A/N : Thanks for the reviews. And for Cams, you're right !! it comes from Lords of the Flies. Well done !!
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Chapter 2 : Heart like a sad song
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"Hey Spacemonkey!" greeted Jack entering into the infirmary.
Daniel looked over Doctor Frasier's shoulder and couldn't help but close his eyes and breath deeply.
Jack chose to ignore the exasperated look of his teammate and went to his side followed by his 2IC and Teal'c.
"Doctor?" he asked trying to sound serious.
"It's not a serious injury Colonel. However, he won't be able to go on mission for the rest of the week. He has sprained his ankle and I need to do some other checks." Janet explained briefly.
"Hey there" said Cassie as she came into the infirmary.
"hey Cassie" greeted Sam with a happy smile.
"Hi" smiled Jack.
Teal'c bowed his head in respect.
Then the young girl noticed Daniel, who was lying on the bed.
"What did you do to yourself this time?" she asked, trying to hide her mocking tone.
"this time?" repeated Daniel, rolling his eyes.
Jack couldn't hold his chuckle and winked at Cassie.
"Ya ready to go?" asked Sam, trying to hide her smile.
"Yeah." replied Cassie
"I need to go to the bank beforehand, I hope she doesn't mind." Sam told Janet walking to the door.
"Have fun Carter." Jack said, noticing that her civvies fitted it her damn well.
Sam nodded and smiled.
"Take care Daniel." she said leaving the room
"Don't forget Carter! One month!" Jack called back as she was already in the corridor.
"One month?" asked Daniel
"Just something between her and I."
Janet looked at him strangely and smiled.
"So?... How did you do that?" asked Jack. "Were you pursued by someone or something?"
"Not at all Colonel." replied a male voice coming from behind.
"Hey Michaels. Tell me about it." grinned Jack as the man came into the room.
Michaels glanced at Daniel with a look of both pity and amusement.
"How do you feel?" he asked.
"I'm okay...it's nothing at all, you don't need to tell him you know.." begged Daniel
O'Neill placed his hand on Michaels' shoulder and led him outside.
"Come with me buddy, we're gonna talk...It's the privilege of being a colonel ya know... " he added, with a last big grin to Daniel.
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Cassie sat next to Sam who was now at the wheel.
"Come on Cassie, let's go – now!"
The young girl nodded and sat next to Sam. She tried a smile but it wasn't reciprocated.
She held back a sigh and drove out of the street.
"Do you mind if I go to the bank before your music lesson?" she asked.
"Sure, whatever." replied Cassie looking out of the window.
"It will just take a minute." added Sam.
Cassie nodded and reached into her bag for a tape. She looked at Sam and asked if she could listen to it.
Sam replied that she could.
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What ravages of spirit conjured, this tempestuous rage
Created you a monster, broken by the rules of love and fate has led you through it.
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"So how's school going?" Sam asked after a minute.
Cassie rose her eyes to heavenwards but was unseen by Sam.
"It's quite boring." she muttered.
"Oh? You don't like your class or teachers ?"
"No." she replied flatly.
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....You do what you have to do
....And I have the sense to recognise that I don't know , How to let you go
Every moment marked with apparitions of your soul I'm ever swiftly moving, trying to escape this desire yearning to be near with you
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Sam closed her eyes briefly, thinking of a better way to breach the problem.
After many tries about her friends, her hobbies, her future, she gave up with the indirect ways.
"Okay, come on Cassie. What's wrong?" Sam asked with a glance towards the young girl.
"Nothing's wrong."
"Cassandra. I'm your friend, you know that, please, you can talk to me."
Cassie turned her head said again that she was okay but her eyes were full of tears.
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I do what I have to do.....
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
And I have the sense to recognise that I don't know
How to let you go.....
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As they arrived at the bank, Sam parked her car and looked at Cassie.
"hey...honey" she said softly
Cassandra was hardly keeping her tears back.
"You can cry ya know, little one," added Sam as tenderly gesture. "It' s not wrong to cry."
"So why don't you ever cry?" replied Cassie a bit louder than she wanted, as some teardrops was threatening to fall.
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A glowing ember ember,
burning hot, burning slow,
deep within I'm shaken by
the violence of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do......
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Sam raised her eyebrow.
" That's not the problem here, I'm in the military and I've learnt not to show my feelings, but you don't have to do that."
"Oh yes I do." Cassie cried
"What do you mean?" asked Sam, caressing Cassie's cheek wiping her lone tear away.
Cassie sighed and turned her eyes away "You will find it ridiculous anyway."
"You know that I won't." whispered Sam
Cassie wanted so much to tell her but something was blocking her words.
And she was praying for Sam to understand that she only needed a few minutes before revealing what she had on her mind.
She was hoping that Sam would not give up on her like her mother did, believing that she wasn't going to talk anymore.
She had experienced that so many times.
She just needed seconds to make her mind up, just another question and she would have tell what hurt her so deeply but each time she'd been pushed away, even involuntarily, but she had never been able to tell someone how she felt.
Sam waited. She knew that Cassie needed time. She had lived through that with her father but he had never waited for her and she had prayed so many times to have someone to confess to.
However, her mother was gone. She was alone.
That's why she never cried. She had forgotten how to cry because she had always had to count on herself.
"I will never have a boyfriend. I will never get married. I will never have any children." Cassie declared suddenly, jogging Sam out of her thoughts.
Sam rolled her eyes and closed them briefly.
"I am not from here. How will I be able to marry someone without telling him where I'm from!"
"How will I know that my children won't suffer from any problems because of it?" Cassie went on, as she'd finally let her tears win.
"Oh honey" said Sam "Everything's gonna be okay, you'll see. I promise, you will find someone. You'll find someone clever enough to understand and keep the secret of your origins and of the Stargate."
"And what if I never find him?"
"You'll find him. Because you're smart and beautiful. Trust me." smiled Sam.
"And when I find him, until I'm sure of him, will I have to hide my feelings and act as if nothing was happening?" she asked
"I know it's hard." Sam smiled again, but more sadly this time.
"I know that you know." replied Cassie aware that she had caused some pain to her friend. "I'm sorry." she added feeling guilty.
"Don't be. I'm glad you talked to me."
"No, I'm sorry because I'm selfish. I'm sorry because I caused you pain."
"But..." Sam tried to deny
"Please Sam, I've been honest, don't lie to me. Don't lie to yourself. I just know. Okay ?" asked Cassie tenderly.
Sam didn't reply but the smile she gave was a more revealing answer.
Cassie hugged her briefly, and then looked at her reflection in the glass.
"Oh Boy!" she muttered, taking one of Sam's phrase.
"Just give me a moment to delete the traces of these tears please?"
Sam agreed. She also needed time to make herself up. The young girl hadn't really realized the turmoil that she had caused.
Sam glanced at her quickly but stayed silent. She hoped that her friend was going to be okay.
"You ready now?" asked Sam checking the time.
Cassie nodded and got out of the car.
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