Roti
Life. Who ever knew it could mean so much? Most improper nouns do. Love, hate, betrayal, peace, sadness, beauty. Geniuses could spend thousands of years trying to get to the bottom of human nature, but most likely they could never do it. Same with androids.people could try and figure us out, what makes us act so human like, how do we die if we were never alive, how we throw ki balls like any other organism? Even as androids we don't know these answers, although we should.
Roti was another android. Red eyes as hot as fire and long blonde hair, which I loved to run my fingers through. Sometimes we would sit there for hours watching the clouds and talking about how nice heaven would be. Those were the good times. I remember being so happy to meet another android just like me!
I first met him when I was in the forest (where I last ended my story). I was wandering aimlessly around before I felt a hand jerk me onto my back. I looked around and saw him. He scared me for a minute, I thought he was going to hurt me like almost every other being I'd met in this damned forest. He smiled and from that moment on I had fallen in love with him. Not like brother sister love, I had a full-blown crush on this hotty.
He helped me up and apologized saying that he thought I was one of the many killer ssj living in the forest. I grasped onto his every word as if it was life support. We sat down and talked for a few hours and he promised me that he would always be there for me, I thought so. No one had ever been this nice to me, well other than my mortal friends and Dark and some life savers that came to my help a few times. Other than that I'd known sick cruel people with nothing to do but harass me constantly. Roti would never turn out that way, he knew what I was.he was one too.
Roti and I spent every minute of every day together. Sometimes sitting around in a small town eating ice cream on a bench, other times swimming in a large waterfall in a rainforest. Unlike me Roti was amazingly strong and had the ability to transport from one area to another. We went around the world and then one day we met Dark.
I was so happy from my travels, that I totally neglected the look on each other's faces. They were both pissed and I ignored it. I tried to lighten the spirits by telling each of them why I loved the other. They wouldn't.couldn't accept the fact there was another man in my life, but I tried anyway. I wanted them to become best friends so that I wouldn't have to pick and choose. When they refused to listen to my desperate pleas, I decided I had to leave before I got my heart torn apart.
Those days were full of shadows and darkness. I remember crying myself to sleep, and then Roti was hugging me. Pulling me close. I gave in a cuddled with him, he apologizing and saying that he had never meant to hurt me and he would try harder to be friends with my friends. I accepted and then fell asleep in his arms.
When I woke up I was surrounded by trees. Roti was gone from sight. I walked around the forest some more hoping for a glimpse of my other friend but seeing nothing I decided to go into the small town south of there. I walked there and bought a book in the small bookstore on the corner. It was about a lady that had to choose between her best friend and her lover. I laughed. This was the same predicament I was in.not like it mattered. I read on and found out that the best friend was killed in a car accident. I didn't read the rest of it.
Roti finally tracked me down and he told me I was not to go near Dark. I just glared at him. I would be around whoever the hell I wanted. Yes I loved him but not enough to let him rule me, like a king over a peasant. No I refused.
We spent day after day with each other, and after awhile I felt uneasy and unsafe around Roti. He would treat me harshly, sometimes pushing me out of the way or slapping me when I refused to do what he wanted.
The good time were over, long gone. I knew that this was not going to turn out well but I refused to listen. Refused to give up on him. I had left so many and I couldn't afford to do that again. No, I wouldn't!
I'll always remember that night. It was in an apartment we had rented, in a city in the USA called Los Angeles. I was tired because we had went boar hunting down in Australia and so I fell onto the bed without even undressing. Roti looked me up and down and started to walk over.
The pit off my stomach filled with butterflies. WE had been in closes contact together since I had met him but for some reason alarms were ringing in my head. He walked over and ripped my shirt off. I just gaped at him before I crossed my arms.
"What the hell do you think you're doing Roti?!?!"
"Making a dream come true" he said before ripping my jean shorts off.
I just sat there for a long moment before I tried to struggle to my feet. He wouldn't let me. He was stronger than me.much stronger, much faster, I wouldn't be getting out of here.
Next was the panties. I was so confused. My head was spinning. What the hel was he doing? I had never even heard of the word sex nevermind had it. I didn't even know how babies were born!!!!
The I felt him inside of me! I screamed and screamed and screamed. He was snickering. I couldn't tell the ceiling from the ground! I was in shock. I felt dirty, unclean.I never felt any pleasure that people supposedly say happens from this act. I felt pain. Not psychical but mentally. Someone I had trusted had decided to hurt me. He was groaning and moaning and then he rolled off of me.
I wanted to go, leave.he didn't want me too. He tied me to the bed and went through this act a few more times before giving into sleep. I didn't sleep, I couldn't. It was too painful.
I sat there and watched the moon. It was so beautiful hanging there in the sky, so close but yet so far. I started to cry, tears so wet and salty that you would sweat them humans if you had not seen them from me.
Crying was not a new thing to me, but these tears were more the normal. It was the dying of my mind. I knew I was going crazy.I knew that if I didn't get help I would crack, like Roti. I never wanted that.ever.
We still went out like before but I never said a single word to him. Every night I would be subject to the same humiliating act. Soon if he didn't like how I did it he would cut me. With what you ask? With whatever he could find.
One day after a particularly bad night I was thrown onto the ground in my forest. It was the only time I'd ever like this place. If I was to die (that's how I felt) I would die in my home.my forest.
I didn't die, but I might as well of. Dark was there. Watching me, he didn't see the whole thing, he just saw me lying there. In the cold dirt.
I had always feared death since I had died, but now I welcomed death. Yearned for it. My life could not get any worse; I had been born to be a toy and had succeeded with flying colours. They might as well as sold me for $20 at Toy-R-Us.
He helped me up and I could hear him talking to Roti about..what I don't really know. I heard my name but I was to far gone. I turned bright red realizing I was wearing nothing but said nothing, I just looked at my feet.something that was for sure. I knew I had 5 toes and that they could twitch and move. That was for sure. Unless someone broke them and then I'd be back at stage one.
Dark took me away. Or at least tried. Roti wouldn't allow it. Of course he needed his stupid sex toy, couldn't live without her.
This wasn't what I thought about through out the whole ordeal. I noticed stupid small things. Like Dark wasn't the same person that I had known. He wasn't kind, his touch was cold instead of the usual warmth, he just didn't care anymore. I realized I would rather live with Roti for a hundred years before I saw Dark turn into some.some heartless toy like me. And so instead of turning and fighting Roti with Dark I walked with Roti away towards another apartment.
The next few weeks was horrible. I don't remember it all I just remember pieces of it.flying past me.
The next thing I remember ( and I barely remember this as well) is Dark coming through a window and then us leaving, me seeing a dead family, and then me killing someone. I don't remember the facts but I suppose it was Roti because I never saw him ever again. I never saw anyone. Because I was gone.
Insanity.another improper noun. No one can say your insane.well they can but it won't mean anything. only you can tell yourself that. I told myself I was insane and I guess I might have been. I just sat there revisiting my friends and sometimes my life.
The next thing I remember is Vixie. My mother.or the closest thing I've ever had. I remember her braiding my hair and singing to me in a field, there was a big cat cuddled on my lap and I was happy. Hoping that I would leave this world with this image imprinted on my mind.
And I did.I never forgot that image.and I never will.
After that I remember me sitting at a tree and Vixie talking to someone who I'm guessing was Dark, in fact I'm pretty certain it was him. Positive. They were arguing, I could feel pain flooding out of them like it was a bloody river.
Someone was picking me up.it was Vixie, my mommy. Someone kissed me on the cheek, Dark, my mentor and best friend, and before I knew it I was gone..nothing but darkness, and that's when I finally said. "I love you Dark and I'll never forget that.
I don't remember anything else. It's like a dream, there an then gone and then some weird little thing makes you remember them all over again.
I just wish it was a dream.maybe then I wouldn't be like this.this toy
Life. Who ever knew it could mean so much? Most improper nouns do. Love, hate, betrayal, peace, sadness, beauty. Geniuses could spend thousands of years trying to get to the bottom of human nature, but most likely they could never do it. Same with androids.people could try and figure us out, what makes us act so human like, how do we die if we were never alive, how we throw ki balls like any other organism? Even as androids we don't know these answers, although we should.
Roti was another android. Red eyes as hot as fire and long blonde hair, which I loved to run my fingers through. Sometimes we would sit there for hours watching the clouds and talking about how nice heaven would be. Those were the good times. I remember being so happy to meet another android just like me!
I first met him when I was in the forest (where I last ended my story). I was wandering aimlessly around before I felt a hand jerk me onto my back. I looked around and saw him. He scared me for a minute, I thought he was going to hurt me like almost every other being I'd met in this damned forest. He smiled and from that moment on I had fallen in love with him. Not like brother sister love, I had a full-blown crush on this hotty.
He helped me up and apologized saying that he thought I was one of the many killer ssj living in the forest. I grasped onto his every word as if it was life support. We sat down and talked for a few hours and he promised me that he would always be there for me, I thought so. No one had ever been this nice to me, well other than my mortal friends and Dark and some life savers that came to my help a few times. Other than that I'd known sick cruel people with nothing to do but harass me constantly. Roti would never turn out that way, he knew what I was.he was one too.
Roti and I spent every minute of every day together. Sometimes sitting around in a small town eating ice cream on a bench, other times swimming in a large waterfall in a rainforest. Unlike me Roti was amazingly strong and had the ability to transport from one area to another. We went around the world and then one day we met Dark.
I was so happy from my travels, that I totally neglected the look on each other's faces. They were both pissed and I ignored it. I tried to lighten the spirits by telling each of them why I loved the other. They wouldn't.couldn't accept the fact there was another man in my life, but I tried anyway. I wanted them to become best friends so that I wouldn't have to pick and choose. When they refused to listen to my desperate pleas, I decided I had to leave before I got my heart torn apart.
Those days were full of shadows and darkness. I remember crying myself to sleep, and then Roti was hugging me. Pulling me close. I gave in a cuddled with him, he apologizing and saying that he had never meant to hurt me and he would try harder to be friends with my friends. I accepted and then fell asleep in his arms.
When I woke up I was surrounded by trees. Roti was gone from sight. I walked around the forest some more hoping for a glimpse of my other friend but seeing nothing I decided to go into the small town south of there. I walked there and bought a book in the small bookstore on the corner. It was about a lady that had to choose between her best friend and her lover. I laughed. This was the same predicament I was in.not like it mattered. I read on and found out that the best friend was killed in a car accident. I didn't read the rest of it.
Roti finally tracked me down and he told me I was not to go near Dark. I just glared at him. I would be around whoever the hell I wanted. Yes I loved him but not enough to let him rule me, like a king over a peasant. No I refused.
We spent day after day with each other, and after awhile I felt uneasy and unsafe around Roti. He would treat me harshly, sometimes pushing me out of the way or slapping me when I refused to do what he wanted.
The good time were over, long gone. I knew that this was not going to turn out well but I refused to listen. Refused to give up on him. I had left so many and I couldn't afford to do that again. No, I wouldn't!
I'll always remember that night. It was in an apartment we had rented, in a city in the USA called Los Angeles. I was tired because we had went boar hunting down in Australia and so I fell onto the bed without even undressing. Roti looked me up and down and started to walk over.
The pit off my stomach filled with butterflies. WE had been in closes contact together since I had met him but for some reason alarms were ringing in my head. He walked over and ripped my shirt off. I just gaped at him before I crossed my arms.
"What the hell do you think you're doing Roti?!?!"
"Making a dream come true" he said before ripping my jean shorts off.
I just sat there for a long moment before I tried to struggle to my feet. He wouldn't let me. He was stronger than me.much stronger, much faster, I wouldn't be getting out of here.
Next was the panties. I was so confused. My head was spinning. What the hel was he doing? I had never even heard of the word sex nevermind had it. I didn't even know how babies were born!!!!
The I felt him inside of me! I screamed and screamed and screamed. He was snickering. I couldn't tell the ceiling from the ground! I was in shock. I felt dirty, unclean.I never felt any pleasure that people supposedly say happens from this act. I felt pain. Not psychical but mentally. Someone I had trusted had decided to hurt me. He was groaning and moaning and then he rolled off of me.
I wanted to go, leave.he didn't want me too. He tied me to the bed and went through this act a few more times before giving into sleep. I didn't sleep, I couldn't. It was too painful.
I sat there and watched the moon. It was so beautiful hanging there in the sky, so close but yet so far. I started to cry, tears so wet and salty that you would sweat them humans if you had not seen them from me.
Crying was not a new thing to me, but these tears were more the normal. It was the dying of my mind. I knew I was going crazy.I knew that if I didn't get help I would crack, like Roti. I never wanted that.ever.
We still went out like before but I never said a single word to him. Every night I would be subject to the same humiliating act. Soon if he didn't like how I did it he would cut me. With what you ask? With whatever he could find.
One day after a particularly bad night I was thrown onto the ground in my forest. It was the only time I'd ever like this place. If I was to die (that's how I felt) I would die in my home.my forest.
I didn't die, but I might as well of. Dark was there. Watching me, he didn't see the whole thing, he just saw me lying there. In the cold dirt.
I had always feared death since I had died, but now I welcomed death. Yearned for it. My life could not get any worse; I had been born to be a toy and had succeeded with flying colours. They might as well as sold me for $20 at Toy-R-Us.
He helped me up and I could hear him talking to Roti about..what I don't really know. I heard my name but I was to far gone. I turned bright red realizing I was wearing nothing but said nothing, I just looked at my feet.something that was for sure. I knew I had 5 toes and that they could twitch and move. That was for sure. Unless someone broke them and then I'd be back at stage one.
Dark took me away. Or at least tried. Roti wouldn't allow it. Of course he needed his stupid sex toy, couldn't live without her.
This wasn't what I thought about through out the whole ordeal. I noticed stupid small things. Like Dark wasn't the same person that I had known. He wasn't kind, his touch was cold instead of the usual warmth, he just didn't care anymore. I realized I would rather live with Roti for a hundred years before I saw Dark turn into some.some heartless toy like me. And so instead of turning and fighting Roti with Dark I walked with Roti away towards another apartment.
The next few weeks was horrible. I don't remember it all I just remember pieces of it.flying past me.
The next thing I remember ( and I barely remember this as well) is Dark coming through a window and then us leaving, me seeing a dead family, and then me killing someone. I don't remember the facts but I suppose it was Roti because I never saw him ever again. I never saw anyone. Because I was gone.
Insanity.another improper noun. No one can say your insane.well they can but it won't mean anything. only you can tell yourself that. I told myself I was insane and I guess I might have been. I just sat there revisiting my friends and sometimes my life.
The next thing I remember is Vixie. My mother.or the closest thing I've ever had. I remember her braiding my hair and singing to me in a field, there was a big cat cuddled on my lap and I was happy. Hoping that I would leave this world with this image imprinted on my mind.
And I did.I never forgot that image.and I never will.
After that I remember me sitting at a tree and Vixie talking to someone who I'm guessing was Dark, in fact I'm pretty certain it was him. Positive. They were arguing, I could feel pain flooding out of them like it was a bloody river.
Someone was picking me up.it was Vixie, my mommy. Someone kissed me on the cheek, Dark, my mentor and best friend, and before I knew it I was gone..nothing but darkness, and that's when I finally said. "I love you Dark and I'll never forget that.
I don't remember anything else. It's like a dream, there an then gone and then some weird little thing makes you remember them all over again.
I just wish it was a dream.maybe then I wouldn't be like this.this toy