Date written: March 29th, 2003
A/N: Hey guys! thanks for the reviews! Anyways! I'm going tommorow to get a picture with James Marsters and get his autograph! I can't wait!
The week had gone by slowly , but it had finished finally , leaving Buffy to Friday. The day she would be going on a date with Spike. She didn't know why she was so nervous. She had gone on dates before , but when she had talked to him on Monday she had gotten all these tingly feelings in her stomach and spine. Buffy smoothed the wrinkles on her dress. It was a short dress that came up to two thin straps going over her shoulders and the bottom of the dress reached to her mid thigh, which showed her tanned legs. Her hair was left in wavy curls, framing her face. She put gloss and this time, put some mascara and eyeliner along with eyeshadow. She simply glowed. She smiled to herself. I look good! The doorbell rang and Buffy quickly wiped off a little smear of make-up off on her face. She grabbed her leather jacket and a purse. She ran downstairs and was horrified at what she saw. There was her father by the door with an angry look on his face and Spike, standing there with a scared look on his face. Buffy quickly rushed down and grabbed Spike's arm and pulled it along with her , but stopped when her father pulled on her shoulder. He had a beer in his other hand and said fiercly,"Get inside Buffy Anne Summers!" "Yes, dad,"said Buffy, reluctantly. "Buffy , you can go sweetheart,"said Joyce walking in. "What!!? You're just going to let the little rat go with this gangster!?" "Yes, I'm going to let our BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER go with this MAN because I trust her. Now Buffy, be home by 11:00 ." "I promise, thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!"and with that Buffy ran out with Spike. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Buffy and Spike are back from the bronze and have reached the Giles resident. They walked inside and Spike turned on the lights. "So...um...sorry about the boxes, we haven't quite finished unpacking." "Oh, it's alright." "Do you want a drink?" "It's okay, I'm fine." They both sat on the couch in silence.Spike turned his head to look at her and was startled when he saw her looking at him, faces inches apart. "You are so beautiful. I mean ususally I describe men as handsome, but you're ....you're just amazing." "Can say the same for you, luv." Buffy slowly leaned in and put her soft lips on Spike's. Spike responded with more roughness than the gentle kiss started out at. They were having a very good make-out session untill Mr. Giles, Spike's dad, walked in. "Son...."said Giles, as looked down at the mail not noticing the other blond on the couch. Buffy quickly straightened her clothes and wiped the smeared lip gloss around her lips. "Da'....I want you to meet someone." "Who is it?"asked Giles, finally looking at Spike and then noticed a little blond girl. She really was a small thing. "Da', this is Buffy, Buffy this is my da'." "Um...it's nice to meet you Mr. Giles,"said Buffy sticking her hand out in order to shake his. "Oh , yes.."said Giles shaking her hand" it is very nice to meet you." Buffy smiled and said," Well, William. It's getting late. I think I should start getting home." "Alright. Let's go." "Oh no, it 's alright. I can walk home. It's only a couple of miles." "Are you insane, it's freezing cold out there. Plus, someone could kidnap you or something, pet." "It's alright. I've walked farther and later at night and I'm still here aren't I?" "Pet, I'm driving you home. I'll feel releived once you're tucked into your nice little bed." "If you insist." "I insist." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ "Thanks for the great night,"said Buffy as they walked up to her door. "I should be saying thank you, luv. For just even going out with a poof like me." "William, you're not a poof, whatever that means. You're a smart, handsome, kind gentleman. Don't ever think less of yourself." Spike smiled and kissed her. Just then the door opened. Buffy's dad looked completely drunk and looked mad. Buffy suddenly felt scared. She quietly said goodbye to Spike and went inside. Spike didn't leave just yet. He stood behind the door and then heard a glass shatter and a scream. He didn't even knock as he went inside. He found Buffy laying unconcious with her head all bloody. Spike ran to her side and ignored her father yelling at him. Spike grabbed his cell phone and called 911. After he hung up he yelled at her father, " What did you bloody do?!You hurt your daughter!" "Shut up you stupid worthless piece of dirt! I can do whatever I want with my daughter!" "You can not abuse her! It's illegal,"said Spike , as another wave of anger surged through him. The paramedics arrived ten minutes later and took Buffy to the hospital. ####################################################################### ############### "William, I'm fine,"said Buffy as she put her hand on Spike's hand. "Are you sure you don't want to stay one more night?" "William, look at me. See this,"said Buffy as she pointed to a little scar on the left side of her forehead, which was hidden by her hair," look at how small it is. It's not like I'll die. I'd much rather be at home where I can watch my sister." "Alright. So did you want me to call the cops?" "The cops? Why would you do that?" "Luv, I think the hit did some damage to your brain." "Seriously, why?" "Pet, your father." "What?.......... No! We are not calling the cops. I know he hurt me , but I'll live. If he goes to jail, we'll end up living on the street." "But, pet, what if he hurts you again?" "No more with the what ifs. Just, please.......take me home?" "Sure , luv." "Thanks." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ The weekend was uneventful. Buffy rested at home and kept an eye on her sister, since these days her father was drinking more. Buffy sat down on one of the benches looking at the fountain in the middle of the school courtyard. She had her blue jeans on with a green short sleeved top that had a couple of buttons on the top. It matched the color of her eyes, making the green in them stand out more. She had her hair straight again, since she didn't have time to curl it or do anything else except for a quick brush. She wore her converse and on top of her head sat her green sunglasses. She was reading since her friends had not come to school yet. In the hallway.......................... "Hey, uh, Xander!"said Spike , running to him to catch up. "Yeah?"asked Xander as he stopped and turned around. "Um, I was going to ask you about uh Buffy's dad." "Oh.... I don't think-" "What's his issues?" Xander sighed in deafeat and pulled him to a corner out of the walkway. "Her dad is a drinker and uses lots of drugs. He's done some pretty bad stuff to Buffy , but she doesn't like to talk about it. Actually, she hates it when the subject is brought up." "Why? " "Well, you know. She just doesn't like to think about her dad that way. I guess she sometimes likes to pretend her father is the ideal father, you know?" " I guess, but I still think she should tell the cops." " Me too." " How do you know about it if she doesn't like talking about it?" "I've seen her father hurt her and Willow is the only other person who knows so don't go telling people about it. Buffy likes to keep her home life and social life seperate." "Don't worry , mate. I think I'm going to go find her. Thanks!"said Spike and took off. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ "Hey, cutie,"said Spike as he sat next to Buffy. She put her book down and smiled at him. " Hi." "So , pet. How are things going?" "Good." "Good. So what were you reading?" "Emily Dickenson." "Ahh. She is a great poet. I think you and my father would get off great together, not that he can have you, cause you're mine. Well, can you be mine?"asked Spike with puppy dog eyes. Buffy giggled."Of course. I wouldn't want to be anybody else's,"said Buffy , grinning as she kissed a chaste kiss on Spike's lips. "I have got be the most luckiest man in the world to have you, such a beauty, to be mine." "Well, then, I must be the most luckiest woman to be sitting next to such a beauty myself." "Pet, you know, I -I think I'm in love with you." Buffy stared at him, grin disappearing , replaced with a frown. She just stared at him. "Luv?" "I-I can't." Buffy ran inside the hallways and into one of the bathroom stalls. "Pet!"yelled Spike as he ran after her. He came to a stop when he reached the door and the ladies sign was on it. "Oh bugger it!"said Spike as he went in the girls bathroom. "Buffy?"called Spike. He walked and opened one of the stall doors he had heard a sob come from. "Luv?Please...shhh...please don't cry...please , luv. I'm a stupid git. ........please, just don't cry." Buffy looked over at him, eyes puffy, and tears falling on her face. She then suddenly threw herself in Spike's arms. "I'm sorry.....I'm so sorry,"sobbed Buffy. "Hey, pet. Don't cry. It's okay. You have nothing to be sorry about it." " I just can't love you." Spike stopped as his heart sinked, but quickly went back to rubbing his hand soothingly on her back. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ^^^^^^^^^^^ Spike hadn't seen her since the bathroom. He was eating lunch currently with Willow. Willow seemed nice. After Xander had left, they both started talking. He liked her , but not anything more than friends.
"Willow, I ........I told Buffy.... I told her I loved her." Willow's jaw open and shut. She didn't know what to say. " I know it's only been a week, but I know I love her. Each time I see her I just...............anyways, after I told her she left and started crying. I went after her and she said she can't love me back. Is it because she's had rough break ups?"" I think Buffy should tell you , but I don't think she ever will, so I'll just tell you. Um, you see........Buffy is sick."
"She is. I could try to make some soup or-"
"No, I mean, really sick. As in take lots of medicine sick."
"Still drawing a blank here, red."
"Buffy has cancer."
Spike felt his world dissolve and couldn't process anything in his mind except for what Willow had just said.
A/N: Hey! I know its sad, but I'll make it happy. Promise. Okay just lying......cause I don't really know too far ahead what I'm going to do so......please just keep reading. And review!
A/N: Hey guys! thanks for the reviews! Anyways! I'm going tommorow to get a picture with James Marsters and get his autograph! I can't wait!
The week had gone by slowly , but it had finished finally , leaving Buffy to Friday. The day she would be going on a date with Spike. She didn't know why she was so nervous. She had gone on dates before , but when she had talked to him on Monday she had gotten all these tingly feelings in her stomach and spine. Buffy smoothed the wrinkles on her dress. It was a short dress that came up to two thin straps going over her shoulders and the bottom of the dress reached to her mid thigh, which showed her tanned legs. Her hair was left in wavy curls, framing her face. She put gloss and this time, put some mascara and eyeliner along with eyeshadow. She simply glowed. She smiled to herself. I look good! The doorbell rang and Buffy quickly wiped off a little smear of make-up off on her face. She grabbed her leather jacket and a purse. She ran downstairs and was horrified at what she saw. There was her father by the door with an angry look on his face and Spike, standing there with a scared look on his face. Buffy quickly rushed down and grabbed Spike's arm and pulled it along with her , but stopped when her father pulled on her shoulder. He had a beer in his other hand and said fiercly,"Get inside Buffy Anne Summers!" "Yes, dad,"said Buffy, reluctantly. "Buffy , you can go sweetheart,"said Joyce walking in. "What!!? You're just going to let the little rat go with this gangster!?" "Yes, I'm going to let our BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER go with this MAN because I trust her. Now Buffy, be home by 11:00 ." "I promise, thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!"and with that Buffy ran out with Spike. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% Buffy and Spike are back from the bronze and have reached the Giles resident. They walked inside and Spike turned on the lights. "So...um...sorry about the boxes, we haven't quite finished unpacking." "Oh, it's alright." "Do you want a drink?" "It's okay, I'm fine." They both sat on the couch in silence.Spike turned his head to look at her and was startled when he saw her looking at him, faces inches apart. "You are so beautiful. I mean ususally I describe men as handsome, but you're ....you're just amazing." "Can say the same for you, luv." Buffy slowly leaned in and put her soft lips on Spike's. Spike responded with more roughness than the gentle kiss started out at. They were having a very good make-out session untill Mr. Giles, Spike's dad, walked in. "Son...."said Giles, as looked down at the mail not noticing the other blond on the couch. Buffy quickly straightened her clothes and wiped the smeared lip gloss around her lips. "Da'....I want you to meet someone." "Who is it?"asked Giles, finally looking at Spike and then noticed a little blond girl. She really was a small thing. "Da', this is Buffy, Buffy this is my da'." "Um...it's nice to meet you Mr. Giles,"said Buffy sticking her hand out in order to shake his. "Oh , yes.."said Giles shaking her hand" it is very nice to meet you." Buffy smiled and said," Well, William. It's getting late. I think I should start getting home." "Alright. Let's go." "Oh no, it 's alright. I can walk home. It's only a couple of miles." "Are you insane, it's freezing cold out there. Plus, someone could kidnap you or something, pet." "It's alright. I've walked farther and later at night and I'm still here aren't I?" "Pet, I'm driving you home. I'll feel releived once you're tucked into your nice little bed." "If you insist." "I insist." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ "Thanks for the great night,"said Buffy as they walked up to her door. "I should be saying thank you, luv. For just even going out with a poof like me." "William, you're not a poof, whatever that means. You're a smart, handsome, kind gentleman. Don't ever think less of yourself." Spike smiled and kissed her. Just then the door opened. Buffy's dad looked completely drunk and looked mad. Buffy suddenly felt scared. She quietly said goodbye to Spike and went inside. Spike didn't leave just yet. He stood behind the door and then heard a glass shatter and a scream. He didn't even knock as he went inside. He found Buffy laying unconcious with her head all bloody. Spike ran to her side and ignored her father yelling at him. Spike grabbed his cell phone and called 911. After he hung up he yelled at her father, " What did you bloody do?!You hurt your daughter!" "Shut up you stupid worthless piece of dirt! I can do whatever I want with my daughter!" "You can not abuse her! It's illegal,"said Spike , as another wave of anger surged through him. The paramedics arrived ten minutes later and took Buffy to the hospital. ####################################################################### ############### "William, I'm fine,"said Buffy as she put her hand on Spike's hand. "Are you sure you don't want to stay one more night?" "William, look at me. See this,"said Buffy as she pointed to a little scar on the left side of her forehead, which was hidden by her hair," look at how small it is. It's not like I'll die. I'd much rather be at home where I can watch my sister." "Alright. So did you want me to call the cops?" "The cops? Why would you do that?" "Luv, I think the hit did some damage to your brain." "Seriously, why?" "Pet, your father." "What?.......... No! We are not calling the cops. I know he hurt me , but I'll live. If he goes to jail, we'll end up living on the street." "But, pet, what if he hurts you again?" "No more with the what ifs. Just, please.......take me home?" "Sure , luv." "Thanks." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ The weekend was uneventful. Buffy rested at home and kept an eye on her sister, since these days her father was drinking more. Buffy sat down on one of the benches looking at the fountain in the middle of the school courtyard. She had her blue jeans on with a green short sleeved top that had a couple of buttons on the top. It matched the color of her eyes, making the green in them stand out more. She had her hair straight again, since she didn't have time to curl it or do anything else except for a quick brush. She wore her converse and on top of her head sat her green sunglasses. She was reading since her friends had not come to school yet. In the hallway.......................... "Hey, uh, Xander!"said Spike , running to him to catch up. "Yeah?"asked Xander as he stopped and turned around. "Um, I was going to ask you about uh Buffy's dad." "Oh.... I don't think-" "What's his issues?" Xander sighed in deafeat and pulled him to a corner out of the walkway. "Her dad is a drinker and uses lots of drugs. He's done some pretty bad stuff to Buffy , but she doesn't like to talk about it. Actually, she hates it when the subject is brought up." "Why? " "Well, you know. She just doesn't like to think about her dad that way. I guess she sometimes likes to pretend her father is the ideal father, you know?" " I guess, but I still think she should tell the cops." " Me too." " How do you know about it if she doesn't like talking about it?" "I've seen her father hurt her and Willow is the only other person who knows so don't go telling people about it. Buffy likes to keep her home life and social life seperate." "Don't worry , mate. I think I'm going to go find her. Thanks!"said Spike and took off. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ "Hey, cutie,"said Spike as he sat next to Buffy. She put her book down and smiled at him. " Hi." "So , pet. How are things going?" "Good." "Good. So what were you reading?" "Emily Dickenson." "Ahh. She is a great poet. I think you and my father would get off great together, not that he can have you, cause you're mine. Well, can you be mine?"asked Spike with puppy dog eyes. Buffy giggled."Of course. I wouldn't want to be anybody else's,"said Buffy , grinning as she kissed a chaste kiss on Spike's lips. "I have got be the most luckiest man in the world to have you, such a beauty, to be mine." "Well, then, I must be the most luckiest woman to be sitting next to such a beauty myself." "Pet, you know, I -I think I'm in love with you." Buffy stared at him, grin disappearing , replaced with a frown. She just stared at him. "Luv?" "I-I can't." Buffy ran inside the hallways and into one of the bathroom stalls. "Pet!"yelled Spike as he ran after her. He came to a stop when he reached the door and the ladies sign was on it. "Oh bugger it!"said Spike as he went in the girls bathroom. "Buffy?"called Spike. He walked and opened one of the stall doors he had heard a sob come from. "Luv?Please...shhh...please don't cry...please , luv. I'm a stupid git. ........please, just don't cry." Buffy looked over at him, eyes puffy, and tears falling on her face. She then suddenly threw herself in Spike's arms. "I'm sorry.....I'm so sorry,"sobbed Buffy. "Hey, pet. Don't cry. It's okay. You have nothing to be sorry about it." " I just can't love you." Spike stopped as his heart sinked, but quickly went back to rubbing his hand soothingly on her back. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ^^^^^^^^^^^ Spike hadn't seen her since the bathroom. He was eating lunch currently with Willow. Willow seemed nice. After Xander had left, they both started talking. He liked her , but not anything more than friends.
"Willow, I ........I told Buffy.... I told her I loved her." Willow's jaw open and shut. She didn't know what to say. " I know it's only been a week, but I know I love her. Each time I see her I just...............anyways, after I told her she left and started crying. I went after her and she said she can't love me back. Is it because she's had rough break ups?"" I think Buffy should tell you , but I don't think she ever will, so I'll just tell you. Um, you see........Buffy is sick."
"She is. I could try to make some soup or-"
"No, I mean, really sick. As in take lots of medicine sick."
"Still drawing a blank here, red."
"Buffy has cancer."
Spike felt his world dissolve and couldn't process anything in his mind except for what Willow had just said.
A/N: Hey! I know its sad, but I'll make it happy. Promise. Okay just lying......cause I don't really know too far ahead what I'm going to do so......please just keep reading. And review!