Alright, this is about my fifth attempt at fanfiction. I've written other ones, but they basically sucked, but this one
seems to be turning out pretty well.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, but J.K. Rowling owns me. : )
Summary: Lily Evans has heard all the rumors about James Potter being a player, but she doesn't believe in them until she i
s another victim to his teasing. The characters are stero-typical: Lily is smart and a perfectionist and James is a
sex-fanatic with good grades.
This Feeling Inside
By Guard Girl
Chapter One: Astronomy Tower
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Lily Evans paced the astronomy tower, waiting for the arrival of her blind date, her best friend, Arabella Figg, so t
houghtfully set up. She hated dating, she hated the male population, she hated surprises, and most of all, she hated waiting.
The date was set up for eight o'clock and this guy was already ten minutes late. Naturally, since she was a perfectionist,
she was there exactly on time and scolded anyone who was late.
She sighed in frustration and slid her back along the wall downwards until she was sitting with her knees close to her chest.
She took a strand of her curly flaming hair she was so noticeable for and started to twirl it around her finger, a habit of
hers when she started to get frustrated or nervous. In this case, it was both.
"Why did Bella have to do this? She is so going to be throttled if he stands me up. Where is this guy anyways? If he doesn't
come for another five minutes, I'm leaving.' Lily thought to herself. "Bella" was the name Lily affectionately gave her best
friend.
Five minutes passed so she stood up and started to walk towards the door. She closed her eyes as she sighed, just thinking
about how much homework/study time she missed for playing along with Bella's stupid game. She wondered if there really was
going to be a guy coming or if Bella did this to see if she would actually go through with it.
She walked down the steps with her eyes still closed, testing her memory to see if she knew how many steps there were to the
bottom of the spiral staircase. She finally reached the bottom, correctly assuming how many steps there where (thirty-eight).
She smiled to herself and opened up her eyes and started humming. That's when something rammed into her.
Lily fell back hard against the steps when the other something, assuming it was a someone, fell the other way. It was
defiantly a man. If it were a woman, she would of felt those signature bumps of flesh on her chest, even in the smallest.
But this man did not have a chest. Nope, she could certainly tell he was built, just by being ran into. But all of this
didn't manner, she was just knocked over by someone! Ah, and the stero-typical red-hair temper kicks in...
"What do you think you were doing?! I could of gotten hurt!" Lily opened up here eyes to see the man sprawled on the floor,
his face to the ground. "I want two apologies: One for being late and another for making me fall over." Lily demanded.
The man started to get up and explain himself, "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. I was at a prefects meeting and I lost track
of ti--"
"Prefects meeting? I missed it? Oh, no!" Lily started to scramble to get herself up but the man stood up before her, took her
by the waist and helped her up. Lily felt herself getting flustered since she had never been touched in that sort of way by a
man-or anyone in that matter-by that sort of way. She cursed herself for showing a weakness. Then she she realized that it
was dark out and he couldn't see her flushed cheeks. But this also meant she couldn't see his face.
"Yeah, don't worry, you didn't miss much. Mainly a bunch of crap about harassment, responsibility and such. Nothing big."
"Oh, so in other words, same old, same old."
"Yeah..." the man said in reply. "How about let's up to the astronomy tower?"
"Sure," and Lily led the way back up the stairs, feeling her mood being lightened by the man's politeness.
There was much more light in the tower than in the hallway, thanks to the coming of the new moon so Lily took this chance to
get her first glimpse of her blind date. She started her eyes from his feet as she always did this when looking at a person
for the first time. Not exactly "elevator eyes" since she wasn't looking the person up and down, she just liked to save the
face for last and take it all in.
His shoes were your normal black dress shoes- standard for school dress code. He was still wearing his uniform, as was she,
which was black dress pants, the robe, and sweater. When she had leveled her head so she was looking straight forward, she
was looking straight into his chest. She raised her head up to him, taking note of his Adam's apple in his throat, his
slightly defined chin with stubbles from not being shaved since this morning, thin lips (maybe too thin), perfectly good nose,
dark brown eyes, slightly bigger than average forehead, and extremely messy black hair. The last thing she took in was what
told her who he was: James Potter, the school's most popular, well-known, most loved sixth year male who was on his way to be
captain of the Quidditch team and become Head Boy next year, all making him the most eligible bachelor in Hogwarts, right
along with his two best friends Sirius Black and Remus Lupin.
"Oh, it's you, Lily. I thought it was with that flaming red hair," James gave a little chuckle. Lily felt her spine get goose
bumps with the base-ness of his voice. That's weird, the only time she ever got goose bumps up her spine was when she was
being freaked out, but she knew most defiantly that she wasn't being freaked out. She never really had a crush on any guy,
but that was mainly because she told herself that she didn't have time to have a crush on a guy. What, with studying, doing
homework, being a prefect, being a best friend, who has time for guys? Certainly not Lily Evans. Plus, guys are just jerks
who think with their penis's. But she had a feeling that maybe, just maybe, James was different. Maybe he did something
unimaginable for the male species: think with his head, and she's talking about the one that sits on top his shoulders, those
broad shoulders of his...
"Yeah... did Bella tell you about this or did she give the message to one of your friends to tell them about this?" Lily
asked.
"Um, actually Bella suggest this to me. She said it was one of her friends who, quote, 'desperately needed a man to put some
love in her life so she doesn't have a stick up her arse twenty-four/seven,' unquote."
That certainly sounded like Bella. Since Lily didn't want a second break out that night, she just lightly laughed but was
silently fuming on the inside. 'You're going to die you're going to die you're going to die you're going to die' she chanted
in her head, trying to relay the message to her dearest friend. "Oh, she said that, did she? Ha, ha ha..."
Apparently James saw that she was angry, so he changed the subject with, "So, why don't you date?" Ok, so that isn't exactly
changing the subject, but Lily realized that he really didn't know much about her, so she let it slide.
"I believe that guys are jerks who think with their penis's other than their brains," she stated truthfully.
James looked a bit taken back but quickly recovered with, "I bet I can change your mind about that," he said as he sat down
where Lily had just sat before when she was waiting for him. She took his lead and plopped down next to him.
"That'll be quite a task for you to do. I've thought this for a long time so you'll have to be someone really special to do
that." Lily immediately regretted what she said, thinking that maybe James will take it as flirting and think that she was
telling him that she thought of him as special. Well, it did seem that he did use his head occasionally since he was a
candidate for Head Boy.
"Maybe you just don't know any guys who are good, like me." He said as he smoothed his unruly hair.
Lily had to laugh at that. Not so much as a laugh out loud, but a soft, polite laugh. She made sure not to giggle in fear
that it would be taken as flirting. She had heard about James Potter's "habits" of dating girls. She heard rumors of him
cheating on girls, taking many of their virginity's along with their hearts, yet they still chase after him. Then again,
these were all rumors. Lily wasn't much of a gossip but she couldn't help but believe that there may be some truth behind
some of the rumors. After all, she heard it from 97% of the population. She knew this for a fact, she took a poll on it last
year.
Lily noticed James looking over at her and she realized that she had gone silent with her ponderings. "Sorry, I was just
thinking."
"About what?"
"Nothing important."
"Oh." Silence. "So how about them 'Nic's?"
"What?"
"Sorry, heard it from a muggle student."
"Oh." Silence. Great. This was going great. Wait. Hold it right there. Did he just put an arm around her? Lily stiffened her
back.
"Oh, sorry, does that make you feel uncomfortable?" He started to remove his arm.
"No, it's... ok... it's just that I've never dated a guy before and haven't really been... touched... before..." Lily noticed
with frustration that she was stuttering. 'Sign of weakness, don't let him know that he's getting to you!'
"Oh, ok. So that means you've never been kissed before?"
"Nope, can't say I ever have been."
"What about from your parents?"
"They're dead. But I imagine that when I was a kid, they did."
"I'm sorry... I didn't know."
"It's ok, you can't be sorry about something you didn't have any part in doing or that is done and over with for ten years by
now. I barely knew them. They died when I was seven... actually, on my seventh birthday, come to think of it." "Come to think
of it?" She knew that as a fact.
"Oh, wow... Some birthday present." Lily looked over at him and gave him a questioning look. "Sorry, bad joke. Really bad
joke. I promise to never say it again. Cross my heart, hope to die, I'm a sandwich made of rye... wait, that ain't it..."
Lily giggled. Then stopped in mid-giggle. Oops. She just giggled. Then she realized that they were still facing each other.
And pretty close, thanks to that blasted arm of his around her shoulders.
'Oh, shit, is he moving his face towards mine?' Lily froze in shock and watched his eyes close and thin lips slightly pucker
out. Her last thought before she blocked out the whole entire world was that her lips were chapped.
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Like it? Hate it? Go ahead, leave a review. Constructive criticism gladly taken and will use in the future, praises shall
add brownie points (I'll keep a point system) and flames will be laughed at and posted.
seems to be turning out pretty well.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, but J.K. Rowling owns me. : )
Summary: Lily Evans has heard all the rumors about James Potter being a player, but she doesn't believe in them until she i
s another victim to his teasing. The characters are stero-typical: Lily is smart and a perfectionist and James is a
sex-fanatic with good grades.
This Feeling Inside
By Guard Girl
Chapter One: Astronomy Tower
*********
Lily Evans paced the astronomy tower, waiting for the arrival of her blind date, her best friend, Arabella Figg, so t
houghtfully set up. She hated dating, she hated the male population, she hated surprises, and most of all, she hated waiting.
The date was set up for eight o'clock and this guy was already ten minutes late. Naturally, since she was a perfectionist,
she was there exactly on time and scolded anyone who was late.
She sighed in frustration and slid her back along the wall downwards until she was sitting with her knees close to her chest.
She took a strand of her curly flaming hair she was so noticeable for and started to twirl it around her finger, a habit of
hers when she started to get frustrated or nervous. In this case, it was both.
"Why did Bella have to do this? She is so going to be throttled if he stands me up. Where is this guy anyways? If he doesn't
come for another five minutes, I'm leaving.' Lily thought to herself. "Bella" was the name Lily affectionately gave her best
friend.
Five minutes passed so she stood up and started to walk towards the door. She closed her eyes as she sighed, just thinking
about how much homework/study time she missed for playing along with Bella's stupid game. She wondered if there really was
going to be a guy coming or if Bella did this to see if she would actually go through with it.
She walked down the steps with her eyes still closed, testing her memory to see if she knew how many steps there were to the
bottom of the spiral staircase. She finally reached the bottom, correctly assuming how many steps there where (thirty-eight).
She smiled to herself and opened up her eyes and started humming. That's when something rammed into her.
Lily fell back hard against the steps when the other something, assuming it was a someone, fell the other way. It was
defiantly a man. If it were a woman, she would of felt those signature bumps of flesh on her chest, even in the smallest.
But this man did not have a chest. Nope, she could certainly tell he was built, just by being ran into. But all of this
didn't manner, she was just knocked over by someone! Ah, and the stero-typical red-hair temper kicks in...
"What do you think you were doing?! I could of gotten hurt!" Lily opened up here eyes to see the man sprawled on the floor,
his face to the ground. "I want two apologies: One for being late and another for making me fall over." Lily demanded.
The man started to get up and explain himself, "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. I was at a prefects meeting and I lost track
of ti--"
"Prefects meeting? I missed it? Oh, no!" Lily started to scramble to get herself up but the man stood up before her, took her
by the waist and helped her up. Lily felt herself getting flustered since she had never been touched in that sort of way by a
man-or anyone in that matter-by that sort of way. She cursed herself for showing a weakness. Then she she realized that it
was dark out and he couldn't see her flushed cheeks. But this also meant she couldn't see his face.
"Yeah, don't worry, you didn't miss much. Mainly a bunch of crap about harassment, responsibility and such. Nothing big."
"Oh, so in other words, same old, same old."
"Yeah..." the man said in reply. "How about let's up to the astronomy tower?"
"Sure," and Lily led the way back up the stairs, feeling her mood being lightened by the man's politeness.
There was much more light in the tower than in the hallway, thanks to the coming of the new moon so Lily took this chance to
get her first glimpse of her blind date. She started her eyes from his feet as she always did this when looking at a person
for the first time. Not exactly "elevator eyes" since she wasn't looking the person up and down, she just liked to save the
face for last and take it all in.
His shoes were your normal black dress shoes- standard for school dress code. He was still wearing his uniform, as was she,
which was black dress pants, the robe, and sweater. When she had leveled her head so she was looking straight forward, she
was looking straight into his chest. She raised her head up to him, taking note of his Adam's apple in his throat, his
slightly defined chin with stubbles from not being shaved since this morning, thin lips (maybe too thin), perfectly good nose,
dark brown eyes, slightly bigger than average forehead, and extremely messy black hair. The last thing she took in was what
told her who he was: James Potter, the school's most popular, well-known, most loved sixth year male who was on his way to be
captain of the Quidditch team and become Head Boy next year, all making him the most eligible bachelor in Hogwarts, right
along with his two best friends Sirius Black and Remus Lupin.
"Oh, it's you, Lily. I thought it was with that flaming red hair," James gave a little chuckle. Lily felt her spine get goose
bumps with the base-ness of his voice. That's weird, the only time she ever got goose bumps up her spine was when she was
being freaked out, but she knew most defiantly that she wasn't being freaked out. She never really had a crush on any guy,
but that was mainly because she told herself that she didn't have time to have a crush on a guy. What, with studying, doing
homework, being a prefect, being a best friend, who has time for guys? Certainly not Lily Evans. Plus, guys are just jerks
who think with their penis's. But she had a feeling that maybe, just maybe, James was different. Maybe he did something
unimaginable for the male species: think with his head, and she's talking about the one that sits on top his shoulders, those
broad shoulders of his...
"Yeah... did Bella tell you about this or did she give the message to one of your friends to tell them about this?" Lily
asked.
"Um, actually Bella suggest this to me. She said it was one of her friends who, quote, 'desperately needed a man to put some
love in her life so she doesn't have a stick up her arse twenty-four/seven,' unquote."
That certainly sounded like Bella. Since Lily didn't want a second break out that night, she just lightly laughed but was
silently fuming on the inside. 'You're going to die you're going to die you're going to die you're going to die' she chanted
in her head, trying to relay the message to her dearest friend. "Oh, she said that, did she? Ha, ha ha..."
Apparently James saw that she was angry, so he changed the subject with, "So, why don't you date?" Ok, so that isn't exactly
changing the subject, but Lily realized that he really didn't know much about her, so she let it slide.
"I believe that guys are jerks who think with their penis's other than their brains," she stated truthfully.
James looked a bit taken back but quickly recovered with, "I bet I can change your mind about that," he said as he sat down
where Lily had just sat before when she was waiting for him. She took his lead and plopped down next to him.
"That'll be quite a task for you to do. I've thought this for a long time so you'll have to be someone really special to do
that." Lily immediately regretted what she said, thinking that maybe James will take it as flirting and think that she was
telling him that she thought of him as special. Well, it did seem that he did use his head occasionally since he was a
candidate for Head Boy.
"Maybe you just don't know any guys who are good, like me." He said as he smoothed his unruly hair.
Lily had to laugh at that. Not so much as a laugh out loud, but a soft, polite laugh. She made sure not to giggle in fear
that it would be taken as flirting. She had heard about James Potter's "habits" of dating girls. She heard rumors of him
cheating on girls, taking many of their virginity's along with their hearts, yet they still chase after him. Then again,
these were all rumors. Lily wasn't much of a gossip but she couldn't help but believe that there may be some truth behind
some of the rumors. After all, she heard it from 97% of the population. She knew this for a fact, she took a poll on it last
year.
Lily noticed James looking over at her and she realized that she had gone silent with her ponderings. "Sorry, I was just
thinking."
"About what?"
"Nothing important."
"Oh." Silence. "So how about them 'Nic's?"
"What?"
"Sorry, heard it from a muggle student."
"Oh." Silence. Great. This was going great. Wait. Hold it right there. Did he just put an arm around her? Lily stiffened her
back.
"Oh, sorry, does that make you feel uncomfortable?" He started to remove his arm.
"No, it's... ok... it's just that I've never dated a guy before and haven't really been... touched... before..." Lily noticed
with frustration that she was stuttering. 'Sign of weakness, don't let him know that he's getting to you!'
"Oh, ok. So that means you've never been kissed before?"
"Nope, can't say I ever have been."
"What about from your parents?"
"They're dead. But I imagine that when I was a kid, they did."
"I'm sorry... I didn't know."
"It's ok, you can't be sorry about something you didn't have any part in doing or that is done and over with for ten years by
now. I barely knew them. They died when I was seven... actually, on my seventh birthday, come to think of it." "Come to think
of it?" She knew that as a fact.
"Oh, wow... Some birthday present." Lily looked over at him and gave him a questioning look. "Sorry, bad joke. Really bad
joke. I promise to never say it again. Cross my heart, hope to die, I'm a sandwich made of rye... wait, that ain't it..."
Lily giggled. Then stopped in mid-giggle. Oops. She just giggled. Then she realized that they were still facing each other.
And pretty close, thanks to that blasted arm of his around her shoulders.
'Oh, shit, is he moving his face towards mine?' Lily froze in shock and watched his eyes close and thin lips slightly pucker
out. Her last thought before she blocked out the whole entire world was that her lips were chapped.
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Like it? Hate it? Go ahead, leave a review. Constructive criticism gladly taken and will use in the future, praises shall
add brownie points (I'll keep a point system) and flames will be laughed at and posted.