Disclaimer: The usual stuff. None of these characters belong to me, but I'm planning on kidnapping them someday….
A/N: This isn't a real update to the
story, no more chapters as this is a stand alone, but I've just freshened up
the appearance some...
" Yes, he was impressive. "
They were all sitting joined around the loud table, most of them done eating
their distasting goo. None of them really found it appealing or tasty in any
way, it was just like something you " had " to eat. Well, it was that and the
choice of death which I think noone wanted. Not that they knew of at least.
They
sat in their usual places, Dozer and Tank already eaten their share of the
slimy goo leaving a few places around the table empty. But most meals were like
that, missing some people since there always had to be a few people that
watched the ship. And Morpheus had, as usual, also already eaten. He didn't
really eat with his crew that often, not from disrespect or anything like that
at all- he just usually ate before or after them depending on their shores on
the ship.
Neo had earlier that day, in fact just an hour or two before, showed off his
fighting skills when Morpheus challenged him. He had done a good job, a little
too good for a normal person that early in his or her training process. So,
ultimately, when he didn't make the jump some were silently disappointed and
others just passive, knowing that noone ever made the first jump. But still,
Neo's fight against Morpheus where he had won, the only one in the crew to do
that in that stage of learning, and his failed jump was the buzz around the
table.
" But C'mon, you have to admit he was kicking some virtual ass in there! "
Mouse shot out against Apoc, who were trying to calm down the hyped Mouse who
was defending Neo 'til the limit. Apoc just chuckled as an answer and nodded,
finishing his goo. Mouse had been hyped when Neo finally had gotten up from his
chair and wanted to ask Neo many as hyped questions, but Neo just wanted to be
taken to his bed for some rest. He was dead exhausted and was right now laying
sleeping the others assumed.
Apparently, this crossed Switch's mind. " The guy must feel like sleeping 'til
next week now. But shouldn't someone bring him some food? Or check that he's
still alive? " Switch looked around the room, and a voice that had remained
silent throughout the whole dinner conversation about Neo now peeped in,
ringing with it's usual authority that only Morpheus managed to top.
"
I'll do it " was all Trinity said and all that needed to be said for the others
to cast some glances at her, then at each other when she wasn't looking,
filling up a fresh bowl of goo that she was to deliver to him.
For the others, Trinity was hard getting close to. When someone mentioned
something she didn't want to talk about or put her in any situation where she
felt uncomfortable, she would crawl into her shell and stay there. And also,
her rank being above them all also created a bit more of that crack between her
and the rest of the crew. But they liked her nonetheless, they were her friend
although they almost felt like they didn't know her at all.
But
Trinity didn't care of what they thought in this matter. If they thought that
she cared a little too much for the newbie and potential one than she should,
to hell with it. She loved them all, they were her family, but she didn't have
a best friend or something like that. If she had anything she wanted to talk
about, she bottled it up.
As soon as Trinity had left the mess hall with the goo in her hands, Mouse
leaned front over the table to Switch, keeping a hushed tone. " I don't know
what you think but I'd say that there's more to that than meets the eye. Perhaps
her impulses…."
Mouse
was cut off mid sentence as Switch slapped his cap, almost making it fall of. "
Shut up, Mouse " Mouse looked bewildered after her and the others as they rose
to out away their empty bowls, cleaning them up. He sat down frustrated again,
looking down in his still filled bowl, moving around his spoon a little. "
What'd I say…"
Trinity stood outside his door, the room that was next to her own. She had laid
many nights awake in her own quiet room, just listening to the sound of his
movement on the other side of the wall. Some nights she would hope that he
stopped tossing around, unable to sleep and would get up and knock at her door
instead.
And
sometimes she reprimanded herself for thinking such things but some of those
times just felt so good…thinking of something she had never really experienced,
something she didn't want to admit that she was afraid of. But occasionally,
when their eyes locked, she couldn't help it. Those feelings were really,
really hard to bottle up and it seemed like no matter how hard she tried she
wouldn't be able to do it. Many times, she welcomed them.
Thinking that she had to be somewhat stupid for doing such a risky thing like
this, showing emotions, she hesitated. But then again, she thought, he would
probably be asleep and then it wouldn't be as embarrassing to bring him the
food. If she just put it beside his cot and then left, she wouldn't have to
face the embarrassing conversation that otherwise would take place. And of
course he had to be asleep, he was probably so heavily sleeping that he
wouldn't notice if someone dropped a bomb outside of his door. Yeah, it had to
be so.
Taking the plate with the goo and water in one hand, she opened the cringy door
with the other. It didn't sound any more than usual but then again it wouldn't
matter since he was dead asleep anyway. She stepped inside the quiet room,
closing the door after her. If anyone walked past, she didn't want them to
notice her inside the room or have a peek. She looked down at him from where
she stood by the door. He looked so peaceful, lying with his arms and legs
spraying in every direction. He had even not taken off his boots, too tired for
it. And he looked so damn cute as well.
She had to sit there for awhile, looking at his sleepy state, inhaling his
scent. He looked so calm, so innocent and so peaceful. He looked innocent all
the time though, even in the Matrix. They really needed to create some RSI
outfit for him, instead of making him wear the same clothes as when he left the
Matrix. He had such an innocent face, that he needed a real tough outfit to
make him look as lethal as he was.
He
had given Morpheus a challenge when he fought him, and when Morpheus had pushed
him over the edge he had emerged into a fighting machine, intent on bringing
Morpheus down. And he had succeeded. It had taken Trinity years to beat
Morpheus, and she was considered 2nd best on the ship when it came to fighting.
After Morpheus…But if she had strained her hearing, she would've been able to
hear that his breathing had left his sleeping state and was now breathing as if
he were awake…
Just when she was about to rise and leave she heard him saying something. She
couldn't quite make out what however as she felt the fear take a hold on her. He
had been awake. For how long? Had he noticed her watching him? What was he
gonna ask? She almost panicked, but as an experienced soldier she pushed away
those dangerous feelings and turned to face him. Then wished she wouldn't have.
Neo was looking right back at her, now sitting up in his bed. His eyes were
still adjusting to the light that he couldn't switch off inside his cabin but
he looked so…damn cute. Those feelings that gave her such a hard time bubbled
up again and she took a few steps forward, not being able to resist being
closer to him. Neo drew a hand through his almost non existing hair, then
looked up at her with big, blue innocent eyes and said what he had said before
again. " Trinity, wait. "
Trinity looked down at him, urging him to continue. She saw Neo looking across
his room, until his gaze landed on the plate that was set to his side. He
looked at the water, reached out a hand and took a few sips as Trinity watched
him do it in silence. One silent gulp after another, she stood motionless by
the messy cot. His room was a bit smaller than her own, but it was hardly
noticeable. Trinity watched Neo put down the water on the plate, licking his
lips.
" Did they laugh at me? " Trinity was taken aback by his question. Laugh at
him? Why would they do that? " Why would they laugh at you Neo?" Neo motioned
to the spot behind him at the bed and if Trinity had been in her normal senses
to 100 % she would never have done it. But her feelings were now in control and
they wanted her to sit down. She wanted to be that close to him, to take in
that scent again. To feel his skin.
As she sat down next to him she could feel his scent radiate from him. He
didn't smell like the others, that scent hadn't covered him yet. He still
smelled human and so masculine it brought Trinity senses to an overload. Neo
then turned against her, sitting but only with another bodies distance between
them.
" After I had…fought with Morpheus, I wanted to make that damn jump. And I
didn't, I fell on my flat on my face like a three year old kid. They must've
laughed at me…" Trinity chuckled at him, reaching out a hand to put on his
shoulder and shook it gently. She couldn't believe that a guy that had recently
showed of such strength and seemed to be so much like a " fuck you all " type
now wondered if they had been laughing at him.
" Neo, they did NOT laugh at you. You must have noticed how worked up Mouse was after you came back. " Neo met her eyes and brown eyes locked with another pair of familiar blue. Neo had no intention on breaking their magical gaze and Trinity held on to it for dear life. They had not known each other for long and although they both refused to admit it, there was something strong in that gaze.
It
wasn't even just a gaze, it was two hearts speaking to each other in a language
only they could understand. If it had been any other man Trinity had done this
with she would've had broken the contact at once but she wanted this to keep on
going. God, she wished that she could dive into those eyes of his and just swim
away, lost in those blue pools of turmoil. She felt like she almost was
swimming away when Neo finally spoke, not breaking the gaze however.
" I just wish I would've made that jump. " Trinity displayed one of those rare
smiles on her lips. It couldn't even be called a real smile, it was the corners
of her mouth that twitched upwards a bit. Someone that didn't know her wouldn't
have noticed. But Neo definitely noticed.
" I took me 4 times to make that jump, Neo. Noone has ever made their first jump. And you fought very well against Morpheus you know…" Neo grinned against her, the innocent child in him showing itself in front of Trinity. He looked up and met her gaze and saw her eyes sparkle at him and his smiled maintained because of that. " I did kick ass, right? "
Trinity did something she hadn't done in quite
a while against anyone. She smiled a real and full smile, showing her teeth
that glistened in the electric light of the room. Neo became dazzled and he too
grinned at her. She looked so odd guard right now, smiling letting her guard
down for the sake of some the precious moments and he couldn't help almost
staring at her. She was so beautiful that it almost hurt him to watch her.
" Yeah, Neo you kicked ass in there. But right now, it's time for your ass to
get some sleep, OK? You need it. " Neo chuckled as he watched her rise from his
bed and stand on her feet.
" Yeah, I'm gonna sleep a week now. My body hurts as hell. " Trinity nodded against him, scratching her right arm with the other. She remembered how she didn't feel like moving for a month after her first fight.
She
actually didn't train the jump program until a few days after that, Morpheus
had really rushed things with Neo. But it was just because he believed so much
in him. Morpheus believed that he was the One. And from today's showings that
was nothing Trinity could argue against.
" Get some sleep, Neo. Sweet dreams…" Trinity said as she leaned in. Neo lifted
his head a bit as he expected a hug or perhaps even a blessed kiss in the
forehead. Any touch from heavenly, beautiful Trinity would do and he felt his
stomach twitch a bit. Not in the unpleasant way, but in a way that brought
pleasure to him. He found it strange, things like that had never happened to
him in the Matrix.
Trinity leaned in closer and wondered how much she would dare. She decided to
go for it as she planted a kiss on his cheek, shocking Neo almost as much as
she had shocked herself. She just wanted to give him something more than a kiss
on the forehead, indicate something more of what they couldn't describe.
She
wanted something more from him as well, and she could tell he felt similar to
her, judging by the look in his eyes when she drew back and then left the room,
leaving a silent and not so tired anymore Neo after her. He stared at the door
after she closed it, somehow hoping and wishing that she'd come rushing back
inside his room…but at the same time knowing that she wouldn't.
But wasn't it the hope that somehow kept them alive each day? Urging them to go
on? In a broken world like this, when honest faces were hard to find- how could
they do anything but hope? Neo would always hope for Trinity.
That
some day, she would come rushing back through that door, through the very gates
of time to save him from all the confusion. And Trinity hoped that some day she
would let herself enjoy the simple pleasure and act of loving- when the
feelings were so darn good why was it also so darn hard to let go? For them,
love was an unanswered question, promising something more than they could ever
conjure up by themselves.
No, by themselves wasn't the right way. Together they could begin something. Something
that would lead to a thing bigger than they ever could imagine, something for
the soul. The heart. Their very being. The sum would always create something
bigger than the parts…
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