Nothing to Hide 'Sequel to 'Nowhere to Run'

by ShadowGraffiti

*epilouge* He thought it was over. He thought he’d be safe. He thought he’d won. He was wrong. With the Warders trying to fight the rising Dark Elves, how long can Bernard hide the truth of his bloodstained past from his daughter’s eyes?

4. Existance

A/N: Heyo peeps!!! Ok, this is where the real story actually picks up! ^_^ This story is going to be a bit more complex than the first one and have a much angstier scene and a bunch of unexpected twists... AND I'VE FINALLY COME UP WITH IDEAS FOR THE THREEQUEL!!!!! (does anyone know what that is really called?? Triquel... that looks better but still... threequel rhymes with prequel and sequel... *shrugs*) Alrighty! Here it is!

Also, I now have an image gallery for this story up!

http://www.angelfire.com/realm2/fanfiction_bernard/gallery.html

Existance
chapter 3

Trik Turner - Existance

All my life I've searched for answers,
All my life I've searched for answers,

Some suffer,
Some thrive,
Some live,
Some die.

Some love,
Some hate,
Some find nothing in common,
Some relate.

Some sin,
Some are innocent,
Some are good,
Some are bad,
Some sad...

All I want is to understand...

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

Some think, some drink, some sink into a hole, they can't let go,
Others bleed for their sins, some draw blood for them ends,
Some steal, some deal, some peel off their skin,
And try to start again.

The rest fiend, the rest still dream; my heart pumps,
Just to feel that cream,
I'm elevated, cross-faded with a bag of tricks,
I'm in the mix since 96

Shoot the facts and relax, we melt on wax,
On top of the world is where we at,
When I trip I slip, my cons got grip,
To the left and to the right, shit is tight,
Cause I'm an addict, addicted to music,
It's a habit, you know I choose it.

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

Scrape the pieces off the wall of my hate,
Clean the slate but it's far too late,
I stitch my own skin, you can't penetrate,
Don't look back, it's all fate.

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

~*~

Good morning, Warders! Aegis greeted the very groggy looking bunch, her green eyes shining behind her half-moon spectacles.

It's already morning... I was gonna say good evening! Hunter groaned, just to show how tired he was.

Oh come on! I didn't get you up THAT early, did I? Aegis looked slightly amused by their reactions.

Aegis... it's very dangerous to make me get up at FIVE IN THE MORNING! Amber warned, shouting the last bit.

Well, you seem to be awake now, Aegis smiled, making Amber sigh, throw her hands up in defeat, and then slump down in her chair. Well, if you aren't, you all better make yourselves awake pretty soon... because your training begins NOW! Everyone jumped at her sudden rise in voice. Now fully alert (but still tired, nonetheless), they all exchanged nervous glances, and Aegis laughed.

What do you mean by... Hunter leaned forward.

I mean training, Hunter! Training as in... you and Kira are going to go up on the stage now and fight, she grinned.

You mean we're just gonna go up there and fight despite the fact that we don't even know HOW?! Kira cried, to which Aegis nodded proudly. Momentarily forgetting their rivalries, they exchanged annoyed glances with each other and then immediately looked away before walking up to the stage, looking in opposite directions.

Now, what I want you both to do is use your mind to channel all energy to the release source-

Aegis, perhaps it might help if I try explaining... Amber proposed, to which Aegis gave a thoughtful look.

Yes, you might be right... alright, my dear, take the floor! Aegis sat down in the nearest chair and Amber smiled.

Alright guys... all you need to do is focus very hard on channeling all energy to your hands. Strain them and the power should come quicker than you expect. Once you get there, it will come naturally... just try working on letting out small amounts rather than draining yourself, both of them nodded gratefully at Amber before turning back to each other. Hate flickered in both their eyes... a hate that ran deep.

I don't care if we're both Warders... I hate him! Kira thought angrily to herself, gritting her teeth, anger flickering in her hazel eyes.

Her... a Warder? Now, we're all going to have twice as hard to make up for this pathetic waste of air! Hunter mused to himself, sneering at the girl. Aegis smiled. She knew they would be a good fight...

My dears, I would like you to both focus your energy as I count. On three, you will release your power and dodge your opponents, Aegis instructed them. They stood about thirty feet apart, glaring daggers.

Wanna just forfeit now so you don't break a nail? Hunter taunted, his sneer even worse. Kira's eyes narrowed before she lifted a finger to her mouth and ripped her nail off with her teeth, spitting it to the side.

Oh, you wish, scumbag! she shot back at him, and Hunter was a bit surprised. Now that he thought about it, the scene was a bit humorous... here was this girl in purple and white velvet, a string a pearls around her forehead, lining her neck line, and hanging around her shoulders... glaring at him as if she wanted to kill him, and no doubt she did.

Alright, enough you two! On three... one! both of them raised their hands, Kira concentrating as hard as she could.

This should be easy... Hunter thought, barely putting forth any effort.



I'm gonna blast him clear across the room! Kira muttered to herself, feeling her energy growing. Aegis grinned at the two before shouting the last, fateful word.

and they both fired.

Kira screamed, throwing her hands up over her head and then slamming them back down, sending a ripple of power forth. Hunter only had a moment to think before a powerful blast smashed into him, blowing him into the second story balcony, where he clung to the railing for dear life.

Kira easily ducked his small attempt at a water blast before slamming her hands towards the ground. She felt wind swirl beneath her feet, lifting her off the ground. Allowing herself to rise easily off the ground, she sent forth another, powerful blast of wind. It crashed into Hunter with amazing force, breaking the railing and sending him back into the wall.

Hunter's head was pounding and his lip was bleeding as he lay slumped against the wall. Slowly, he lifted his head to see the young elf, golden locks swirling around her head and sash excess blowing around her waist, standing on what bit of the railing was left, her arms crossed and eyes flickering in anger, though a mocking smile was on her lips.

Oh, and would you look at that, she said, extending her hand so that she could see the back. Didn't even chip the polish! She sneered at him before jumping down, not even thinking as she let the wind slow her ten foot drop, landing crouched on the ground.

Amber stared, jaw dropped, at her friend, just like the others.

Yeah... I'd say whoa... Aegis nodded, her own jaw dropped. Kira blinked a moment before smiling. And as if her smile had been a trigger, Aegis, Amber, Bernard, and Perrin burst into applause.

THAT WAS AWESOME, KIRA! Amber congradulated her friend, who turned rather red and walked back to her seat with her head down, though an uncontrolable smile was on her face.

Oh, it wasn't that hard...

YOU HAVE TO GIVE YOURSELF MORE CREDIT THAN THAT! Aegis cried with wild eyes and glasses askew. Kira looked up, a bit shocked. Wind is one of the hardest element to control while water is one of the easier ones... and you just did what the Child of Wind of my time couldn't do for three months! Kira turned redder and giggled.

Um... a little help... they all looked up to see Hunter leaning over the edge. Aegis laughed before looking at Kira. The girl groaned before staring at Hunter, and each could see the energy flickering within her eyes. Hunter floated up into the air, much to his fright, before floating down slowly. He looked relieved that Kira wasn't planning to kill him yet... when suddenly, at three feet off the ground, Kira released the barrier and his eyes widened in fright before he hit the ground.

he groaned as he hit the ground with a soft thump', producing a fit of giggles from Amber and Kira.

Alright... Hunter, crawl your way over here and Bernard, Perrin... you two are up!

Let's go! the two were up on the stage in no time, Perrin completely ignoring Hunter's groans of pain as he rolled around, holding his stomach.

Perrin concentrated ice to his hands and Bernard raised his palms, both spread, one a bit higher than the other and waited.

Perrin knitted his eyebrows together, trying to focus as much energy as he could. He was surprised to see that Bernard didn't move.

Suddenly, Bernard closed his fists and a sword of light appeared in his hands the same time that Perrin sent a spear of ice. Bernard splintered it in mid air with his sword before leaping at Perrin.

Oh shit... everyone tried their hardest to surpress their laughter, which resulted in dull snickering as Bernard chased Perrin around the stage. Suddenly, Perrin turned around and released another blast of ice. Bernard smashed it again in mid air before making a swipe at Perrin's head. The elf pulled his legs up to his body in a split second and covered his head, which resulted in Perrin falling about three feet onto the ground, curled up into a little ball as the sword swished over his head. The Warders, who were still snickering, burst into full fledged laughter.

Wait! I'd like to keep my arm! they heard Perrin shout and started laughing even harder, leaning on each other for support. Suddenly, they heard a crash and paused their laughing for a minute to look up. They all saw Perrin up against the wall, seven feet off the ground, and Bernard holding his palm out with a force that kept Perrin staying up there, light binding his arms and legs to the wall. The Warders burst out into laughing again, tears streaming down their faces.

Do I win yet? Bernard muttered, not even winded, letting his hand drop. Perrin's eyes widened before he crashed into the ground. Laughing to the point where they couldn't breathe, Aegis barely managed to nod at Bernard before falling into a chair, leaning on Kira as she howled.

Once their laughter died down, Amber realized it was her turn. And then, she realized that everyone else had already fought.

So what I'm I up against... the wall? she asked, a bit annoyed.

Do I look like I'm made out bricks to you?! Aegis shouted before grinning.

I HAVE TO FIGHT YOU?! Amber looked like she was going to faint.

Don't worry... I'll go easy on you! Aegis replied, her grin spreading. Gulping, they both walked up onto the stage. Bernard, count down! She called.

Aegis, staying true to her word, focused very little energy in her palms. Amber, on the other hand, focused with everything she had into her hands, gritting her teeth in determination.

TWO! AMBER, START RUNNING! she threw a sneer at him and he smiled before calling:

Amber chose the wise thing to do and dodged Aegis's blast before returning to her full height and releasing her energy. A bit stunned, the blast barely whizzed past Aegis's head. Amber fired shot after shot, each of which Aegis easily sidestepped considering her experience, but she was very surprised at Amber's power.

This is a great group of Warders! she thought to herself, smiling. It seems I will be able to teach them much quicker than I learned... Decidind upon this, as Amber's new assult thundered forward, Aegis threw up her arms to make and X. As the blast hit her arms, a bubble of lightning flickered and Amber's blast slid off it.

Amber just stared, and Aegis seized the opportunity to fire a blast at Amber that knocked the young elf off her feet.

And that concludes today's training! Aegis announced, spinning back around as Amber got to her feet, rubbing her backside.

They're all pretty good... Hunter thought to himself as Aegis continued congradulating them, ignoring his teacher. He looked at Amber, Bernard, and Perrin. Then, his gaze fell on Kira, sitting with her legs and arms crossed, her eyes flickering defiantly. And suddenly, he didn't see her as a weakling anymore.

~*~

Kira waved to Amber and Bernard before turning and going into her small house. She quickly turned on the lights before looking around. Niko, her husky, came running to the door to greet her.
Her home was a living room with a comfy, squishy couch and chair, a small TV, a kitchen and her bedroom. Most elves worked as a Christmas Elf while they were still living with their parents and were able to save up... Kira, however, lived very much alone, and her home was all she could afford. Still, though, she loved it. The entire house was full of cheer, painted green and red with a very welcoming look to it.

And suddenly, she spotted a letter sitting on her countertop. She grinned before snatching it, a pen and paper, and then flopping down on her couch, Niko jumping up and curling into a ball at the other end.

I only sent her a letter yesterday... she must be getting lonely! Kira thought to herself as she opened the letter.

Dear Kira,

So, that idiot Hunter giving you troubles again? Well, not to worry! He's an insensitive idiot and we all know it... and so is his father! Honestly... just push him off the roof of the North Pole! Ah... never mind, he'd probably even live through that... I swear, the world will end and there'll be Perrin, Hunter, and five cockroaches...

So, how is Amber? You two still attatched at the hip? Now her father was a wonderful man... and still is!

Oh no... your father coughcoughJERKcoughcough is calling me... well, good-bye my love!

With much love,
Mum

PS: Do us all a favor and kill Hunter and Perrin... please? PLEASE?'

Kira laughed as she finished the letter. Her mother was a sensible person who was always able to make her daughter smile. She always wrote to her mother when she needed advice, and while most elves would dissaprove of mischeif, her mother loved to hear her stories of how she snuck into the kitchen despite the fact that they were allowed in their anyway, or how she had organized the to drop a bowl of pudding on Hunter's head, or... well... just about all Kira's , as she liked to call them. Kira smiled before picking up her pen, trying to figure out how to write a letter without telling her mother she was a Warder. She finally finished, writing about how she planned to turn Hunter's hair pink and how she had hooked up a series of high power fans' and blasted him into a wall before she magiced the letter to her mother's house.

Goodness... I haven't seen her in over a year! she suddenly spoke aloud, causing Niko to wag her tail. Kira smiled. Maybe I'll be able to go home soon... She looked over at a picture of her and her mom from her last visit, both of them smiling and completely drenched, and her neighbor Jonathan standing between them, grinning. Kira remembered that day so clearly...

~*~

Kira and her mother sat on the outdoor patio, just talking about boys... boys... and, well, BOYS!

Speaking of which, a sudden bucket of water drenched them both and they both leapt up, spinning around.

JONATHAN! I'LL GET YOU! Kira screamed as the boy took off running across the field. In an instant, Kira and her mother, Kaylee, were sprinting after him. They caught up to him before throwing him into the pool, high fiving each other. By the time Jonathan had resurfaced, they had both grabbed water guns and proceeded to chase him around, completely drenching the backyard and often slipping in the mud. It was a day full of laughter, one of the days she knew she'd never forget...

~*~

Good evening, Aegis... Amber said groggily as they all sat down. Aegis shot her a look.

Amber... it's only six in the morning! she retorted, and Hunter snorted. Well, would you like your new clothes or not?!

Kira and Amber cried, sitting straight up as the boys scoffed to each other.

You all will recieve battle outfits and your weapons today. Depending on your element, you will be able to wield a sword that you can also change into a staff. The sword allows quick, easy movements in fighting while the staff takes a bit longer, but it generates amazing power for direct line shots.

Now, I will show you each how to transform... Amber, if you'd come up here, dear? Amber got up and walked over, standing with one hand on her hip and one leg bent, looking perfectly comfortable... which she was.

Alright... I want you to take this, Aegis pulled a necklace out of her pocket and handed it to Amber, who smiled and slipped it over her head. It was rather simple, nothing but a thin, clear string with a thin, metal lightning bolt on the end, but the second it hit her chest she felt a sense of power.

Now, when you transform, you must take a firm hold of your pendent... she paused to show Amber that she should obey, which she did. Now, tug on it gently... Amber complied and to her surprise, the lightning pendent came off. Good, now hold the top edge and you should know what to do...

Amber gripped the top end of it and held it up. Suddenly, a feeling of familiarty sparked through her.

By the power of the ancient light... she closed her eyes and began to chant, bringing the lightning slowly down to form a halfcircle, which glowed as a thin light in midair, bending so that it went all the way around her, I am bound to the fate of the ancient Warders... she brought her hand back up so that she was completely within the circle of light, I will defend those of innocence and shine, a LIGHT THROUGH THE DARKNESS! her voice rising on her last words, she brought the lightning pendent back down to where she held her arm straight out and then spun around. As she completed the circle around her, there was a sudden flash as well as a loud clap that sounded much like thunder... and suddenly, the lines began to spin all around her.

Amber, eyes still closed, spread her legs and arms, lifting her head, and the light circles spun around them before flashing, and she was suddenly in a skin tight, longsleeve, turtlenecked, very dark, green, leather battle suit. Two leather straps encircled each thigh and at her knees was a metal slab to protect her joint. From under it flowed a deep, red cloth, hanging very loosly with many folds around her shins before going inside her black boots at her ankles.

As this finished, Amber raised the pendent above her head and suddenly, she snapped her eyes open. As if triggered, light shone down from the pendent and engulfed her before fading. As it did, the Warders saw that over the green suit was a sort of dress, the same red as her shin guards. It was lined in dark green, the neck crossing like a kimono with one side over the other and continuing all the way to the side of her, a green sash around her middle, a scabbard tied on the right side. From under the sash in the front came a piece of fabric, thinning like a triangle till it was about two inches wide, four inches above her knees. In the back, piece of fabric fell down to her mid-thigh, about the same length as the leather straps. On her hands she wore fingerless gloves with holes for her knuckles. The lightning pendent grew into a long, thin stream of light and when it dissapeared, she clasped a sword in her right hand.

Kira cried, leaping off her feet in amazement. The three guys, rolling their eyes, exchanged looks that said one thing: Girls...

Amber stared wide-eyed and smiling at her new outfit.

Alright, you may sit down. Kira, dear, would you step up here? Kira practically ran up and recieved a pendent with two, beautiful leaves lined in silver on it. She repeated the process that Amber had done, and it came naturally to her as well. When she finished, she wore the same, dark green suit underneath, except that instead of the red cloth or leather bands, she had dark red boots up to her thighs. Over the suit, she wore a red dress that slit up both sides rather high, both sides hanging down in a curvy triangle to her knees, the bottom lined in an inch of green fabric and another stripe down the middle of both sides, continuing all the way up to her V cut neck. A belt encircled her waist with another, leather strap tied on one side and crossing to the other where her scabbard was tied on, a sword held in one of her gloved hands.

This is so cool... she cried before swinging the sword around, and Aegis had to duck to avoid being decapitated.

WATCH WHERE YOU'RE SWINGING THAT THING! Aegis shouted, making Kira blush in embarrasment and sheathe it.

Each of the boys were called up and each repeated the process, Bernard with a sun pendant, Perrin with an ice crystal, and Hunter with a water droplet. The end results of each looked rather medieval-ish.

Bernard wore a white shirt, rolled up to his elbows and continuing down to his thighs. A green vest hung over it, coming together in the middle were it was fastened by a brown belt and extending a bit past his shirt. He, too, had a leather band tied on one side and lying on the other with a scabbard tied on, and his hands were also gloved, though his were more of a folded leather that went to his mid-lower arms, tied around the wrist with a black band, and he also had black pants hanging down to his shoes. Though it may of been that he was still wearing his green beret, he looked very... Bernard in the outfit.

Ha... you know you're getting old when medieval stuff reminds you of your childhood! Bernard cried, looking down as the rest laughed. Hunter's outfit looked much the same except that he wore shorts, cutting off at his knees, dark red in color, and he didn't have a belt.

Perrin's outfit looked much the same, except that his white shirt hung at a normal length and over it he wore a dark red shirt, also rolled up to his elbows, and unbuttoned down the middle. Instead of gloves, he wore black, metal arm plates with silver designs on them and normal gloves covering his hands. A leather band rested on one shoulder and hung down to the opposite hip where his scabbard rest.

Aegis smiled as Perrin finished, gazing at the five Warders.

You truly look like Warders, Children of the Forces, she admired. They all looked at each other and smiled. Suddenly, this all felt so normal...

Maybe there's hope for them yet, Bernard thought, smiling as he saw Perrin and Hunter exchange glances before looking at Kira. For a moment, they stood smiling at eachother. Then, as if they had suddenly realized who each other was, their smiles faded and they looked opposite ways. Or maybe hatred will prevail when unity is needed...

~*~

Hey hun! Kae called from the kitchen as Amber and Bernard walked in, both back in their normal clothing.

Hey Kae... CURTIS! Bernard suddenly caught sight of his friend.

Hi Judy! Amber greeted the elf, sitting down next to her.

They're staying for dinner tonight... I figured we haven't been together for awhile, Kae explained. You two seem to be going off a lot... she gave them a suspicious gaze, Bernard throwing Amber a worried look, but to his surprise, she seemed perfectly at ease.

We've just been spending more time together... with Dad as Head Elf and all, he usually doesn't spend much time with me... she smiled at Bernard, who nodded in thanks.

Kae shook her head, looking back down. As long as you know there are no secrets kept in this house... Kae and Bernard both felt a sudden pang of guilt. Bernard looked at Amber, who had her head hung.

She knows... Bernard thought. Curtis and Judy exchanged glances.

Well... dinner should be ready in a few minutes! Amber, will you set the table? Kae asked brightly, trying to change the subject.

Yeah. Sure, Amber's reply was dull and she stared at the floor as she walked, avoiding her parent's eyes and the two exchanged glances... very worried glances.

In no time, though, they were all laughing around the dinner table, Bernard and Curtis laughing together, Judy, Kae, and Amber exchanging gossip. None of them really gave anymore thought to it, none of them realizing the sheer truth...

They kept few, yet their secrets were far deeper than any other family's.

~*~

Dear Kira,

Hunter's been nicer to you? Hmm... all I have to say about that is:

If he asks you out, say yes. That makes it all th easier to lead him into a trap of chocolate and tinsel!

I miss you so much! I haven't seen you in forever... what do you look like? Just joking! I want you to visit me soon... you just have to tell me everything that's been going on up there! How about this summer... that's only three months away and the weather will be wonderful here! We'll bake pies, drink lemonade outside, play pranks on Jonathan, stay up late watching movies and having pig parties... I haven't had as much fun since your last visit! I can't wait to see your smiling face!

Also, maybe you could invite Amber. I'd love to finally meet her... you seem awful fond of her, and I think we could have a great time together! You just have to come visit me this summer... I'm so lonely here without you! Naria is going to have puppies again... Niko want any company?

With much love,
Mum

PS: If Hunter doesn't ask you out, I still think you should push him off the roof!'

Kira smiled, filled with much excitement. She was DEFINATELY going that summer! Amber could probably come too, seeing as she was out of school... there was no way for Kira to express how excited she was in her reply back. Her parents were divorced, and she loved her mother far more... her father had always frightened her and didn't seem to care for her at all while her mother, on the other hand, loved Kira more than the young elf had thought possible.

And suddenly, she spotted another letter. A bit curious and a bit fearful, she picked it up. Swallowing hard, she slid her finger down the top and pulled the letter out.

The color drained from her face and she felt her legs become weak. She wanted to cry... wanted to run and hide. Maybe Amber would let her stay at her house... no, that wouldn't work! He knew about it... she scanned the letter over again and again, dreading the words it read.

Daughter,

I will be picking you up soon. You will stay with me for a week. Don't try to hide this time, Kira. I don't care what you or any of your friends say... you will stay with me, and I should hope you'll come willingly this time.

-Your Father'

What am I going to do...? Kira sunk to her knees, hanging her head.

You're going to come with me, a cold voice said behind her. Kira yelped and jumped to her feet, spinning around with fear dancing in her eyes. With a sneer, her father, Cylus, leaned forward and grabbed her arm, wrenching her forward. Kira cried out in pain, but when she opened her eyes, anger was once again replaced with fear.

You're home, darling, he sneered again, and Kira had to fight to keep back tears.

~*~

Curtis sat straight up, chest heaving, eyes wide in fear. Sighing, Curtis lay back down on his pillow. Just a dream...

His dream had been one of Kira... he knew she had left a week ago and was going to return, as Bernard had said, the next day. But what he saw made him worry about the girl.

First, he saw a man approach her from behind as she sat on a couch and he saw the girl jump to her feet in fear. He saw the man yank Kira forward, and he saw her cry out in pain before dissapearing. In a flash, his dream changed to a heavy hand rocketing down. It struck Kira's cheek, knocking her backwards and she landed heavily on the ground. The image switched again and she saw Kira serving the man a bowl of soup, and she was dressed in jeans and a t-shirt, which was very different. Her hair wasn't bouncy, like normal, and her eyes didn't shine. She looked miserable.

The man took a spoonfull of her soup and promptly spit it out. He watched Kira's eyes widen in fear as the man stood up. To his utter surprise, he punched her, sending her flying backwards again where she hit the counter, knocking into a vase, and then slumped to the floor, the vase shattering next to her. In anger, the man strode across the room. Kira raised her arms as if to shield herself, turning her head to the side, but he simply took one of her arms and yanked the she-elf up before kicking her hard in the stomach and dropping her. Kira doubled up on the ground, holding her stomach, glass from the vase digging into her skin and drawing blood, tears running down her face.

Oh Kira... Curtis spoke aloud, his heart going out to her, dream or not. There had been other images that only lasted seconds, if even that, of his hitting Kira again, giving her a bloody nose one time, a black eye the other, and he saw one night as she pushed her sleeve up that there were bruises all over her arm.

A bit later, Curtis lay back down and was soon fast asleep, completely forgetting his dream. Little did he know that miles away, Kira lay in her bed, tears streaming down her face as she held her bruised arm, her blackened eye stinging and blood still crusted under her nose. Little did he know what the young, she-elf had to live with...

Little did Curtis know that it wasn't just a dream.

~*~

All my life I've searched for answers,
All my life I've searched for answers,

Some suffer,
Some thrive,
Some live,
Some die.

Some love,
Some hate,
Some find nothing in common,
Some relate.

Some sin,
Some are innocent,
Some are good,
Some are bad,
Some sad...

All I want is to understand...

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

Some think, some drink, some sink into a hole, they can't let go,
Others bleed for their sins, some draw blood for them ends,
Some steal, some deal, some peel off their skin,
And try to start again.

The rest fiend, the rest still dream; my heart pumps,
Just to feel that cream,
I'm elevated, cross-faded with a bag of tricks,
I'm in the mix since 96

Shoot the facts and relax, we melt on wax,
On top of the world is where we at,
When I trip I slip, my cons got grip,
To the left and to the right, shit is tight,
Cause I'm an addict, addicted to music,
It's a habit, you know I choose it.

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

Scrape the pieces off the wall of my hate,
Clean the slate but it's far too late,
I stitch my own skin, you can't penetrate,
Don't look back, it's all fate.

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

All my life I've searched for answers,
Why can't I know the reasons we live?
Who is this God that we all worship?
Or will we ever know?

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A/N: EVIL CYLUS!!!!! *whacks with frying pan* I feel so bad for Kira!!!! Poor girl... she's so sweet, too! I apologize that this chapter didn't have much Bernard, but I had to get more in on Kira...

Also, for any new characters and a couple of the Warder's outfits, go to:

http://www.angelfire.com/realm2/fanfiction_bernard/gallery.html

Next chapter is VERY VERY VERY sad... btw, there are 10 chapters and an epilouge and a sequel... SO REVIEW!!!!!!!!!! I NEED 5!!!

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