There's a first time for everything
Love is one of the emotions I really, had not felt. Ever. Yes, I had felt love from my friends and Vixie ((who I would rather call my mother)), but other than that I was left out on the world of relationships and going out.unless you include Roti, which I would rather you not.
It's said that when I blind man can finally see again, he is let down, for the world is not what he thought it would be. But for me it was just the opposite. It was probably the greatest thing that had ever happened to me.
I left you off at a rather odd point. Why? Because I did not know how to go on explaining all of the different things that happened over the course of 2 weeks. But now I am ready and will tell you the latest chapter in my life story.
I had left Dark on neither a high note, nor a low note. While I waited for him to think it over, I tried to track down Saphire. I was determined to meet up with her, and demand she apologize for trying to bring harm to me. It took only a few hours before I met up with her, in a bar in downtown New York. She was talking to a victim, obviously. A middle aged, drunk, with no idea what a precious life he was wasting.
I walked over casually, sitting down next to her, and ordering a drink. When she heard my voice, she spun around and stared at me. What beautiful brown eyes she had. They masked her true complexity and made her seem amazingly innocent, which most vampires seem to have brought with them into their everlasting lives, and although they held no guilt they did have a tint of mystery, which most humans would fear, except those who were drunk.
I stared back, my anger gone.
"What are you doing here?" she asked timidly.
" I came for a drink, what are you doing here?"
"I came for supper." She grinned. I laughed, uncertainly. Hopefully I wasn't going be the appetizer. I continued to sit there, waiting for my drink and pretending to be interested in one of the customers sitting beside me. She continued to stare at me, a sad smile plastered on her face.
"You know Serenity, I am extremely sorry for hurting you, I really didn't mean to it's just..." I stared down at my hands, what was I supposed to do in this situation? Just forgive and forget? Forget that she had betrayed me and played me for.for what? That's what I couldn't figure out. Was I just a meal, like any other, or was I a toy, to play with and harass until she was finished with me and threw me out, like many others, or was I her long time friend which she loved and cared for deeply but didn't have enough stamina to fight her evil urges. I didn't know, or understand all of this vampire stuff, and luckily I never would.
"..your blood, it's just so.."
"So what?!" I demanded finally realizing I had the chance of a lifetime. I could figure out what made these vamps go insane with desire! I could fix it and they would never bother me again, or at least I wished that would happen. Like it could ever come true. It was just a broken dream, like all of my other ones pushed aside for other people to crush.
"..so...innocent.." Innocence. something you can't change. Something unfixable. In fact, something that was never broken. I couldn't change innocence. I couldn't make myself not innocent..could I?
"I'm sorry.please forgive me.I swear on my brother's grave I will never lay a finger on you, and I will never let anyone else" Blood tears started to fill her eyes. I sighed.
" Let me think of my decision, I will meet you at the apartment at 12:30, on the dot, if you're late, I realize we can no longer be friends." And then I walked out of the bar, and into the cold street.
The first emotion that hit me was.amazingly.happiness. I was happy because everything was ok. I knew I would forgive Saphire. How could I not? Everyone makes mistakes and it hadn't cost me my life. And plus, she truly was sorry. I could tell. Now the only thing let for me to figure out was Dark. Which I was sure I would see soon.. hopefully.
Meanwhile I walked down alleys and streets, sometimes humming, sometimes murmuring different quotes I had heard over the years. I walked and walked until I saw a small park. The lamps were lit making sight it just light enough to see. I went up to a painter and asked if I could borrow some canvas and paint. He happily obliged, being a nice old man, he handed it to me and I sat on a bench and set the canvas up.
The scene in front of me was amazing. Beside this pond was a boardwalk with a couple talking to each other with whispers and slight touches, and in the pond were a few ducks, enjoying the peacefulness of the night life. The moonlight also reflected off the water making the scene even more beautiful and mysterious.
I painted this scene the best I could but with one quirk.I drew Saphire standing there, feeding the ducks dried bread pieces. I don't know why I drew the picture like that, but I guess it just happened sub- consciously.
I was almost done when I felt a strange shiver run up my back. As soon as it was gone I felt a hand grab my shoulder. I stifled a scream. Why now? I was just getting over one of the most confusing, sickening days of my life and now another vampire to feed of this "innocent" blood. Would this hell never end?
I whipped my head around, sending golden locks tumbling out of my way. And standing there stood Dark. Composed as always.
I gave a sigh of relief before saying some cocky little thing to mask my embarrassment. He laughed and continued to stand there, looking at my painting. I talked to him awhile about it, asking him if he liked it (which he did) and what he had been up to since I had left him there at the castle. He told me taking care of the children at the castle and helping out a pregnant Maria.
I looked at my watch. I had better get going soon. It wouldn't look to good if I told her not to be late and I was late myself.
We continued to talk before I finally asked the dreaded question..
" So Dark.have you thought about what I said yesterday?" I could feel the embarrassment, rising in me. This was stupid! As if he could ever love someone so.melodramatic? Plus, he must have a hundred different people to love, he had only mentioned a bazillion times, he knew a lot more people than me. I braced myself for the reply.
Funny thing was he really didn't reply. He just shrugged. The thing about shrugs is it can go two ways. Yes & No. Yet I was so. nerve wracked that I just assumed it was a no and so instead of my planned out.
"Yes, it wouldn't have worked out anyways. Were complete opposites." It came out.
"I knew this was going to happen. I'm sorry for bothering you with such a foolish question. You don't believe in Love Love anyways, so why did I even try. I'm sorry"
I could have died at that moment. Why had I said that? Was it because I felt stupid or was it just because I was tired and fed up with beating around the bush? Stupid day! Would it ever just end?
I remember he gave me a confused look before replying simply " Actually I realize sibling love and love love is the same thing."
My heart skipped a beat. Did this mean, what I thought it meant?! I ran over and flung myself into his arms. Something I had "accidentally" blabbed had turned into. this. Sometimes stupidity works for the best.
I remember chatting with him about.. something. The more I think back on it the more I remember the strength of his arms. I don't know why I just know that I loved them. And I loved him.
The thing that ruined this? Time. I had an appointment, with Saphire. I had to be there. I didn't have a choice.
I looked up and told Dark I had to go to Saphire. He shrugged and then I suddenly decided. I was going to kiss him. No ifs, ands, or buts. Timidly I leaned over, and kissed his lips.
Ok nothing can explain someone's first, kiss, so I won't even try. What I will say is that it was very.lovely.
But I left him. I had an appointment that I couldn't miss. Although I really did just want to stay there in his strong arms and kiss him some more but.like I said, Time took that from me, like so many things before.
I transported into the apartment, just before the clock struck 12:28. I wasn't late. Amazing. She was sitting on the couch, watching the clock with unblinking eyes. Scary.
I don't remember all of the small details. I was to happy about the good news from Dark I couldn't concentrate. I remember nodding and saying things like.. "I see why you did it now" and other things quite similar. She knew I wasn't concentrating but I guess she didn't really care. As long as we were friends again. Friends.right.
After our little "talk" I went to sleep in my bed. Bed.the warmest best place on earth. The safest place on earth. Right...
Love is one of the emotions I really, had not felt. Ever. Yes, I had felt love from my friends and Vixie ((who I would rather call my mother)), but other than that I was left out on the world of relationships and going out.unless you include Roti, which I would rather you not.
It's said that when I blind man can finally see again, he is let down, for the world is not what he thought it would be. But for me it was just the opposite. It was probably the greatest thing that had ever happened to me.
I left you off at a rather odd point. Why? Because I did not know how to go on explaining all of the different things that happened over the course of 2 weeks. But now I am ready and will tell you the latest chapter in my life story.
I had left Dark on neither a high note, nor a low note. While I waited for him to think it over, I tried to track down Saphire. I was determined to meet up with her, and demand she apologize for trying to bring harm to me. It took only a few hours before I met up with her, in a bar in downtown New York. She was talking to a victim, obviously. A middle aged, drunk, with no idea what a precious life he was wasting.
I walked over casually, sitting down next to her, and ordering a drink. When she heard my voice, she spun around and stared at me. What beautiful brown eyes she had. They masked her true complexity and made her seem amazingly innocent, which most vampires seem to have brought with them into their everlasting lives, and although they held no guilt they did have a tint of mystery, which most humans would fear, except those who were drunk.
I stared back, my anger gone.
"What are you doing here?" she asked timidly.
" I came for a drink, what are you doing here?"
"I came for supper." She grinned. I laughed, uncertainly. Hopefully I wasn't going be the appetizer. I continued to sit there, waiting for my drink and pretending to be interested in one of the customers sitting beside me. She continued to stare at me, a sad smile plastered on her face.
"You know Serenity, I am extremely sorry for hurting you, I really didn't mean to it's just..." I stared down at my hands, what was I supposed to do in this situation? Just forgive and forget? Forget that she had betrayed me and played me for.for what? That's what I couldn't figure out. Was I just a meal, like any other, or was I a toy, to play with and harass until she was finished with me and threw me out, like many others, or was I her long time friend which she loved and cared for deeply but didn't have enough stamina to fight her evil urges. I didn't know, or understand all of this vampire stuff, and luckily I never would.
"..your blood, it's just so.."
"So what?!" I demanded finally realizing I had the chance of a lifetime. I could figure out what made these vamps go insane with desire! I could fix it and they would never bother me again, or at least I wished that would happen. Like it could ever come true. It was just a broken dream, like all of my other ones pushed aside for other people to crush.
"..so...innocent.." Innocence. something you can't change. Something unfixable. In fact, something that was never broken. I couldn't change innocence. I couldn't make myself not innocent..could I?
"I'm sorry.please forgive me.I swear on my brother's grave I will never lay a finger on you, and I will never let anyone else" Blood tears started to fill her eyes. I sighed.
" Let me think of my decision, I will meet you at the apartment at 12:30, on the dot, if you're late, I realize we can no longer be friends." And then I walked out of the bar, and into the cold street.
The first emotion that hit me was.amazingly.happiness. I was happy because everything was ok. I knew I would forgive Saphire. How could I not? Everyone makes mistakes and it hadn't cost me my life. And plus, she truly was sorry. I could tell. Now the only thing let for me to figure out was Dark. Which I was sure I would see soon.. hopefully.
Meanwhile I walked down alleys and streets, sometimes humming, sometimes murmuring different quotes I had heard over the years. I walked and walked until I saw a small park. The lamps were lit making sight it just light enough to see. I went up to a painter and asked if I could borrow some canvas and paint. He happily obliged, being a nice old man, he handed it to me and I sat on a bench and set the canvas up.
The scene in front of me was amazing. Beside this pond was a boardwalk with a couple talking to each other with whispers and slight touches, and in the pond were a few ducks, enjoying the peacefulness of the night life. The moonlight also reflected off the water making the scene even more beautiful and mysterious.
I painted this scene the best I could but with one quirk.I drew Saphire standing there, feeding the ducks dried bread pieces. I don't know why I drew the picture like that, but I guess it just happened sub- consciously.
I was almost done when I felt a strange shiver run up my back. As soon as it was gone I felt a hand grab my shoulder. I stifled a scream. Why now? I was just getting over one of the most confusing, sickening days of my life and now another vampire to feed of this "innocent" blood. Would this hell never end?
I whipped my head around, sending golden locks tumbling out of my way. And standing there stood Dark. Composed as always.
I gave a sigh of relief before saying some cocky little thing to mask my embarrassment. He laughed and continued to stand there, looking at my painting. I talked to him awhile about it, asking him if he liked it (which he did) and what he had been up to since I had left him there at the castle. He told me taking care of the children at the castle and helping out a pregnant Maria.
I looked at my watch. I had better get going soon. It wouldn't look to good if I told her not to be late and I was late myself.
We continued to talk before I finally asked the dreaded question..
" So Dark.have you thought about what I said yesterday?" I could feel the embarrassment, rising in me. This was stupid! As if he could ever love someone so.melodramatic? Plus, he must have a hundred different people to love, he had only mentioned a bazillion times, he knew a lot more people than me. I braced myself for the reply.
Funny thing was he really didn't reply. He just shrugged. The thing about shrugs is it can go two ways. Yes & No. Yet I was so. nerve wracked that I just assumed it was a no and so instead of my planned out.
"Yes, it wouldn't have worked out anyways. Were complete opposites." It came out.
"I knew this was going to happen. I'm sorry for bothering you with such a foolish question. You don't believe in Love Love anyways, so why did I even try. I'm sorry"
I could have died at that moment. Why had I said that? Was it because I felt stupid or was it just because I was tired and fed up with beating around the bush? Stupid day! Would it ever just end?
I remember he gave me a confused look before replying simply " Actually I realize sibling love and love love is the same thing."
My heart skipped a beat. Did this mean, what I thought it meant?! I ran over and flung myself into his arms. Something I had "accidentally" blabbed had turned into. this. Sometimes stupidity works for the best.
I remember chatting with him about.. something. The more I think back on it the more I remember the strength of his arms. I don't know why I just know that I loved them. And I loved him.
The thing that ruined this? Time. I had an appointment, with Saphire. I had to be there. I didn't have a choice.
I looked up and told Dark I had to go to Saphire. He shrugged and then I suddenly decided. I was going to kiss him. No ifs, ands, or buts. Timidly I leaned over, and kissed his lips.
Ok nothing can explain someone's first, kiss, so I won't even try. What I will say is that it was very.lovely.
But I left him. I had an appointment that I couldn't miss. Although I really did just want to stay there in his strong arms and kiss him some more but.like I said, Time took that from me, like so many things before.
I transported into the apartment, just before the clock struck 12:28. I wasn't late. Amazing. She was sitting on the couch, watching the clock with unblinking eyes. Scary.
I don't remember all of the small details. I was to happy about the good news from Dark I couldn't concentrate. I remember nodding and saying things like.. "I see why you did it now" and other things quite similar. She knew I wasn't concentrating but I guess she didn't really care. As long as we were friends again. Friends.right.
After our little "talk" I went to sleep in my bed. Bed.the warmest best place on earth. The safest place on earth. Right...