By: Milah Luciana Merverosa
A/N: Please Read and Review! I'm not irritating myself so badly with the paragraph spacing-- a good thing, I suppose.
I have a mortal fear of lawyers. In the words of Twisted
Sister, "We're not going to take it", and I won't. I own nothing. If
I did, I wouldn't be here... *grimace*
Kind regards,
~Milah Luciana Merverosa
Chapter seven
My first weekend at Hogwarts, for the most part, was spent alone, trying to unpack. Sometimes Remus or Severus would stop in to talk. I discovered that Remus spent a large portion of his adult life alone and unemployed. I was sorry for him because he did so much to help me... "If you had contacted me Remus, maybe I could have helped you." I said absentmindedly as I unwrapped my new quills.
"Did you forget your mysterious disappearance, Milah? Many thought that you were killed in the line of duty, a prisoner of war... I worried for years, never giving up hope of finding you alive, but Albus kept your secret from the world. He was the only one you told, Milah. It hurts that you didn't tell me, of all people." He looked so weak. After all, he full moon was only two nights away.
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I ran to Dumbledore's office as quickly as I could. My eyes were swollen from tears, my clothes torn and bloody from battle, and one of my wands had broken from trying to beat someone off me. The first war against Voldemort was in full stride. Death was everywhere, and I couldn't deal with things anymore. How I entered Hogwarts I'll never know. Death Eaters are charmed from ever entering its highly protected doors.
I ran down several corridors and up innumerable flights of stairs. I was in terrific shape; a true soldier. I saw the Phoenix statue that blocked his entrance and ran towards it. "Agent Merverosa, I was expecting you." His voice made me jump out of my skin!
Wand drawn, I turned. "Albus, I have to leave. I can't stay anymore. I don't care who's side that I'm on."
"I can not stop you." His eyes grew distant. "I've watched you grow, mature, become an Auror, and a Death Eater as well. I wonder why it is that you're here before me now, Milah. Are you looking to me for validation?"
"I never meant for this to happen, Professor. Any of it..." I sank to the floor and sobbed. "I never meant for them to die... I liked them. Remus loved them... I must leave. There's no other way..." I crawled up the wall to a standing position and turned my back to leave, but Albus grabbed me.
"What about Remus? Don't you think he deserves to hear from you first?" He glared at me harshly. "If you don't know by now how he feels about you, then you don't deserve him. Look at the ring on your hand Milah..." He picked up my freshly scarred left hand to show me my engagement ring. "He loves you so much. It may kill any human left in him if you leave. You're scheduled to be married in less than a month, Milah. Why not wait awhile to clear your head?"
"Why are you keeping me here Albus? You stupid old coot, don't you realize that I'm the enemy? I'm a goddamned Death Eater for Christ's sake!"
"As is Severus Snape. I'm not worried about you. If you really are the enemy, why are you here?"
"I wanted you to know. I wanted someone to know that I was alive, and I can be counted on to come back, if, and only if, I was needed. I only joined Him because of Severus. I was never on his side..." My sobbing continued as I resumed walking away.
"Remember Remus, Milah. He loves you, needs you, and will protect you. You cannot hide from Voldemort... He will find you, even if he has to use your family to get to you..."
I stopped short in my tracks, dropping the shattered wand. "Professor, I have no family, and maybe I can't hide forever, but I shall try. I can't let Remus get hurt because of my stupidity. I can't bring him into this. Goodbye Albus."
"Good luck Milah, and G-d speed. I'll be seeing you again." I ran away from everything and everyone. Nobody was going to find me.
*****(present day)*****
The world had gone dark. I could hear a voice, but who was it? "Wake up; you fainted. Please wake up, Milah." Remus. It was Remus, and he was shaking me. I couldn't move. I could hear Remus' footsteps as he ran outside. Minutes later, I heard Albus and a few others enter the room.
"What is this Madame Pomfrey?" Remus was panicking. "What's wrong with her? She just fell to the ground and started convulsing. Now she has a fever... What is this?"
"The best thing for everyone, Professor Lupin, is for you not. to. panic." She prodded him with her wand at each of the last three words. "Everyone give me some space to work." She motioned for everyone to move back. "Albus, have you ever seen this happen?"
"Yes Poppy, I have. I've seen this before. This isn't a fever... Someone fetch Severus!"
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A/N: I do hope that someone stumbles upon this to read it. What do you think? I'll never know if you don't review... Even if it's short because it's the only way I know that people are reading. Check out a picture of Milah on the link at my author page. Check out my Live Journal too!
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Later babes!
~Milah