Pairing: Rory/Jess
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters but I own the words
Author's Note: I wrote this with having Rory lose her virginity to Jess in this chapter but I decided not to have that scene in there because it didn't fit with the story. I don't think Rory would have sex with Jess right away anyways. But this chapter shows, or supposed to anyways, that they do indeed love each other and they are in fact a couple that will live happily ever after. This is the last chapter so enjoy.....
"I know I should leave but I don't think my body will let me."
"Don't leave."
"And risk your mother walking in. No thanks."
Rory's body was curled against Jess'. They were lying in her bed in the blue tinted darkness...Jess with his shirt off and Rory in her skirt still and tank top. The button down shirt had gotten removed when they were kissing. Rory blushed just thinking about it. Kissing Jess was not like kissing Dean. At all.
She was tracing circles on his chest, and Jess reveled at the sweet gesture. At the intimacy of the moment. At the softness of her hair. At the smell of her skin.
At the utter perfection he felt.
"What happens when you leave?" Rory's question was laced with meanings that Jess was fully aware of.
"You sleep. And tomorrow morning you'll come to the diner and I'll be waiting for you." Jess kissed Rory's forehead and reluctantly sat up and moved away from Rory. He threw his legs over the bed and Rory hugged him from behind pressing her chest to his back and kissing the back of his neck.
"The clock's fast. You still have a few more minutes." Rory didn't want Jess to leave. She knew she was being irrational but she didn't care.
"All the clocks in this house are fast, including the one on your mother's wrist." Jess bent over to pick up his shoes which he kicked off and while doing so Rory wrapped both arms around him and pulled him back up to sitting position. From behind she started stroking his chest up and down, up and down.......
"Ugh! You're not making this any easier ya'know." Jess got off the bed and started putting on the rest of his clothes. It was hard for Jess to move away from her then. His blood was flowing fast through him and he wanted to hold her all night.....like before.
He looked at Rory and felt an ache in his chest.
Rory was so beautiful in the blue light. It was dark but Jess had long before adjusted to the darkness and could see her perfectly. She was sitting up in bed wearing a tank top with her hair tousled and her lips pouty in that way that made Jess want to crush her to him painfully. Jess knew what she was doing; she was trying to get him to stay. And he felt it working on him.
"You're staring again." Rory smiled and blushed, but Jess couldn't see it, it was too dark in her room.
"Sorry." But he wasn't.
Jess slid his shoes on and walked back to the bed. He kissed her tenderly and Rory put her arms around his neck. They stayed there for a few moments holding each other but eventually Jess pulled away. He couldn't risk Lorelai walking in on them. It could destroy everything. He stood and was about to tell her he loved her when she spoke first.
"Jess how can you leave me so easily?"
He froze, it felt like he had been slapped. Emotions rushed through him: hurt, anger, spite, but stronger than those was love, so powerful that everything else seemed insignificant. Jess understood what Rory was thinking. She was hurt that he was leaving her.
She was doubting everything that was shared between them.
"I can't actually." As soon as the words left his mouth. Jess rushed toward Rory so unexpectedly that she squealed. Pushing her down on the bed he nestled on top of her in between in her legs. The movement, the shift of positions, was done naturally as old lovers would do. He started kissing her lips then her face and Rory giggled. In between the kisses Jess spoke, "It appears that you have put a spell on me Rory, one that prevents me from ever leaving your arms."
"How did you find out about my wicca-powers?" Rory laughed as she spoke and looked down at Jess kissing her stomach over her tank-top.
"Found your broom in the closet." Jess stopped kissing her and rested his head on her chest and sighed as he felt Rory's hands on his back.
"Dam, now I will just have to keep you here forever." Rory wasn't kidding. She wanted this.....this feeling that was so wonderful.....this love flowing through her to last and last forever. If Jess left, she knew she the feeling would leave.
"Rory I don't want to leave either..." Jess voice was sincere and he moved so that they were face to face, propping himself up on his arms on either side of Rory's face. "More than you will ever know. I wish I could stay with you all night.....hold you in my arms, but I can't. I have to leave before your mother gets here. But don't think I want to leave. I don't."
"I know." Rory looked away. She hated that Jess was right. "I'm being stupid."
"You're not stupid, you're in love." Jess kissed the top of her forehead tenderly. Rory loved it when he did that.
"Yeah I guess I am....It's just that, when I'm with you I don't feel so rotten and it doesn't hurt. So, I don't want you to go." She smiled at him because she was.
"It's going to hurt for a while, that can't be helped." While he spoke Rory tucked her head in his chest. Jess didn't know what else to say about pain except that you have to endure it.
"I know it just that sometimes, like now or whenever I'm with you, everything is wonderful and then it's not and I can't even stand it because it hurts so bad. Sometimes I just feel like my whole life is falling apart." There were tears in her voice but she wasn't crying.
"All things fall apart eventually. You can't really live a life without pain and without death. It's just not possible. I wish it was, but it's not. That is just reality. The thing is, if you keep going then eventually everything comes back together. I don't know much but I know that." He kissed the top of her head.
"See, this is why I don't want you to go!" She looked up at him, pleading with her eyes which she knew he loved because of the letter. Jess didn't say anything, he just kissed her. And Rory knew what it was. It was a goodbye kiss.
After the kiss she got up and flicked on the light then walked over to her jewelry box and started rummaging through it. Jess was sitting on the bed watching her while putting on his shoes and his shirt.
"What are you doing?" Jess walked over to Rory.
"There! Found them!" She was holding a necklace and a ring in her hand. She turned and faced Jess. "You see this," Rory gave the ring to Jess and he looked at it closely, "is my absolute favorite ring. I only wear it for special occasions because it is really expensive. I got it at this antique store when my mother and Sookie were shopping and I saw it and loved it. The lady said it was like a hundred years old."
"It's beautiful.like you." Rory blushed.
It really was a lovely ring. Silver with a heart filled in with a garnet stone. Jess remembered seeing Rory wearing it once, at the diner after a wedding or something. He remembered thinking it was so simple, so beautiful, so her.
"I want you to have it." Rory was fiddling with a necklace that she never liked. The leather strap was too long on her, falling low in below her breasts. She was getting the charm off the leather strap.
"Rory I can't accept this." Jess was still looking at the tiny ring in his fingers. It was too nice. Besides it would never fit, he thought.
"I want you to." She took the ring and put it on the leather strap. "Here." Jess leaned forward and Rory tied it around his neck. The ring fell low on his chest, how Rory knew it would. She kissed him quickly.
"Thank you." Jess leaned in and kissed her again. "Rory I'll never take it off."
"You should go."
"I should. Come early tomorrow so we can have the whole day."
"Real early." She kissed him then pulled away. "What are we going to do?"
"I honestly don't care." Another kiss. "Anything you want." More kissing.
"This is nice.this moment."
"Indeed."
"Jess?"
"Hmmm?"
"Am I your girlfriend now?" Rory didn't want to bring it up. But they hadn't said anything explicit about their relationship. Rory was worried. It was stupid and she knew that, but she still was.
"Depends...am I your boyfriend?" Jess said it as a joke. Of course they were a couple now. They said I love you. Jess is now wearing her ring.
"Only if you want to be."
"I want to be."
"Then I will be your girlfriend."
"Good, cause I really hoping you would." Another kiss, but slower and longer. And Rory felt warm wrapped up in his arms and in his words.comforting her.filling her with love.
"I love you Jess." She knew it wasn't as eloquent as his letters but she meant it. Rory knew at that moment she would love him forever. She would never be able to explain it, even years later. But she right then, that he was it.
"I love you too." Jess kissed her again. He felt himself quivering inside, the emotions were too strong then, and he was too vulnerable. He really didn't want to leave but knew he had to.
"Goodnight Jess." Rory pulled away from him after she said it. Rory was ready for him to go. She knew the feeling wouldn't leave her.
"Goodnight love." Rory blushed and looked down and Jess smirked. He wanted that effect; he liked making her blush. He lifted her head to kiss her and she was delicious.
He walked past her and out the door. His hand on his chest feeling her ring underneath his shirt. Jess walked out into the night closing the door softly behind him. He knew he wouldn't sleep that night, he wanted her too much. He would write her another letter he decided. This time being clear in his emotions and his love for her.
Everything would be different now. Everything would be better.
Jess looked back at the house when he reached the edge of the driveway. It excited him knowing that she was in there. He looked up at the stars and the moon memorizing the night, how he felt how the air was. He looked at the window he knew to be Rory's and felt a longing to rush back to climb through it. But he didn't move; his feet were still on the concrete.
Rory got back in her bed and turned off the light. She reached her hand out wishing Jess was filling that space. She smiled thinking of him before and of him now. Jess was so tender and so passionate at the same time. She thought of them together in the bed, almost having sex. She smiled. Rory knew she wouldn't be a virgin for very long.
Suddenly Rory felt tired. A wave of exhaustion swept over her and she felt sleep coming. She rolled over into her comfortable sleeping position. Her last thoughts before slipping into her dreams were romantic images of Jess and her going on vacations, living together, getting married, having kids. Childish maybe. But she was in love.
Jess smiled looking at the dark house. He was also very much in love. And even more miraculous, she loved him back. This was what all the poets had been writing about, what all the songs were trying to capture in their angst ridden lyrics. The feeling of utter elation sweeping through Jess at that moment. He was going to remember that moment and that night for the rest of his life. Keep the memory like some hold onto old photographs.
That was the love of his life in that dark window. He decided then to never let her go, never lose their love, never stop the tenderness and the passion. He needed Rory too much.
Jess wasn't as optimistic as Rory; he was fully aware of their differences and the most likely outcome of their romance like all high school romances. But for the first time in his life. Jess brushed aside the dark thoughts and was willing to believe in the happy ever after.
Walking back that night Jess also imagined the rest of his life with Rory by his side. His images, his dreams, were of lazy afternoons spent in bed, concerts, bookstores, a weekend in New York City. Jess decided then he needed to show her his New York City. Where he grew up, where he hung out.he would let her in on everything and tell her all his secrets.
He knew it could work.it had to.
THE END
AN: I hope you guys liked it. It was my first fic so hopefully I will get better. I am writing 2 others right now but like I said, I don't post till I have them finished so it is fairer to you guys. Anyways, I hope you guys got that this story was about Death and how that makes Rory realize she needs and loves Jess. At the end, Rory isn't so innocent but is braver and Jess is willing to believe in love and all the other cheesy stuff cause he has Rory. That was supposed to be my main point. I hope you can find it in the story. So thank you to all those who reviewed.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters but I own the words
Author's Note: I wrote this with having Rory lose her virginity to Jess in this chapter but I decided not to have that scene in there because it didn't fit with the story. I don't think Rory would have sex with Jess right away anyways. But this chapter shows, or supposed to anyways, that they do indeed love each other and they are in fact a couple that will live happily ever after. This is the last chapter so enjoy.....
"I know I should leave but I don't think my body will let me."
"Don't leave."
"And risk your mother walking in. No thanks."
Rory's body was curled against Jess'. They were lying in her bed in the blue tinted darkness...Jess with his shirt off and Rory in her skirt still and tank top. The button down shirt had gotten removed when they were kissing. Rory blushed just thinking about it. Kissing Jess was not like kissing Dean. At all.
She was tracing circles on his chest, and Jess reveled at the sweet gesture. At the intimacy of the moment. At the softness of her hair. At the smell of her skin.
At the utter perfection he felt.
"What happens when you leave?" Rory's question was laced with meanings that Jess was fully aware of.
"You sleep. And tomorrow morning you'll come to the diner and I'll be waiting for you." Jess kissed Rory's forehead and reluctantly sat up and moved away from Rory. He threw his legs over the bed and Rory hugged him from behind pressing her chest to his back and kissing the back of his neck.
"The clock's fast. You still have a few more minutes." Rory didn't want Jess to leave. She knew she was being irrational but she didn't care.
"All the clocks in this house are fast, including the one on your mother's wrist." Jess bent over to pick up his shoes which he kicked off and while doing so Rory wrapped both arms around him and pulled him back up to sitting position. From behind she started stroking his chest up and down, up and down.......
"Ugh! You're not making this any easier ya'know." Jess got off the bed and started putting on the rest of his clothes. It was hard for Jess to move away from her then. His blood was flowing fast through him and he wanted to hold her all night.....like before.
He looked at Rory and felt an ache in his chest.
Rory was so beautiful in the blue light. It was dark but Jess had long before adjusted to the darkness and could see her perfectly. She was sitting up in bed wearing a tank top with her hair tousled and her lips pouty in that way that made Jess want to crush her to him painfully. Jess knew what she was doing; she was trying to get him to stay. And he felt it working on him.
"You're staring again." Rory smiled and blushed, but Jess couldn't see it, it was too dark in her room.
"Sorry." But he wasn't.
Jess slid his shoes on and walked back to the bed. He kissed her tenderly and Rory put her arms around his neck. They stayed there for a few moments holding each other but eventually Jess pulled away. He couldn't risk Lorelai walking in on them. It could destroy everything. He stood and was about to tell her he loved her when she spoke first.
"Jess how can you leave me so easily?"
He froze, it felt like he had been slapped. Emotions rushed through him: hurt, anger, spite, but stronger than those was love, so powerful that everything else seemed insignificant. Jess understood what Rory was thinking. She was hurt that he was leaving her.
She was doubting everything that was shared between them.
"I can't actually." As soon as the words left his mouth. Jess rushed toward Rory so unexpectedly that she squealed. Pushing her down on the bed he nestled on top of her in between in her legs. The movement, the shift of positions, was done naturally as old lovers would do. He started kissing her lips then her face and Rory giggled. In between the kisses Jess spoke, "It appears that you have put a spell on me Rory, one that prevents me from ever leaving your arms."
"How did you find out about my wicca-powers?" Rory laughed as she spoke and looked down at Jess kissing her stomach over her tank-top.
"Found your broom in the closet." Jess stopped kissing her and rested his head on her chest and sighed as he felt Rory's hands on his back.
"Dam, now I will just have to keep you here forever." Rory wasn't kidding. She wanted this.....this feeling that was so wonderful.....this love flowing through her to last and last forever. If Jess left, she knew she the feeling would leave.
"Rory I don't want to leave either..." Jess voice was sincere and he moved so that they were face to face, propping himself up on his arms on either side of Rory's face. "More than you will ever know. I wish I could stay with you all night.....hold you in my arms, but I can't. I have to leave before your mother gets here. But don't think I want to leave. I don't."
"I know." Rory looked away. She hated that Jess was right. "I'm being stupid."
"You're not stupid, you're in love." Jess kissed the top of her forehead tenderly. Rory loved it when he did that.
"Yeah I guess I am....It's just that, when I'm with you I don't feel so rotten and it doesn't hurt. So, I don't want you to go." She smiled at him because she was.
"It's going to hurt for a while, that can't be helped." While he spoke Rory tucked her head in his chest. Jess didn't know what else to say about pain except that you have to endure it.
"I know it just that sometimes, like now or whenever I'm with you, everything is wonderful and then it's not and I can't even stand it because it hurts so bad. Sometimes I just feel like my whole life is falling apart." There were tears in her voice but she wasn't crying.
"All things fall apart eventually. You can't really live a life without pain and without death. It's just not possible. I wish it was, but it's not. That is just reality. The thing is, if you keep going then eventually everything comes back together. I don't know much but I know that." He kissed the top of her head.
"See, this is why I don't want you to go!" She looked up at him, pleading with her eyes which she knew he loved because of the letter. Jess didn't say anything, he just kissed her. And Rory knew what it was. It was a goodbye kiss.
After the kiss she got up and flicked on the light then walked over to her jewelry box and started rummaging through it. Jess was sitting on the bed watching her while putting on his shoes and his shirt.
"What are you doing?" Jess walked over to Rory.
"There! Found them!" She was holding a necklace and a ring in her hand. She turned and faced Jess. "You see this," Rory gave the ring to Jess and he looked at it closely, "is my absolute favorite ring. I only wear it for special occasions because it is really expensive. I got it at this antique store when my mother and Sookie were shopping and I saw it and loved it. The lady said it was like a hundred years old."
"It's beautiful.like you." Rory blushed.
It really was a lovely ring. Silver with a heart filled in with a garnet stone. Jess remembered seeing Rory wearing it once, at the diner after a wedding or something. He remembered thinking it was so simple, so beautiful, so her.
"I want you to have it." Rory was fiddling with a necklace that she never liked. The leather strap was too long on her, falling low in below her breasts. She was getting the charm off the leather strap.
"Rory I can't accept this." Jess was still looking at the tiny ring in his fingers. It was too nice. Besides it would never fit, he thought.
"I want you to." She took the ring and put it on the leather strap. "Here." Jess leaned forward and Rory tied it around his neck. The ring fell low on his chest, how Rory knew it would. She kissed him quickly.
"Thank you." Jess leaned in and kissed her again. "Rory I'll never take it off."
"You should go."
"I should. Come early tomorrow so we can have the whole day."
"Real early." She kissed him then pulled away. "What are we going to do?"
"I honestly don't care." Another kiss. "Anything you want." More kissing.
"This is nice.this moment."
"Indeed."
"Jess?"
"Hmmm?"
"Am I your girlfriend now?" Rory didn't want to bring it up. But they hadn't said anything explicit about their relationship. Rory was worried. It was stupid and she knew that, but she still was.
"Depends...am I your boyfriend?" Jess said it as a joke. Of course they were a couple now. They said I love you. Jess is now wearing her ring.
"Only if you want to be."
"I want to be."
"Then I will be your girlfriend."
"Good, cause I really hoping you would." Another kiss, but slower and longer. And Rory felt warm wrapped up in his arms and in his words.comforting her.filling her with love.
"I love you Jess." She knew it wasn't as eloquent as his letters but she meant it. Rory knew at that moment she would love him forever. She would never be able to explain it, even years later. But she right then, that he was it.
"I love you too." Jess kissed her again. He felt himself quivering inside, the emotions were too strong then, and he was too vulnerable. He really didn't want to leave but knew he had to.
"Goodnight Jess." Rory pulled away from him after she said it. Rory was ready for him to go. She knew the feeling wouldn't leave her.
"Goodnight love." Rory blushed and looked down and Jess smirked. He wanted that effect; he liked making her blush. He lifted her head to kiss her and she was delicious.
He walked past her and out the door. His hand on his chest feeling her ring underneath his shirt. Jess walked out into the night closing the door softly behind him. He knew he wouldn't sleep that night, he wanted her too much. He would write her another letter he decided. This time being clear in his emotions and his love for her.
Everything would be different now. Everything would be better.
Jess looked back at the house when he reached the edge of the driveway. It excited him knowing that she was in there. He looked up at the stars and the moon memorizing the night, how he felt how the air was. He looked at the window he knew to be Rory's and felt a longing to rush back to climb through it. But he didn't move; his feet were still on the concrete.
Rory got back in her bed and turned off the light. She reached her hand out wishing Jess was filling that space. She smiled thinking of him before and of him now. Jess was so tender and so passionate at the same time. She thought of them together in the bed, almost having sex. She smiled. Rory knew she wouldn't be a virgin for very long.
Suddenly Rory felt tired. A wave of exhaustion swept over her and she felt sleep coming. She rolled over into her comfortable sleeping position. Her last thoughts before slipping into her dreams were romantic images of Jess and her going on vacations, living together, getting married, having kids. Childish maybe. But she was in love.
Jess smiled looking at the dark house. He was also very much in love. And even more miraculous, she loved him back. This was what all the poets had been writing about, what all the songs were trying to capture in their angst ridden lyrics. The feeling of utter elation sweeping through Jess at that moment. He was going to remember that moment and that night for the rest of his life. Keep the memory like some hold onto old photographs.
That was the love of his life in that dark window. He decided then to never let her go, never lose their love, never stop the tenderness and the passion. He needed Rory too much.
Jess wasn't as optimistic as Rory; he was fully aware of their differences and the most likely outcome of their romance like all high school romances. But for the first time in his life. Jess brushed aside the dark thoughts and was willing to believe in the happy ever after.
Walking back that night Jess also imagined the rest of his life with Rory by his side. His images, his dreams, were of lazy afternoons spent in bed, concerts, bookstores, a weekend in New York City. Jess decided then he needed to show her his New York City. Where he grew up, where he hung out.he would let her in on everything and tell her all his secrets.
He knew it could work.it had to.
THE END
AN: I hope you guys liked it. It was my first fic so hopefully I will get better. I am writing 2 others right now but like I said, I don't post till I have them finished so it is fairer to you guys. Anyways, I hope you guys got that this story was about Death and how that makes Rory realize she needs and loves Jess. At the end, Rory isn't so innocent but is braver and Jess is willing to believe in love and all the other cheesy stuff cause he has Rory. That was supposed to be my main point. I hope you can find it in the story. So thank you to all those who reviewed.