A/N: Remus is allergic to silver, and I'm allergic to lawyers. Only Milah
and the plot is mine... Everything else goes to Rowling the Magnificent!
Chocolate frogs to anyone who can figure out what I'm poking fun at with my title!!!
Where are my reviews? *cries* Haven't heard from Hinote... I miss you! Please come back to me!!!
Bmiller669 has expressed a dislike for my attitude toward Remus. But I'm glad that you approve now that I've better covered my bottom! It's mixed feedback like yours that I truly appreciate! You tell me that you liked it, but you also gave me something to fix! That's how writing is made better!!! Thanks a bunch Ms. Miller!! For all of you confused blokes out there, I'll post the correspondence on the review page!
Welcome to the madness that is me! *Bows*
Just a general Author update... I've met this guy. He's wonderful. We dated a while back in high school, and we've decided to give it another go. We're both older and much wiser than we were back then. *gazes into crystal ball* I'm an expert at divination, you know.... *wink* I see lots of fluff in Milah's future...
Best regards,
~Milah Luciana Merverosa
This is it guys! That fateful chapter where she makes her decision known... We start at mid-December! If I do a flashback, it isn't going to be an old memory because she's contemplating over these two men... Keep in mind that these are more recent F/B, okay?
* ** *
"Can anyone tell me the spell to make things levitate?" I asked the class. It was full of first years, and I chose this charm to run through today.
"Avada-"
"No!" I cried quickly. "That's not it..." I smiled and placed a hand on his shoulder. I was walking towards the back of the class. "Mr. Rosmerta, I recall seeing you floating a piece of cake about the Great Hall..." He looked abashed that he was caught.
"But that was months ago. You haven't been to dinner since..." He thought it best to keep quiet.
"What's the charm, Billy?" There was a new found edge in my voice.
"Wingardium Leviosa."
"Very good." I smiled at the small framed Hufflepuff. "Now, I have a simple task. Make something on your desk levitate, and you may go. Enjoy your Hogsmeade weekend, and for those of you returning home, have a safe and healthy trip." I sat down at my desk and rubbed my temples. I know what I have to do, but I'm not sure that I want to... I know what I'll do!
*** "Professor MgGonagal?"
"Yes Milah?" I stepped into her office and smiled at her.
"I need some advice..."
"Ah..." She picked her nose out of a stack of essays. "About your-- current situation, I believe?" She smiled at me.
"Yes, that's right." I buried my face in my hands. "I just don't know what to do!" I began to sob. She instantly stood, shut her door, and sat in a chair facing me.
"It's okay, Milah. It happens to the best of us..." She hugged me. Truth is, we had become friends since I started teaching. She knew all about my dilemma, and wanted to help me. "Tell me what's bothering you."
I told her whom I had chosen, and she smiled. "I knew that is what you would do. It's shocking though, to hear it actually spoken. I never would have thought that he could..." Her voice trailed off. "Well, we have some work to do." She slapped me on the shoulder. "Now, first things first. Let's go and buy you some new robes!"
"What?"
"You're starting a new life. New life, new robes; it's perfectly practical, I assure you."
"Who should I tell first?" I asked as I paid for my brand new (sexy) colorful robe.
"Tell Mr. Lupin first. You don't want to cause any pain or misunderstanding..." She smiled at me kindly. "I must admit that I don't envy your task one bit." She placed a hand on my shoulder. "But I wouldn't mind two men fighting over me..." Minerva smiled slyly. "Now, let's make you irresistible. They won't know what hit them at dinner tonight."
"I still don't want to eat at the table."
"But you must..."
"It could be awkward. I don't want to see either one just yet..."
"I know what you could do!" She said as we walked into Bewitching Beauties, a ladies parlour. "You could wear your normal black robes to dinner, and tell who you don't want. Then sport your new ones" She indicated the wrapped parcel in my arms, "later on. For the winner, you know."
"Minerva, you are a beast!"
"Well, I missed out in my chances for love. I want you to have yours."
(Mini F/B)*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
An owl flew to my window and began its incessant tapping. I opened it to let him in and he dropped a letter in my lap.
Dear Milah,
I must express my supreme displeasure with my behaviour at the Party. I never meant to hurt you. Please be on more amicable terms with me?
~Severus Snape
"That's the best apology that he's ever written." I put on my cloak and made my way to the dungeons to speak to him.
"Enter." He looked up from the book that he was reading. "Ah, it's you..." He gave me a weak smile.
"I received your letter."
"And?"
"And I think that it was a horrible thing that you did. You hurt me! I was placed back into Gurth because of it!" I sighed. "I'm a little uncomfortable, that's all. Time heals all wounds." I left.
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Minerva sat down by Albus, "She's going to tell them tonight." She smiled knowingly.
"And that, my dear, is good news. The tension at the dinner table should loosen considerably, once she's back to herself..."
***
"I can't believe that I'm going to do this..." I was applying muggle cosmetics to my face. "This could change everything!" I was speaking to my two pet bunnies. "What if he rejects me... I spent all this meditation and time finding my correct partner, and I don't even know if he still wants me..." 'Don't cry... You just spent all that time applying that eye liner, don't mess it up!' I thought angrily. "Well, this is it. He'll be back in his chambers by now... I just have to break the news to Remus." I sighed as I slipped my wand up my sleeve. Taking a final glance at myself in the mirror, I strode off to have the conversation that would change my world.
The halls were dark and damp, but inordinarily filled with students. One Slytherin seventh year stopped me, mouth open. "My G-d Professor. You look amazing!" She was gawking at me. "You really should wear colour. Maroon is perfect on you..."
"Thank you." I smiled. Her reaction is just what I needed. It wasn't just her. I had people stumbling over their own feet. They had never really seen me all fixed up, except for the Ball, and they had never seen me wear a colour sans black. I received many Ooohs and Ahhs. I must admit that I liked it, but I wish they hadn't seen me because now the rumors would circulate. I wanted to bring Severus the news myself, and not have him hear things through the grapevine...
Remus lived in a more private section of the castle. Students rarely went there, and tonight was no exception. It was a place where he could be a werewolf without disturbing sleeping students. I practiced many poses. Finally I just knocked on the door. He opened his door and was wiping his hands with a kitchen towel. Upon seeing me his mouth hit the floor. "I- uh- I-" Just the reaction that I was looking for... (A/N *wink*)
"Can I come in?"
"No!" He answered me a bit too quickly. I entered anyway, just in time to see someone transform into a black dog.
"Sirius Black, is that you?" I was not terribly pleased to see him.
"No, this is my dog Snuffles."
"You lie... Get out of here for now, Sirius. I need to have a word with our friend here." He wasn't moving. "Remember what happened with our last confrontation..." I gave him a warning glare, and he quickly skittered out of the room.
He looked thoroughly astounded to see me, "What can I do for you?" 'My G- d, she looks magnificent.' He thought. "Please, sit."
"I have some news for you." I smiled sadly. My fate was about to change, and how he took the news would be the anchor that stabilized my life.
"You've made your decision then?" His face darkened. "By the looks of what you have to say, it can't be good."
"It isn't. Someone's heart is going to break tonight." I said quietly. "It could be mine. I just don't know yet."
He took my hand, trying to make a brave face. "I only ever want you to be happy. Even if it isn't with me..."
Shit! This isn't going well. "Remus, you misunderstand me. I came to you to tell you that I chose you..." I looked at him and saw the exact moment that the news hit him. His face lit up so bright that it almost hurt my eyes to look at him. "I chose you, Remmie..." I touched his cheek.
"But why?"
"Because you still loved me even after you found out about my past." He wrapped his arms around me as I continued, "Severus may have known about me all along, but you stayed by me after the truth escaped. You didn't cast me away..." I looked at his oriental rug, "Even though I probably deserved it."
He moved closer to me, and we shared the sweetest kiss ever. So chalked full of emotion, passion, and happiness that we still aren't sure how long it lasted. "I love you, Milah... I'm so glad that you came back to me..." He smiled, and I buried my head in his chest. There was only one way to describe my feelings that night, "content". I finally knew who I truly was, and I had Remus back. My life was wonderful.
I awoke the next morning in the same position that we both fell asleep. It was early, but I knew that Severus would be awake. I tried to move without him waking, but was unsuccessful. He pulled me closer as he opened his eyes. "So it wasn't a dream..."
"No, it wasn't. Good morning." He kissed my head and released me.
"Where are you going?" He watched me straighten my robes. They had become all wrinkly from sleeping on the loveseat
"Wrinkle no more." I charmed all the wrinkles out of my maroon robes. I glanced up at him, "I have to tell Severus. Please, don't gloat... He's still my friend."
"I thought that you weren't speaking to him."
"He may not wish to speak to me after I tell him this..." I looked at him smiling. "I know who I am now."
"I've always known who you were. You could have asked me... I would have reminded you, and we could have both saved a lot of time."
I raised my eyebrows at him and said, "Don't make me rethink my decision..." He kissed me fiercely.
"This is going to be the happiest day of my life, Milah... You've made me a happy man."
"I'm glad..." I touched his cheek and headed to the dungeons.
"Severus? Are you here?" I was rewarded to hear a half awake grunt from the behind his desk.
"Milah? What are you doing here? I thought that you weren't speaking to me." He had apparently fallen asleep at his desk grading papers. "Not that your presence displeases me..."
"I've made my decision, Sevi..."
"Oh?" He murmured, trying not to put too much feeling in his voice.
"I'm sorry..."
He stood up, and hugged me. "It's alright. I expected that you would go back to him. I was prepared." pulling away, he told me, "I wish you and Lupin all the best. I'd never wish you ill..." A single tear fell down his cheek. "If you'll excuse me, I have papers to grade." He sat back at his desk, and picked up his quill as if there had been no exchange between us.
"I'm sorry for you all the same. I know that it must hurt." I quietly closed the door behind me.
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A/N: What do you think? I'll never know if you don't review... Check out a picture of Milah on the link at my author page.
So? How was it? Does everyone support my thought to keep Lupin? Let me know! Also let me know if you are interested enough in me doing a sequel. I have some good ideas for the happy couple, and I want to know if you would be interested in me continuing. Well, whatever... Review please!! I'm going to probably keep on with it anyway, but I want your input...
Oh, and if you guys feel up to it, I'll write you all in. Just send me a mini-bio of what you'd like to be. I could use some students and some professors, as well! My email is tbarbe02@bellsouth.net have fun with it, guys! I'm always up to talking so if you see me online, speak!
Love from your Slytherin Queen,
~Milah
Chocolate frogs to anyone who can figure out what I'm poking fun at with my title!!!
Where are my reviews? *cries* Haven't heard from Hinote... I miss you! Please come back to me!!!
Bmiller669 has expressed a dislike for my attitude toward Remus. But I'm glad that you approve now that I've better covered my bottom! It's mixed feedback like yours that I truly appreciate! You tell me that you liked it, but you also gave me something to fix! That's how writing is made better!!! Thanks a bunch Ms. Miller!! For all of you confused blokes out there, I'll post the correspondence on the review page!
Welcome to the madness that is me! *Bows*
Just a general Author update... I've met this guy. He's wonderful. We dated a while back in high school, and we've decided to give it another go. We're both older and much wiser than we were back then. *gazes into crystal ball* I'm an expert at divination, you know.... *wink* I see lots of fluff in Milah's future...
Best regards,
~Milah Luciana Merverosa
This is it guys! That fateful chapter where she makes her decision known... We start at mid-December! If I do a flashback, it isn't going to be an old memory because she's contemplating over these two men... Keep in mind that these are more recent F/B, okay?
* ** *
"Can anyone tell me the spell to make things levitate?" I asked the class. It was full of first years, and I chose this charm to run through today.
"Avada-"
"No!" I cried quickly. "That's not it..." I smiled and placed a hand on his shoulder. I was walking towards the back of the class. "Mr. Rosmerta, I recall seeing you floating a piece of cake about the Great Hall..." He looked abashed that he was caught.
"But that was months ago. You haven't been to dinner since..." He thought it best to keep quiet.
"What's the charm, Billy?" There was a new found edge in my voice.
"Wingardium Leviosa."
"Very good." I smiled at the small framed Hufflepuff. "Now, I have a simple task. Make something on your desk levitate, and you may go. Enjoy your Hogsmeade weekend, and for those of you returning home, have a safe and healthy trip." I sat down at my desk and rubbed my temples. I know what I have to do, but I'm not sure that I want to... I know what I'll do!
*** "Professor MgGonagal?"
"Yes Milah?" I stepped into her office and smiled at her.
"I need some advice..."
"Ah..." She picked her nose out of a stack of essays. "About your-- current situation, I believe?" She smiled at me.
"Yes, that's right." I buried my face in my hands. "I just don't know what to do!" I began to sob. She instantly stood, shut her door, and sat in a chair facing me.
"It's okay, Milah. It happens to the best of us..." She hugged me. Truth is, we had become friends since I started teaching. She knew all about my dilemma, and wanted to help me. "Tell me what's bothering you."
I told her whom I had chosen, and she smiled. "I knew that is what you would do. It's shocking though, to hear it actually spoken. I never would have thought that he could..." Her voice trailed off. "Well, we have some work to do." She slapped me on the shoulder. "Now, first things first. Let's go and buy you some new robes!"
"What?"
"You're starting a new life. New life, new robes; it's perfectly practical, I assure you."
"Who should I tell first?" I asked as I paid for my brand new (sexy) colorful robe.
"Tell Mr. Lupin first. You don't want to cause any pain or misunderstanding..." She smiled at me kindly. "I must admit that I don't envy your task one bit." She placed a hand on my shoulder. "But I wouldn't mind two men fighting over me..." Minerva smiled slyly. "Now, let's make you irresistible. They won't know what hit them at dinner tonight."
"I still don't want to eat at the table."
"But you must..."
"It could be awkward. I don't want to see either one just yet..."
"I know what you could do!" She said as we walked into Bewitching Beauties, a ladies parlour. "You could wear your normal black robes to dinner, and tell who you don't want. Then sport your new ones" She indicated the wrapped parcel in my arms, "later on. For the winner, you know."
"Minerva, you are a beast!"
"Well, I missed out in my chances for love. I want you to have yours."
(Mini F/B)*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
An owl flew to my window and began its incessant tapping. I opened it to let him in and he dropped a letter in my lap.
Dear Milah,
I must express my supreme displeasure with my behaviour at the Party. I never meant to hurt you. Please be on more amicable terms with me?
~Severus Snape
"That's the best apology that he's ever written." I put on my cloak and made my way to the dungeons to speak to him.
"Enter." He looked up from the book that he was reading. "Ah, it's you..." He gave me a weak smile.
"I received your letter."
"And?"
"And I think that it was a horrible thing that you did. You hurt me! I was placed back into Gurth because of it!" I sighed. "I'm a little uncomfortable, that's all. Time heals all wounds." I left.
***************************************************
Minerva sat down by Albus, "She's going to tell them tonight." She smiled knowingly.
"And that, my dear, is good news. The tension at the dinner table should loosen considerably, once she's back to herself..."
***
"I can't believe that I'm going to do this..." I was applying muggle cosmetics to my face. "This could change everything!" I was speaking to my two pet bunnies. "What if he rejects me... I spent all this meditation and time finding my correct partner, and I don't even know if he still wants me..." 'Don't cry... You just spent all that time applying that eye liner, don't mess it up!' I thought angrily. "Well, this is it. He'll be back in his chambers by now... I just have to break the news to Remus." I sighed as I slipped my wand up my sleeve. Taking a final glance at myself in the mirror, I strode off to have the conversation that would change my world.
The halls were dark and damp, but inordinarily filled with students. One Slytherin seventh year stopped me, mouth open. "My G-d Professor. You look amazing!" She was gawking at me. "You really should wear colour. Maroon is perfect on you..."
"Thank you." I smiled. Her reaction is just what I needed. It wasn't just her. I had people stumbling over their own feet. They had never really seen me all fixed up, except for the Ball, and they had never seen me wear a colour sans black. I received many Ooohs and Ahhs. I must admit that I liked it, but I wish they hadn't seen me because now the rumors would circulate. I wanted to bring Severus the news myself, and not have him hear things through the grapevine...
Remus lived in a more private section of the castle. Students rarely went there, and tonight was no exception. It was a place where he could be a werewolf without disturbing sleeping students. I practiced many poses. Finally I just knocked on the door. He opened his door and was wiping his hands with a kitchen towel. Upon seeing me his mouth hit the floor. "I- uh- I-" Just the reaction that I was looking for... (A/N *wink*)
"Can I come in?"
"No!" He answered me a bit too quickly. I entered anyway, just in time to see someone transform into a black dog.
"Sirius Black, is that you?" I was not terribly pleased to see him.
"No, this is my dog Snuffles."
"You lie... Get out of here for now, Sirius. I need to have a word with our friend here." He wasn't moving. "Remember what happened with our last confrontation..." I gave him a warning glare, and he quickly skittered out of the room.
He looked thoroughly astounded to see me, "What can I do for you?" 'My G- d, she looks magnificent.' He thought. "Please, sit."
"I have some news for you." I smiled sadly. My fate was about to change, and how he took the news would be the anchor that stabilized my life.
"You've made your decision then?" His face darkened. "By the looks of what you have to say, it can't be good."
"It isn't. Someone's heart is going to break tonight." I said quietly. "It could be mine. I just don't know yet."
He took my hand, trying to make a brave face. "I only ever want you to be happy. Even if it isn't with me..."
Shit! This isn't going well. "Remus, you misunderstand me. I came to you to tell you that I chose you..." I looked at him and saw the exact moment that the news hit him. His face lit up so bright that it almost hurt my eyes to look at him. "I chose you, Remmie..." I touched his cheek.
"But why?"
"Because you still loved me even after you found out about my past." He wrapped his arms around me as I continued, "Severus may have known about me all along, but you stayed by me after the truth escaped. You didn't cast me away..." I looked at his oriental rug, "Even though I probably deserved it."
He moved closer to me, and we shared the sweetest kiss ever. So chalked full of emotion, passion, and happiness that we still aren't sure how long it lasted. "I love you, Milah... I'm so glad that you came back to me..." He smiled, and I buried my head in his chest. There was only one way to describe my feelings that night, "content". I finally knew who I truly was, and I had Remus back. My life was wonderful.
I awoke the next morning in the same position that we both fell asleep. It was early, but I knew that Severus would be awake. I tried to move without him waking, but was unsuccessful. He pulled me closer as he opened his eyes. "So it wasn't a dream..."
"No, it wasn't. Good morning." He kissed my head and released me.
"Where are you going?" He watched me straighten my robes. They had become all wrinkly from sleeping on the loveseat
"Wrinkle no more." I charmed all the wrinkles out of my maroon robes. I glanced up at him, "I have to tell Severus. Please, don't gloat... He's still my friend."
"I thought that you weren't speaking to him."
"He may not wish to speak to me after I tell him this..." I looked at him smiling. "I know who I am now."
"I've always known who you were. You could have asked me... I would have reminded you, and we could have both saved a lot of time."
I raised my eyebrows at him and said, "Don't make me rethink my decision..." He kissed me fiercely.
"This is going to be the happiest day of my life, Milah... You've made me a happy man."
"I'm glad..." I touched his cheek and headed to the dungeons.
"Severus? Are you here?" I was rewarded to hear a half awake grunt from the behind his desk.
"Milah? What are you doing here? I thought that you weren't speaking to me." He had apparently fallen asleep at his desk grading papers. "Not that your presence displeases me..."
"I've made my decision, Sevi..."
"Oh?" He murmured, trying not to put too much feeling in his voice.
"I'm sorry..."
He stood up, and hugged me. "It's alright. I expected that you would go back to him. I was prepared." pulling away, he told me, "I wish you and Lupin all the best. I'd never wish you ill..." A single tear fell down his cheek. "If you'll excuse me, I have papers to grade." He sat back at his desk, and picked up his quill as if there had been no exchange between us.
"I'm sorry for you all the same. I know that it must hurt." I quietly closed the door behind me.
* ** *
A/N: What do you think? I'll never know if you don't review... Check out a picture of Milah on the link at my author page.
So? How was it? Does everyone support my thought to keep Lupin? Let me know! Also let me know if you are interested enough in me doing a sequel. I have some good ideas for the happy couple, and I want to know if you would be interested in me continuing. Well, whatever... Review please!! I'm going to probably keep on with it anyway, but I want your input...
Oh, and if you guys feel up to it, I'll write you all in. Just send me a mini-bio of what you'd like to be. I could use some students and some professors, as well! My email is tbarbe02@bellsouth.net have fun with it, guys! I'm always up to talking so if you see me online, speak!
Love from your Slytherin Queen,
~Milah