DISCLAIMERS: I don't own any of this except for the story lines, blah, blah, blah
PAIRINGS: R/J (duh)
NOTE: Yes, I finally updated! Be sure to read the A/N at the bottom of the page, contains what's going on for the next chapter.
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Goodbyes and Regrets
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Lorelai buried her head in her hands as she sat down on the couch. God, everything's so messed up, she thought. Only 24 hours ago, her life was normal, you could say it was even great. Christopher was back and they were together, her best friend was getting married, Rory was going to be vice-president of her school and . . . well except for Luke. He's still mad at her, that hasn't changed, she thought forlornly. Now, she could feel that Rory is hiding something from her. And it probably had to be something to do with that trouble-maker Jess. Rory's acting completely out of character and that usually happens when she's around him.
Suddenly, Lorelai heard footsteps coming down the stairs. Rory, she thought. I have to tell her about what I saw, she suddenly decided. It's going to hurt her, but maybe it's all for the best. After all, her feelings for Dean had been waning the past couple of months. Lorelai ignored the errant thought that Jess would be there to comfort her.
"Mom, are you okay?" asked Rory, looking into her mom's red rimmed eyes. "Is it about Dad?"
"Hon, there's something I need to tell you."
"Oh Mom, what is it?" A shocking thought popped into her head and Rory gasped, "You're not pregnant too, are you? I mean, I'm not saying it's bad that you are, in fact it's great it's just that--"
"No, stop babbling, I'm not pregnant," smiled Lorelai.
"So what did you have to tell me then?" asked Rory.
"Okay, you probably need to sit down for this and keep away from all breakable objects," Lorelai said, half kidding about the breakable objects.
"You know, it's really not good to drop two bombshells on a person in one day."
"Just sit."
Rory complied and sat beside her mother. "So what is it? You're killing me with the suspense here."
"Well . . ."
"C'mon, out with it!"
"I saw Dean walking down the street like five minutes ago and he was probably walking towards our house to see you. You remember Kayla, right? She was driving her little shiny car and doing her whole whore routine to get Dean back, although God knows why she wants him, she already had the entire football team, but anyways, they talked a bit and Dean got into her car and drove right past our house to whereabouts unknown." Lorelai braced for Rory's reaction and expected denial to be first.
"Is that all?" Rory asked.
"What do ya mean, is that all? He got into the car with Kayla!" exclaimed Lorelai, emphasizing on the name Kayla.
Rory suddenly looked nervous and fidgety. She took a deep breath and stared out at the window behind Lorelai's head.
"Uh-oh. What did you do?"
"Why do you assume I did something?"
"Cause you look really uncomfortable right now and you've never been a good liar."
"IkissedJess," Rory mumbled.
"What? I could've sworn I heard you say you kissed Jess."
Rory avoided Lorelai's incredulous stare.
"You didn't. Oh my god, you did! How could you! Have you forgotten about Dean? Dean. . . so THAT's why he got in the car with her! He must've heard about the kiss."
"No, that impossible!" Rory said. "Jess wouldn't tell anyone."
"I'm not really sure about that but H-E-L-L-O, this is Stars Hollow, the smallest town this side of the East Coast. Someone could've saw you two and word spreads fast. Speaking of which, when did you see and kiss Jess?"
"At Sookie's wedding before the ceremony."
"Ah, so that's why you were almost late."
"Yeah."
"Wow. So what are you going to do about Dean?"
"I don't know."
"What about Washington? Do you know when you have to leave?"
"Don't know that either. Kind of surprised that Paris hasn't called me yet."
As if on cue, the telephone ranged, startling the two.
"Hello, Gilmore residence," said Rory as she picked up the phone.
"Rory?"
"Hey Lane, what's up?"
"What's this I hear about you and Jess?"
"Oh no. What did you hear so far?"
"Your infamous kiss with him. Kirk said that he saw you two at the wedding and he told Miss Patty and once she knows, well..." Lane trailed off. "So is it true?"
"Um, yeah, it's true."
"AHHH!" she squealed. "It's about time you did! The entire town has been talking about how Jess moved back after someone saw Luke pick him up at the bus stop. And I wondered if you would finally wake up and smell the roses."
"Wait, what?" asked Rory, confused. "I thought you like Dean."
"Dean's totally boring, Rory. And you know it. You said that you didn't like him like you used to. Besides, Jess is hot, in the James Dean sort of way."
"I cannot believe I'm hearing this. This means that Dean definitely heard the rumors so that's why he got in a car with Kayla."
"Oh, yeah I heard something about that too."
"Geez, can anything happen in this town without everyone finding out a minute later?"
"Why are you even asking?"
"Huh, yeah."
"So did you two break up?"
"No, but we're going to. Probably."
"Probably?"
"Fine, most definitely."
"Ugh, my mom is yelling at me to get off the phone. But we're going to talk later," said Lane, annoyance evident in her voice. "Good luck with Dean."
"Thanks, I have a feeling I'm going to need it."
Both girls said their goodbye and hung up the phone. She glanced over at Lorelai, who was getting her pager and cell phone from the table.
"Hey babe, I have to go to the Inn to check on some things there. See how the new cook is doing and all that. I'll be back in an hour or two alright?" said Lorelai.
"Okay. I might take a walk. You know, clear my head." answered Rory.
Just when Lorelai was about to walk out the door, Rory called out "Mom?"
"What is it hun?" said Lorelai walking back to the living room.
Rory went over and gave her mom a big hug and whispered, "Dad loves you, but you know he wants to do the right thing this time. We'll be alright. And I'm going to be a big sister!"
Lorelai squeezed Rory tightly and said "What would I do without you."
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Rory walked up to her room after Lorelai left. She eyed her collection of books, hoping to curl up with a good one and forget her troubles, even if it's just for a little while. Smiling, her eyes rested on "Oliver Twist." Jess. His face flashed in her mind and she turned around, looking at the bright sun spilling onto her desk. Maybe a walk would be good after all, she decided.
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First things first, she thought. She had to break up with Dean. They couldn't go on this way. Bracing herself for the emotional scene up ahead, she walked into Doose's Market where she knew Dean was working right now.
Rory saw him right away, stocking beans. Walking up to him, Rory hesitantly said, "Hi Dean. Can we talk for a sec?"
She saw the look on his face, knew that this wasn't going to be pleasant.
"Sure Rory. Are you sure you can tear your mouth from Jess for a second?" growled Dean.
"Dean..."
"Oh alright. Come out here." Dean led her to a private room in the back. "So talk."
"Listen, Dean. I'm so incredibly sorry. I shouldn't have done that, you have no idea how much I regret it. I'm so sorry for the way I hurt you and everything that's happened."
"So you can just say you're sorry and think everything's going to go back to normal?" said Dean.
"No, of course not. That's why I think we should break up," yelled Rory, her temper flaring.
Dean was silent and they just stood there for a moment, unmoving.
"I'm so sorry," Rory whispered. "But it was over a long time ago."
She reached into her pocket and took out the bracelet he gave her. "Here." She put it on the table next to him.
She grabbed the door knob and suddenly turned around. Rory said very softly, "You were my first love. That will never change." With that, she walked out the door.
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Rory walked aimlessly around town. She didn't feel anything but a sense of relief about Dean. Taking aware of her surroundings, she realized she was walking on the bridge, where it all started.
"Fancy meeting you here," a voice suddenly came from behind her.
Rory jumped and turned around. "What are you doing here?" she gasped.
He pointed to the book in his pocket. "I come here to read sometimes."
"Oh."
Awkward silence filled the air.
"I broke up with Dean," Rory blurted out.
"Oh. Why?"
"Because...it just wasn't working out anymore." Rory answered, avoiding Jess's penetrating gaze.
He nodded. Silence prevailed again until Rory couldn't stand it anymore.
"Listen Jess...about that kiss. Again, I'm really sorry. It shouldn't have happened. We should just be friends and pretend it never happened. And about next week, with the book fair, I don't think I can go."
"Alright," he said.
Rory smiled weakly. "Well I better go home now. Bye Jess."
"Goodbye Rory," Jess said quietly as he watched her disappear through the trees.
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Rory walked home, her heart heavy. He didn't even ask why I couldn't go to the book fair with him, she realized. She went over to check the answering machine and found that Paris had left six messages already, detailing the trip to Washington and promising a certain death if Rory didn't call her back right away. She was leaving the next week.
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TBC.......
A/N: So did you like it? The next chapter is going to take place after Rory's return from Washington, starting from the season finale, my style. I'm going to be using some of the spoilers I've heard on www.gilmore-girls.net and deal with Jess and his new girlfriend. All this NEXT chapter. This chapter was really a transitional chapter so I could get rid of Dean and get Jess to believe he has to move on and forget about Rory (as a girlfriend). But don't worry, I'm the biggest R/J shipper ever so it's definitely going to be R/J.
Pleeeeease review. Pretty please with a dozen yummy red cherries on top? Oh see, now you're making me beg for reviews! Click the bluish-purplish button on your bottom left hand corner. You know you want to...CLICK IT...
PAIRINGS: R/J (duh)
NOTE: Yes, I finally updated! Be sure to read the A/N at the bottom of the page, contains what's going on for the next chapter.
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Goodbyes and Regrets
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Lorelai buried her head in her hands as she sat down on the couch. God, everything's so messed up, she thought. Only 24 hours ago, her life was normal, you could say it was even great. Christopher was back and they were together, her best friend was getting married, Rory was going to be vice-president of her school and . . . well except for Luke. He's still mad at her, that hasn't changed, she thought forlornly. Now, she could feel that Rory is hiding something from her. And it probably had to be something to do with that trouble-maker Jess. Rory's acting completely out of character and that usually happens when she's around him.
Suddenly, Lorelai heard footsteps coming down the stairs. Rory, she thought. I have to tell her about what I saw, she suddenly decided. It's going to hurt her, but maybe it's all for the best. After all, her feelings for Dean had been waning the past couple of months. Lorelai ignored the errant thought that Jess would be there to comfort her.
"Mom, are you okay?" asked Rory, looking into her mom's red rimmed eyes. "Is it about Dad?"
"Hon, there's something I need to tell you."
"Oh Mom, what is it?" A shocking thought popped into her head and Rory gasped, "You're not pregnant too, are you? I mean, I'm not saying it's bad that you are, in fact it's great it's just that--"
"No, stop babbling, I'm not pregnant," smiled Lorelai.
"So what did you have to tell me then?" asked Rory.
"Okay, you probably need to sit down for this and keep away from all breakable objects," Lorelai said, half kidding about the breakable objects.
"You know, it's really not good to drop two bombshells on a person in one day."
"Just sit."
Rory complied and sat beside her mother. "So what is it? You're killing me with the suspense here."
"Well . . ."
"C'mon, out with it!"
"I saw Dean walking down the street like five minutes ago and he was probably walking towards our house to see you. You remember Kayla, right? She was driving her little shiny car and doing her whole whore routine to get Dean back, although God knows why she wants him, she already had the entire football team, but anyways, they talked a bit and Dean got into her car and drove right past our house to whereabouts unknown." Lorelai braced for Rory's reaction and expected denial to be first.
"Is that all?" Rory asked.
"What do ya mean, is that all? He got into the car with Kayla!" exclaimed Lorelai, emphasizing on the name Kayla.
Rory suddenly looked nervous and fidgety. She took a deep breath and stared out at the window behind Lorelai's head.
"Uh-oh. What did you do?"
"Why do you assume I did something?"
"Cause you look really uncomfortable right now and you've never been a good liar."
"IkissedJess," Rory mumbled.
"What? I could've sworn I heard you say you kissed Jess."
Rory avoided Lorelai's incredulous stare.
"You didn't. Oh my god, you did! How could you! Have you forgotten about Dean? Dean. . . so THAT's why he got in the car with her! He must've heard about the kiss."
"No, that impossible!" Rory said. "Jess wouldn't tell anyone."
"I'm not really sure about that but H-E-L-L-O, this is Stars Hollow, the smallest town this side of the East Coast. Someone could've saw you two and word spreads fast. Speaking of which, when did you see and kiss Jess?"
"At Sookie's wedding before the ceremony."
"Ah, so that's why you were almost late."
"Yeah."
"Wow. So what are you going to do about Dean?"
"I don't know."
"What about Washington? Do you know when you have to leave?"
"Don't know that either. Kind of surprised that Paris hasn't called me yet."
As if on cue, the telephone ranged, startling the two.
"Hello, Gilmore residence," said Rory as she picked up the phone.
"Rory?"
"Hey Lane, what's up?"
"What's this I hear about you and Jess?"
"Oh no. What did you hear so far?"
"Your infamous kiss with him. Kirk said that he saw you two at the wedding and he told Miss Patty and once she knows, well..." Lane trailed off. "So is it true?"
"Um, yeah, it's true."
"AHHH!" she squealed. "It's about time you did! The entire town has been talking about how Jess moved back after someone saw Luke pick him up at the bus stop. And I wondered if you would finally wake up and smell the roses."
"Wait, what?" asked Rory, confused. "I thought you like Dean."
"Dean's totally boring, Rory. And you know it. You said that you didn't like him like you used to. Besides, Jess is hot, in the James Dean sort of way."
"I cannot believe I'm hearing this. This means that Dean definitely heard the rumors so that's why he got in a car with Kayla."
"Oh, yeah I heard something about that too."
"Geez, can anything happen in this town without everyone finding out a minute later?"
"Why are you even asking?"
"Huh, yeah."
"So did you two break up?"
"No, but we're going to. Probably."
"Probably?"
"Fine, most definitely."
"Ugh, my mom is yelling at me to get off the phone. But we're going to talk later," said Lane, annoyance evident in her voice. "Good luck with Dean."
"Thanks, I have a feeling I'm going to need it."
Both girls said their goodbye and hung up the phone. She glanced over at Lorelai, who was getting her pager and cell phone from the table.
"Hey babe, I have to go to the Inn to check on some things there. See how the new cook is doing and all that. I'll be back in an hour or two alright?" said Lorelai.
"Okay. I might take a walk. You know, clear my head." answered Rory.
Just when Lorelai was about to walk out the door, Rory called out "Mom?"
"What is it hun?" said Lorelai walking back to the living room.
Rory went over and gave her mom a big hug and whispered, "Dad loves you, but you know he wants to do the right thing this time. We'll be alright. And I'm going to be a big sister!"
Lorelai squeezed Rory tightly and said "What would I do without you."
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Rory walked up to her room after Lorelai left. She eyed her collection of books, hoping to curl up with a good one and forget her troubles, even if it's just for a little while. Smiling, her eyes rested on "Oliver Twist." Jess. His face flashed in her mind and she turned around, looking at the bright sun spilling onto her desk. Maybe a walk would be good after all, she decided.
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First things first, she thought. She had to break up with Dean. They couldn't go on this way. Bracing herself for the emotional scene up ahead, she walked into Doose's Market where she knew Dean was working right now.
Rory saw him right away, stocking beans. Walking up to him, Rory hesitantly said, "Hi Dean. Can we talk for a sec?"
She saw the look on his face, knew that this wasn't going to be pleasant.
"Sure Rory. Are you sure you can tear your mouth from Jess for a second?" growled Dean.
"Dean..."
"Oh alright. Come out here." Dean led her to a private room in the back. "So talk."
"Listen, Dean. I'm so incredibly sorry. I shouldn't have done that, you have no idea how much I regret it. I'm so sorry for the way I hurt you and everything that's happened."
"So you can just say you're sorry and think everything's going to go back to normal?" said Dean.
"No, of course not. That's why I think we should break up," yelled Rory, her temper flaring.
Dean was silent and they just stood there for a moment, unmoving.
"I'm so sorry," Rory whispered. "But it was over a long time ago."
She reached into her pocket and took out the bracelet he gave her. "Here." She put it on the table next to him.
She grabbed the door knob and suddenly turned around. Rory said very softly, "You were my first love. That will never change." With that, she walked out the door.
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Rory walked aimlessly around town. She didn't feel anything but a sense of relief about Dean. Taking aware of her surroundings, she realized she was walking on the bridge, where it all started.
"Fancy meeting you here," a voice suddenly came from behind her.
Rory jumped and turned around. "What are you doing here?" she gasped.
He pointed to the book in his pocket. "I come here to read sometimes."
"Oh."
Awkward silence filled the air.
"I broke up with Dean," Rory blurted out.
"Oh. Why?"
"Because...it just wasn't working out anymore." Rory answered, avoiding Jess's penetrating gaze.
He nodded. Silence prevailed again until Rory couldn't stand it anymore.
"Listen Jess...about that kiss. Again, I'm really sorry. It shouldn't have happened. We should just be friends and pretend it never happened. And about next week, with the book fair, I don't think I can go."
"Alright," he said.
Rory smiled weakly. "Well I better go home now. Bye Jess."
"Goodbye Rory," Jess said quietly as he watched her disappear through the trees.
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Rory walked home, her heart heavy. He didn't even ask why I couldn't go to the book fair with him, she realized. She went over to check the answering machine and found that Paris had left six messages already, detailing the trip to Washington and promising a certain death if Rory didn't call her back right away. She was leaving the next week.
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TBC.......
A/N: So did you like it? The next chapter is going to take place after Rory's return from Washington, starting from the season finale, my style. I'm going to be using some of the spoilers I've heard on www.gilmore-girls.net and deal with Jess and his new girlfriend. All this NEXT chapter. This chapter was really a transitional chapter so I could get rid of Dean and get Jess to believe he has to move on and forget about Rory (as a girlfriend). But don't worry, I'm the biggest R/J shipper ever so it's definitely going to be R/J.
Pleeeeease review. Pretty please with a dozen yummy red cherries on top? Oh see, now you're making me beg for reviews! Click the bluish-purplish button on your bottom left hand corner. You know you want to...CLICK IT...