Spoilers for the end of 7x21 End of Days, yes I have seen it so please don't tell me I haven't *glares at certain people*
Once Terrified
By Falcon-Rider (falcon_rider@hotmail.com)
'That bitch' the Firsts voice murmurs into my ears.
How could she? Do that to me? I thought my thoughts wheeled through my brain, the gears turning with aggressive speed. My jaw clenches tightly, I grind my teeth together as I watch them.
Him and Her.
Vampire, and slayer.
The slayers first love, some say her soul mate.
I watched them as he saved her. Then saw her slice the scythe into Caleb. My heart had swelled with pride. That is till she turned. Their lips met and I screamed inwardly.
I thought she had been there with me last night. She had told me she'd been there.
Did it mean anything to her? I guess not.
I guess she hadn't meant what she had said just an hour earlier either.
I guess I'm just a toy, meant to be used and abused then tossed aside like a rag doll.
How long can they kiss? I clench my fist till my finger nails draw blood.
I never should have trusted her, listened to her.
I said I was terrified, and I was.
But the terror has left, and now all that is left is a blind rage, building up like an inferno inside my demon… and my soul.
William was soft, Spike was hard.
But now I'm Spike with the soul of William… I guess I'm somewhere in between.
They break apart smiling and I growl lightly.
The First smiles next to me; it's a perfect image of my love.
'So,' the Firsts voice caresses me. 'What are you going to do about it?'
Fin
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Note: this is Spikes thoughts at the end of 7x21 end of days. The final thing the First thinks I added myself other than that the dialogue and kiss belong to ME and Joss… Spike and William do as well.