CHAPTER 8
Heart and Meanings
"Come on Teresa, you have to admit that you tend to blow things out of proportion."
"Whit, I'm telling what I saw."
They were both sitting on her bed, Whitney was painting Teresa's finger nails.
"But he said that he loved you."
"He probably said it out of guilt."
Whitney looked at her friend.
"No, I don't believe this for a second. We've both known Fox since forever. You should know by now that he never says things out of guilt."
"I don't know what to think."
"Well maybe you should speak to him."
"I can't face him. I'm scared of what I'll tell him."
"You mean you're scared of what you're feeling for him?"
Teresa nodded.
"Whitney, I never felt this way before. I feel like my heart is about to burst when I'm around him."
"I know honey. You look different when you're around him. You two are so cute together."
A knocking was heard.
"Who is it?"
"It's me Teresa."
She got up and got the door.
"What is it, mama?"
"Fox gave me this at the mansion."
She gave her an envelop.
"Thank you, mama. But I don't think I want to see what's inside of it."
"Teresa, he is leaving for Europe today, he is saying that he will not come back to Harmony. Open it and see what he wants. Don't do something you might regret. I have to go back to the mansion."
Pilar kissed her daughter and left to go back to her work. Teresa sat on her bed and stared at the envelope.
"Ok, Teresa. If you don't open it, I will."
"Just give me a second."
She started opening it slowly and pulled out a paper from it and a small velvety red bag.
"I wanted to apologize to you and let you know that I meant every word I said last night. I do love you, and I do want to make you my wife. What you saw between Sarah and me was her kissing me. I didn't want to and I pushed her away. The only person I was thinking of last night was you and how I wanted to be with you and no one else. The past years that I spent in Europe, you were the only one always on my mind. The red bag contains another charm for your bracelet. It's a diamond heart. I was hoping that I would be able to give it to you myself at the end of the summer and be able to tell you how I felt, but I blew it. I hope you realize how important you are to me and that you will find it in your heart to forgive me. Maybe some day."
"Oh my God, Teresa. This is gorgeous."
Whitney were both staring at the diamond shaped heart.
"Get dressed."
"What? Why?"
"You're going to see him."
She put the heart back in the velvety bag.
"No, Whit. I'm not going."
"Teresa, he is leaving and he may never come back. At least give him a reason to want to be here."
"I don't know."
"Yes, you know. You know that you want to see him. I can see it in your face. You are dying to see him."
"Maybe I am."
"Then go, go to him."
Teresa nodded and went to her closet.
"What should I wear?"
"I don't think he'll care. He just wants to see you."
She pulled out a pair of Capri pants and a white v-neck shirt and got dressed.
"Wish me luck."
Whitney got up and hugged Teresa.
"I don't need to wish you luck, he loves you and that's all you need to know. Trust in that."
"Thank you Whitney. You're a great friend."
She left the cottage and ran all the way to the mansion. She opened the door and made her way inside. She went to the first maid she saw.
"I'm sorry, have you seen Fox this morning?"
"Yes, he is in his room packing. Just follow the music."
Teresa walked up the stairs and she understood what the maid meant. The music was blearing. She pushed the door open, but didn't see him. She stood there and looked at the clothes on the bed and the travel bags sitting on the floor.
"Teresa?"
She jumped. Fox had come behind her. He went in his bed room and turned the music off.
"You can't leave."
"There is nothing keeping me here anymore."
"Yes, there is."
"If you're talking about my family, then really, no. There is nothing keeping me in Harmony."
"What about me?"
"Teresa, if it's because of the letter, I didn't think you would read it right now."
"But I did."
"Another miscalculation on my part."
"The things you said in it, I feel the same way."
"No, you don't. You love the idea of me."
"How could you say something like that? I thought you knew me better than that, Nicholas."
She walked up to him and took his hand in hers.
"I know that last night was a misunderstanding. I overreacted and I'm sorry. I acted like a jealous girlfriend. I realize that you were never mine to begin with."
He pushed his clothes that were on his bed aside and took Teresa's hand. They both sat down.
"Can I have the bracelet for a second?"
"Why?"
"You'll see."
She took it off and gave it to him.
"Do you know why I put the snowman on this bracelet?"
"Because you said that you missed making them with me."
"Yeah, there's that but there's something else. The first time I realized that you and I were so much more was when we were making one the very last winter we spent together. I realized you were the one person I always wanted to be with because I love you."
She was looking at him, her eyes starting to fill with tears.
"The star is because whenever I was in Europe and looked at the sky, I knew that you would be staring at it too. In a sense, it felt less lonely. You are my star, you guided me through some very hard times. All I ever had to do was think about those nights we spent outside together to feel close to you."
"I don't know what to say..."
"The moon is because of way it reflects on your hair and your body, because my world really revolves around you, you are the center of my universe. The sun is because you light up my life. The heart is because no one makes mine beat as fast as you do, no one fills it quiet as you. You are my earth Teresa, you keep me grounded and you give sense to everything I do. You have no idea how deep my feelings are for you."
"And you have no idea how deep my feelings are for you."
He took the velvety bag from her hand, opened it and took out the diamond. He placed it on the bracelet and put it back on her wrist.
"I really do love you."
He leaned in and kissed her and felt like he was soaring.
She pulled away from him.
"Are you still leaving Harmony?"
"Not if you don't want me to."
"Then stay with me."
She got up, sat on his lap and they held each other.
"Come on Teresa, you have to admit that you tend to blow things out of proportion."
"Whit, I'm telling what I saw."
They were both sitting on her bed, Whitney was painting Teresa's finger nails.
"But he said that he loved you."
"He probably said it out of guilt."
Whitney looked at her friend.
"No, I don't believe this for a second. We've both known Fox since forever. You should know by now that he never says things out of guilt."
"I don't know what to think."
"Well maybe you should speak to him."
"I can't face him. I'm scared of what I'll tell him."
"You mean you're scared of what you're feeling for him?"
Teresa nodded.
"Whitney, I never felt this way before. I feel like my heart is about to burst when I'm around him."
"I know honey. You look different when you're around him. You two are so cute together."
A knocking was heard.
"Who is it?"
"It's me Teresa."
She got up and got the door.
"What is it, mama?"
"Fox gave me this at the mansion."
She gave her an envelop.
"Thank you, mama. But I don't think I want to see what's inside of it."
"Teresa, he is leaving for Europe today, he is saying that he will not come back to Harmony. Open it and see what he wants. Don't do something you might regret. I have to go back to the mansion."
Pilar kissed her daughter and left to go back to her work. Teresa sat on her bed and stared at the envelope.
"Ok, Teresa. If you don't open it, I will."
"Just give me a second."
She started opening it slowly and pulled out a paper from it and a small velvety red bag.
"I wanted to apologize to you and let you know that I meant every word I said last night. I do love you, and I do want to make you my wife. What you saw between Sarah and me was her kissing me. I didn't want to and I pushed her away. The only person I was thinking of last night was you and how I wanted to be with you and no one else. The past years that I spent in Europe, you were the only one always on my mind. The red bag contains another charm for your bracelet. It's a diamond heart. I was hoping that I would be able to give it to you myself at the end of the summer and be able to tell you how I felt, but I blew it. I hope you realize how important you are to me and that you will find it in your heart to forgive me. Maybe some day."
"Oh my God, Teresa. This is gorgeous."
Whitney were both staring at the diamond shaped heart.
"Get dressed."
"What? Why?"
"You're going to see him."
She put the heart back in the velvety bag.
"No, Whit. I'm not going."
"Teresa, he is leaving and he may never come back. At least give him a reason to want to be here."
"I don't know."
"Yes, you know. You know that you want to see him. I can see it in your face. You are dying to see him."
"Maybe I am."
"Then go, go to him."
Teresa nodded and went to her closet.
"What should I wear?"
"I don't think he'll care. He just wants to see you."
She pulled out a pair of Capri pants and a white v-neck shirt and got dressed.
"Wish me luck."
Whitney got up and hugged Teresa.
"I don't need to wish you luck, he loves you and that's all you need to know. Trust in that."
"Thank you Whitney. You're a great friend."
She left the cottage and ran all the way to the mansion. She opened the door and made her way inside. She went to the first maid she saw.
"I'm sorry, have you seen Fox this morning?"
"Yes, he is in his room packing. Just follow the music."
Teresa walked up the stairs and she understood what the maid meant. The music was blearing. She pushed the door open, but didn't see him. She stood there and looked at the clothes on the bed and the travel bags sitting on the floor.
"Teresa?"
She jumped. Fox had come behind her. He went in his bed room and turned the music off.
"You can't leave."
"There is nothing keeping me here anymore."
"Yes, there is."
"If you're talking about my family, then really, no. There is nothing keeping me in Harmony."
"What about me?"
"Teresa, if it's because of the letter, I didn't think you would read it right now."
"But I did."
"Another miscalculation on my part."
"The things you said in it, I feel the same way."
"No, you don't. You love the idea of me."
"How could you say something like that? I thought you knew me better than that, Nicholas."
She walked up to him and took his hand in hers.
"I know that last night was a misunderstanding. I overreacted and I'm sorry. I acted like a jealous girlfriend. I realize that you were never mine to begin with."
He pushed his clothes that were on his bed aside and took Teresa's hand. They both sat down.
"Can I have the bracelet for a second?"
"Why?"
"You'll see."
She took it off and gave it to him.
"Do you know why I put the snowman on this bracelet?"
"Because you said that you missed making them with me."
"Yeah, there's that but there's something else. The first time I realized that you and I were so much more was when we were making one the very last winter we spent together. I realized you were the one person I always wanted to be with because I love you."
She was looking at him, her eyes starting to fill with tears.
"The star is because whenever I was in Europe and looked at the sky, I knew that you would be staring at it too. In a sense, it felt less lonely. You are my star, you guided me through some very hard times. All I ever had to do was think about those nights we spent outside together to feel close to you."
"I don't know what to say..."
"The moon is because of way it reflects on your hair and your body, because my world really revolves around you, you are the center of my universe. The sun is because you light up my life. The heart is because no one makes mine beat as fast as you do, no one fills it quiet as you. You are my earth Teresa, you keep me grounded and you give sense to everything I do. You have no idea how deep my feelings are for you."
"And you have no idea how deep my feelings are for you."
He took the velvety bag from her hand, opened it and took out the diamond. He placed it on the bracelet and put it back on her wrist.
"I really do love you."
He leaned in and kissed her and felt like he was soaring.
She pulled away from him.
"Are you still leaving Harmony?"
"Not if you don't want me to."
"Then stay with me."
She got up, sat on his lap and they held each other.