Overcoming Obstacles
By: ruthierocks
Chapter One: Explanations
Disclaimer: I don't own any Gilmore Girls characters.
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(this story takes place the morning after the episode 'Keg! Max!')
Jess stood against the wall, looking outside his room. He hated the diner. Living there. It stunk. He looked at the mirror. He hated himself. Nothing would ever be the same again. He glared at his black eye and cut lip. How could this happen? How could last night be a reality? He just wanted to wake up like it was all a dream. 'My mistake', he thought, 'I shouldn't have acted like a selfish teenage boy. It usually suits me.. but I pushed it too far last night.'
Luke came in.
"You can't hide in here forever, Jess, you gotta come out and face the world," Luke said.
"I'm too tired to even try to argue. I didn't sleep last night," Jess explained.
"I'll bet not.. I still don't understand what made you act like the mad man you did last night.. did something happen?" Luke asked.
"You're pushing it. I'm not going to talk to. The only person I need to explain anything to is Rory. That Dean guy bugs me. I should have punched his lights out.. so he'd be in a coma," Jess said, remembering the fight. Even though smaller than Dean, Jess had put up a great fight and they were both losers in the end. Then he concentrated on the task at hand, "Gees, I am such an idiot!" Jess hit his head against the wall.
"Come on, Jess, open up," Luke said, "I'm trying to be here for you."
"Well I don't want, nor need your help. This is my problem, I'm responsible for my own actions," Jess said.
"I guess Dean knocked some sense into you? Literally?" Luke asked. Jess didn't even smile. He was worn out. The party was just horrible. He made Rory cry, he got in a fight with her ex-boyfriend, how much more idiotic could he get? Maybe Rory wouldn't hate his guts, but it was unlikely.
"Why don't you just call Rory or go to her house?" Luke asked.
"What?? Lorelai will kill me. I'm being serious. You and I both know that," Jess said.
"Is there something you're not telling me?" Luke asked.
"Um.. yes?" Jess responded. Luke shook his head.
"What did you do?" Luke asked.
"I don't want to talk about it. I've been doing some hard thinking and it's making my brain hurt," Jess said, and he was serious.
"I heard you crying last night," Luke said. Jess looked at the ground.
"Um.. it was the pain.. from the um, fight?" Jess knew Luke could see through it.
"Jess," Luke pushed.
"I should commit suicide," Jess said.
"And that would solve...?" Luke asked.
"Well I wouldn't have to worry about anything," Jess said.
"Jess, you're being difficult."
"Duh."
"Well quit!"
"No!" Jess said, "I don't have to take this."
He got up and walked out of the room.. He had to find Rory. He had to explain. Apologize. He only hoped she would understand. He doubted it. He'd lost her forever and that was it. He hated himself. He did. Then he saw her.
By: ruthierocks
Chapter One: Explanations
Disclaimer: I don't own any Gilmore Girls characters.
*~*~*~*
(this story takes place the morning after the episode 'Keg! Max!')
Jess stood against the wall, looking outside his room. He hated the diner. Living there. It stunk. He looked at the mirror. He hated himself. Nothing would ever be the same again. He glared at his black eye and cut lip. How could this happen? How could last night be a reality? He just wanted to wake up like it was all a dream. 'My mistake', he thought, 'I shouldn't have acted like a selfish teenage boy. It usually suits me.. but I pushed it too far last night.'
Luke came in.
"You can't hide in here forever, Jess, you gotta come out and face the world," Luke said.
"I'm too tired to even try to argue. I didn't sleep last night," Jess explained.
"I'll bet not.. I still don't understand what made you act like the mad man you did last night.. did something happen?" Luke asked.
"You're pushing it. I'm not going to talk to. The only person I need to explain anything to is Rory. That Dean guy bugs me. I should have punched his lights out.. so he'd be in a coma," Jess said, remembering the fight. Even though smaller than Dean, Jess had put up a great fight and they were both losers in the end. Then he concentrated on the task at hand, "Gees, I am such an idiot!" Jess hit his head against the wall.
"Come on, Jess, open up," Luke said, "I'm trying to be here for you."
"Well I don't want, nor need your help. This is my problem, I'm responsible for my own actions," Jess said.
"I guess Dean knocked some sense into you? Literally?" Luke asked. Jess didn't even smile. He was worn out. The party was just horrible. He made Rory cry, he got in a fight with her ex-boyfriend, how much more idiotic could he get? Maybe Rory wouldn't hate his guts, but it was unlikely.
"Why don't you just call Rory or go to her house?" Luke asked.
"What?? Lorelai will kill me. I'm being serious. You and I both know that," Jess said.
"Is there something you're not telling me?" Luke asked.
"Um.. yes?" Jess responded. Luke shook his head.
"What did you do?" Luke asked.
"I don't want to talk about it. I've been doing some hard thinking and it's making my brain hurt," Jess said, and he was serious.
"I heard you crying last night," Luke said. Jess looked at the ground.
"Um.. it was the pain.. from the um, fight?" Jess knew Luke could see through it.
"Jess," Luke pushed.
"I should commit suicide," Jess said.
"And that would solve...?" Luke asked.
"Well I wouldn't have to worry about anything," Jess said.
"Jess, you're being difficult."
"Duh."
"Well quit!"
"No!" Jess said, "I don't have to take this."
He got up and walked out of the room.. He had to find Rory. He had to explain. Apologize. He only hoped she would understand. He doubted it. He'd lost her forever and that was it. He hated himself. He did. Then he saw her.