Summary: What if you have a chance to go back to your past and change your life? What if you can live your life differently, make new choices? Will it make a difference? Or will making a different choice still take you down the same route? What if your decision changes the rest of your life and everything is different from what it is supposed to be? What would happen if you make the wrong choice?
'Hufei asked me out today and I rejected him. Junlai thinks I'm too choosy about guys and the truth is, I am. Why shouldn't I be? Why should I force myself to settle for the second best when I deserve the best? I'm not saying this because I am an arrogant, brat; I'm saying this as a woman. Is it wrong to want to be able to love someone as much as possible? Is it wrong to want to find your soulmate? That is just what I want to do, find my soulmate, but it's easier said than done. I'm convinced that I'll never find him, just as I'm convinced that Hufei isn't the one. I'm sorry I had to hurt him, but he'll get over it. Hufei's a optimistic person and he'll bounce back pretty-'
The words on the page suddenly started fading away, becoming lighter and lighter before Sakura's shocked eyes. It was as if there was a huge eraser applied to the diary, blotting out all the words Sakura recognized as hers. It was her handwriting, her own thoughts, she should know because she wrote those words herself ten years ago.
But everything was changing because- because- hell! She didn't even know why this was happening? She didn't know what she was doing 10 years back in time, when she was supposed to be at her cousin and Syaoran's wedding. And if she occupies this body 10 years back into the past, what was her other body doing back home?
Would she still be alive back then?
"Why is this happening to me?" Sakura let the book slid between her fingers and onto the floor, her eyes staring blankly at it as the book fell onto the floor with a thump and flopped close.
"No!" Syaoran shouted obstinately from the bathroom he'd locked himself into. "I said I'm not going and that's final! I never asked you to open your big fat mouth to Tomoyo about me being 'a poor, lonely man who hungers for love!'"
Eriol stared at the plain brown door and grinned at his friend's outraged tone. "I didn't exactly put it that way… at least, not in that context. I just told her than you think you need to widen your social circle and she casually mentioned her cousin needed to do that too. And so we thought that since the both of you needed to broaden your horizons, why not start with each other? I mean, come on! Sakura is a great person with a terrific sense of humor! I'm not asking you to marry her or anything, you're just friends!" Eriol cajoled, leaning against the whitewashed wall, knowing that this would be a long, drawn-out face-off.
Inside, Syoaran was sitting in the bathtub, staring daggers at the door, with his long legs stretched out in front of him. "But I never asked you to fix me up on a blind date with a girl whom I bet that you haven't even seen before and who, with my luck is probably as good looking as an ape! I prefer to do things at my own pace, thank you very much. And anyway, you never even told me you were setting me up until the last minute when you knew that I would have to give in. that's pure coercion and I refuse to buy into that." Syaoran told Eriol stubbornly. He silently vowed to himself that he would never give in to this manipulator no matter what trick he tries. Eriol was not going to win this time! No bloody way!
"Fine, don't come with us. This is Tomoyo's cousin we're talking about and if you stand Sakura up, let's see what you're going to tell Tomoyo. She's going to think you're a bastard and a coward. If that's what you want her to think, then fine. Hide out in the toilet till I'm gone."
"Ha! I can just tell Tomoyo that I'm not feeling well, she'll understand," Syaoran said with confidence he didn't feel, but he sat up straighter in the tub, wondering if Tomoyo would believe his story. He gulped. Probably not, he had dug himself into a deep trench now. How to surrender to Eriol without bruising his pride?
"Syaoran?" Tomoyo's melodious voice tinged with humor drifted into the bathroom, startling Syaoran. "Come out of there, you don't have to hide." Tomoyo sounded suspiciously on the verge of laughter. Syaoran could feel his face getting hot as he reviewed his situation. He was hiding out in the toilet like an petulant 5 year old who didn't get his way and was pouting while Eriol and Tomoyo was outside, trying their best to coax him into coming out of there.
Syaoran groaned as his face caught fire and he buried his face into his hands to hide his flaming red countenance. How on earth did he manage to get himself into this kind of situations?
Eriol knocked on the door and suppressed a laugh, "I promise not to tell the press that you, the great Li Syaoran, locked himself in the bathroom to get out of a blind date if you come out now. Come on, it's not getting earlier you know."
Syaoran raised his head from his hands and glared at the door. If Eriol thought that he was going to go slinking out of the bathroom, with his tail between his legs, he was bloody damn wrong! Standing up decisively, Syaoran made his way to the door of the bathroom and yanked it open, revealing, a gorgeous, smiling Tomoyo and a equally amused Eriol.
"Well, what are you staring at? Let's get on with the date! I don't all day you know!" Syaoran blustered as he pushed past Eriol and Tomoyo to get his denim jacket, trying not to notice how great Tomoyo looked.
"Keep you eyes to yourself, buster," he silently warned himself, "she's not available and Eriol's your friend. You don't want to do anything you'll regret later." Syaoran sighed quietly and turned back to the couple who was now absorbed with each other. Syaoran felt a strange jab in his stomach as he saw the way Tomoyo was smiling up at Eriol. Somehow, he hurts to know that she'll never smile at him in that same way.
"Are you gonna try to make love with your eyes all day or are we gonna get this show on the road? The earlier we start, the earlier I can go kill myself when all this is over," Eriol and Tomoyo ignored Syaoran, and hand in hand, led the way to their car.
Syaoran stood watching them for a moment, an odd melancholy claiming him briefly, before he shook himself and followed Eriol and Tomoyo wordlessly.
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Author's Note: Oh wow, Syaoran's going on a blind date with Sakura. Their first meeting, at least for Syaoran. Remember, this is not the past Sakura anymore, it's the one from the future, so things should go differently...right? Oooh, it's something for you all to think about! Anyways, thanks for all who review. Please keep on commenting, alright? Yes, I need to write longer chapters, I know. But I'm very busy, I don't have time, very sorry... Hmm, I was wondering if my story is confusing. If so, I'll provide a little summary thingy, explaining everything. Tell me if that's a good idea. Er, and read my other story, that would be nice, hehe, shameless self-promotion. If you've read it, I'll update it soon. Well, until next chapter...Bye!