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MER GIRL
Chapter 4 : Peering deep into the mirror . . .
Sirius was in a far better mood, his friends noticed. He wasn't moping about the castle feeling sorry for himself much anymore. Obviously he had his odd despondent moment when he would just wander off by himself and be seen mooching about the castle, lost in thought.
He hadn't apoligised to Remus, but had been distinctly nicer after his little outburst.
But that wasn't enough for Lupin - sure, he forgave Sirius for throwing a tantrum at him, but what he really wanted to know was why Sirius had acted that way. It was so out of charecter for him.
But Lupin was no fool - he had noticed the way Sirius looked whenever Lily Evans walked past him. His eyes filled with something that made them glow so bright that he radiated happiness. A stupid smile would creep onto his face whenever Sirius spoke to her and he would blush a great deal and run his hands nervously through his jet hair. Lupin also noticed that Sirius went out of his way to make Lily laugh, and if Lily wasn't in stictches then Sirius would be a worried mood for the rest of the day.
Lupin knew why Lily was depressed. She was still pining over James. They'd broken up three months ago and since then she'd glided round the castle like a little ghost - pale and sad. He felt sorry for her.
But ever since the day Sirius had lost his temper, she'd been much better. This might have been because Sirius was always around making her laugh, but there was something else.
She was beginning to look at Sirius in a different way. Her eyes didn't glow like Sirius's did when they laid eyes on eachother, but there was a certain fondness in her face whenever she spoke to him. When she was around Sirius, her pretty face was always smiling and the frown lines that seemed to be always on her face dissapeared and made her look seventeen again.
Lupin smiled to himself. Sirius had a knack for making people smile. The only trouble was that there were few people that made him smile in return. He was always the one cracking the jokes and pulling pranks, but other people's jokes raised little more than a half smile.
The only people who really made him crease with laughter were James and Lupin and whenever Gildaroy Lockhard made an arse of himself Sirius was always there, nearly on the floor laughing.
Other than that . . . well, Remus couldn't really think of anyone.
Apart from Lily.
She'd always been a part of the Marauders life, considering that she'd gone out with James for three years and she'd always been friends with them.
But these days, she was like a storm invading calm waters. James still talked about her, and it was annoying his girlfriend. Peter still thought she was stunning and that annoyed James, Remus sat by her in Charms and couldn't help but worry at her thin appearance and miserable face and Sirius was around her more than ever.
Lily and Sirius had always been good friends, but Lupin couldn't help noticing that new way Sirius was looking at her.
Then one day it hit him.
(( He's in love with her . . )) he thought. Lupin blinked for a while, then turned around to see Sirius once again talking to Lily. He'd just said something about Snape and Lily was helpless with laughter.
Remus watched as he took in the expression on Sirius's face. The black haired boy was relishing the smile on Lily's lips and standing very close to her. His eyes were darting all over her face and that stupid smile was there again.
Remus sat back and pondered. (( James isn't going to be too happy about this, )) he thought. Lupin toyed with the idea of telling James, but decided against it. Just because Sirius appeared to be in love with Lily didn't mean that she felt the same way. And even then, he might be wrong. They might just be close friends.
Lupin took another quick look. Sirius was teasing her, pulling her hair then blaming it on someone else.
''Lily, I swear that wasn't me,''Sirius was saying. He pointed at Peter. ''It was him by there.'' Peter looked at him strangely.
''Yeah, I'm talking to you, Captain Faggot!''Sirius said, mock angry. ''Pulling Lily's hair! Who do you think you are?? I mean, god Peter! That's just wrong!''
Lily was creased with laughter at Sirius's blatent attempt to pin the blame on someone else.
''Apoligise you wench!'' Sirius cried at Peter. He turned to Lily. ''Kids these days,''he joked.
Lily continued to laugh. ''I saw you do it, Sirius,''she grinned.
Sirius pretended to looked hurt. ''Well - Lily, I can't believe you'd accuse me of something like that!'' He turned his back to her and pretended to pout. ''I don't think we can be friends anymore.'' He gave his hair an affected flick then turned back around and grinned.
Remus shook his head and smiled fondly. Yep, Sirius was flirting fit to bust. Lupin saw James eyeing Sirius suspiciously.
The Gryffindor Seeker had a very odd look on his face. It seemed that he thought that even though Lily and him were history, that she should still be hopelessly in love with him, pining - rather than having fun.
(( He still sees her as his property, )) Lupin thought.
The fair haired boy shrugged to himself. Maybe he'd better leave this one rest for a while.
Which wasn't to say that he still wasn't interested . . .
''Sirius? Can I have a word?'' Remus asked.
''No, but you can have a cake.'' Sirius took it upon himself to throw a small iced bun at Lupin.
Lupin sighed and picked bits of icing off his cloak. ''No, seriously,''he said. ''Can I ask you something?''
''I don't know. Can you?''
''Sirius!''
The black haired boy gave a sigh. ''Fine, fine. God, I was only messing about.'' He faced Lupin. ''What's up, Mooney?''
''It's about you and Lily . . .''Lupin said. He trailed off.
A closed expression appeared on Sirius's face. ''What about me and Lily?''he said. There was a thin line of steel in his tone.
Lupin swallowed. Sirius looked rather menacing right now. It was quite gloomy in the dorm, as it was late evening and Sirius looked almost wolflike. His bright eyes glared out of the darkness and his near elbow length black hair framed his angular face, giving him a dark, other-wordly appearance.
''It's just that . . . well . . .you and Lily have been getting rather close lately and . . .''
''And what?''said Sirius, his tone ice.
''I was just wondering if, you know, anything was going on between you two.'' Lupin avoided Sirius's searching eyes.
Lupin gave a strange sort of smile.
Sirius raised a single eyebrow. ''No,''he said. ''There isn't. Why?''
''It's just that I've been noticing the way you look at her and you always seem to be flirting with her. It's just that . . I don't think James would be too happy if he found out that anything was going on, you know?''
Sirius jerked his head back quickly and walked to the window. ''Nothing's going on, Mooney,'' he said, his tone calmer now. ''Besides, would it really matter what James thought? They aren't even together anymore.''
''Yeah, I know,''said Remus. ''But James still sort of sees Lily as his property, if you get my drift.''
Sirius snorted with disdain. ''Lily isn't anyone's property, least of all James's. So they were shagging before they broke up? Big deal! So were a million other people.'' He turned towards Lupin and glared at him with those strange eyes of his. ''Lily isn't anyone's property,''he repeated.
The tone in Sirius's voice made it clear that the conversation was very much over.
Lupin didn't bring it up again that night. It was a touchy subject, and he decided that he needed a lot more to go on than just a hunch before he confronted Sirius about it again.
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Well, that's that. I'll have the 5th chapter up pretty soon I suppose, as soon as I think of something else to happen. Any suggestions are very welcome as I'm writing this at a furious pace off the top of my head. Thanks!
Luv Lux
xox
MER GIRL
Chapter 4 : Peering deep into the mirror . . .
Sirius was in a far better mood, his friends noticed. He wasn't moping about the castle feeling sorry for himself much anymore. Obviously he had his odd despondent moment when he would just wander off by himself and be seen mooching about the castle, lost in thought.
He hadn't apoligised to Remus, but had been distinctly nicer after his little outburst.
But that wasn't enough for Lupin - sure, he forgave Sirius for throwing a tantrum at him, but what he really wanted to know was why Sirius had acted that way. It was so out of charecter for him.
But Lupin was no fool - he had noticed the way Sirius looked whenever Lily Evans walked past him. His eyes filled with something that made them glow so bright that he radiated happiness. A stupid smile would creep onto his face whenever Sirius spoke to her and he would blush a great deal and run his hands nervously through his jet hair. Lupin also noticed that Sirius went out of his way to make Lily laugh, and if Lily wasn't in stictches then Sirius would be a worried mood for the rest of the day.
Lupin knew why Lily was depressed. She was still pining over James. They'd broken up three months ago and since then she'd glided round the castle like a little ghost - pale and sad. He felt sorry for her.
But ever since the day Sirius had lost his temper, she'd been much better. This might have been because Sirius was always around making her laugh, but there was something else.
She was beginning to look at Sirius in a different way. Her eyes didn't glow like Sirius's did when they laid eyes on eachother, but there was a certain fondness in her face whenever she spoke to him. When she was around Sirius, her pretty face was always smiling and the frown lines that seemed to be always on her face dissapeared and made her look seventeen again.
Lupin smiled to himself. Sirius had a knack for making people smile. The only trouble was that there were few people that made him smile in return. He was always the one cracking the jokes and pulling pranks, but other people's jokes raised little more than a half smile.
The only people who really made him crease with laughter were James and Lupin and whenever Gildaroy Lockhard made an arse of himself Sirius was always there, nearly on the floor laughing.
Other than that . . . well, Remus couldn't really think of anyone.
Apart from Lily.
She'd always been a part of the Marauders life, considering that she'd gone out with James for three years and she'd always been friends with them.
But these days, she was like a storm invading calm waters. James still talked about her, and it was annoying his girlfriend. Peter still thought she was stunning and that annoyed James, Remus sat by her in Charms and couldn't help but worry at her thin appearance and miserable face and Sirius was around her more than ever.
Lily and Sirius had always been good friends, but Lupin couldn't help noticing that new way Sirius was looking at her.
Then one day it hit him.
(( He's in love with her . . )) he thought. Lupin blinked for a while, then turned around to see Sirius once again talking to Lily. He'd just said something about Snape and Lily was helpless with laughter.
Remus watched as he took in the expression on Sirius's face. The black haired boy was relishing the smile on Lily's lips and standing very close to her. His eyes were darting all over her face and that stupid smile was there again.
Remus sat back and pondered. (( James isn't going to be too happy about this, )) he thought. Lupin toyed with the idea of telling James, but decided against it. Just because Sirius appeared to be in love with Lily didn't mean that she felt the same way. And even then, he might be wrong. They might just be close friends.
Lupin took another quick look. Sirius was teasing her, pulling her hair then blaming it on someone else.
''Lily, I swear that wasn't me,''Sirius was saying. He pointed at Peter. ''It was him by there.'' Peter looked at him strangely.
''Yeah, I'm talking to you, Captain Faggot!''Sirius said, mock angry. ''Pulling Lily's hair! Who do you think you are?? I mean, god Peter! That's just wrong!''
Lily was creased with laughter at Sirius's blatent attempt to pin the blame on someone else.
''Apoligise you wench!'' Sirius cried at Peter. He turned to Lily. ''Kids these days,''he joked.
Lily continued to laugh. ''I saw you do it, Sirius,''she grinned.
Sirius pretended to looked hurt. ''Well - Lily, I can't believe you'd accuse me of something like that!'' He turned his back to her and pretended to pout. ''I don't think we can be friends anymore.'' He gave his hair an affected flick then turned back around and grinned.
Remus shook his head and smiled fondly. Yep, Sirius was flirting fit to bust. Lupin saw James eyeing Sirius suspiciously.
The Gryffindor Seeker had a very odd look on his face. It seemed that he thought that even though Lily and him were history, that she should still be hopelessly in love with him, pining - rather than having fun.
(( He still sees her as his property, )) Lupin thought.
The fair haired boy shrugged to himself. Maybe he'd better leave this one rest for a while.
Which wasn't to say that he still wasn't interested . . .
''Sirius? Can I have a word?'' Remus asked.
''No, but you can have a cake.'' Sirius took it upon himself to throw a small iced bun at Lupin.
Lupin sighed and picked bits of icing off his cloak. ''No, seriously,''he said. ''Can I ask you something?''
''I don't know. Can you?''
''Sirius!''
The black haired boy gave a sigh. ''Fine, fine. God, I was only messing about.'' He faced Lupin. ''What's up, Mooney?''
''It's about you and Lily . . .''Lupin said. He trailed off.
A closed expression appeared on Sirius's face. ''What about me and Lily?''he said. There was a thin line of steel in his tone.
Lupin swallowed. Sirius looked rather menacing right now. It was quite gloomy in the dorm, as it was late evening and Sirius looked almost wolflike. His bright eyes glared out of the darkness and his near elbow length black hair framed his angular face, giving him a dark, other-wordly appearance.
''It's just that . . . well . . .you and Lily have been getting rather close lately and . . .''
''And what?''said Sirius, his tone ice.
''I was just wondering if, you know, anything was going on between you two.'' Lupin avoided Sirius's searching eyes.
Lupin gave a strange sort of smile.
Sirius raised a single eyebrow. ''No,''he said. ''There isn't. Why?''
''It's just that I've been noticing the way you look at her and you always seem to be flirting with her. It's just that . . I don't think James would be too happy if he found out that anything was going on, you know?''
Sirius jerked his head back quickly and walked to the window. ''Nothing's going on, Mooney,'' he said, his tone calmer now. ''Besides, would it really matter what James thought? They aren't even together anymore.''
''Yeah, I know,''said Remus. ''But James still sort of sees Lily as his property, if you get my drift.''
Sirius snorted with disdain. ''Lily isn't anyone's property, least of all James's. So they were shagging before they broke up? Big deal! So were a million other people.'' He turned towards Lupin and glared at him with those strange eyes of his. ''Lily isn't anyone's property,''he repeated.
The tone in Sirius's voice made it clear that the conversation was very much over.
Lupin didn't bring it up again that night. It was a touchy subject, and he decided that he needed a lot more to go on than just a hunch before he confronted Sirius about it again.
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Well, that's that. I'll have the 5th chapter up pretty soon I suppose, as soon as I think of something else to happen. Any suggestions are very welcome as I'm writing this at a furious pace off the top of my head. Thanks!
Luv Lux
xox