobbed fretfully into his chest.
It was then she realised she wasn't holding an angel.
She looked up and wiped the tears from her misty eyes. The perfect skin and blue eyes belonged to a boy with jet black hair and a strikingly beautiful face. It was Sirius Black.
''Sirius . . .?''she whispered, more to herself than him.
His lovely face was solemn and sad and his bright eyes were filled with tears. ''You stupid girl,''he said, his voice terribly sad.
''Oh Sirius,'' was all Lily could say as she started to cry again.
He held her very tight and she could feel the warmth of his body seeping into her's. As her arms clutched his back she could feel him cry softly.
''Oh Lily, you stupid girl,'' he said over and over again.
He turned her pale face up to meet his and look her straight in the eyes. ''Why did you do that, Lily? You scared me so fucking much . . .I didn't think I'd make it in time . . . I saw you fall in and you were under there so long. I didn't think you were still . . ''
Sirius couldn't go on anymore and his voice cracked. ''Why?'' he asked again.
''James hurt me so badly,''she said. ''I saw him with that girl and it hurt so much that I couldn't . . . '' She clucked, trying not to cry again. ''I didn't know what to do. I've never felt that before and it was . . . ''
Lily started to weep again and Sirius held her to him.
''I thought I'd lost you forever,''he whispered, stroking her red hair that was glistening with the water. ''I know that feeling. I thought I'd lose you and I didn't know how to react. I was so scared . . . ''
''Why were you scared?''she said softly. She feared the answer.
Sirius took a deep shuddering breath and his blue eyes bored into her green ones. ''I love you, Lily,''he said, his voice hoarce from wanting to cry. ''And when I saw how James could hurt you like that it broke my heart because I'd never do that to you, Lily, I swear I wouldn't. I love you too much to hurt you. And when you fell in to that lake I went with you because you mean the world to me. If I lost you . . .I'd have nothing to live for.''
Lily felt her stomach clench unpleasantly. ''Sirius I - ''
But he cut her off. ''I know you don't feel the same.'' His voice was laden with heartbreak, the kind of misery that had been borne for years. He looked at his hands. ''But . . .one day you will. I know you will.'' His voice became certain and Lily felt scared.
''I don't know when you'll love me,'' said Sirius gently. ''But one day Lily, you'll look at me and see me the way I see you.''
Lily stood shakily to her feet. ''Maybe your wrong,''she said.
''But I'm not,''said Sirius. ''You know I'm right.''
''Sirius . . . I . . .we can't,'' she said, looking at the ground.
''We can,''he said with certainty. ''And one day we will.''
She opened and closed her mouth several times, trying to find a response. Her mind was rushing through a tornado of thoughts and she felt scared. A horrible part of her felt that Sirius was right. She turned and walked away.
She could feel his bright ice blue eyes boring into her back as she walked, and she started to cry.
His name was dancing in her head. He was right he was right he was right.
Sirius was right. She would love him one day. Not now, but one day.
Lily was afraid, but inside her a little flame was lit.
She started to wait for that feeling and secretly she smiled.
It started to rain. Maybe everyone would think she was caught in the rainstorm.
In more than one way, she had.
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I ran past the churches
And the crooked old mailbox
Past the apple orchards
And the lady that never talks
Up into the hills
I ran to the cemetary
And held my breath
And thought about your death
I ran to the lake, up into the hills
I ran and ran, I'm looking there still
And I saw the crumbling tombstones
The forgotten names, I tasted the rain
I tasted my tears
I cursed the angels
I tasted my fears
And the ground gave way beneath my feet
And the earth took me in her arms
Leaves covered my face, ants marched across my back
The black sky opened up, blinding me
I ran to the forest, I ran to the trees
I ran and ran, I was looking for me
I ran to the lakes and up to the hill
I ran and ran, I'm looking there still
And I smelt her burning flesh
Her rotting bones, her decay
I ran and ran
I'm still running today
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Please review and tell me, should I follow this up with what happens next? I might write a sequel but I'm not sure.
Thanks.
Lux
xox