A/N:The promised fic of Angel's past, starts around the middle of his sophomore year of high school and goes to when Bella finds him on the sidewalk in front of Rainbow Connection and offers him a job as a professional drag queen, maybe a little farther, chappie one is Angel admitting to himself and his family that he's gay.
Disclaimer:I don't own Angel, but the story is mine as are Angel's family, well there personalities, anyway.
Lost In the Darkness
By Me
Angel stood in front of the full length mirror hanging on the inside of his closet door. How appropriate, he thought, the mirror's in the closet and so am I. Angel stared at his reflection for a long time, mouthing the words, before working up the courage to say them out loud, because saying it out loud made real. He wasn't sure he was ready for it to be real yet. He looked at his bedroom door, making sure it was still closed, listening for the tell-tale sign that his little sister was out there listening, silence. Reassured, he turned back to the mirror, looking at himself he said aloud,"I'm gay." Well, that wasn't so bad, he thought, so he said it again,"I'm gay."
Turning from the mirror, he decided it was time to tell someone else, but who? His mom? His dad? His sister? One of his friends? He decided his sister was the best shot, because if she reacted badly he could play it off, like it was a joke testing her gullibility.
He stuck his head out of his bedroom door,"Luci, donde estas?" He knew that speaking Spanish would have her there in thirty seconds or less, because Angel only ever spoke Spanish to his sister if it was important. Angel was right, Luci was there in 23 seconds.
"What is it, Angel?" She asked looking a little worried.
"Come in, I need to tell you something." Angel said, opening the door wider do the fourteen year old could come in. "I really don't know any other way to say this, so I'll say it straight out," he began, nervous. "Luci, I'm gay,"he blurted.
She looked at him and smiled, she said,"I know, I was waiting for you to admit it to yourself." She folded him in a hug that only a sister knows how give. "Now, the only problems are our parents. You know they won't accept this, especially Dad. Angel, they'll probably throw you out, or beat you, or something horrible." She was truly worried about her sixteen year old brother. What would happen if their parents found out.
Downstairs a door closed, their mother's voice floated up the stairs,"Luci, Angel, I'm home. Are you guys here?"
"Yeah, we're here, Mom," Angel called to her, then to Luci he said,"Well, this is where we find out Mom's reaction."
A/N: Hate it? Love it? Shall I continue?
Disclaimer:I don't own Angel, but the story is mine as are Angel's family, well there personalities, anyway.
Lost In the Darkness
By Me
Angel stood in front of the full length mirror hanging on the inside of his closet door. How appropriate, he thought, the mirror's in the closet and so am I. Angel stared at his reflection for a long time, mouthing the words, before working up the courage to say them out loud, because saying it out loud made real. He wasn't sure he was ready for it to be real yet. He looked at his bedroom door, making sure it was still closed, listening for the tell-tale sign that his little sister was out there listening, silence. Reassured, he turned back to the mirror, looking at himself he said aloud,"I'm gay." Well, that wasn't so bad, he thought, so he said it again,"I'm gay."
Turning from the mirror, he decided it was time to tell someone else, but who? His mom? His dad? His sister? One of his friends? He decided his sister was the best shot, because if she reacted badly he could play it off, like it was a joke testing her gullibility.
He stuck his head out of his bedroom door,"Luci, donde estas?" He knew that speaking Spanish would have her there in thirty seconds or less, because Angel only ever spoke Spanish to his sister if it was important. Angel was right, Luci was there in 23 seconds.
"What is it, Angel?" She asked looking a little worried.
"Come in, I need to tell you something." Angel said, opening the door wider do the fourteen year old could come in. "I really don't know any other way to say this, so I'll say it straight out," he began, nervous. "Luci, I'm gay,"he blurted.
She looked at him and smiled, she said,"I know, I was waiting for you to admit it to yourself." She folded him in a hug that only a sister knows how give. "Now, the only problems are our parents. You know they won't accept this, especially Dad. Angel, they'll probably throw you out, or beat you, or something horrible." She was truly worried about her sixteen year old brother. What would happen if their parents found out.
Downstairs a door closed, their mother's voice floated up the stairs,"Luci, Angel, I'm home. Are you guys here?"
"Yeah, we're here, Mom," Angel called to her, then to Luci he said,"Well, this is where we find out Mom's reaction."
A/N: Hate it? Love it? Shall I continue?