A/N: Here's chapter 5. Thanks for the great reviews and keep them coming!
"So, do you think this top is cuter or the other one?"asked Willow as
she
lifted a new green top.
"I like the one you're holding up right now. It brings out your
eyes,"said
Buffy as she added another item onto the other pile hanging on her arm.
"So.........how are you and Spike? I mean you seemed mad when you left
the
club."
"We're good now and yes, I was really mad, but we're over it."
"That's good because it would really stuck if you guys broke up."
"Yeah. I really like him. Actually," said Buffy as she turned towards
Willow
to look at her," the other day I was kissing him and then all of a
sudden I
said I love you! I don't even know what happened. It just kind of
slipped my
mouth."
"Oh my gosh! And now you remeber to tell me. Girl, you're supposed to
call
me right away!"
"Sorry, I was so wrapped up with stuff."
"What kind of stuff?"asked Willow, raising her eyebrows suggestively.
"Willow! We have not you know yet! I'm still like seventeen here!"
"So?"
"So I'm too young."
"Pfft!"
Buffy smiled and rolled her eyes.
"Well, does he love you back?"asked Willow looking at a small beaded
bracelet.
"Yeah, he does."
"Well, that's great!"
Buffy nodded. "So how about you and Oz?"
"Well, I think he likes me, but then why would he ever like me. I'm not
pretty , athletic, or popular like you."
"Willow, you are beautiful. Why would you ever think that you're not.
You
have a great body and just because you run the mile in eight minutes
doesn't
mean you're not athletic."
"Nine minutes!!! You run it in five fifty! You can stretch like that
lady on
the yogurt commercial!" Buffy winced at Willow's loud voice,"AND you
can
climb the ropes in like ten seconds. Oh, and you can do twelve pull-ups
and
do handstands really well and you're good at swimming. You're
perfect!!"
"Willow, being athletic doesn't matter when it comes to guys."
"AND you can play like every sport!"
"Willow I get the point."
"And-"
"Willow!"
"What?"
"I was saying that no, I'm not perfect . Nobody is, but if you try your
best
that's the best you can do. And if any guy doesn't like you for who you
are
then they're definitely not worth it. And I don't think Oz is the guy
that
cares about popularity or how athletic you are. He likes a smart and
beautiful girl and you're the one."
"You're really smart and beautiful too though. I mean I know you don't
want
him. You already have Spike, but what if he doesn't want me."
"He will, trust me."
"I'll take your word for it. "
"Good. Now, pink or purple eyeshadow?"
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"I love you."
"I love you more."
"I love you twice as much."
"I love you three times as much."
"I love you ten times-"
"Okay, shut up you too,"said Xander.
Buffy and Spike had been having the who loves you more debate with each
other for the past ten minutes. It was now about a month and a half
that
they had been going out and they were starting to act like those love
sick
couples. Every second they were declaring their love for each other and
the
next they were having a make out session. It didn't matter where they
were.
In public or not. Oz had finally asked Willow out for the costume dance
on
Halloween and Willow had obviously said yes. They had been going out
for a
month now. Xander had gotten Anya as a girlfriend. She was okay , but
sometimes she was too blunt about things.
"I bet you right when they get home they are going to have many, many
orgasms,"said Anya.
For example, right now.
Another thing that had happened was Buffy's father had passed away. He
had
been drunk one night and had gotten in a car accident. Buffy had been
sad
about her loss of father, but she had gotten over it quickly knowing
she
lost her father a long time ago and it wasn't a sudden thing. Now, she
just
couldn't see her father in living color.
Her mother had gone to live with her sister, Aunt Caroline, in New
York.
Buffy had stayed in Sunnydale to keep attending her school. She still
lived
in the same place because she didn't want to move.
She had gotten a job to provide money to keep the house. She had worked
as a
secretary at a law office. She was trying to get to the top. Being a
lawyer.
It was hard work, but she knew if she tried she could do it.
Spike had been working at a set for a television show called Until
Forever.
He worked as a camera man for the producer. He wanted to be a big
producer
one day and make his own movie, but that was going to take awhile. His
dad
had moved back to England with his mother and he had moved in with
Buffy. He
helped pay rent and now waking up together and getting ready for school
was
a normal routine for them.
"Xander you're just jealous that you don't have such an amazing girl
for
yourself,"said Spike. Buffy made an aww face and put her hand on her
heart .
"That's so sweet, Spike,"said Buffy . Then she kissed him and the gang
rolled their eyes.
"Hey! He has me you know?!"said Anya, quite offended.
Nobody got a chance to answer as the waiter came up to them to take
their
order.
As the waiter took the gang's order, Buffy and Spike talked quietly in
the
little corner of the booth they had taken seats at.
"So, how's the medication thing going?"said Spike , fear clearly
expressed
all over his features.
"It's good. I just hope you know they can do something before my hair
starts
falling out because I seriously will have a heart attack if I go bald.
It's
taken me forever to grow out my hair."
Spike smiled and ran his hand through her long silky blond hair."Yeah,
it
would be a shame if all of these golden locks went to waste. Then I
couldn't
call you goldilocks."
Buffy smiled,"Well, that actually might give you a chance to start
calling
me Buffy ."
"Aww, pet I'm hurt."
Buffy giggled and kissed the tip of his nose.
"Buffy. Buffy........Buffy!!"said Willow, practically yelling.
"Oh, uh, yeah?"said Buffy looking over at Willow.
"Your order?"said Willow pointing to the waiter.
Buffy looked over the waiter. He had an annoyed expression on his face
, but
quickly plastered a fake smile.
"I'm not really hungry......"
"Luv, if you don't eat, you'll end up as skinny as a rail."
"Fine, I guess I could eat ...........hmmm.............I think I'll get
the
double dulex cheese ravioli."
The waiter quickly wrote that down.
"Pet, double?"
Buffy's eyes narrowed into slits.
"Hehe, just uh....just making sure."
Buffy crossed her arms and turned away from him.
"Oh bloody hell.........."mumbled Spike," I think I'll get the
.....hmm..........let me see here...........(after a couple minutes of
thinking) I think I'll get the Mexican fajita."
The waiter wrote that down on his pad of a paper and took all the menus
and
walked away.
Willow sat there talking to Oz and Anya was talking to Xander. Buffy
just
sat there ignoring Spike.
"Buffy.........please don't be mad,"said Spike intending it to be a
firm
demand , but came out more of a whine.
"You think I'm fat!"said Buffy.
"I don't think you're fat, Buffy. It's just that a lot of cheese can be
really bad for you plus really gross."
"Well, I happen to like cheese and I'm still living aren't I?"
"Sorry,pet, you're right."
"Well, I suppose I could forgive you. You were just trying to be
helpful........."then Buffy smiled and snuggled back up into Spike's
arms.
Spike grinned. I always know how to make her happy again. Hehe!
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Dinner had gone good except for when Buffy threw up after having too
much
cheese. She had regretted not taking Spike's word. Each member of the
gang
headed home all preparing to snuggle up with their honies.
Spike looked over at the clock on the table next to the bed. It read
7:42
with its blinding red color.
Jesus Christ! It's the bloody weekend and I'm awake this early. Spike
rolled
around and around in bed, but couldn't go back to sleep. He decided to
make
Buffy some breakfast. He gave her a kiss on the forehead and climbed
out of
bed.
Does she ever turn on the bloody cooler?! He didn't know where the
switch
was and decided to just take off his shirt, leaving him in his sweat
pants.
His hair all curly from sleep, he walked down the stairs and into the
kitchen. He grabbed a pan and started to make French toast and eggs. He
set
some orange juice out and put the food when he finished cooking it on
the
plates set at the table . He went over to the coffee maker and poured
some
in a mug.
Buffy walked down and as soon as she the saw the site in front of her,
her
mouth hung open like a fish that wasn't living anymore. Eyes wide open,
drool sliding down her chin. There stood Spike clad in pants and
drinking
coffee. What a yummy site! Is that a six pack? I wonder if he'll mind
if I
go tackle him to the ground and start pounding into him? Wait, bad,
bad, bad
Buffy!! No naughty thoughts! Stay calm.
Spike turned towards the sink. No don't move! Buffy hit her head as if
to
try to make the conversation in her head shut up.
" Something smells pretty darn good and I don't think it's
Kibbles,"said
Buffy as she walked in, petting the little baby Beagle Spike owned.
"It's breakfast, pet,"said Spike smiling, as he walked over to her and
put
his arms around her small waist.
"Well, it sure smells delicious. Please tell me it's ready?"asked Buffy
giving him the puppy dog eyes.
"That it is, pet. Right over on the table,"said Spike walking towards
it.
"Mmmm, " said Buffy as she took a bite from the French toast,"this is
not
the best I've tasted, but it is really good."
Spike frowned," What's the best you've tasted?"
"Well, duh! Of course you."
Spike grinned," I guess I am tasty."
They both looked at each other with weird looks.
"Okay so maybe that didn't sound really right......."said Spike as they
both
went back to what they were doing.
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Everyone sat at the table at the Bronze except for Buffy. Buffy had
gone to
the doctor's appointment since it had been scheduled Sunday night. The
gang
drank a couple of sodas and danced. Then a new singer came up.
"Oh my god that's Michael Jackson!"said Xander. He grabbed Anya and led
her
to the dance floor.
Oz did the same with Willow. Spike sat there as they danced over and
over.
He had wanted to go to the doctors with Buffy, but they had gotten into
a
fight. Something about how he was always to over protective or some
other
rot similar to it. Any ways Buffy had stormed out and left by herself
to
the appointment. She had said they needed a break.
The gang came back and sat down. They talked for a little bit and then
they
all saw her walk in, just as the song Billy Jean had started being sung
by
Michael.
They watched as she came in wearing a tight leather outfit. It was all
connected. It was like a jumpsuit. Her diamond chain belt sat loosely
on her
hip and swung as she walked. Her boots didn't move as she stood still
all of
a sudden and scanned the crowd. Her hair was in waves of curls . She
had
heavy make-up , but Spike's breath had been caught in his throat. She
looked
gorgeous. Most of the guys were already making a line to dance with
her.
Some were just throwing themselves at her.
Then all of a sudden a large group of girls followed behind her. They
were
the popular girls that Buffy used to spend a lot of time with. Then the
football and swim team walked in right behind the other girls. Buffy
headed
over to the dance floor and started dancing very intimately with
another
man. He was the star player on the football team.
The gang stared in awe at her actions. Spike squeezed the can trying to
keep
himself exploding from anger. There was, Riley, with his stupid grin as
she
grinded herself against him.
Her hands were above her head and she smiled the whole time. After
about ten
minutes Spike couldn't take it anymore and left outside . He stood and
leaned against a brick wall as he grabbed a smoke and his lighter from
his
pocket. He stood there, tears running down his cheeks, fumbling with
the
lighter, trying to get his smoke lit.
Spike walked back in and went to the bar a couple minutes later. He sat
there sulking in his chair as he drank his beer. He was underage , but
he
used his fake ID. Just as he was about to leave he saw Buffy walking
towards
the bar.
"So you want a soda? ........okay......."yelled Buffy to her friend
that was
across the dance floor." Okay, can I have two sodas, a water , and a
cherry
twist?"
"Sure just a second," said the bartender as he walked over to the other
side
of the bar.
Buffy stood there and finally noticed Spike. His face was tear stained
and
he was playing with the beer cap.
"Spike........"said Buffy softly.
Spike looked over at her and gave her a tiny smile and then looked back
down
at the beer cap in his hand.
"Are you okay?"asked Buffy, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"I'm not, pet. But don't you worry about it. You go back out there and
have
fun."
Buffy nodded and said her thanks to the bartender and grabbed the
drinks and
left.
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Spike looked really tired and looked like he had just been run over by
a
truck. His hair was all messed up and he was wearing his worn out jeans
with
his black old shirt. He had big bags under his eyes and his eyes were
red
from lack of sleep. He watched her from a distance as she talked to all
the
football players, twirling a golden lock.
She was wearing her short black skirt and her see through fish net top.
If
her black bra wasn't on then all the boys would probably be on her in a
matter of seconds. Her hair was done in two French braids with a few
strands
left out framing her face. She had her large loop earrings on and she
wore
her high strappy black sandals. Her whole attire was black. Even her
heavy
make-up.
Buffy walked away from the boys and headed to her locker which was by
Spike's.
She looked at him and felt a sudden pang of guilt wash over her. He
looked
like crap and it was her fault. If she hadn't said they needed a break
or
gotten mad at him he would never be looking like this. He didn't even
acknowledge her presence. He just stood there piling his books into the
locker.
"I'm s-sorry....."said Buffy softly looking down.
He just kept adding more books into his locker, fighting hard to keep
the
tears in his eyes from falling.
"I just thought that we should have a break, you know a little time
out-"
"You know , luv? You better stop before I start flooding the school
with my
tears. I heard you once and once was enough,"said Spike as one tear
managed
to escape making it's way down his high cheekbones.
Buffy bit on her lower lip and tried as hard as she could from just
taking
him into her arms. She felt like crying and yelling every curse she
knew at
herself for making him go through this pain. She knew how it felt to be
left
alone.
He walked away as he slammed his locker shut, duster trailing behind
him.
As Buffy turned back to her locker she saw something on the floor by
his.
She bent down and picked it up. It was a poem written by Spike. It was
crossed out though. He probably was going to give it to her , but
decided
not to after last night.
She read the words slowly:
To my golden goddess........
Like a rose in a garden of daffodils,
You stand out in the world with your beauty,
Your courage and faith is what separates you from the rest of them
You're my precious, my goldilocks, my luv, pet, ducks, and cutie
Like a bird singing in the trees on a beautiful peaceful morning
You talk and whisper in my ear sweet nothings
You stand by my side watching and waiting
For I am the luckiest man standing
You're my everything
Because without you I have nothing
Please never leave me..........
Love,
William
She felt her tears roll down her cheeks. She read his last comment
again and
again.
She saw Willow walking towards her and quickly wiped away her tears.
"Willow........Hi."
"Hi. I came to , uh, tell you something important. Well, first of all ,
you're my best friend and second of all you always will be it's
just.........well I don't want to blame anybody, but what you did, that
was
wrong. I mean I know you and Spike got in a fight , it was kind of
obvious,
but don't you care for him?"
"Of course I do. How could you even ask that?"said Buffy, hurt and
confusion
evident on her face.
"Well, I mean how could I not? If you really love a person , from my
perspective here, then you feel guilt and sorrow over breaking up with
them.
But when I saw you at the bronze, you looked..........well happy."
"I was."
"Why? If you've seen Spike, he , well, he looks like crap and you
don't."
"I was angry and sad about the fight , but it was just a fight. We were
taking a break........I-I wasn't totally leaving him............"
" Buffy, you can't make someone wait around until you're ready because
unfortunately life is short, you should know that of all people, and
he's
not some toy you can switch on and off whenever you want to play with
him."
Buffy let her tears fall," I know, I know. Willow, I love him so much.
And I
never wanted to hurt him. I read his poem he gave to me and I
just................how can I make things better?"
" Talk to him after school."
Buffy nodded,"Thanks , Wills. What would I do without you?"
"Honestly? I have no idea. Probably be miserable."
They both giggled .
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"William..........." said Buffy taking a seat next to him on the porch
swing.
He looked over at her. He had been crying again she could see the fresh
trails left on his beautiful face.
"I know that sorry won't make up for the pain I've caused you, but I
love
you. I never want to lose you. I was thinking to myself at how much of
an
idiot I was. I let go of you. You, such a beautiful person with so much
love
to give . I just hope that I get as lucky as I was when I first met you
to
get you back."
He had been lost at some point of her speech. It probably was the part
where
she said she loved him. She still loved him!! Yes!!!
After a couple of silent minutes," William? William?"said Buffy waving
her
hand in front of his eyes.
He snapped out of his daze and said," I would die than rather live
without
you."
She smiled and hugged him as tight as she could, afraid he would leave
if
she let go.
"Pet, don't want to break any ribs now.........."
"Sorry.........oh great my mascara's running,"said Buffy sniffiling.
She
quickly wiped underneath her eyes." I bet I look hideous."
"No, luv. You still look drop dead gorgeous."
She smiled and her eyes became watery again. " I love you so
much......"
" I love you too, pet."
"Spike, there's something else I wanted to talk about."
"What is it?"
"Well................. I think I'm ready."
"Uh............?"
"I mean really ready. I want to show you how much I love you."
Spike's eyes went wide and the next thing Buffy knew was the sound of a
loud
thud coming from the porch steps. She looked down and Spike was laying
there.
Guess he really was surprised? Good thing I didn't do plan A with the
nightgown and the candles...............
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"So, do you think this top is cuter or the other one?"asked Willow as
she
lifted a new green top.
"I like the one you're holding up right now. It brings out your
eyes,"said
Buffy as she added another item onto the other pile hanging on her arm.
"So.........how are you and Spike? I mean you seemed mad when you left
the
club."
"We're good now and yes, I was really mad, but we're over it."
"That's good because it would really stuck if you guys broke up."
"Yeah. I really like him. Actually," said Buffy as she turned towards
Willow
to look at her," the other day I was kissing him and then all of a
sudden I
said I love you! I don't even know what happened. It just kind of
slipped my
mouth."
"Oh my gosh! And now you remeber to tell me. Girl, you're supposed to
call
me right away!"
"Sorry, I was so wrapped up with stuff."
"What kind of stuff?"asked Willow, raising her eyebrows suggestively.
"Willow! We have not you know yet! I'm still like seventeen here!"
"So?"
"So I'm too young."
"Pfft!"
Buffy smiled and rolled her eyes.
"Well, does he love you back?"asked Willow looking at a small beaded
bracelet.
"Yeah, he does."
"Well, that's great!"
Buffy nodded. "So how about you and Oz?"
"Well, I think he likes me, but then why would he ever like me. I'm not
pretty , athletic, or popular like you."
"Willow, you are beautiful. Why would you ever think that you're not.
You
have a great body and just because you run the mile in eight minutes
doesn't
mean you're not athletic."
"Nine minutes!!! You run it in five fifty! You can stretch like that
lady on
the yogurt commercial!" Buffy winced at Willow's loud voice,"AND you
can
climb the ropes in like ten seconds. Oh, and you can do twelve pull-ups
and
do handstands really well and you're good at swimming. You're
perfect!!"
"Willow, being athletic doesn't matter when it comes to guys."
"AND you can play like every sport!"
"Willow I get the point."
"And-"
"Willow!"
"What?"
"I was saying that no, I'm not perfect . Nobody is, but if you try your
best
that's the best you can do. And if any guy doesn't like you for who you
are
then they're definitely not worth it. And I don't think Oz is the guy
that
cares about popularity or how athletic you are. He likes a smart and
beautiful girl and you're the one."
"You're really smart and beautiful too though. I mean I know you don't
want
him. You already have Spike, but what if he doesn't want me."
"He will, trust me."
"I'll take your word for it. "
"Good. Now, pink or purple eyeshadow?"
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"I love you."
"I love you more."
"I love you twice as much."
"I love you three times as much."
"I love you ten times-"
"Okay, shut up you too,"said Xander.
Buffy and Spike had been having the who loves you more debate with each
other for the past ten minutes. It was now about a month and a half
that
they had been going out and they were starting to act like those love
sick
couples. Every second they were declaring their love for each other and
the
next they were having a make out session. It didn't matter where they
were.
In public or not. Oz had finally asked Willow out for the costume dance
on
Halloween and Willow had obviously said yes. They had been going out
for a
month now. Xander had gotten Anya as a girlfriend. She was okay , but
sometimes she was too blunt about things.
"I bet you right when they get home they are going to have many, many
orgasms,"said Anya.
For example, right now.
Another thing that had happened was Buffy's father had passed away. He
had
been drunk one night and had gotten in a car accident. Buffy had been
sad
about her loss of father, but she had gotten over it quickly knowing
she
lost her father a long time ago and it wasn't a sudden thing. Now, she
just
couldn't see her father in living color.
Her mother had gone to live with her sister, Aunt Caroline, in New
York.
Buffy had stayed in Sunnydale to keep attending her school. She still
lived
in the same place because she didn't want to move.
She had gotten a job to provide money to keep the house. She had worked
as a
secretary at a law office. She was trying to get to the top. Being a
lawyer.
It was hard work, but she knew if she tried she could do it.
Spike had been working at a set for a television show called Until
Forever.
He worked as a camera man for the producer. He wanted to be a big
producer
one day and make his own movie, but that was going to take awhile. His
dad
had moved back to England with his mother and he had moved in with
Buffy. He
helped pay rent and now waking up together and getting ready for school
was
a normal routine for them.
"Xander you're just jealous that you don't have such an amazing girl
for
yourself,"said Spike. Buffy made an aww face and put her hand on her
heart .
"That's so sweet, Spike,"said Buffy . Then she kissed him and the gang
rolled their eyes.
"Hey! He has me you know?!"said Anya, quite offended.
Nobody got a chance to answer as the waiter came up to them to take
their
order.
As the waiter took the gang's order, Buffy and Spike talked quietly in
the
little corner of the booth they had taken seats at.
"So, how's the medication thing going?"said Spike , fear clearly
expressed
all over his features.
"It's good. I just hope you know they can do something before my hair
starts
falling out because I seriously will have a heart attack if I go bald.
It's
taken me forever to grow out my hair."
Spike smiled and ran his hand through her long silky blond hair."Yeah,
it
would be a shame if all of these golden locks went to waste. Then I
couldn't
call you goldilocks."
Buffy smiled,"Well, that actually might give you a chance to start
calling
me Buffy ."
"Aww, pet I'm hurt."
Buffy giggled and kissed the tip of his nose.
"Buffy. Buffy........Buffy!!"said Willow, practically yelling.
"Oh, uh, yeah?"said Buffy looking over at Willow.
"Your order?"said Willow pointing to the waiter.
Buffy looked over the waiter. He had an annoyed expression on his face
, but
quickly plastered a fake smile.
"I'm not really hungry......"
"Luv, if you don't eat, you'll end up as skinny as a rail."
"Fine, I guess I could eat ...........hmmm.............I think I'll get
the
double dulex cheese ravioli."
The waiter quickly wrote that down.
"Pet, double?"
Buffy's eyes narrowed into slits.
"Hehe, just uh....just making sure."
Buffy crossed her arms and turned away from him.
"Oh bloody hell.........."mumbled Spike," I think I'll get the
.....hmm..........let me see here...........(after a couple minutes of
thinking) I think I'll get the Mexican fajita."
The waiter wrote that down on his pad of a paper and took all the menus
and
walked away.
Willow sat there talking to Oz and Anya was talking to Xander. Buffy
just
sat there ignoring Spike.
"Buffy.........please don't be mad,"said Spike intending it to be a
firm
demand , but came out more of a whine.
"You think I'm fat!"said Buffy.
"I don't think you're fat, Buffy. It's just that a lot of cheese can be
really bad for you plus really gross."
"Well, I happen to like cheese and I'm still living aren't I?"
"Sorry,pet, you're right."
"Well, I suppose I could forgive you. You were just trying to be
helpful........."then Buffy smiled and snuggled back up into Spike's
arms.
Spike grinned. I always know how to make her happy again. Hehe!
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Dinner had gone good except for when Buffy threw up after having too
much
cheese. She had regretted not taking Spike's word. Each member of the
gang
headed home all preparing to snuggle up with their honies.
Spike looked over at the clock on the table next to the bed. It read
7:42
with its blinding red color.
Jesus Christ! It's the bloody weekend and I'm awake this early. Spike
rolled
around and around in bed, but couldn't go back to sleep. He decided to
make
Buffy some breakfast. He gave her a kiss on the forehead and climbed
out of
bed.
Does she ever turn on the bloody cooler?! He didn't know where the
switch
was and decided to just take off his shirt, leaving him in his sweat
pants.
His hair all curly from sleep, he walked down the stairs and into the
kitchen. He grabbed a pan and started to make French toast and eggs. He
set
some orange juice out and put the food when he finished cooking it on
the
plates set at the table . He went over to the coffee maker and poured
some
in a mug.
Buffy walked down and as soon as she the saw the site in front of her,
her
mouth hung open like a fish that wasn't living anymore. Eyes wide open,
drool sliding down her chin. There stood Spike clad in pants and
drinking
coffee. What a yummy site! Is that a six pack? I wonder if he'll mind
if I
go tackle him to the ground and start pounding into him? Wait, bad,
bad, bad
Buffy!! No naughty thoughts! Stay calm.
Spike turned towards the sink. No don't move! Buffy hit her head as if
to
try to make the conversation in her head shut up.
" Something smells pretty darn good and I don't think it's
Kibbles,"said
Buffy as she walked in, petting the little baby Beagle Spike owned.
"It's breakfast, pet,"said Spike smiling, as he walked over to her and
put
his arms around her small waist.
"Well, it sure smells delicious. Please tell me it's ready?"asked Buffy
giving him the puppy dog eyes.
"That it is, pet. Right over on the table,"said Spike walking towards
it.
"Mmmm, " said Buffy as she took a bite from the French toast,"this is
not
the best I've tasted, but it is really good."
Spike frowned," What's the best you've tasted?"
"Well, duh! Of course you."
Spike grinned," I guess I am tasty."
They both looked at each other with weird looks.
"Okay so maybe that didn't sound really right......."said Spike as they
both
went back to what they were doing.
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Everyone sat at the table at the Bronze except for Buffy. Buffy had
gone to
the doctor's appointment since it had been scheduled Sunday night. The
gang
drank a couple of sodas and danced. Then a new singer came up.
"Oh my god that's Michael Jackson!"said Xander. He grabbed Anya and led
her
to the dance floor.
Oz did the same with Willow. Spike sat there as they danced over and
over.
He had wanted to go to the doctors with Buffy, but they had gotten into
a
fight. Something about how he was always to over protective or some
other
rot similar to it. Any ways Buffy had stormed out and left by herself
to
the appointment. She had said they needed a break.
The gang came back and sat down. They talked for a little bit and then
they
all saw her walk in, just as the song Billy Jean had started being sung
by
Michael.
They watched as she came in wearing a tight leather outfit. It was all
connected. It was like a jumpsuit. Her diamond chain belt sat loosely
on her
hip and swung as she walked. Her boots didn't move as she stood still
all of
a sudden and scanned the crowd. Her hair was in waves of curls . She
had
heavy make-up , but Spike's breath had been caught in his throat. She
looked
gorgeous. Most of the guys were already making a line to dance with
her.
Some were just throwing themselves at her.
Then all of a sudden a large group of girls followed behind her. They
were
the popular girls that Buffy used to spend a lot of time with. Then the
football and swim team walked in right behind the other girls. Buffy
headed
over to the dance floor and started dancing very intimately with
another
man. He was the star player on the football team.
The gang stared in awe at her actions. Spike squeezed the can trying to
keep
himself exploding from anger. There was, Riley, with his stupid grin as
she
grinded herself against him.
Her hands were above her head and she smiled the whole time. After
about ten
minutes Spike couldn't take it anymore and left outside . He stood and
leaned against a brick wall as he grabbed a smoke and his lighter from
his
pocket. He stood there, tears running down his cheeks, fumbling with
the
lighter, trying to get his smoke lit.
Spike walked back in and went to the bar a couple minutes later. He sat
there sulking in his chair as he drank his beer. He was underage , but
he
used his fake ID. Just as he was about to leave he saw Buffy walking
towards
the bar.
"So you want a soda? ........okay......."yelled Buffy to her friend
that was
across the dance floor." Okay, can I have two sodas, a water , and a
cherry
twist?"
"Sure just a second," said the bartender as he walked over to the other
side
of the bar.
Buffy stood there and finally noticed Spike. His face was tear stained
and
he was playing with the beer cap.
"Spike........"said Buffy softly.
Spike looked over at her and gave her a tiny smile and then looked back
down
at the beer cap in his hand.
"Are you okay?"asked Buffy, putting a hand on his shoulder.
"I'm not, pet. But don't you worry about it. You go back out there and
have
fun."
Buffy nodded and said her thanks to the bartender and grabbed the
drinks and
left.
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Spike looked really tired and looked like he had just been run over by
a
truck. His hair was all messed up and he was wearing his worn out jeans
with
his black old shirt. He had big bags under his eyes and his eyes were
red
from lack of sleep. He watched her from a distance as she talked to all
the
football players, twirling a golden lock.
She was wearing her short black skirt and her see through fish net top.
If
her black bra wasn't on then all the boys would probably be on her in a
matter of seconds. Her hair was done in two French braids with a few
strands
left out framing her face. She had her large loop earrings on and she
wore
her high strappy black sandals. Her whole attire was black. Even her
heavy
make-up.
Buffy walked away from the boys and headed to her locker which was by
Spike's.
She looked at him and felt a sudden pang of guilt wash over her. He
looked
like crap and it was her fault. If she hadn't said they needed a break
or
gotten mad at him he would never be looking like this. He didn't even
acknowledge her presence. He just stood there piling his books into the
locker.
"I'm s-sorry....."said Buffy softly looking down.
He just kept adding more books into his locker, fighting hard to keep
the
tears in his eyes from falling.
"I just thought that we should have a break, you know a little time
out-"
"You know , luv? You better stop before I start flooding the school
with my
tears. I heard you once and once was enough,"said Spike as one tear
managed
to escape making it's way down his high cheekbones.
Buffy bit on her lower lip and tried as hard as she could from just
taking
him into her arms. She felt like crying and yelling every curse she
knew at
herself for making him go through this pain. She knew how it felt to be
left
alone.
He walked away as he slammed his locker shut, duster trailing behind
him.
As Buffy turned back to her locker she saw something on the floor by
his.
She bent down and picked it up. It was a poem written by Spike. It was
crossed out though. He probably was going to give it to her , but
decided
not to after last night.
She read the words slowly:
To my golden goddess........
Like a rose in a garden of daffodils,
You stand out in the world with your beauty,
Your courage and faith is what separates you from the rest of them
You're my precious, my goldilocks, my luv, pet, ducks, and cutie
Like a bird singing in the trees on a beautiful peaceful morning
You talk and whisper in my ear sweet nothings
You stand by my side watching and waiting
For I am the luckiest man standing
You're my everything
Because without you I have nothing
Please never leave me..........
Love,
William
She felt her tears roll down her cheeks. She read his last comment
again and
again.
She saw Willow walking towards her and quickly wiped away her tears.
"Willow........Hi."
"Hi. I came to , uh, tell you something important. Well, first of all ,
you're my best friend and second of all you always will be it's
just.........well I don't want to blame anybody, but what you did, that
was
wrong. I mean I know you and Spike got in a fight , it was kind of
obvious,
but don't you care for him?"
"Of course I do. How could you even ask that?"said Buffy, hurt and
confusion
evident on her face.
"Well, I mean how could I not? If you really love a person , from my
perspective here, then you feel guilt and sorrow over breaking up with
them.
But when I saw you at the bronze, you looked..........well happy."
"I was."
"Why? If you've seen Spike, he , well, he looks like crap and you
don't."
"I was angry and sad about the fight , but it was just a fight. We were
taking a break........I-I wasn't totally leaving him............"
" Buffy, you can't make someone wait around until you're ready because
unfortunately life is short, you should know that of all people, and
he's
not some toy you can switch on and off whenever you want to play with
him."
Buffy let her tears fall," I know, I know. Willow, I love him so much.
And I
never wanted to hurt him. I read his poem he gave to me and I
just................how can I make things better?"
" Talk to him after school."
Buffy nodded,"Thanks , Wills. What would I do without you?"
"Honestly? I have no idea. Probably be miserable."
They both giggled .
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"William..........." said Buffy taking a seat next to him on the porch
swing.
He looked over at her. He had been crying again she could see the fresh
trails left on his beautiful face.
"I know that sorry won't make up for the pain I've caused you, but I
love
you. I never want to lose you. I was thinking to myself at how much of
an
idiot I was. I let go of you. You, such a beautiful person with so much
love
to give . I just hope that I get as lucky as I was when I first met you
to
get you back."
He had been lost at some point of her speech. It probably was the part
where
she said she loved him. She still loved him!! Yes!!!
After a couple of silent minutes," William? William?"said Buffy waving
her
hand in front of his eyes.
He snapped out of his daze and said," I would die than rather live
without
you."
She smiled and hugged him as tight as she could, afraid he would leave
if
she let go.
"Pet, don't want to break any ribs now.........."
"Sorry.........oh great my mascara's running,"said Buffy sniffiling.
She
quickly wiped underneath her eyes." I bet I look hideous."
"No, luv. You still look drop dead gorgeous."
She smiled and her eyes became watery again. " I love you so
much......"
" I love you too, pet."
"Spike, there's something else I wanted to talk about."
"What is it?"
"Well................. I think I'm ready."
"Uh............?"
"I mean really ready. I want to show you how much I love you."
Spike's eyes went wide and the next thing Buffy knew was the sound of a
loud
thud coming from the porch steps. She looked down and Spike was laying
there.
Guess he really was surprised? Good thing I didn't do plan A with the
nightgown and the candles...............
A/N: Please review and thanks so much for those of you who keep
constantly
reviewing. I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!