Disclaimer: I do not own the song or the Weiß Kreuz Glühen characters. Akane, Mari, Nici and Crissy are mine though. ^_^ Have fun.
Song: Evanescence - Bring me to Life
Life…
Hours turned into days, and days turned into weeks. Akane had slowly adjusted to living with Omi and his friends; emphasis on slowly. Several times she got into conflicts with the guys…several times the guys got into conflicts about her and in front of her…several times her friends criticized her for staying with Omi and his friends…several times her friends [parents] refused her to stay at their homes…several times she would break down crying in a remote location of the house.
Eventually the guys realized that Akane wasn't leaving. She had no where to go and they couldn't just throw her out. They knew what would happen to her if they did. So they had cleaned out a room used for storage, giving her a room of her own. They even helped her box things up from the house she lived in with her mother, eventually selling it so she didn't have to be concerned with.
"Akane! Why don't you just use the money from the house and rent an apartment!" Mari questioned over the phone. "I mean…at least you wouldn't be living with a bunch of guys!"
"I've heard the apartments near school are really nice, Akane…maybe you should look into them." Nici's voice sounded dreamy, like she was wishing she could move out.
"I…I don't want to. I'd be by myself…and it...would scary. Omi-kun says that the number of calls the police station is getting for missing persons has increased about 75% in the past two weeks." Akane closed her eyes as she talked to her friends over the phone. She was sitting on the bed in her little room, staring down at a science book. "…and he says it's doubtful that they'll ever find Crissy…"
Silence lingered on the phone. A few minutes later Mari and Akane could hear Nici's mother come into Nici's room and tell her to get off the phone. "I gotta go guys…see you at school tomorrow."
"Hai…"
"See ya…"
Nici hung up, leaving Mari and Akane on the phone. "So…he thinks…Crissy…is gone for good?" Mari's voice seemed to tremble slightly.
Akane bit her lip. "Yeah…he said only about 2% of the missing cases are ever found…alive."
Once again the line was silent for a moment. "I…need to go study for that test we have tomorrow. See you at school, Akane. Ja ne."
"Ja ne." Akane hung the phone up and looked down at the book again.
How can you see into my eyes
like open doors
Omi slammed the door shut of the house as he walked in. Ran and Nagi, who had been playing chess, looked up at him. His eyes seemed hollow, his uniform torn and stained. As he walked past them, Ran reached out and stopped him. "What happened?"
He slowly looked down at Ran, his hand twitching slightly. "Stake out…was just an ambush…" Ran released Omi with a nod. Omi walked on past and to his room. His door slamming shut.
Akane heard the doors slam and decided studying for the science test could wait till later. She hopped up and walked out of her room, padding down the hallway to Omi's room and knocking lightly on the door.
"Who is it?" the voice was tired and a bit gruff.
"It's me…" she quietly responded. "Are…you ok?"
"Yeah…" there was a pause and the door opened slightly.
She pushed it open and slipped into the room. He had the lights off, but she was able to see him sitting on the bed. She shut the door behind her and walked over, sitting down on the floor in front of him. "You don't seem ok…what is it?"
He looked up at her and she saw the pain in his eyes. She had always seen pain, sadness and loneliness in his eyes, but this pain was greater than ever before. "We were ambushed…" He lowered his head into his hands. "They got him…they got Marc…"
A small tear same to the edge of Akane's eye; she understood loss all too well. Lifting her hand, she placed it gently on Omi's knee. "I'm sorry…" It was useless to say more.
After awhile, he looked back up at her. The white of his eyes red, either from stress from the events of the day, or from crying; either way, she wasn't going to comment on it. She was smiling comfortingly at him, yet he knew it was just a mask. "Masks are all we have anymore, eh…?" She blinked at him, confused by what he was saying. "…don't you have a test to be studying for?"
"Ahh…h...hai…" She blinked, still confused.
"Go on and study for it. I'm ok."
She nodded and headed back to her room, more confused than before.
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb?
Akane sat down in her desk with a yawn.
"Akane!!!" Nici wailed slighted…then yawned as well. "Th…at's…not nice…"
She smiled sleepily back at her friend, "Sorry, I was up studying rather late."
Mari walked up behind them and sat down at her desk. "Think any more about getting an apartment of your own? At least then you could study without interruptions."
Akane turned around to look at Mari. "I told you last night that I don't want to. It's not safe. Just look around us! How many classmates have we lost in the past two months? Omi came home last night…they went on a stake out last night and they were ambushed! Marc is dead!"
Mari and Nici blinked at Akane, shocked partly at her outburst and partly at the facts she divulged. "Officer Marc…is dead?" Mari repeated slowly.
Akane nodded. "It's just getting worse. The only reason we can still come to school is because its in the day…and its safe in the day time…"
Nici frowned slightly. "It's getting scary…can't even go shopping in the evenings anymore!"
Akane and Mari looked at Nici. "Nici…you're such a ditzy!" Nici blinked and promptly hit Mari for that. Akane just sighed and turned around in her seat as the fight continued.
Without a soul;
my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold,
As soon as school let out, Akane headed straight home. That's what all the students did anymore, as they got out too late to do much of anything else before it got to the curfew hour where it was dangerous to be out. First thing she noticed though was that Omi's car was there.
She went inside and went to her room, dropping off her books. Stretching, she walked back down the hallway to Omi's room, knocking on the door. After a moment of no response she knocked again, "Omi-kun? Daijobuka?" With no answer she slowly opened the door and peeked in.
He was on his bed, staring at the ceiling, not seeming to notice her. She padded over and knelt down beside the bed, laying a hand on his shoulder and shaking him gently, "Omi-kun?"
He blinked and rolled his head over to look at her. "Akane-san…gomen ne…I'm not feeling well today."
She nodded, "Do you need me to bring you anything? Something to eat? Drink?"
"Water please."
She brought him water, but set it on the night stand as he was asleep when she got back. She went back to her room to study but found that she just wasn't in the mood to do so. Slamming the book shut, she hopped up and went up to the kitchen.
Schuldig turned from the sandwich he was making to look at her as she walked in. "Can't study, huh?"
She blinked at him mildly confused, "Something like that…" She opened the freezer and pulled out something to heat up.
He watched her as he munched on his sandwich, "You're worried about him…"
Hitting start on the microwave, she turned around to look at him, "How can you tell?" Smirking, he just pointed to his head. "Oh yeah…forgot…Ken said you were telepathic…"
He finished off his sandwich and nodded, "And I'm not the only one in this house…" With that he turned and walked out.
She stared after him, confused about what he was talking about, but her attention was drawn back to the microwave as it beeped.
until you find it there and lead it back home.
Math homework was the pits. She just wasn't good at it no matter how hard she tried. For years she had struggled with it to no avail. That was until she had moved in with the guys. Several of them were good with it and all she had to do was ask and they would help her understand it. Picking up her math book and notepad, she walked out of her room and went in search of someone who could help her.
As she made her way around the house, she found it virtually empty. "Where is everyone?" Frowning she walked back towards her room, pausing at Omi's door. She didn't want to disturb him…but she really did need help with her homework. After a minute's debate, she knocked on the door.
"Come in."
"Well…at least he's awake…" She turned the knob and poked her head in, "Omi-kun…"
Omi was propped up on his bed, reading a magazine. He looked over at her, "Akane…what is it?"
She slipped in the rest of the way, allowing him to see her math book. "I was wondering if you could help me with my homework. I would have asked Nagi, but I couldn't find him…actually, I couldn't find anyone. Where is everyone? Isn't it dangerous for them to be out at this time of night?"
He got up and walked towards her, "They can handle themselves…lets go out to the dinning room table to look at your homework. Better light in there."
"Ok…" she slid out of his way then followed him to the dinning room where they proceeded to cover the table in papers covered in math equations.
Wake me up.
Wake me up inside.
I can't wake up.
Wake me up inside.
"I just…I'm never going to get this!!!" Akane mentally wailed to herself. They had been working on the second problem for about thirty minutes now. The first one alone had taken an hour.
"Don't worry, you'll get this." Omi looked up and smiled at her.
She blinked, confused..."I didn't say that out loud…Schu did say there was another telepath here…is it…"
Omi raised an eyebrow at her, "Schuldig said there was another telepath here?" She blinked hard and nodded. "I can tell you for certain that it isn't me. And since there isn't anyone else here…Akane…"
"Iie! Iie! I can't be!"
She seemed to start freaking out, so Omi pulled her into a hug. "It's ok, Akane. If you are, it's ok. Schuldig can teach you control…"
"Iie!!!" She shook her head and curled up in his hug.
"Akane!"
Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Omi clenched his eyes shut as Akane pushed herself away from him. Her chair fell to the ground and the book and papers slid across the table as she jumped up and ran to her room sobbing.
"Baka…" He mumbled and rubbed his temple. Standing up, he picked up the chair that was knocked over and straightened up the book and papers. Once done, he walked down the hall to her room, knocking on the door. "Akane…Akane…open the door, let's talk about this…"
With no response he attempted the handle, to find the door unlocked. Walking in, he found that she wasn't even in the room. He turned around, trying to figure out where she was. It was then he heard water running in the bathroom. With a sigh he walked to the bathroom door and knocked. "Akane…"
"I'm…taking a shower! Leave me alone…" Her voice sounded hurt, but he had to expect that after what he suggested to her.
"Alright…Let me know when you are ready to work some more on your math homework…" With a sigh, he walked up to the living room and sat down, turning the television on.
Wake me up.
Bid my blood to run.
Thirty minutes later she still wasn't out of the shower. Worriedly, Omi debated checking on her, but decided to give her a little longer. He flipped the channel and scowled at the news that came on, quickly he changed the channel again.
I can't wake up.
Before I come undone.
Fifteen minutes later he decided she'd been in there far too long. "No one takes forty-five minutes showers…" He walked back to the bathroom door and knocked. "Akane…?"
The water was still running, but there was no response.
He frowned, something seemed wrong. He pounded on the door, "Akane!" With no response he used his shoulder to break in. "Iie…"
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.
What he saw horrified him. Akane lay limply in the shower with the water streaming down on her from the shower head, yet it was more that water running down the drain. He stepped over quickly and turned the water off, yanking a towel off the rack and wrapping it around her. Carefully he pulled her out and checked her pulse. "Akane…doushite?" He clenched his eyes shut for a moment, wrapped her in more towels and then set quickly about bandaging her up.
Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me.
Having bandaged her up as quickly as possible, he attempted to waken her. He wondered how much blood she had lost … and would she survive it. Picking her up carefully, he moved her back to her room and laid her on her bed then attempted to wake her up again. "Akane…wake up…please…wake up…"
Breathe into me and make me real.
Bring me to life.
Glassy eyes fluttered open and looked at him. Tears slowly started to trickle from her eyes. Her lips moved slowly as she attempted to speak, but was unable to. "Gomen…gomen…"
Wake me up.
Wake me up inside.
He looked at her sadly, "Doushite?"
I can't wake up.
Wake me up inside.
She closed her eyes, unable to speak audibly, she used this 'power' that had just driven her to commit suicide over. "I'm…scared…alone…frightened…"
Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
"Iie…" he shook his head, "You aren't alone…don't do this Akane…I've lost too many already…don't become another."
Wake me up.
Bid my blood to run.
She opened her eyes once more and looked into his; she could see the sadness again…greater than ever before. "Gomen…I…I…I'm scared to live…and scared to die…"
I can't wake up.
Before I come undone.
He watched as tears streamed down her face. Afraid to hug her with the blood loss, he gently just held her hand. The look in her eyes begged him to help her. He slowly closed his eyes.
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.
"Omi…onegai…I…can't live like this…help me please…" She watched his face, unable to tell what he was thinking. "My family is gone…the friends I have left alive are just worried…I can't continue living like this…"
Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie ~ There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life.
He opened his eyes. "You have to choose, Akane. You have to choose life or death. That I cannot choose for you. I want you to live, but it is still your choice."
She blinked at him and closed her eyes, thinking. Finally she opened her eyes, "…I choose…life…"
He smiled slightly, happy that she didn't want to die. "We need to hurry then…you've lost a lot of blood…"
A wince of pain from her caused a frown on his face. "I…don't think I can…make it…to the hospital…"
He nodded slightly, "There…is another…option…" She looked up at him questioningly. A silent pray was sent up that this wouldn't make matters worse. Hesitation seemed to set in, but a strained breath for air from her drew his attention back to the current dilemma. Finally, with a wince on his part, he showed her what he was talking about…he was a vampire.
Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.
Her eyes widened. "I…I…never…knew…"
All of this sight
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me
"No one here knows…except now…for you." The look on his face showed her that he despised what he was. "It…is still your choice, Akane…"
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
She glanced down for a moment, and then looked back up at him.
Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
"I … don't want to … die…"
Don't let me die here ~ There must be something more.
With a look of mild regret in his eyes, he nodded and complied. Surely this was ok … right? It would keep her from dying … right?
Bring me to life.
She felt a pain in her neck, but pain was good, right? Meant she was still alive … right?
Wake me up.
Wake me up inside.
Her blood was sweet, but he had to keep himself in check. She'd already lost a good bit of blood; it wouldn't take much to kill her now.
I can't wake up.
Wake me up inside.
Her body convulsed in pain and he withdrew. Was it too much? Had she lost more than he thought? Would she survive? "Akane…"
Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Carefully he moistened her lips with some of his own blood. She had to survive. He couldn't loose another. He'd lost too many people that were close to him already.
Wake me up.
Bid my blood to run.
Suddenly she gasped and drew in a sharp breath of air. Her eyes widened in fright. He placed a hand on her forehead to calm her and handed her a cup, "Drink…"
I can't wake up.
Before I come undone.
Weakly she leaned forward to drink. The taste made her gag and she lurched slightly. He held her still. "You have to drink! If you want to live, you have to drink!!"
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.
Shutting her eyes tight she did as she was told. It was horrid at first, the taste of iron making her cringe, but soon the initial effect wore off. It still didn't taste good, but it was bearable.
Bring me to life.
I've been living a lie ~ There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life.
She finished and he allowed her to lay back on the bed. She reached her hand up to her neck and felt gauze wrapped around it. "I…figured it was best to bandage you up…" She nodded then they both looked at the door as the main door of the house opened. "The others are home…you should sleep." He rose and quickly disposed of the glass. Making sure she was covered and comfortable, he walked to the door, turning the light off and walking out.
Ken came out of the bathroom blinking and looking down the hall at Omi as he walked out. "What the hell happened in there?"
Omi glanced at Ken, then down the hall at Ran, Schuldig and the others. "Akane…attempted suicide…"
04/23/03 - By: Akari Kanzaki
Chapters
Hello
Life...
Imaginary
Taking Over Me
Whisper
Mistakes of the Past