-_-;; Gomen minna-san! Was busy with the upcoming exams and writers block! It seems my muses only grant me short chapters with this fic.  I'll update as soon as possible chapter 4

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Blue Eyed Thunder, Golden Eyed Storm


Kaigan
-Opening ones eyes to the truth-


Never. Never again. He would never give his heart to someone again. People would take his heart and rip it apart, they would take his soul and shatter it in to million pieces and step on the pieces grinding it to dust.  And that's what he did to his soul, his ex-lover had ripped his heart and grinded his soul to dust.  He left him utterly bare and defenceless, he was with out protection.

He was a fucking fool to let himself beloved and let him self to love. Utter fool he was.

They all where right about hit. He was a baka. He was useless. Utterly useless. A waste of space, nothing special. He was nothing.

A nothing's get used, abused and thrown away in dark corners to rot and be forgotten. He would greedily accept the darkness and stay there until he was consumed by the darkness.

But could he fall and pick himself up? Did he dare to say fuck to the world and let his other self free?

Yes, the shadow whispered, who needs you? I am better then you, I am everything you are not. I'll always be there. I want what to taste freedom. You have nothing to live for, ne?

He froze. The other him was right, he had nothing to live for. Nothing to care for. He could die and let his other take over and be live a life he rejected. The other could bring hell and he would be saved.

What if he wanted to die? He asked his other.

Do you?  It seemed to ask. Do you really want death? Think Tyson, you love the other one still don't you? You always have loved him.

Shaking his head Tyson stood up from his bed. He hadn't seen Ray in what? 5 years? His ex-lover Kai made sure he had cut off all his friends.

Idiot! Tyson scorned himself. You blind fool, you let him use you and manipulate you. You did his every wish and you completely made him you're world.

"Find him, Talk to him. See if you still love as much as you say you do" He spoke to himself trying to find courage and hope. But hope was no where in sight and Courage, the lion it was associated with was nothing more then a tiny kitten that was huddled in a dark cold corner.

It can grow and become a Lion, if you want it to be, the shadow whispered again. Tyson suddenly dreaded that he would need courage a lot. Fear started to seep back but he firmly locked it away.


So Tyson packed his clothes and stuff, called a taxi and left for the airport. He was gonna find his Golden eyed storm.

He was gonna find his friend and his crush

He was gonna find Ray Kon

And the shadow whispered words of courage in his mind.