Part of your world ch. 5.
They got to Inuyasha's apartment, and Kagome sat down on his futon while he usied himself in the kitchen. He came out a few minutes later with a teapot and two cups with teabags. He put them on the table and poured them both some tea.
"It's green tea, it's very good." he said.
"Arigato." Kagome said, stirring her tea.
There was silence for a few minutes.
"The herbs need to be cooked for a while." said Inuyasha, hesitantly. Kagome said nothing but sipped her tea.
Silence.
"so.... you want to talk about it?" asked Inuyasha. "Because you don't have to, you know." he added quickly. Kagome began to cry.
"Gomen, Kagome, i didn't mean to..." began Inuyasha.
"Why are you being so nice to me?" she asked, sobbing.
"... um.. because... that is, I... feh! Since when is it a crime to be nice to a girl?" Inuyasha began hesitatingly before giving up and snapping at her. Kagome only cried harder. "Gomen, gomen." Inuyasha said quickly.
"Stop it! Stop being so nice! I don't deserve any niceness, I don't..." Kagome stammered through tears.
"Nani? All I did was say I'm sorry! And what do you MEAN you're not 'Worthy'? You're the worthyest human I've ever met!"
"no, no I'm not, you don't know, you don't understand, you don't,"
"There's lots of things I don't understand, Kagome. Why don't you start with the cuts on your back? Or better yet, start with where you were staying?" asked Inuyasha gently. Kagome tried her best to collect herself before she began.
"I didn't stay with those friends you found me with. No, not with my boyfriend either. I don't even remember his name anymore. Isn't that stupid? I don't even know my own boyfriend's name!" she began to giggle a bit.
"So where WERE you staying?" asked Inuyasha, tryng to keep her on track.
"I was staying with my father. You needn't look so shocked. I got in touch with him before I ran away. He left us when I was little. He took me in. But he had to punish me, you see. I did terrible, terrible things, and he had to punish me. It was out of love. "
"LOVE?! What kind of LOVE does THAT to you?"
Kagome began crying again. "you don't understand, you don't know what I did..."
"Then tell me, so I WILL know."
"I had a little sister once, named Lilith. Lilith May. She was the baby of the family, Inuyasha, my mom's baby, her youngest, her favorite. She was everyone's favorite. She was so sweet, and kind, she was an angel, an absolute angel. She was perfect.
"One day, I, being the oldest, was allowed to take her to school. Mom was busy helping Sota with a project he had due that day. So I got to take her to school. She instructed me to 'take her all the way to her classroom so she won't get lost'. I should have listened, I should have obeyesd. BUt I wanted to hurry and talk to my friends. so I left her at the hallway and told her to go to class.
"After school, I went to pick her up, and the teacher said she never arrived. I looked for her for hours before Shippu came and took me home. We looked for her for a long, long time. I finally found her. It's only fitting, I lost her, I find her."
"Where was she?"
"Floating face down in a puddle" Kagome choked out through her tears.
Inuyasha was silent.
"I... I killed her, Inuyasha, I killed her."
"What, by not taking her to her class?"
"Hai! Her killer must have intercepted her on the way to class! I was supposed to protect her... it should have been me that was killed, not her, me. I did it. I killed her."
"Neh, never think it. You didn't leave her in that puddle, so you didn't kill her."
"That's what mom said, that's what the police said, but I know I killed her. And so did Otasa (father). That's why he had to punish me, because I'm bad, very bad"
"No, you're not." said Inuyasha. Kagome continued to sob, and Inuyasha got from the chair he sat in and held her until she stopped crying. Then something beeped in the kitchen.
"That's the poultice. It should be ready now. Are you going to be ok?"
"Hai." she said miserably. Inuyasha gave her one last squeeze and went to the kitchen. He came back with a small bowl of goop and some instant hot cocoa mix. "Since we've finished our tea." he explained. He set them down. "um... so... I need... you have to... take off your shirt again... I won't look in the front, if you want... "
"Hai." and she took off her shirt. He couldn't help but notice she had knife-cuts all over her upper arms as well.
"Did he do those, too?"
"no, I did. I didn't belive him at first, and I had to punish myself."
Inuyasha did not respond to this, but began smoothing the cream over her back in a thin layer gently. He then used some for her arms. "This should help them heal better."
"Domo arigato"
He had to reach around her to do the front of her arms, and ended up hugging her. She turned around. They looked into each other's eyes for a minute, then began to lean in. Inuyasha stopped and pulled away. He locked paler than normal.
"I... I can't do this, Kagome, I'm sorry."
He then let her put her shirt back on and built a fire. They sat in front of it and drank cocoa until Kagome fell asleep leaning on Inuyasha. He lifted her up and put her on her cot. Then he went to the ohone in the kitchen and dialed a number.
"hello, Officer Miroku? I need a favor...."
REVIEW!!!!! so sad! *sniff*
They got to Inuyasha's apartment, and Kagome sat down on his futon while he usied himself in the kitchen. He came out a few minutes later with a teapot and two cups with teabags. He put them on the table and poured them both some tea.
"It's green tea, it's very good." he said.
"Arigato." Kagome said, stirring her tea.
There was silence for a few minutes.
"The herbs need to be cooked for a while." said Inuyasha, hesitantly. Kagome said nothing but sipped her tea.
Silence.
"so.... you want to talk about it?" asked Inuyasha. "Because you don't have to, you know." he added quickly. Kagome began to cry.
"Gomen, Kagome, i didn't mean to..." began Inuyasha.
"Why are you being so nice to me?" she asked, sobbing.
"... um.. because... that is, I... feh! Since when is it a crime to be nice to a girl?" Inuyasha began hesitatingly before giving up and snapping at her. Kagome only cried harder. "Gomen, gomen." Inuyasha said quickly.
"Stop it! Stop being so nice! I don't deserve any niceness, I don't..." Kagome stammered through tears.
"Nani? All I did was say I'm sorry! And what do you MEAN you're not 'Worthy'? You're the worthyest human I've ever met!"
"no, no I'm not, you don't know, you don't understand, you don't,"
"There's lots of things I don't understand, Kagome. Why don't you start with the cuts on your back? Or better yet, start with where you were staying?" asked Inuyasha gently. Kagome tried her best to collect herself before she began.
"I didn't stay with those friends you found me with. No, not with my boyfriend either. I don't even remember his name anymore. Isn't that stupid? I don't even know my own boyfriend's name!" she began to giggle a bit.
"So where WERE you staying?" asked Inuyasha, tryng to keep her on track.
"I was staying with my father. You needn't look so shocked. I got in touch with him before I ran away. He left us when I was little. He took me in. But he had to punish me, you see. I did terrible, terrible things, and he had to punish me. It was out of love. "
"LOVE?! What kind of LOVE does THAT to you?"
Kagome began crying again. "you don't understand, you don't know what I did..."
"Then tell me, so I WILL know."
"I had a little sister once, named Lilith. Lilith May. She was the baby of the family, Inuyasha, my mom's baby, her youngest, her favorite. She was everyone's favorite. She was so sweet, and kind, she was an angel, an absolute angel. She was perfect.
"One day, I, being the oldest, was allowed to take her to school. Mom was busy helping Sota with a project he had due that day. So I got to take her to school. She instructed me to 'take her all the way to her classroom so she won't get lost'. I should have listened, I should have obeyesd. BUt I wanted to hurry and talk to my friends. so I left her at the hallway and told her to go to class.
"After school, I went to pick her up, and the teacher said she never arrived. I looked for her for hours before Shippu came and took me home. We looked for her for a long, long time. I finally found her. It's only fitting, I lost her, I find her."
"Where was she?"
"Floating face down in a puddle" Kagome choked out through her tears.
Inuyasha was silent.
"I... I killed her, Inuyasha, I killed her."
"What, by not taking her to her class?"
"Hai! Her killer must have intercepted her on the way to class! I was supposed to protect her... it should have been me that was killed, not her, me. I did it. I killed her."
"Neh, never think it. You didn't leave her in that puddle, so you didn't kill her."
"That's what mom said, that's what the police said, but I know I killed her. And so did Otasa (father). That's why he had to punish me, because I'm bad, very bad"
"No, you're not." said Inuyasha. Kagome continued to sob, and Inuyasha got from the chair he sat in and held her until she stopped crying. Then something beeped in the kitchen.
"That's the poultice. It should be ready now. Are you going to be ok?"
"Hai." she said miserably. Inuyasha gave her one last squeeze and went to the kitchen. He came back with a small bowl of goop and some instant hot cocoa mix. "Since we've finished our tea." he explained. He set them down. "um... so... I need... you have to... take off your shirt again... I won't look in the front, if you want... "
"Hai." and she took off her shirt. He couldn't help but notice she had knife-cuts all over her upper arms as well.
"Did he do those, too?"
"no, I did. I didn't belive him at first, and I had to punish myself."
Inuyasha did not respond to this, but began smoothing the cream over her back in a thin layer gently. He then used some for her arms. "This should help them heal better."
"Domo arigato"
He had to reach around her to do the front of her arms, and ended up hugging her. She turned around. They looked into each other's eyes for a minute, then began to lean in. Inuyasha stopped and pulled away. He locked paler than normal.
"I... I can't do this, Kagome, I'm sorry."
He then let her put her shirt back on and built a fire. They sat in front of it and drank cocoa until Kagome fell asleep leaning on Inuyasha. He lifted her up and put her on her cot. Then he went to the ohone in the kitchen and dialed a number.
"hello, Officer Miroku? I need a favor...."
REVIEW!!!!! so sad! *sniff*