**2002**
It's been four years since I last spoke to her. Four years since I let my brother and his girlfriend persuade me to break up with Louisa, and tell her I didn't want the baby. Four years since I accused her of only being after my money, and getting pregnant on purpose. Four years since I told her to abort our unborn baby.
At the time she was struggling to make ends meet, yet another girl with a guitar trying to break into the music industry. She'd just formed a group with three other girls when she got pregnant. She swore it was an accident, and I believed her. That is, until Matt found out, and started on about how she did it on purpose. I was weak back then, and allowed myself to be talked into finishing with her. But I didn't just finish with her. I was cruel. I hurt her badly with my words, and made her cry. The things I said. well, they made me ashamed of myself. I regretted them as soon as they left my mouth, but once I started I couldn't stop. Screaming at her for being after my money, saying she was only with me so she could say she was the girlfriend of a WWF superstar, I just kept on at her until she ran out in tears.
Two days later she stuffed an envelope of money through my front door. It was everything she owed me. I later found out that she had sold all of her jewellery, her car and some other stuff to get the money together. It made me hate myself even more.
After a couple of weeks I felt so bad, and had missed her so much, that I went to see her. I wanted to say sorry, and see if we could work things out. When I got to her place, the women who she rented the room from said Louisa had moved out, that her and the rest of the girls in the group had left the area. She hadn't left a forwarding address.
And now, four years on, I'm watching the music video for the current Number 1 single. I've been hearing it on the radio for weeks now. 'Twisted Dream' by Enlightenment. I'm staring at the screen in shock. The groups' lead singer, Sugar-Cane is staring back, singing her heart out. Stunningly beautiful, with long purple hair. It's Louisa.
It's been four years since I last spoke to her. Four years since I let my brother and his girlfriend persuade me to break up with Louisa, and tell her I didn't want the baby. Four years since I accused her of only being after my money, and getting pregnant on purpose. Four years since I told her to abort our unborn baby.
At the time she was struggling to make ends meet, yet another girl with a guitar trying to break into the music industry. She'd just formed a group with three other girls when she got pregnant. She swore it was an accident, and I believed her. That is, until Matt found out, and started on about how she did it on purpose. I was weak back then, and allowed myself to be talked into finishing with her. But I didn't just finish with her. I was cruel. I hurt her badly with my words, and made her cry. The things I said. well, they made me ashamed of myself. I regretted them as soon as they left my mouth, but once I started I couldn't stop. Screaming at her for being after my money, saying she was only with me so she could say she was the girlfriend of a WWF superstar, I just kept on at her until she ran out in tears.
Two days later she stuffed an envelope of money through my front door. It was everything she owed me. I later found out that she had sold all of her jewellery, her car and some other stuff to get the money together. It made me hate myself even more.
After a couple of weeks I felt so bad, and had missed her so much, that I went to see her. I wanted to say sorry, and see if we could work things out. When I got to her place, the women who she rented the room from said Louisa had moved out, that her and the rest of the girls in the group had left the area. She hadn't left a forwarding address.
And now, four years on, I'm watching the music video for the current Number 1 single. I've been hearing it on the radio for weeks now. 'Twisted Dream' by Enlightenment. I'm staring at the screen in shock. The groups' lead singer, Sugar-Cane is staring back, singing her heart out. Stunningly beautiful, with long purple hair. It's Louisa.