Disclaimers: Characters such as Goku, Sanzo, Hakkai and Gojyo are not mine. They all belong to Kazuya Minekura. But I'd be super happy if they're mine.. Oh well... I can at least dream. But the character Koji is mine though ;;;;
Warning: My first attempt to write a fanfic. I'm not good in my English so there will be alot of mistakes in this fic and my english grammar has its limits . So I'm gonna apologize first before you throw ... emm .. stuff at me . Gomenn...
Oh and I just realised I didn't turn on the anonimous reviews. . Sorry bout that. I've turned it on already Thanks AzzieAz!
"I'll always love you" by zodiacalsign
Chapter 4
"Have a seat. You're the first person that came to me asking for help. No one came into this woods after the rumors of an evil witch living here spread all over the town."
Goku took a seat on one of the chairs and looked around Koji's house. It was clean and everything was placed neatly.Goku also noticed several paintings of someone on the wall. All the paintings pictured a boy with blond hair. He looked like he was around 16 or so with green emerald eyes.
Feeling curious, Goku asked, eyes still focused on the paintings, "Do you paint?"
" Oh, I see you noticed the paintings on the wall. Well, yes, I painted these paintings. I used to paint. But I stopped." Koji answered as he too stared at his paintings. "Oh, I almost forgot. Would you like some tea?"
"Yes thank you. Naa Koji-kun, why did you stop painting?"
"Why? Because... Maybe it was because I didn't feel like it anymore... I don't even know myself... Wait here, I'll go get your tea." He said and went to prepared the tea.
Koji's POV
Aa.. And when I thought I've forgotten about what happened 3 years ago.. It looks like I haven't forgotten about it. Or maybe I just didn't want to forget.
flashback -
"I HATE YOU! I don't ever want to see you ever again!" Ryu yelled, tears falling down his cheeks. "YOU LIAR!"
"No, Ryu! Please listen to me! I didn't mean to... I-"
"NO! I won't listen to anymore of your lies!"
end flashback -
I shut my eyes tight trying to control the tears that were ready to fall anytime. I never meant to lie to him. I just wanted to be with him...I just wanted him to always be by my side...
"Koji? Are you okay over there? Would you like any help?" I heard Goku calling.
I wiped away the tears with my hand as fast as I could and took the tray with the cups of tea and walked out to where Goku sat. "Sorry it took so long. Here." I said, placing the cup on the table.
" Arigatou." The chocolate brown haired boy said as he took the cup and drank the tea.
"Goku, you said you were searching for me for help. What is it that you wanted?" I asked as I sipped some tea from my cup.
"Well, it's like this. I ... have ... a friend. He was attacked by a youkai and became blind. I heard that there was a witch here in the woods that could cure any disease with magic and spells, so I came into the woods looking for her but then now I learnt that the witch doesn't exist..."
"Aa, yes, well the witch thing was all rumors. You know how rumors spread." I sighed and continued, "But the fact that I CAN cure any disease is true. You said your friend was blind. Did you look for me to cure your friend?"
"Yes! Please, you have to help me! I'll do anything just so you can cure his blindness." The other boy stood up and begged.
"Well, there is a spell that can cure your friend but..."
"But?"
"But in two conditions."
"I'll do anything!"
"Anything?"
"Yes! Anything!"
"Your friend... is he a very important person to you?"
"... Yes. He's the reason I'm living right now. He freed me from a place I thought I would never get out from. And I will do anything for him."
"So you love him?"
"Yes"
"I see. Well then, the conditions are..."
"..."
"First. In order for your friend's eyesight to be healed, his blindness will be yours to take. That would mean you would lose your eyesight. Your blindness cannot be healed with any magic or spell... but it is also not permanent. And the other condition is..."
"Is?"
"You must leave him and never be with him again."
Goku's POV
"You must leave him and never be with him again."
My heart stopped when I heard the last condition. To never see Sanzo again?
Can I.. Can I do that? "Can you... give me some time to think about this?"
"Of course. It's a hard decision isn't it? But for the spell to work, the two conditions must be fulfilled. You can go back and think it over." Koji said.
"Thank you. It's getting late. I better be going back now or they'll start to worry about me." I got up and bowed, "Thanks for the tea and your help."
"It was nothing. I think I'd better accompany you until you reach out the woods. It's dangerous here once the sun sets and you might get lost. I know this woods better than anyone else." He said taking his staff and walking to the door.
"Am I not bothering you too much?" I asked, not wanting to trouble Koji any further.
"Of course not. Come on." Koji assured, taking an oil lamp with him as he walked stepped out the house.
"Un." I walked out the house, shutting the door behind me and followed Koji who was leading the way.
After a few minutes of walk, we finally got out of the woods without getting hurt. I thanked Koji again and soon he left, entering the dark woods once more while I walked back to the inn, my mind still thinking about the last condition stated by Koji. Obviously, If I talked to Sanzo about this, he'd definitely tell me... no... he'll definitely demand me not to do it. And before I knew it, I was already outside the inn.
Sanzo's POV
"I'm back!" The voice that belonged to the baka saru reached my ears.
'He's back. That means I'll have to do it now. Goku, don't hate me for this please.' I waited for my lover to enter my room. 'Lover?I don't think I've been like a real lover to to think of it, I've never even told him that I loved him.I wanted to, but it just wouldn't come out. That is why... I have to do this.Because I love him, but I cannot have him suffer with me.' If my prediction is correct, he'll enter my room in a count to 5.
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"Sanzo!"
Normal POV
The door opened and Goku entered like Sanzo expected, closing the door behind him. "Sanzo, are you feeling better? Hakkai told me to bring this medicine to you. Here, drink some of this. It's good for you. At least that's what Hakkai said. Naa, Sanzo?"
"Urusai" The blond monk said in a cold tone.
"Eh? Nani? Sanzo? Daijoubu? Is there somet-"
"SHUT UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled trying to sound as harsh as I could.
"Sanzo! Please, if there's something wrong, let me help! Please.." Goku said in a caring tone, his left hand reached out to touch my shoulder while the other still held the glass of medicine.
Sanzo clenched his left hand tightly and he used his right hand to push Goku away with force, "DON'T TOUCH ME! I SAID GO AWAY! I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!" Sanzo shut his eyes tightly, his chest hurting more than he expected it to.
Being pushed with such force, Goku fell backwards, the glass of medicine he was holding fell and broke into piece. The younger boy stared at Sanzo, and got up not giving up just yet. "Sanzo... please... I know that you are having a hard time. I understand... Bu-"
"Understand? Just what do you understand? You've never been blind before! You can NEVER understand! We're through! Go find another guy to sleep with!" Sanzo shouted at Goku, each word stinging the heart of both Goku and Sanzo himself.
"Sanzo... You're kidding right? We're through? How can you say that?" Goku went over to Sanzo and held on his sleeves. He knew that Sanzo was reacting this way because of his blindness. "Sanzo... I love you...Pleas-" Before Goku could continue, Sanzo did the one thing that would drive Goku away from him... forever. "Didn't you hear me the first time? I said it's all over! Leave me alone!",Sanzo raised his right hand...
A thunder was heard, and rain began to pour. Goku stared at Sanzo, his mind trying to process what had just happen and his hand moving to touch the red mark on his left cheek. Sanzo had just slapped him across the face. Tears were gathering around the corners of Goku's eyes, and it wasn't long before they trailed down his cheeks. He was in pain, not because of the pain on his cheek, but it was his heart that hurt. It felt like someone had grabbed his heart and twisted it. He took a few steps back, his face now facing the cold wooden floor and managed a soft "I'm sorry" before he turned and ran out of the room as fast as his feet could bring him. The tears didn't stop falling. He ran past Gojyo, opened the door and ran out into the rain. He ignored his name being called by Gojyo and just continued running.
After what seemed like eternity, Goku stopped running and panted, his body soaked from the heavy rain. His tears were now mixed with rain. Then he looked around and thought of where to go. He remembered Koji and began heading to the woods again, the pain in his chest still hurting.
Sanzo lifted his right hand up, the hand he had used to hurt his baka saru. He felt like chopping it out. He knew how much he had hurt the innocent boy. It had also pained Sanzo to do that to the person that shown him what happiness was. He felt like killing himself right then, saying all those cruel words at Goku.He sat down and listened to the rain pouring.Another reason for him to hate the rain now.
"Sanzo? What happened? Gojyo said he saw Goku left the inn, crying." Hakkai asked, Gojyo standing beside him.
"... Nothing happened." Sanzo answered keeping his cool, even though he felt like crying after what he did.
"Don't give me that shit! The two of you were fighting weren't you? We could hear you!" The redhead shouted.
"So what if we were fighting? It's none of your business!"
"How can you say that? Don't you even care?"
"Not really"
Hakkai and Gojyo stared at Sanzo. Gojyo was ready to beat some sense into the monk when Hakkai stopped him. "Sanzo, do you know how much Goku cares for you? Do you know how depressed he was when you didn't wake up for 3 days? How he wouldn't leave your side even for a minute. He didn't sleep and didn't eat. He didn't care if he would die of starvation, he just wanted to stay by your side until you woke up." Hakkai said, his voice sounding calm.
"He poured out his love for you and this is what he got in return! How heartless can you be?" Gojyo shouted at the monk, "Sometimes I even wonder why that idiot monkey loves you so much!"
"SHUT UP!" Sanzo yelled. "I know I don't deserve him!He would only suffer with me! It was the only thing I could do for him!That was why... " He sat on the bed and shut his eyes tight.
Hakkai and Gojyo looked at Sanzo, understanding why he did it. Because he loved Goku too much that he didn't want Goku to suffer with him.
The blond monk felt his heart breaking. He never knew it would hurt this much. Was Goku feeling this as well? Or maybe worse? Sanzo regretted his actions to drive Goku away. He just hoped that Goku would return the next morning so he could apologize and explain to him.
Meanwhile, Goku had reached the door to Koji's house. He was feeling a little dizzy now but ignored it and knocked on the door. When no one answered, he knocked on the door again and again until Koji finally opened the door and gasped when he saw Goku outside soaking wet.
"I... accept the conditions." Goku said before he collapsed outside of Koji's house under the rain.
Chapter 4 end.
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I'd like to thank everyone that had reviewed this fic. Hontou ni arigatou gozaimasu.
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bleit Hontou ni arigatou! sniffles and huggles poor Sanzo Gomen ne Sanzo! I don't want to hurt you but I can't help it . ;;;;;
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A/N:
Please don't kill me! hides under blankets o.O;;;
My, this chapter is still short but by far the longest chapter I've written. ;;; Anyways, I hoped this chapter was okay! Reviews will be of much help nyo! Arigatouuu!