Title: Between A Rock and A Hard Place Part 5
Author: Rhasa
Rating: R
Spoilers: General Season 2 before 'Freak Nation' Before Max and Alec are
'seemingly' together.
Category: Drama/Angst/ Relationship(s) Note plural.
Summary: Max goes into heat around a virus infected Logan who calls Alec
for help.
Disclaimer: Not mine. No infringement intended. No money being made, yadda
yadda, yadda.
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Between A Rock and A Hard Place Part 5
by Rhasa
"Maybe I've been looking at this all wrong," Logan said slowly, thinking hard. "She has urges. Uncontrollable urges. Totally-not-her-fault kind of urges. And she tears herself up when they get the better of her. If it wasn't for the virus we wouldn't have a problem. but."
"What the fuck are you getting at?"
"Let's face facts. You care about her. I care about her. She loves me, okay maybe she can't in an ideal conventional sort of way, but she loves me nonetheless and you obviously feel something for her since you keep hanging around-"
"I do not keep-" Alec, began, only to be interrupted.
"Max and I can't be together. in. in. the way we want to be together," Logan continued, ignoring Alec. " But these urges means she runs the risk of being with just anybody whether she likes it or not at least three times a year. But, maybe, if you two were to." Logan trailed off, hoping Alec's mind would supply the rest.
"Are you really hearing the words that are coming out of your mouth?" Alec barked at him. "Huh? Listen to yourself. That's not you. That's the scotch talking."
"Maybe. Maybe the scotch is giving me the courage to face the truth that I've been avoiding for all this time."
"And the truth is?"
"Sacrifices need to be made," Logan deadpanned, looking straight at Alec.
Alec's head was swimming, from the combination of Max's scent, the scotch and the absurd suggestion Logan had just laid on him. He wanted to turn and leave, but something was holding him back. He thought about what it was Logan was saying to him, he tried to get his head around it, but he wasn't exactly the clearest of thinkers when he was around a X5 female in heat. "You'd risk your girl sleeping with me?" He asked Logan after a moment.
"If it meant that I wouldn't have to lose her for good, then yeah, maybe."
"Well, now I know it's true. You are fucking insane."
"I've lived without her once, Alec. That time when a part of me thought she was dead, when she was back at Manticore, that time almost killed me. I've lived without her once; I'm not willing to do it again. I know how Max thinks. It's like you said, she'll never be able to look herself in the eye, never be able to look at me, without being wracked with grief, for all her. indiscretions. Oh I don't consider them to be as such, at least not now. I know she can't help it; it's nothing personal against me. But if I'm honest with myself, I'll admit that I am the jealous type. But if we had a prior *arrangement* in place, if you would provide her with . a service, since we can't touch, then maybe it would be different; maybe we'd all be able to live with this Heat of hers."
"Look Logan, don't bring me into this little drama you and Max have playing."
"We wouldn't have this little drama if it wasn't for you. Did you forget that we could have had the cure by now if Max hadn't have saved you from your head exploding?"
"Did it occur to you that if it wasn't for me following orders to facilitate Max's escape then you wouldn't have her back at all?"
"I know it's not exactly fair of me to expect her to remain celibate while we figure out a cure to this virus deal," Logan continued. "She's young. She's at an age where she's supposed to be. well, she's at that age. But I feel deep down, that if all things were equal, if things were what they were meant to be, then there wouldn't be a need to even consider a proposal such as this. Max gets to go through her heat without feeling guilty, I get to know that Max is safe and not running around the streets and that she would come back to me and you. you would."
"What? What Logan? What is it that you think I would get?"
"You'd get to help a friend out."
"Help a friend out? Help a FRIEND OUT? Is that what you think I would be doing? Have you looked at your untouchable girlfriend, Logan? Have you seen her lately? What makes you think that if I did this totally insane thing you've just suggested that it would merely be because 'I would be helping a friend out'? She deserves better than this. She doesn't deserve some kind of arrangement where she gets. what did you call it? 'Serviced'? She doesn't deserve someone who takes an easy out. She deserves someone who is willing to fall at her feet just to worship her."
"Is that what you think it is that I'm suggesting? An easy out?"
"Yeah."
"I told you, I would do anything to keep from losing her again," Logan said, through gritted teeth, angry that Alec failed to understand just how he felt about Max.
"'You sure got a funny way of showing it. To prevent you from losing her you're willing to push her into the bed of another man."
"Something like that, yeah."
Alec shook his head. "Why me? Huh Logan? Why not pick someone you don't know already?"
"You're. you're around. You're around her at Jam Pony. You hang out with her at Crash. And you're strong enough to handle her when she's like this. You're. convenient."
Alec chuckled at the ridiculousness of Logan's words. Arguing with him in this way was getting him nowhere. The older man had obviously made up his mind, so Alec tried a different tact. "Aren't you afraid I might steal your girl, Logan?" he said with a challenging glare.
"I'll take my chances."
"Are you sure? You know I am considered to be quite a catch amongst transgenics."
"With Max and you it would just be sex, Alec. But with me and Max there's so much more to our relationship than just that. It was never just about the sex."
"You're making decisions here that are not yours to make."
"I'm merely discussing some options, that's all. Max has the final word-"
"How noble of you," Alec said sarcastically.
"Somehow, I think she'll welcome the chance to secure the fragile hold we have on our relationship, and that's what a deal like this can offer."
"Maybe it's Max that you don't know as well as you think you do."
End Part 5
Author's Note:
Thanks for the reviews and feedback everyone. As I said before I will continue to write as long as I know people are reading it.
I think it's funny how all the shippers out there are interpreting this piece according to their particular relationship stance. That is, Max and Logan fans can see that even though what Logan suggested was a bit absurd, his motives of not wanting to let Max's heat come between them and not wanting to lose her were legitimate ones. Max and Alec fans take Logan's suggestion as a signal as to what kind of sleeze he is. I'll let you guys make up your own mind. Maybe it will end up going one way or the other - you'll just have to keep on reading insert Rhasa's evil grin here. Just know that they BOTH really do love her, even though Alec's feelings about her are yet to be declared.
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Between A Rock and A Hard Place Part 5
by Rhasa
"Maybe I've been looking at this all wrong," Logan said slowly, thinking hard. "She has urges. Uncontrollable urges. Totally-not-her-fault kind of urges. And she tears herself up when they get the better of her. If it wasn't for the virus we wouldn't have a problem. but."
"What the fuck are you getting at?"
"Let's face facts. You care about her. I care about her. She loves me, okay maybe she can't in an ideal conventional sort of way, but she loves me nonetheless and you obviously feel something for her since you keep hanging around-"
"I do not keep-" Alec, began, only to be interrupted.
"Max and I can't be together. in. in. the way we want to be together," Logan continued, ignoring Alec. " But these urges means she runs the risk of being with just anybody whether she likes it or not at least three times a year. But, maybe, if you two were to." Logan trailed off, hoping Alec's mind would supply the rest.
"Are you really hearing the words that are coming out of your mouth?" Alec barked at him. "Huh? Listen to yourself. That's not you. That's the scotch talking."
"Maybe. Maybe the scotch is giving me the courage to face the truth that I've been avoiding for all this time."
"And the truth is?"
"Sacrifices need to be made," Logan deadpanned, looking straight at Alec.
Alec's head was swimming, from the combination of Max's scent, the scotch and the absurd suggestion Logan had just laid on him. He wanted to turn and leave, but something was holding him back. He thought about what it was Logan was saying to him, he tried to get his head around it, but he wasn't exactly the clearest of thinkers when he was around a X5 female in heat. "You'd risk your girl sleeping with me?" He asked Logan after a moment.
"If it meant that I wouldn't have to lose her for good, then yeah, maybe."
"Well, now I know it's true. You are fucking insane."
"I've lived without her once, Alec. That time when a part of me thought she was dead, when she was back at Manticore, that time almost killed me. I've lived without her once; I'm not willing to do it again. I know how Max thinks. It's like you said, she'll never be able to look herself in the eye, never be able to look at me, without being wracked with grief, for all her. indiscretions. Oh I don't consider them to be as such, at least not now. I know she can't help it; it's nothing personal against me. But if I'm honest with myself, I'll admit that I am the jealous type. But if we had a prior *arrangement* in place, if you would provide her with . a service, since we can't touch, then maybe it would be different; maybe we'd all be able to live with this Heat of hers."
"Look Logan, don't bring me into this little drama you and Max have playing."
"We wouldn't have this little drama if it wasn't for you. Did you forget that we could have had the cure by now if Max hadn't have saved you from your head exploding?"
"Did it occur to you that if it wasn't for me following orders to facilitate Max's escape then you wouldn't have her back at all?"
"I know it's not exactly fair of me to expect her to remain celibate while we figure out a cure to this virus deal," Logan continued. "She's young. She's at an age where she's supposed to be. well, she's at that age. But I feel deep down, that if all things were equal, if things were what they were meant to be, then there wouldn't be a need to even consider a proposal such as this. Max gets to go through her heat without feeling guilty, I get to know that Max is safe and not running around the streets and that she would come back to me and you. you would."
"What? What Logan? What is it that you think I would get?"
"You'd get to help a friend out."
"Help a friend out? Help a FRIEND OUT? Is that what you think I would be doing? Have you looked at your untouchable girlfriend, Logan? Have you seen her lately? What makes you think that if I did this totally insane thing you've just suggested that it would merely be because 'I would be helping a friend out'? She deserves better than this. She doesn't deserve some kind of arrangement where she gets. what did you call it? 'Serviced'? She doesn't deserve someone who takes an easy out. She deserves someone who is willing to fall at her feet just to worship her."
"Is that what you think it is that I'm suggesting? An easy out?"
"Yeah."
"I told you, I would do anything to keep from losing her again," Logan said, through gritted teeth, angry that Alec failed to understand just how he felt about Max.
"'You sure got a funny way of showing it. To prevent you from losing her you're willing to push her into the bed of another man."
"Something like that, yeah."
Alec shook his head. "Why me? Huh Logan? Why not pick someone you don't know already?"
"You're. you're around. You're around her at Jam Pony. You hang out with her at Crash. And you're strong enough to handle her when she's like this. You're. convenient."
Alec chuckled at the ridiculousness of Logan's words. Arguing with him in this way was getting him nowhere. The older man had obviously made up his mind, so Alec tried a different tact. "Aren't you afraid I might steal your girl, Logan?" he said with a challenging glare.
"I'll take my chances."
"Are you sure? You know I am considered to be quite a catch amongst transgenics."
"With Max and you it would just be sex, Alec. But with me and Max there's so much more to our relationship than just that. It was never just about the sex."
"You're making decisions here that are not yours to make."
"I'm merely discussing some options, that's all. Max has the final word-"
"How noble of you," Alec said sarcastically.
"Somehow, I think she'll welcome the chance to secure the fragile hold we have on our relationship, and that's what a deal like this can offer."
"Maybe it's Max that you don't know as well as you think you do."
End Part 5
Author's Note:
Thanks for the reviews and feedback everyone. As I said before I will continue to write as long as I know people are reading it.
I think it's funny how all the shippers out there are interpreting this piece according to their particular relationship stance. That is, Max and Logan fans can see that even though what Logan suggested was a bit absurd, his motives of not wanting to let Max's heat come between them and not wanting to lose her were legitimate ones. Max and Alec fans take Logan's suggestion as a signal as to what kind of sleeze he is. I'll let you guys make up your own mind. Maybe it will end up going one way or the other - you'll just have to keep on reading insert Rhasa's evil grin here. Just know that they BOTH really do love her, even though Alec's feelings about her are yet to be declared.
Feed the monster it's daily dose. Feedback to Rhasa4@yahoo.com