And, WOW, thank you, for the extremely nice reviews. I have fun with Ephram, he reminds me of myself. Amy, I had a little trouble with...but here's that sequel. Maybe I'll continue this with more. We'll see...
But you're going on none the less
And there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
Keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
Longer good-byes
Embracing for forever
And falling in your eyes
Pouring over photographs
I'm living in your letters
Breathe deeply from
this envelope
it smells like you and I can't be
without that scent
It's
filling me with all you mean to me
Continually failing these trials
But you stand by me nonetheless
And
you won't let me sink
though I'm begging you
I'm begging you
Phone
calls from further away
And messages on my machine
but I don't ever tell
you this distance seems terrible
There is no need to test my heart, with
useless space
These roads go on forever,
There'll always be a place for
you in my heart
So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
And pushing
you far away cause I'm scared
So I'll take my chances
And head on my way
up there
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're
ten
Ephram,
I got your letter today, Ephram, and if you were here, I'd yell
at you right now, but since you're not, I'm going to write in all capitals and
maybe you'll get the idea. EPHRAM BROWN I'VE BEEN WORRIED ABOUT YOU SINCE THE
DAY YOU LEFT AND YOU WAIT A WHOLE YEAR BEFORE YOU TELL ME THAT YOU'RE STILL
ALIVE?!?! THERE HASN'T BEEN A DAY WHERE I HAVEN'T THOUGHT OF YOU AND WONDERED IF
YOU WERE OKAY!!
But, I'm not mad. I couldn't be mad. I know you had your reasons why you left, but according to your letter, those reasons aren't there anymore, are they? The only reason you're not coming back is because of me and Colin? Well, your last reason is gone. Colin and I broke up only two months after you left. I was miserable, and eventually Colin stopped believing the lies I was feeding him. He knew why. You were gone. My heart was gone.
You must not call home a lot, because I assumed your father would have told you. Maybe I shouldn't call Everwood "home." Where do you consider home, Ephram? Here? Or New York? Oh, who I am kidding, New York will always be your home. It holds your best memories right? Home is where the heart is. Well, then, could your home possibly be here? Oh, here I go, I'm rambling on about something again.
I'd love for you to at least come back and visit. I'd love it even more if you came back … forever. But I won't ask you. I'll let you come back if that's what you really want.
Ephram, I … I don't know how to put this. Well, I do, but it's gonna sound really cheesy. But ever since that first day I met you, I felt something deep inside. I would have never told you this, but now that you're gone and probably never coming back, I figured why not. It was something I'd never felt before, not even with Colin. Something inside of me screaming "This is who you were made for" and I guess I just knew, it was meant to be. It's just the circumstances were all wrong. I really wish we had met before Colin. Why couldn't you have moved to Everwood just a couple years earlier? Why couldn't this just be easy?
Nothing's ever easy for you Ephram, is it? I'm so sorry. I look back on how I acted and I drove you away. I might as well have packed your things and bought your plane ticket. I wish there was someway I could repack your things and buy you that plane ticket back. I miss you. I miss you so much.
I love you, Ephram Brown, and living here without you, knowing that you're out there, has caused this big, gaping hole in my life. Ephram, if you really would do anything for me, like you said in your letter, then come back to me. Come back to me and I'll show you how much I really do love you, and you can show me.
Write back soon.
My love always,
Grover
P.S. Come home. Please.