That's the way it is

Author: Cry me a river

Chapter 4

Ethan

I lay awake, next to my new wife. And yet, my thoughts lingered on Theresa. I shouldn't be thinking about her. I should be thinking about Gwen and the child she was carrying.

But I had made a choice. I was going to marry Theresa. I was ready to propose when I found out Gwen was pregnant. I couldn't marry Theresa now. So I proposed to Gwen.

I know now that I did it out of obligation to Gwen. But since I am already married, I am just going to have to make it work with her. Somehow I have to forget my love for Theresa.

Oh my sweet Theresa. She has been through so much. The fact that Julian tricked her into marriage and gotten her pregnant was horrible. And not to mention that her family's house had burned down.

I wanted to be the one to hold her, and comfort her and yet I cannot. But Maybe, I reasoned, I can talk to her. Talking to her wouldn't hurt anyone. So I made sure that Gwen was fast asleep before I slipped out of bed.

Then I went to check on little Ethan. I loved him so much. And I felt sorry for him having Julian as a father. That was a thing I would not wish on anyone. He was sleeping, looking like a cherub with his little fat cheeks, his lips in a slight smile. I wonder if he is dreaming of his beautiful mother.

I rub his head thinking that I have to get Theresa out of my head. But how can I do that? How can I just forget the woman that I actually love? This was something I had to figure out soon.

Another thing I wanted to do was to get Theresa out of this mansion as soon as possible. It was changing her for the worse. She was starting to act like Ivy and Rebecca and that is something I couldn't bear. I loved Theresa the way she was. And that was Sweet and Innocent.

I kiss little Ethan's head gently, then head to his mama's room. I have to talk to Theresa. But I can't let her know I still love her more than Gwen. If I do, and she says she still loves me I don't know what I could do to control myself. If she did, I would want to throw her down on the bed and make love to her.

But that would be cheating, and even If I didn't love Gwen as much, I couldn't do that to her. I am not saying I didn't want to, because maybe I do. But that wouldn't be fair to Theresa either. And the truth is, I don't want to hurt either of them.

I start to knock on Theresa's door when I hear her scream. I don't take time to think about if she is having a nightmare or not. I just throw open the door. I see the shadows of a man and start throwing punches. Soon I see it is my brother Fox and I give him a few more punches.

I never really liked him. He was a jerk and a player and he had no business around Theresa. I didn't want to give him the chance to explain. I just wanted him to get away from her, the mansion, and Harmony.

Life was much better when Fox wasn't around. So I was hoping that it would be the same way this time. That he had only came to Harmony for money and would soon be on his way to another place.

Theresa's screams and the fighting had waken everyone else but little Ethan. I soon would find out that Fox was enjoying the scene he made. He even called Theresa his step mommy. The nerve of that big jerk.

After the scene was pretty much over I asked Fox to come to another word so that I could have a word with him. He seemed reluctant to tear his gaze away from Theresa, which angered me even more.

"What's up bro?" Fox said with a cocky smile.

"What the hell are you doing back in Harmony Fox?"

"I missed you too." He answered pretending to be hurt. "I came back to take care of step mommy. Life must be hard for her, being married to Julian, losing you and having a child to care for. So, I will help her out. She is very beautiful you know."

I slam Fox into the wall. I will not let my spoiled step... no make that half brother, ruin Theresa's life. She had been through too much already and I am just lucky she didn't go over the edge when I married Gwen.

And I have to say I am a little disappointed to say it seemed Theresa never made an effort to stop my wedding. IF she had, maybe she would be the one that had my last name right now.

"Are you ready to back to bed?" Gwen asked breaking my thoughts.

I don't want her to know how much seeing Fox in Theresa's room bothered me so I go back to bed with her. After all, she is my wife.

A/N: How am I doing so far? Do you like it?