The Loneliness in My Heart
A/N: Sagitta-RyuuHoshi ,you got it wrong. The Sakura that appeared in front of Syaoran is a FAKE one and isn't an angel, while the Sakura that didn't appear in front of Syaoran is the REAL one. I hope that explains it.
~*~
When Syaoran got to Mei Ling's apartment, Tomoyo was still there and Kero was playing some video games that Tomoyo had brought over. When Mei Ling asked Syaoran what he wanted for dinner, Mei Ling dropped to the floor. Tomoyo came rushing to Mei Ling side, trying to figure out why Mei Ling had dropped to the floor. When Tomoyo looked up at Syaoran, wanting a explanation, she nearly fainted. Both Mei Ling and Tomoyo couldn't believe that Sakura was standing next to Syaoran, breathing, smiling, and moving.
"S-S-Syaoran p-p-please t-tell me t-that I'm s-s-seeing t-t-things," Mei Ling said in shock. Syaoran smiled.
"No, you're not seeing things," Syaoran said.
"H-H-How? T-T-This has to b-be a d-d-dream," Tomoyo said.
"It isn't a dream, Tomoyo," Sakura said.
"What's going on? How come Mei Ling and Tomoyo are on the floor, pale?" Kero asked, flying over to where Syaoran was, not seeing Sakura.
"Kero, it's good to see you!" Sakura exclaimed.
"Huh? Wait, I know that voice!" Kero then was pulled into a hugged by Sakura.
"Explain!" Kero gasped out.
"Yes, explain," Tomoyo said, getting up slowly.
Tomoyo helped Mei Ling get up, since she was still in shock. The four walked to the living room, sitting down on the sofas, waiting for Syaoran to explain. When Syaoran finished telling Mei Ling, Tomoyo, and Kero how come Sakura was here, Tomoyo broke out into tears. Kero was happy that his former mistress was back, secretly hoping that Sakura would be his mistress once again. Mei Ling hugged Sakura, not sure if it was the right thing to do at the moment. Syaoran gave out a smile to Sakura, who smiled back.
While all of this was happening, Syaoran and Kero failed to sense a pink aura around them. The real Sakura made herself invisible, but couldn't keep in her aura. No one heard her crying, it was as if they were all deaf. Sakura made sure that her tears wouldn't fall on anyone, especially the fake Sakura. While Sakura was trying to tell herself that in the end everything will be alright, a few tears landed on Kero. When Sakura noticed that Kero had felt her presence, hope filled her eyes, instead of loneliness.
"What's wrong, Kero?" Tomoyo asked, seeing that Kero's attitude had changed quickly.
"I sense a presence, a strong presence," Kero replied, narrowing his eyes, trying to find where the presence came from.
"A presence?" Syaoran asked. Syaoran looked around the room and picked up the presence as well.
"What's going on, Syaoran?" Mei Ling asked.
"Someone is here, hiding," Syaoran replied.
"If you two can sense it, then how come Sakura can't?" Tomoyo asked, seeing that her best friend was confused, just like her.
Kero and Syaoran looked at Sakura, surprised.
"You can't sense this presence?" Kero asked Sakura.
"No," The real Sakura took in a breath of hope.
"How come?" Mei Ling asked.
"Uh..Well, uh since my powers are gone, uh I can't sense anything," Sakura replied. The real Sakura hoped that everyone would realize that something was wrong with the one that they thought was the real Sakura.
"But, I thought that even though you're powers are gone and you can't sense anything, you still can sense some strong presence or aura, and this presence is pretty strong," Kero said, making Mei Ling, Syaoran, and Tomoyo look at the fake Sakura.
"Not really. Uh...Umm...OH! My body isn't adjusted to this yet, the same with my mind," The fake Sakura made up a fast excuse.
"Oh." Was all Syaoran and Kero could say. The two tried to find where the presence was and who was it.
The real Sakura couldn't believe that Kero and Syaoran had believed the reflection of herself. She had hoped that Kero would be smarter than that to believe such a thing, and now her hope is crumbling by the minute. Sakura made up her mind and decided to leave the apartment and hoped that when she visits Yukito, he'll sense her. As Sakura was about to leave, Syaoran pulled out his sword and chanted something that made her froze to where she was. Syaoran then called out the Water Card to show him where presence was coming from. When the Water Card was about to attack Sakura, the Water Card suddenly stopped, recognizing its former mistress. Sakura smiled at the Water Card and mouthed some words to the Water Card, hoping that the Water Card would understand. With a last look at her friends, lover, and the Water Card, Sakura broke free of the spell that Syaoran had placed on her and disappeared.
Syaoran, Kero, and the others was surprised that the Water Card had just froze suddenly. The fake Sakura just sat there, knowing what had just happened. She knew what she'll have to do and that she doesn't have very much time left.
"What just happened?!" Kero exclaimed after a long term silence.
"I'm not sure," Syaoran was stunned that the Water Card had just froze.
"Don't call back the card. We can ask it what it saw," Kero advise.
"And how are we suppose to do that, when the card can't talk?!" Mei Ling asked loudly, thinking that the video games have finally gone through Kero's head.
"Easy, Li here can call out the Voice Card and the Voice Card can borrow someone's voice for a while as a replacement for the Water Card's talking," Kero replied.
"Kero, how come you never told me that I could do that?" The fake Sakura asked, hoping that she sounded like the real one.
"Well, you never asked," Kero replied.
"Oh," Was all Sakura could say.
"So who voice are we 'borrowing'?" Mei Ling asked.
"I'm not sure," Syaoran answered.
"Then I suggest that we use the pin headed animal here," Mei Ling pointed to Kero.
"Uh…Uh. Not possible. I HAVE TO help him through this since it's his first time doing this," Kero pointed out.
After Kero, Mei Ling, and Syaoran agreed on Tomoyo for the Voice Card to borrow her voice, Sakura became quite tense. She couldn't help but to be afraid of what would happen if the Water Card reveal what it saw. Kero and Syaoran finally finished questioning the Water Card, Syaoran called back the Water Card and Voice Card. The Water Card lied to them, following its former mistress asking, telling them that it was just a ghost that was lost and nothing more. Syaoran looked over to Sakura, surprised to see her clam. Syaoran had to wonder if Sakura have gotten over her fears of ghost, so he decided to ask her.
"Sakura, did you happen to get over your fear of ghosts?" Syaoran asked, making Kero, Mei Ling, and Tomoyo looked at her.
"Huh? Uh...Why?" Sakura have no clue to why Syaoran was asking her such a thing.
"Well, you're normally afraid of ghosts and well, you look like nothing had happened," Tomoyo replied.
The fake Sakura here wanted to kick herself. "Uh...Yes, I've gotten over it," Sakura replied quickly. Kero looked at his former mistress in suspicion.
"How?" Syaoran wanted to know how she gotten over it.
"Well, uh...I just see them as uh, angels that are lost now. Yeah, that's it," Sakura whispered the last sentence to herself.
"Okay, enough with all this talk. I'm hungry and starving for some food," Mei Ling said as she changed the subject.
~*~
The real Sakura was floating her way to Yukito's place when she came across her own home. Sakura decided to see how they were doing. When Sakura floated though the house's wall, she saw that much haven't changed. Pictures of herself and her mother were on tables and on the wall. Sakura gently floated to the ground, deciding to find her father and brother. Sakura wasn't sure if they were home, but a feeling in her broken heart told her that they were. As Sakura made her way to the kitchen, Sakura came across something that made her stop. In one of the family picture, she could see a faint outline of someone that she knew and still love, her mother. Sakura never seem to notice that her mother was in the photo until now. When Sakura stepped into the kitchen, she found Touya cooking some food and that Yukito was over. Yukito seem to sense Sakura's presence and looked around the kitchen, trying to find Sakura. Touya seem to be confused by Yukito's suddenly change of behavior.
"Yukito, what's wrong?" Touya asked, turning off the stove.
"Someone is here," Yukito answered. Yukito found where Sakura and walked towards her. Sakura smiled, hoping that Yukito or Yue would know who she is, but didn't tell Touya or Syaoran.
"I'll leave the room," Touya walked out of the kitchen.
When Touya was out of the room, Yukito changed into Yue. Yue knew that he knew this aura very well, but couldn't put his finger on it. The more Yue tried to figure out whose aura that was here, the more Sakura's hope fled.
"Who are you?" Yue finally asked, as he couldn't remember whose aura this was.
Sakura took a few moments to think whether or not should she show herself to Yue. Sakura slowly showed herself to Yue, hoping that she's doing the right thing. Yue gasped, surprised that his late former mistress was alive and isn't dead.
"How?" Was all Yue could asked.
Sakura began by asking Yue to not tell anyone about this and then told her story. Sakura was turned into an angel, watching all of her family and friends, just like her mother. When Sakura was turned into an angel, she was taught many things from the gods and goddesses. During the last few years, Sakura's power expanded, but she was quite lonely. There was barely anyone to talk to in the heavens and she was forbidden to go down to Earth with permission from a god or goddess. To past time during those years, Sakura kept on thinking back to the memories she had when she was on Earth. Some of them had kept her going, while some of them brought her down.
"I mostly watched over Syaoran, keeping him from being sick," Sakura said to Yue.
Whenever Sakura watched over Syaoran, she didn't know if he was thinking about her or something else. Since Sakura had only the gods and goddesses to talk to, she kept mostly everything to herself. From crying herself to sleep to what she wanted to do or tell anyone. When ever a god or goddess asked Sakura if something was wrong, she would always break down and spill it all out. Soon Sakura was strong enough to keep everything inside of her and not show it.
"When the gods and goddesses told me that I had a second chance of living back here on Earth, I was so happy, but now, I'm not quite sure anymore," Yue looked at Sakura with a questioning face.
Sakura told Yue that she had make a test to show the gods and goddesses that Syaoran still love her with all his heart. From the note and box in Syaoran's room to a look alike Sakura that Syaoran is thinking that's her. Sakura then asked Yue once more not to tell anyone about her unless he really had to. Before answering, Yue asked Sakura a question.
"Will the cards still be in his hands?"
"It really depends on the cards. The cards can choose if they want me or Syaoran to be their master," Sakura replied.
"Alright then, I won't tell anyone," Yue promised Sakura.
Sakura thanked Yue and slowly disappeared. Yue turned back into Yukito and smiled at the invisible form of Sakura. A few moments later, Touya came back into the kitchen, giving Yukito a questioning look and all Yukito did was smiled. Sakura floated off to see if her father was in his study room. When Sakura went in there, Sakura saw that no one was in there. Sakura then knew that her father was at the university. Sakura walked back into the kitchen, taking a last look at her older brother and Yukito before leaving.
After Sakura had left, she floated to a place to rest for a while. As Sakura was about to rest, she saw Kero, Mei Ling, the fake Sakura, Syaoran, and Tomoyo coming into the park for a late evening picnic. Kero seemed like he couldn't wait to pig out on the desserts that Tomoyo had made. When Tomoyo gave Kero some pudding, he flew around near the real Sakura, without knowing it, to eat his pudding alone. The real Sakura didn't know what to do, she knew that if she gets up to leave, Kero and the others would be able to sense her, and if she stayed, she'll end up crying, because Syaoran was with the fake Sakura and not her. As Sakura was thinking, she didn't notice that Kero was starring at her.
A/N: Sagitta-RyuuHoshi ,you got it wrong. The Sakura that appeared in front of Syaoran is a FAKE one and isn't an angel, while the Sakura that didn't appear in front of Syaoran is the REAL one. I hope that explains it.
~*~
When Syaoran got to Mei Ling's apartment, Tomoyo was still there and Kero was playing some video games that Tomoyo had brought over. When Mei Ling asked Syaoran what he wanted for dinner, Mei Ling dropped to the floor. Tomoyo came rushing to Mei Ling side, trying to figure out why Mei Ling had dropped to the floor. When Tomoyo looked up at Syaoran, wanting a explanation, she nearly fainted. Both Mei Ling and Tomoyo couldn't believe that Sakura was standing next to Syaoran, breathing, smiling, and moving.
"S-S-Syaoran p-p-please t-tell me t-that I'm s-s-seeing t-t-things," Mei Ling said in shock. Syaoran smiled.
"No, you're not seeing things," Syaoran said.
"H-H-How? T-T-This has to b-be a d-d-dream," Tomoyo said.
"It isn't a dream, Tomoyo," Sakura said.
"What's going on? How come Mei Ling and Tomoyo are on the floor, pale?" Kero asked, flying over to where Syaoran was, not seeing Sakura.
"Kero, it's good to see you!" Sakura exclaimed.
"Huh? Wait, I know that voice!" Kero then was pulled into a hugged by Sakura.
"Explain!" Kero gasped out.
"Yes, explain," Tomoyo said, getting up slowly.
Tomoyo helped Mei Ling get up, since she was still in shock. The four walked to the living room, sitting down on the sofas, waiting for Syaoran to explain. When Syaoran finished telling Mei Ling, Tomoyo, and Kero how come Sakura was here, Tomoyo broke out into tears. Kero was happy that his former mistress was back, secretly hoping that Sakura would be his mistress once again. Mei Ling hugged Sakura, not sure if it was the right thing to do at the moment. Syaoran gave out a smile to Sakura, who smiled back.
While all of this was happening, Syaoran and Kero failed to sense a pink aura around them. The real Sakura made herself invisible, but couldn't keep in her aura. No one heard her crying, it was as if they were all deaf. Sakura made sure that her tears wouldn't fall on anyone, especially the fake Sakura. While Sakura was trying to tell herself that in the end everything will be alright, a few tears landed on Kero. When Sakura noticed that Kero had felt her presence, hope filled her eyes, instead of loneliness.
"What's wrong, Kero?" Tomoyo asked, seeing that Kero's attitude had changed quickly.
"I sense a presence, a strong presence," Kero replied, narrowing his eyes, trying to find where the presence came from.
"A presence?" Syaoran asked. Syaoran looked around the room and picked up the presence as well.
"What's going on, Syaoran?" Mei Ling asked.
"Someone is here, hiding," Syaoran replied.
"If you two can sense it, then how come Sakura can't?" Tomoyo asked, seeing that her best friend was confused, just like her.
Kero and Syaoran looked at Sakura, surprised.
"You can't sense this presence?" Kero asked Sakura.
"No," The real Sakura took in a breath of hope.
"How come?" Mei Ling asked.
"Uh..Well, uh since my powers are gone, uh I can't sense anything," Sakura replied. The real Sakura hoped that everyone would realize that something was wrong with the one that they thought was the real Sakura.
"But, I thought that even though you're powers are gone and you can't sense anything, you still can sense some strong presence or aura, and this presence is pretty strong," Kero said, making Mei Ling, Syaoran, and Tomoyo look at the fake Sakura.
"Not really. Uh...Umm...OH! My body isn't adjusted to this yet, the same with my mind," The fake Sakura made up a fast excuse.
"Oh." Was all Syaoran and Kero could say. The two tried to find where the presence was and who was it.
The real Sakura couldn't believe that Kero and Syaoran had believed the reflection of herself. She had hoped that Kero would be smarter than that to believe such a thing, and now her hope is crumbling by the minute. Sakura made up her mind and decided to leave the apartment and hoped that when she visits Yukito, he'll sense her. As Sakura was about to leave, Syaoran pulled out his sword and chanted something that made her froze to where she was. Syaoran then called out the Water Card to show him where presence was coming from. When the Water Card was about to attack Sakura, the Water Card suddenly stopped, recognizing its former mistress. Sakura smiled at the Water Card and mouthed some words to the Water Card, hoping that the Water Card would understand. With a last look at her friends, lover, and the Water Card, Sakura broke free of the spell that Syaoran had placed on her and disappeared.
Syaoran, Kero, and the others was surprised that the Water Card had just froze suddenly. The fake Sakura just sat there, knowing what had just happened. She knew what she'll have to do and that she doesn't have very much time left.
"What just happened?!" Kero exclaimed after a long term silence.
"I'm not sure," Syaoran was stunned that the Water Card had just froze.
"Don't call back the card. We can ask it what it saw," Kero advise.
"And how are we suppose to do that, when the card can't talk?!" Mei Ling asked loudly, thinking that the video games have finally gone through Kero's head.
"Easy, Li here can call out the Voice Card and the Voice Card can borrow someone's voice for a while as a replacement for the Water Card's talking," Kero replied.
"Kero, how come you never told me that I could do that?" The fake Sakura asked, hoping that she sounded like the real one.
"Well, you never asked," Kero replied.
"Oh," Was all Sakura could say.
"So who voice are we 'borrowing'?" Mei Ling asked.
"I'm not sure," Syaoran answered.
"Then I suggest that we use the pin headed animal here," Mei Ling pointed to Kero.
"Uh…Uh. Not possible. I HAVE TO help him through this since it's his first time doing this," Kero pointed out.
After Kero, Mei Ling, and Syaoran agreed on Tomoyo for the Voice Card to borrow her voice, Sakura became quite tense. She couldn't help but to be afraid of what would happen if the Water Card reveal what it saw. Kero and Syaoran finally finished questioning the Water Card, Syaoran called back the Water Card and Voice Card. The Water Card lied to them, following its former mistress asking, telling them that it was just a ghost that was lost and nothing more. Syaoran looked over to Sakura, surprised to see her clam. Syaoran had to wonder if Sakura have gotten over her fears of ghost, so he decided to ask her.
"Sakura, did you happen to get over your fear of ghosts?" Syaoran asked, making Kero, Mei Ling, and Tomoyo looked at her.
"Huh? Uh...Why?" Sakura have no clue to why Syaoran was asking her such a thing.
"Well, you're normally afraid of ghosts and well, you look like nothing had happened," Tomoyo replied.
The fake Sakura here wanted to kick herself. "Uh...Yes, I've gotten over it," Sakura replied quickly. Kero looked at his former mistress in suspicion.
"How?" Syaoran wanted to know how she gotten over it.
"Well, uh...I just see them as uh, angels that are lost now. Yeah, that's it," Sakura whispered the last sentence to herself.
"Okay, enough with all this talk. I'm hungry and starving for some food," Mei Ling said as she changed the subject.
~*~
The real Sakura was floating her way to Yukito's place when she came across her own home. Sakura decided to see how they were doing. When Sakura floated though the house's wall, she saw that much haven't changed. Pictures of herself and her mother were on tables and on the wall. Sakura gently floated to the ground, deciding to find her father and brother. Sakura wasn't sure if they were home, but a feeling in her broken heart told her that they were. As Sakura made her way to the kitchen, Sakura came across something that made her stop. In one of the family picture, she could see a faint outline of someone that she knew and still love, her mother. Sakura never seem to notice that her mother was in the photo until now. When Sakura stepped into the kitchen, she found Touya cooking some food and that Yukito was over. Yukito seem to sense Sakura's presence and looked around the kitchen, trying to find Sakura. Touya seem to be confused by Yukito's suddenly change of behavior.
"Yukito, what's wrong?" Touya asked, turning off the stove.
"Someone is here," Yukito answered. Yukito found where Sakura and walked towards her. Sakura smiled, hoping that Yukito or Yue would know who she is, but didn't tell Touya or Syaoran.
"I'll leave the room," Touya walked out of the kitchen.
When Touya was out of the room, Yukito changed into Yue. Yue knew that he knew this aura very well, but couldn't put his finger on it. The more Yue tried to figure out whose aura that was here, the more Sakura's hope fled.
"Who are you?" Yue finally asked, as he couldn't remember whose aura this was.
Sakura took a few moments to think whether or not should she show herself to Yue. Sakura slowly showed herself to Yue, hoping that she's doing the right thing. Yue gasped, surprised that his late former mistress was alive and isn't dead.
"How?" Was all Yue could asked.
Sakura began by asking Yue to not tell anyone about this and then told her story. Sakura was turned into an angel, watching all of her family and friends, just like her mother. When Sakura was turned into an angel, she was taught many things from the gods and goddesses. During the last few years, Sakura's power expanded, but she was quite lonely. There was barely anyone to talk to in the heavens and she was forbidden to go down to Earth with permission from a god or goddess. To past time during those years, Sakura kept on thinking back to the memories she had when she was on Earth. Some of them had kept her going, while some of them brought her down.
"I mostly watched over Syaoran, keeping him from being sick," Sakura said to Yue.
Whenever Sakura watched over Syaoran, she didn't know if he was thinking about her or something else. Since Sakura had only the gods and goddesses to talk to, she kept mostly everything to herself. From crying herself to sleep to what she wanted to do or tell anyone. When ever a god or goddess asked Sakura if something was wrong, she would always break down and spill it all out. Soon Sakura was strong enough to keep everything inside of her and not show it.
"When the gods and goddesses told me that I had a second chance of living back here on Earth, I was so happy, but now, I'm not quite sure anymore," Yue looked at Sakura with a questioning face.
Sakura told Yue that she had make a test to show the gods and goddesses that Syaoran still love her with all his heart. From the note and box in Syaoran's room to a look alike Sakura that Syaoran is thinking that's her. Sakura then asked Yue once more not to tell anyone about her unless he really had to. Before answering, Yue asked Sakura a question.
"Will the cards still be in his hands?"
"It really depends on the cards. The cards can choose if they want me or Syaoran to be their master," Sakura replied.
"Alright then, I won't tell anyone," Yue promised Sakura.
Sakura thanked Yue and slowly disappeared. Yue turned back into Yukito and smiled at the invisible form of Sakura. A few moments later, Touya came back into the kitchen, giving Yukito a questioning look and all Yukito did was smiled. Sakura floated off to see if her father was in his study room. When Sakura went in there, Sakura saw that no one was in there. Sakura then knew that her father was at the university. Sakura walked back into the kitchen, taking a last look at her older brother and Yukito before leaving.
After Sakura had left, she floated to a place to rest for a while. As Sakura was about to rest, she saw Kero, Mei Ling, the fake Sakura, Syaoran, and Tomoyo coming into the park for a late evening picnic. Kero seemed like he couldn't wait to pig out on the desserts that Tomoyo had made. When Tomoyo gave Kero some pudding, he flew around near the real Sakura, without knowing it, to eat his pudding alone. The real Sakura didn't know what to do, she knew that if she gets up to leave, Kero and the others would be able to sense her, and if she stayed, she'll end up crying, because Syaoran was with the fake Sakura and not her. As Sakura was thinking, she didn't notice that Kero was starring at her.