A/N: Uh huh… yea I rewrote this chapter, coz' I decided that the original was way too er… weird. Like I was on a sugar high or something. Of course, if you decided that you preferred the other chapter tell me and I'll er… think of something. Hopefully.
Also, as a passing mention, this is another songfic. Last Goodbye by Girl Thing. Pity they disbanded. Ha ha… so anyway, before I go all weepy I've got the next chapter planned out – ANOTHER songfic *smirk* Bear with me.
Ok, enough with my ramblings… on with the story.
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Where do I go, what do I do
When everywhere I turn it just reminds me of you
Now that it's clear, there are no more tears for me to cry
Now it's time that I said my last goodbye
She was stuck, stuck in her house. She couldn't go out, didn't dare to go out, for fear that that memories would come back to haunt her. She had tried so hard to forget everything, with no success. The nightmares had faded away, but the pain remained fresh, the wounds open, not healing.
She couldn't cry anymore – her tears were all gone, wasted. She wanted to go out. But she couldn't!! Where ever she went, whatever she did, everything reminded her of her pain and loss. Maybe she should learn to let go.
People will promise things
And swear they'll be true
But don't always fool yourself
Like all the others do
I have been guilty thinking
This was a dreamWhen all the time it wasn't quite what it seemed
"Stop crying!" Ginny berated herself. It had been almost a week after she had seen Draco with Jenny in Diagon Alley. True, she was happy for them, but that joy she felt for them did nothing to ease her heartache.
She was sprawled on her small bed in the Burrow, in her old room. She had moved back in with her mother, when she had ran away from Draco's mansion. Molly was more than happy to have her back, though there were complications in the start when Molly had attempted to stomp over to Malfoy Mansion in a fit of murderous and indignant rage she felt on the part of her daughter.
It had taken the combined efforts of Ron, Fred, George and Percy to drag the enraged Molly back into the Burrow to her snarls and growls of fury.
The first few weeks after the break-up was traumatic for Ginny. She had locked herself in her room, coming out only to use the bathroom and for rare meals. She refused to let anyone in, kept crying, refusing to believe that Draco had had an affair.
She had hoped incessantly, that Draco would come and beg for her forgiveness, plead for her to come back. But he didn't. His promises of eternal love, kisses abound and affection aplenty were apparently false.
Gradually she had gotten over him, but the heartache still resided.
Half of my memories belong to you
Remember half of your friends are mine
Can you tell me
Ginny sat up sniffing. She had tried getting out of the house a couple of times before. But once she saw something that reminded her of the past she once shared with Draco, she would break down, earning her curious stares from passer-bys.
Even if she went somewhere secluded, somewhere way out, there was still a high chance she would run into someone she and Draco knew. And they knew a lot of people, the Malfoys being an affluent and social family.
Where do I go, what do I do
When everywhere I turn it just reminds me of you
Now that it's clear, there are no more tears for me to cry
Now it's time that I said my last goodbye
Ginny pondered carefully for a moment, before coming to a decision. What the heck, she had to get out before she started crying again. She would go somewhere where she and Draco had never gone before, somewhere where their friends wouldn't turn up.
The garbage dump was definitely out of the question, so was Diagon Alley. Oh wait! That was it!! The perfect place.
From time to time
I hear them whisper your name
Just when I think I'm over you
It brings it all back again
I hope you're happy with
The choices you've made
Your love was a gamble that's the price I paid
Ginny scrabbled for her wand, yelling downstairs to Molly, "Mom! I'm going out for a while."
Molly shouted back encouragingly, "Good, dear! Make sure you do a clean job! Don't leave any evidence!!"
At this several gasps and tut-tuts could be heard from the family downstairs. Ginny distinctly heard Hermione (who was married to Ron) say, "She isn't going to murder anyone! Least of all Draco!"
Ginny couldn't take it anymore. The mere mention of his name brought stinging tears to her eyes. The name held much pain, joy and memories for her. She blinked back the salty tears and disapparated.
She reappeared in Hogsmeade. She planned to walk to Hogwarts, into the Dark Forest (no one in the right sense of mind went there for dates) – she had actually read Hogwarts, A History at Hermione's insistence, and knew that no one could apparate to Hogwarts.
After about a half hour of trekking (literally), she reached the fringes of the Forest. She wasn't scared of entering. She was, after all, a full-trained witch, and she wasn't planning to go far.
But half my heart still wants you back
Remember half of your life was mine
So won't you tell me
A left here, a right here, go straight, tap the tree trunk. A small clearing materialized before Ginny. She had discovered this little place in her last year, right before her graduation ceremony in fact. Though she never had the chance to return, she never forgot the way here.
She plopped down amidst the soft springy grass. She lay back leisurely, admiring the bright blue summer sky. Here, she hoped to settle her thoughts, sort them all out.
There was no denying, she did want Draco back in her life. Yet, she did not want him back, afraid of the pain he might bring once again to her.
They had enjoyed so many years of bliss together. There HAD to be a chance of reconciliation. Here, Ginny chided herself, reminding herself that Draco returning to her was as likely as a giraffe laying eggs. He seemed smitten with Jenny.
She sighed softly. Maybe she should learn to let go. Really let go.
Where do I go, what do I do
When everywhere I turn it just reminds me of you
Now that it's clear, there are no more tears for me to cry
Now it's time that I said my last goodbye
After all, if she didn't let go, she would be haunted by her past, never being able to confront the present. If she didn't let go, she would never be able to get on with her life, her future. She was still young, her youthful looks still retained. She knew she would have no problem getting another man.
But the fact remained – was she willing to let go?
I hope you're regretting
Letting me go
Now it's time to say goodbye
I've got no more tears to cry
There's something that I've
Got to know baby
Where do I go, what do I do
When everywhere I turn it just reminds me of you
Now that it's clear, there are no more tears for me to cry
Now it's time that I said my last goodbye
After a while, Ginny realised that her thoughts were doing her no good, they still ended up at the same question mark. Could she move on?
With a start, she realised that it was growing dark. Getting up, she brushed grass of her, as she walked out of the magic clearing. As she stepped cautiously towards the edge of the Forest, a sudden movement at the corner of her eye caught her attention. She spun around, whipping out her wand. A pair of yellow glinting eyes peered out at her from a bush.
Backing away quickly and nervously, Ginny licked her lips nervously. Without any warning, the beast suddenly sprang out at her, snarling dangerously. Ginny shrieked and tripped over her own feet, raising her arms over her head. The creature landed on her, knocking her head into the hard ground.
All Ginny remembered before she blacked out were two rows of salivating sharp teeth.
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OOOOH!!! Evil cliffie. Haha! Don't worry, I'll try to have the next chapter up by next year. *evil cackle* Oh yea I know the song wasn't really that well tied to the story, but I was kinda blur while I was writing this.
So… be kind and leave a review puh-leaze???? Though I know this sucked royally. Haha… toodles! I shall go re-read Order of the Phoenix. Yay!
Thanks go to:
Alison Alliterates Amicably pls pls pls hurry up with your d/g fic hor? Haha…
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Raindrops yea die jenny! Haha.
Deadly Rose thanks for the suggestion of a sequel, though this is the second time I'm writing this. Lol
Chryz How about YOUR fic? Lol
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