Korn - Freak On A Leash
Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lie
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight
Chorus
Part of me...
Oh
POV
He was not happy that Adrian was missing and I had to take the brunt of his anger.But while writhing on the floor in pain my mind kept going back to my dear brother.Where was he?Was he alright?No one could answer to those questions,not even our Master.Not that he is concerned if my brother is OK.He is pissed because he has lost a valuable servant and because there is still something out of his control here,in the Matrix.
I walk to the mirror,take a look at myself and sigh-the bruises will stay here until tommorow-that's how long I'll have to stay in human mode.I really hate this.
I take off my glasses and look in all too familiar crimson eyes.What an interesting illusion-I look in the mirror and I almost think that I am seeing Adrian.But I know the truth.My other half is missing and I feel that loss in an almost phisical way.Like when a human loses a limb but thinks that he still feels pain in said limb.
Next I take off my coat and vest dropping them unceremoniously on the floor.I am not worried that they'll wrinkle-tommorow I'll be an AI again and I'll take care of this.One by one the other items of clothing join the coat and vest on the floor until I stay stark naked in front of the mirror.Adrian says that I have nice body and suppose he is right as I look at myself.Of course,Adrian and I are practically mirror images with or without clothes and I adore my brother's body,so I suppose that I am attractive.I should not think about my brother's body now,these thoughts conjure images in my head that would outrage even the most openminded person.But I cannot help myself,I keep seeing him lying on our bed in the bedroom with a soft smile on his face.A smile that is reserved only for me.He is lying on his back and spreads his shapely legs and lifts his knees to his chest for me in an open invitation for me to take
him.I see his rosy opening.Only I should be the one to know him there,no one else.The hatred towards Merovingian flares in me hotter than ever.He knows we hate him.Our Master revels in our hatred and fear from him,he enjoys them just like he enjoys our bodies when he wants.Curse you,Morpheus,for it is your fault that we're in that situation.I hate you more than I hate our Master.I have to stop thinking about this before I've gone crazy.Funny feeling is the helpless hatred-it eats you from the inside until all that is left from is an empty shell filled with hatred.It leaves you hollow,empty and jaded.Adrian was the only thing that kept that at bay.And now I have lost him,again because of Morpheus.I swear that man is our curse.We were not good enough for him,we were not pure enough for him to help us,like he helped his current One.Which leads me back to Adrian.I have never regretted having him as my lover,no matter how twisted that relationship seems to others and how much we have been condemned because of it.After all it was the reason for Morpheus to dump us here leaving us at the mercy of the so called King of the Matrix.We were confused,not realising what was going on,not being able to use our abilities,not understanding them.We were the perfect targets for Merovingian for his experiment.We cannot die,the closest thing to death for us will be deleting.I would embrace the end of my existance with happiness for it will be some kind freedom releasing me from the prison of my own mind.Maybe I am already dead and this is my personal hell,my punishment for the unnatural bond I share with Adrian.I don't understand how love that seems so right could be so wrong.And now that I've lost my brother my punishment just got harder.I don't regret loving him that way,given the choice I'll make the same decision.No ammount of suffering can make me change my mind about that.If I am damned let it be so but I will always love him the way I have always loved him.Everyone else can kiss my white albino ass.
tbc...
Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.
Life's got to always be messing with me. (You wanna see the light)
Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light)
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.
Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see fall from grace
Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
I cheat, but for me to lie
Something takes a part of me.
Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light)
Nothing in my life is free... is free
Chorus
Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!
So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight
Chorus
Part of me...
Oh
POV
He was not happy that Adrian was missing and I had to take the brunt of his anger.But while writhing on the floor in pain my mind kept going back to my dear brother.Where was he?Was he alright?No one could answer to those questions,not even our Master.Not that he is concerned if my brother is OK.He is pissed because he has lost a valuable servant and because there is still something out of his control here,in the Matrix.
I walk to the mirror,take a look at myself and sigh-the bruises will stay here until tommorow-that's how long I'll have to stay in human mode.I really hate this.
I take off my glasses and look in all too familiar crimson eyes.What an interesting illusion-I look in the mirror and I almost think that I am seeing Adrian.But I know the truth.My other half is missing and I feel that loss in an almost phisical way.Like when a human loses a limb but thinks that he still feels pain in said limb.
Next I take off my coat and vest dropping them unceremoniously on the floor.I am not worried that they'll wrinkle-tommorow I'll be an AI again and I'll take care of this.One by one the other items of clothing join the coat and vest on the floor until I stay stark naked in front of the mirror.Adrian says that I have nice body and suppose he is right as I look at myself.Of course,Adrian and I are practically mirror images with or without clothes and I adore my brother's body,so I suppose that I am attractive.I should not think about my brother's body now,these thoughts conjure images in my head that would outrage even the most openminded person.But I cannot help myself,I keep seeing him lying on our bed in the bedroom with a soft smile on his face.A smile that is reserved only for me.He is lying on his back and spreads his shapely legs and lifts his knees to his chest for me in an open invitation for me to take
him.I see his rosy opening.Only I should be the one to know him there,no one else.The hatred towards Merovingian flares in me hotter than ever.He knows we hate him.Our Master revels in our hatred and fear from him,he enjoys them just like he enjoys our bodies when he wants.Curse you,Morpheus,for it is your fault that we're in that situation.I hate you more than I hate our Master.I have to stop thinking about this before I've gone crazy.Funny feeling is the helpless hatred-it eats you from the inside until all that is left from is an empty shell filled with hatred.It leaves you hollow,empty and jaded.Adrian was the only thing that kept that at bay.And now I have lost him,again because of Morpheus.I swear that man is our curse.We were not good enough for him,we were not pure enough for him to help us,like he helped his current One.Which leads me back to Adrian.I have never regretted having him as my lover,no matter how twisted that relationship seems to others and how much we have been condemned because of it.After all it was the reason for Morpheus to dump us here leaving us at the mercy of the so called King of the Matrix.We were confused,not realising what was going on,not being able to use our abilities,not understanding them.We were the perfect targets for Merovingian for his experiment.We cannot die,the closest thing to death for us will be deleting.I would embrace the end of my existance with happiness for it will be some kind freedom releasing me from the prison of my own mind.Maybe I am already dead and this is my personal hell,my punishment for the unnatural bond I share with Adrian.I don't understand how love that seems so right could be so wrong.And now that I've lost my brother my punishment just got harder.I don't regret loving him that way,given the choice I'll make the same decision.No ammount of suffering can make me change my mind about that.If I am damned let it be so but I will always love him the way I have always loved him.Everyone else can kiss my white albino ass.
tbc...