DISCLAIMERS: The only character I own is NIcole Stokes
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I folded my daughter's clothes neatly and put them away in her drawers.
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
And I knew I couldn't be but my heart believed
Oh it seems like something everyday
How could you be so far away
Five years later, and I was still grieving. Nicole was at school. She's only 10, and can't remember much. Much about that night.
The most memorable night of my life. The worst day of my life.
Nick and I had known each other for 3 years before we actually begun dating. It was a surprise, a fling actually. But that small date soon turned into big dates, which turned into love.
We were married, and soon, we were blessed with our daughter Nicole. Nick was so happy. I think he's wanted to be a father all his life. Why we named her Nicole, I really didn't know. Nick just thought of the name "Nicole", and I liked it.
Nicole Marie Stokes then became our new obsession. She had my hair, Nick's sense of humor, and both of our personalities. Nicole will never know how much she was like her father. No matter how much I tell her.
When you're still here
When I need you you're not hard to find
You're still here
I can see you in my baby's eyes
And I laugh and cry
You're still here
This disaster all started with Ethan Kendall. Nick and I were on the case, and we caught him. Sadly, his defense lawyer was one of the best of the nation, and he was released a year later on parole. We should've remembered and gotten a restraining order or something, but we were so caught up with Nicole, who had just turned 4, that we simply didn't pay attention.
A dark night started as usual. Nick and I were watching television. Nicole was only 5, sound asleep on the couch beside Nick. We heard some noises coming from outside. Nick and I got our guns, carefully so we would scare Nicole.
Everything happened so fast then. The door flew opened and shots rang out. I was pushed to the floor. I hit my head and I don't remember what happened next. Except, I heard NIck, muttering something: I love you.
I don't know if I answered back, but I knew Nick knew I loved him too.
Had a dream last night
That you came to me on silver wings of light
I flew away with you in the painted sky
And I woke up wondering what was real
Is it what you see and touch or what you feel
It wasn't until, as Grissom tells me, hours before we were discovered. I woke up in the hospital; they thought I'd been shot, since there was blood all over me. But the blood wasn't mine.
Grissom came in, and asked me what happened. I told him, that I honestly didn't remember. I asked about Nicole, and Nick. GRissom assured me that Nicole was all right, quite shaken. That's when I knew things were wrong. I knew he was gone from my midst. I felt the emptiness, the loneliness. The coldness.
"I'm so sorry, Sara," he said simply. That's all he needed to say.
Cause you're still here
Oh you're everywhere we've ever been
You're still here
I heard you in a stranger's laugh
And I hunger on to hear your laugh again
Just once again
Five years from then, I've matured. I take Nicole to the cemetary to visit her father once in a while. She barely remembers him. I keep his spirit alive, though, with pictures. And the memories we had shared.
Sometimes, I wish he'd just come back to help me. 'Come back, Nicky. I can't raise our daughter on my own,' I would plead. BUt I know Nick's with me. He's with me in my heart and soul, with me always and forever.
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
~ "You're Still Here" by Faith Hill
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I folded my daughter's clothes neatly and put them away in her drawers.
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
And I knew I couldn't be but my heart believed
Oh it seems like something everyday
How could you be so far away
Five years later, and I was still grieving. Nicole was at school. She's only 10, and can't remember much. Much about that night.
The most memorable night of my life. The worst day of my life.
Nick and I had known each other for 3 years before we actually begun dating. It was a surprise, a fling actually. But that small date soon turned into big dates, which turned into love.
We were married, and soon, we were blessed with our daughter Nicole. Nick was so happy. I think he's wanted to be a father all his life. Why we named her Nicole, I really didn't know. Nick just thought of the name "Nicole", and I liked it.
Nicole Marie Stokes then became our new obsession. She had my hair, Nick's sense of humor, and both of our personalities. Nicole will never know how much she was like her father. No matter how much I tell her.
When you're still here
When I need you you're not hard to find
You're still here
I can see you in my baby's eyes
And I laugh and cry
You're still here
This disaster all started with Ethan Kendall. Nick and I were on the case, and we caught him. Sadly, his defense lawyer was one of the best of the nation, and he was released a year later on parole. We should've remembered and gotten a restraining order or something, but we were so caught up with Nicole, who had just turned 4, that we simply didn't pay attention.
A dark night started as usual. Nick and I were watching television. Nicole was only 5, sound asleep on the couch beside Nick. We heard some noises coming from outside. Nick and I got our guns, carefully so we would scare Nicole.
Everything happened so fast then. The door flew opened and shots rang out. I was pushed to the floor. I hit my head and I don't remember what happened next. Except, I heard NIck, muttering something: I love you.
I don't know if I answered back, but I knew Nick knew I loved him too.
Had a dream last night
That you came to me on silver wings of light
I flew away with you in the painted sky
And I woke up wondering what was real
Is it what you see and touch or what you feel
It wasn't until, as Grissom tells me, hours before we were discovered. I woke up in the hospital; they thought I'd been shot, since there was blood all over me. But the blood wasn't mine.
Grissom came in, and asked me what happened. I told him, that I honestly didn't remember. I asked about Nicole, and Nick. GRissom assured me that Nicole was all right, quite shaken. That's when I knew things were wrong. I knew he was gone from my midst. I felt the emptiness, the loneliness. The coldness.
"I'm so sorry, Sara," he said simply. That's all he needed to say.
Cause you're still here
Oh you're everywhere we've ever been
You're still here
I heard you in a stranger's laugh
And I hunger on to hear your laugh again
Just once again
Five years from then, I've matured. I take Nicole to the cemetary to visit her father once in a while. She barely remembers him. I keep his spirit alive, though, with pictures. And the memories we had shared.
Sometimes, I wish he'd just come back to help me. 'Come back, Nicky. I can't raise our daughter on my own,' I would plead. BUt I know Nick's with me. He's with me in my heart and soul, with me always and forever.
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
~ "You're Still Here" by Faith Hill