Disclaimer: I think this is the third chapter where I put lyrics of a
song. I just feel that sometimes, a song can explain the meaning behind
words. Especially this one, at least for me.
The title of the song is "Million Tears" and the singer is Kasey Chambers.
CHAPTER 20 A Walk Down Memory Lane
"I know you're getting married to Ethan tomorrow. But are you sure that this is what you want."
"Yes, I am."
"Stop lying to me and most importantly to yourself. If you have second thoughts, maybe you should cancel."
"No, I won't do this, Whitney."
"Teresa, you won't even let him touch you. You told him that you didn't want to sleep with him before the wedding. How are you going to get out of this one when you are married to him? You can't put him off forever."
"I don't know Whit."
"Anyway, I got you something for you. Watch it before the wedding."
"What is it?"
"You'll know if you see it."
"Ok, I'll watch it. I'll see you tomorrow at the church."
"Of course."
Whitney was outside walking.
"I hope she takes a look at it."
Teresa was in her room. She went to her television turned it on, popped the tape in the VCR and pressed play. Music started in the room.
Take my hand
Break my stride
Make me Smile
For everytime I cried
Teresa sat as the music filled her bedroom. She saw herself at her senior prom dancing with Fox. That was the first song they had danced on when he had held her so close to his heart. The night of first times. She watched herself as she argued with Fox over how long it took her to get ready. She laughed.
Hold my heart
In the palm of your hand
Don't listen to it breakin'
Just listen to the band
The image changed from the prom to when they were children building a snowman, then they started throwing snow balls at each other. They were running so fast.
"I am faster than you are, Teresa."
"No, because I am faster than the wind."
He caught up with her and threw her to ground that was covered with inches and inches of snow.
"I am king of the world."
She pulled her tongue at him, disappointed that he was able to catch her. He saw it and felt bad.
"Well you can be queen of the world if you want to."
They both started laughing and started running again.
Do you wanna ride in my car
It's parked out on the street
Or just stay with me a while
Before I fall asleep
Take these tears
Wash your skin
I'm having trouble breathin'
Since you walked in
"Do you like it?"
"It's beautiful."
"Want to help me wash it?"
"But it's already clean. You just bought it."
"Cars need to be pampered."
"Cars? And what about me?"
"I can give her your name."
"No, I don't want you naming you car after me."
He picked up the hose and sprayed the car with it, then aimed higher, right on her face.
Teresa watched herself running after Fox with a bucket of soapy water.
"I will get you for this, Nicholas."
He stopped.
"You can't get back at me if you don't catch me."
"Oh, really? How many times did I tell you not to underestimate me?"
"So often that I lost count."
"And yet, you still don't have a clue."
He was looking at her with that defiant grin. She still had the bucket in her hands. She lifted it higher and threw its content at him. She hit right on target.
"I cannot believe you Teresa. This is a white shirt. If I had done that, you would be screaming at me now."
She dismissed what he said.
"Oh, peeleaaase!"
"Don't give me that face, Resa."
He grabbed her in his arms and started pressing her against him.
"What do you think you're doing?"
He looked at her like she was from another planet.
"Taking off the excess water of course."
"You're such a fool."
"I'm a fool for you, baby."
He sat her on the car and kissed her.
"Guess what?"
"What?"
"I made sure there was enough room in the back for you and I."
She gave him a shove on the shoulder and they both started laughing.
"You're unbelievable, Nicholas."
"I know!"
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried
A million tears
From wishing you were here
All my life
I've welcomed pain
I've made up more excuses
To bring it back again
The image once again changed and they were sitting by the lake at night this time. She was holding the camera this time.
'This was the last summer we spend together.' She was thinking.
"Do you have anything interesting to say, Nicholas?"
He looked straight into the objective.
"What do you want me to say?"
"Something, anything."
"Ok. Do you know why I let you call me Nicholas?"
"Because you love me and you know that I will break up with you if you don't let me call you by your birth name."
"Overly cocky tonight, Resa, aren't you?"
"No more than usual, Foxworth."
"I let you call me Nicholas because it sounds nice coming out of those beautiful lips."
"Fox!"
"Seriously, it doesn't sound fake when you say it. And well I'm worried you might break up with me if I don't let you call me that."
She pushed him.
"You know I will never do that."
He took the camera away from her.
"Now tell me something Teresa."
"What do you want me to say."
"You can tell me just how good I am at everything I do and how amazing in bed I am and how hot I am with my killer body."
"I don't need to tell you that, you just said it yourself. I will not confirm any of this."
"You're cruel!"
"What can I say..that's the way you like me."
"I plead the fifth on that."
"I don't believe you!"
"You're great, Resa."
"Why do you call me that, anyway?"
"I don't know, habit I guess."
"At least you stopped calling me Little T."
"I have the best time of my life everytime I'm around you, Little T."
"Hey, no fair!"
Now I'm here
And I'll drink to the shame I'll drink to the madness
That made me this way
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried
A million tears
From wishing you were here
Take these tears
Wash your skin
I'm having trouble breathin'
Since you walked in
The last image that flashed on the screen was Fox walking in the room on his birthday.
"Is this for me?"
"Last time I checked it was your birthday."
"Thank you, Resa."
"There's nothing I wouldn't do for you, Nicholas."
"I love you always, Teresa."
"And I love you. Trust in that always."
He leaned in and kissed her.
The screen went dark and Teresa laid down on her bed, crying.
"I love you Nicholas. How am I going to get through life without you?"
She picked up the phone and called Whitney.
"Thank you for the tape Whitney."
"Are you alright?"
"Yes."
"I hope you'll think about it, Teresa."
"Good night Whit."
"'Night, Teresa."
CHAPTER 20 A Walk Down Memory Lane
"I know you're getting married to Ethan tomorrow. But are you sure that this is what you want."
"Yes, I am."
"Stop lying to me and most importantly to yourself. If you have second thoughts, maybe you should cancel."
"No, I won't do this, Whitney."
"Teresa, you won't even let him touch you. You told him that you didn't want to sleep with him before the wedding. How are you going to get out of this one when you are married to him? You can't put him off forever."
"I don't know Whit."
"Anyway, I got you something for you. Watch it before the wedding."
"What is it?"
"You'll know if you see it."
"Ok, I'll watch it. I'll see you tomorrow at the church."
"Of course."
Whitney was outside walking.
"I hope she takes a look at it."
Teresa was in her room. She went to her television turned it on, popped the tape in the VCR and pressed play. Music started in the room.
Take my hand
Break my stride
Make me Smile
For everytime I cried
Teresa sat as the music filled her bedroom. She saw herself at her senior prom dancing with Fox. That was the first song they had danced on when he had held her so close to his heart. The night of first times. She watched herself as she argued with Fox over how long it took her to get ready. She laughed.
Hold my heart
In the palm of your hand
Don't listen to it breakin'
Just listen to the band
The image changed from the prom to when they were children building a snowman, then they started throwing snow balls at each other. They were running so fast.
"I am faster than you are, Teresa."
"No, because I am faster than the wind."
He caught up with her and threw her to ground that was covered with inches and inches of snow.
"I am king of the world."
She pulled her tongue at him, disappointed that he was able to catch her. He saw it and felt bad.
"Well you can be queen of the world if you want to."
They both started laughing and started running again.
Do you wanna ride in my car
It's parked out on the street
Or just stay with me a while
Before I fall asleep
Take these tears
Wash your skin
I'm having trouble breathin'
Since you walked in
"Do you like it?"
"It's beautiful."
"Want to help me wash it?"
"But it's already clean. You just bought it."
"Cars need to be pampered."
"Cars? And what about me?"
"I can give her your name."
"No, I don't want you naming you car after me."
He picked up the hose and sprayed the car with it, then aimed higher, right on her face.
Teresa watched herself running after Fox with a bucket of soapy water.
"I will get you for this, Nicholas."
He stopped.
"You can't get back at me if you don't catch me."
"Oh, really? How many times did I tell you not to underestimate me?"
"So often that I lost count."
"And yet, you still don't have a clue."
He was looking at her with that defiant grin. She still had the bucket in her hands. She lifted it higher and threw its content at him. She hit right on target.
"I cannot believe you Teresa. This is a white shirt. If I had done that, you would be screaming at me now."
She dismissed what he said.
"Oh, peeleaaase!"
"Don't give me that face, Resa."
He grabbed her in his arms and started pressing her against him.
"What do you think you're doing?"
He looked at her like she was from another planet.
"Taking off the excess water of course."
"You're such a fool."
"I'm a fool for you, baby."
He sat her on the car and kissed her.
"Guess what?"
"What?"
"I made sure there was enough room in the back for you and I."
She gave him a shove on the shoulder and they both started laughing.
"You're unbelievable, Nicholas."
"I know!"
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried
A million tears
From wishing you were here
All my life
I've welcomed pain
I've made up more excuses
To bring it back again
The image once again changed and they were sitting by the lake at night this time. She was holding the camera this time.
'This was the last summer we spend together.' She was thinking.
"Do you have anything interesting to say, Nicholas?"
He looked straight into the objective.
"What do you want me to say?"
"Something, anything."
"Ok. Do you know why I let you call me Nicholas?"
"Because you love me and you know that I will break up with you if you don't let me call you by your birth name."
"Overly cocky tonight, Resa, aren't you?"
"No more than usual, Foxworth."
"I let you call me Nicholas because it sounds nice coming out of those beautiful lips."
"Fox!"
"Seriously, it doesn't sound fake when you say it. And well I'm worried you might break up with me if I don't let you call me that."
She pushed him.
"You know I will never do that."
He took the camera away from her.
"Now tell me something Teresa."
"What do you want me to say."
"You can tell me just how good I am at everything I do and how amazing in bed I am and how hot I am with my killer body."
"I don't need to tell you that, you just said it yourself. I will not confirm any of this."
"You're cruel!"
"What can I say..that's the way you like me."
"I plead the fifth on that."
"I don't believe you!"
"You're great, Resa."
"Why do you call me that, anyway?"
"I don't know, habit I guess."
"At least you stopped calling me Little T."
"I have the best time of my life everytime I'm around you, Little T."
"Hey, no fair!"
Now I'm here
And I'll drink to the shame I'll drink to the madness
That made me this way
My hands are tied
My head is reelin'
My eyes have cried
A million tears
From wishing you were here
Take these tears
Wash your skin
I'm having trouble breathin'
Since you walked in
The last image that flashed on the screen was Fox walking in the room on his birthday.
"Is this for me?"
"Last time I checked it was your birthday."
"Thank you, Resa."
"There's nothing I wouldn't do for you, Nicholas."
"I love you always, Teresa."
"And I love you. Trust in that always."
He leaned in and kissed her.
The screen went dark and Teresa laid down on her bed, crying.
"I love you Nicholas. How am I going to get through life without you?"
She picked up the phone and called Whitney.
"Thank you for the tape Whitney."
"Are you alright?"
"Yes."
"I hope you'll think about it, Teresa."
"Good night Whit."
"'Night, Teresa."