Authors Note: This should be the final chapter.. but I will do a follow up… I know this chapter is not long, it was not suppose to be long…J Hope you like it! See you around!

Tears…

Chapter 5

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry

~~ It's been awhile – Staind ~~

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Ginny opened her eyes, it wasn't day yet. The sun would set up in about three or four hours. She turn on herself only to face Draco close eyes. He look so much like an angel when he sleeps. Ginny brush a finger on his cheek not wanting to wake him up. At her touch his grey eyes flew open meeting with crystal blue eyes. She so beautiful! Her eyes, her body.. .. If only it could be mine! It was time for him to be mean.. .. He didn't love her anyway!

_ " Hi, How did you sleep?"

_ " Fine, I guest!" Draco's mind was telling him something while his heart did another.

_ " What do you mean, "I guest"?" say Ginny worried a little bit.

_ "Well it's always like that after a nice fuck." He said with a smirk on his face.

_ " What?" Said Ginny blinking her eyes not to let him see the hurt.

_ " You heard me right! You where a nice fuck! Now get out of my bed before I push you off it! .. .. NOW!"

_ " But… But… But you said you loved me last night… … and …" Said Ginny her eyes filling with tears.

_ " Oh, Please! You really thought a Malfoy could loved you? Your a Weasel! And not even Slytherin.. .. I don't Think SO!!!!"

Ginny got up tried to find her clothes in the darkness, with tears blocking her view. When she finally found all them she started to put them on..

_ " Do you have your clothes, yet ?" Said Draco impatiently

_ " Y.. .. Y.. .. Yes!" said Ginny trying not to started crying hysterically.

_ "Then leave me alone ! " Draco was getting mad at himself. How could he do that to her? Because he had to.. because if he loved her it would destroy him.. anyway he didn't loved her.

Ginny couldn't believe what was happening she wanted to cry but in the same time she was so enrage with him that tears were falling down. How could he do that to her? She believed every lied said by him.

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Hours after the dance, Harry decided to go for a walk. He didn't fell like an hero. He hadn't save Ginny from Draco and that killed him. He wish she had listen to him for once… even if it was true what she said. There was a lesson he had learn from this: You can bring a horse to the river but you can't force him to drink. He had done he's best, but she wouldn't listen, now it was up to him to pick her up.

He had been walking with his head down for at least an hour when something inside him made him look up. What he saw was not pretty. Ginny was running toward the end of the path that was leading out of the school ground, the back of her dress was open. Draco! Oh no! It's to late! Ginny I'm so sorry… He thought.

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Ginny was running, tears rolling down her faces… She had loved him and turn her back on everyone for him. Now she was alone. How could she have done that? Love is blind ! She had been a fool to thing that he was telling the truth… this is a Malfoy… you can't believe what a Malfoy says.

Ginny had been running without knowing where she was going. Turning left then right and right again then another left. She was loss! She stopped and close the back of her dress. She looked around with the feeling that her dreams where crush… it started to rain. It didn't took long that she was soak to the bone. Turning her head to the right she saw a bridge… the bridge.. the bridge from her dream…

As she walk to the bridge, the rain started pouring down on her… She was loss… Her thoughts where dark thing that she never thought before… How could she face her brother tomorrow… Everyone knew about Draco's plans… they would all laugh of her… a really good joke.

Looking at the water… it was appealing. It was dark blue, almost black. She was wearing the family bracelet. Ginny thought that she was not worth wearing it. If she would have been in that family, she wouldn't have gone all bad and talk to Draco like she did. She wanted to die for that. She looked up at the sky, it was still raining… the more she thought, the harder the rain was coming down. She took the bracelet out and let it fall on the ground and got to the other side of the railing.

_ "I'm really sorry Ron !… Hermione!… Harry!" she said her tears mixing with the rain on her cheeks.

She let go of the railing and was ready to hit the water… … but an arm wrapped around her waist not letting her fall. She starting sobbing.

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Harry was walking behind Ginny, just far enough so that she wouldn't notice him. Rain started to fall down on them. The Rain was so cold, how was she just standing there? She would catch a really bad cold… Hey! She drop something. He thought when something felt on the ground.

He was about to talk to her when she got on the other side of the railing… What was she thinking… Nothing! His mind responded. He heard her say : "I'm really sorry Ron!… Hermione!… Harry!" He saw one hand let go of the railing and he jump forward to catch her before she could even fall. He heard her starting sobbing.

He help her get on the other side of the railing and took her in his arms and start to rock her like a little kid.

_ "How could you even think of doing that?" Harry ask in a soft voice.

_ "I..I..I lose everything… Every… Everyone is mad at me." She said between two sobs.

_ "I'm not mad at you… I knew that you needed freedom but with that freedom came a price you didn't see. I know that it might look like tomorrow will never be ok.. but your brother will forgive you.. You know how he is.." he said with the same soft voice.

Ginny just put her head in his chest and cried even more. Harry started to sing: " All alone, I can't not mend – But I feel –Tomorrow will be O.K."

_ "Tomorrow will be alright, Gin." He said still rocking her. "I could never hate you." He said in a whisper that she could barely hear. "I'll always be there for you."

_ "Hermione… Mione… She must hate me…" She in his chest.

_ "No, it's already forgotten… Why do you think she when to talk to you? There's no need for rational decision… We are all by your side. From far or near. Never forget who your real friends are."

Ginny didn't say a thing. She knew that he was right, but the only one that really stayed at her side was him. She had learn a lot in the past few months and she had grown a lot. Tears had stop falling.

_ "You must never say what happen tonight to anyone." She said getting away from his grip and up.

_ "This is just between us." He said getting up.

The rain had stop. They walk side by side with out a word until Hogwarts.

_ "I don't want to be alone tonight… Can I sleep with you tonight" Ginny said tears forming in her eyes.

_ " Sure." he said softly

Ginny took Harry's hand in hers as he lead her to his dorm. Things went slowly in Ginny's head. She was so soak that she had problem taking off her little dress. She finally went to bed with Harry's sweater and boxer.

He had put covers on the floor. He was about to go inside of them when he saw Ginny looking at him..

_ "Come here." She said patting the covers beside her. Harry got up and got inside the covers of the bed and looked at Ginny. "Hold me, please." She said tears rolling on her soft cheeks.

He wrap his arms around her little shoulders and with the hand that was on her back he made circles. "It's ok Gin, thing will be better." Was the only thing he could say to her.

_ "I regret so much… I how could I not listen to you?" Ginny said between two hiccups

_ "Never regret! Regrets makes sorrow, and sorrow makes you feel bad, by feeling bad you regret.. it's a vicious circle… Never ever regret Gin. Understand me?" He said to her.

She didn't say a thing. Later, in the bedroom you could only hear cries.

_ "How… Could… I… Do… That?" She ask sobbing and sleep in her voice.

_ "You where in love.. love is blind. Yes, it's hard right now, I understand that, but life will throw you curve balls all the time to see how strong you are… see it as a challenge not a defeat." And Ginny felled asleep on his words of wisdom.